Mastaz

30.08.2010

8/31/10 - WBTB Method Attept 1 (Before the Attempt) (Note)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Alright, so this is.....The first time I'm doing this Dream Journal? I don't know how exactly I'm supposed to use it, But I'll figure out in a bit, Or eventually for that matter.

I guess it's been a pain in the ass lately, I've tried a lot of methods of trying to Lucid Dream a bit. WILD does not yield any results except for the non stop feeling of body spasms. I do see colors and waves of things, but I can't see any solid objects or some sort. Longest I've tried was an hour, but then again I don't know if I was focusing long enough. WBTB had a result, I was able to dream a lot more vivid then ever before, However I was not able to take control nor was I aware that this was a dream. I was merely playing along with the dream.

I'm scared to find out some things, Mainly about my self. The whole reason I want to Lucid Dream right now is to have a talk with my inner self. Whatever or whoever it may be, Or what it may look like. I want to have a talk and ask it the things that I can't normally answer because I don't concsiously know it or something of the varation. I feel happy because it's a chance to overcome fears and also live out some memories that I wish would have gone better then what it initially did when it happened in the waking world. And at the most, I can find out more about my self. I feel more confused by the minute about who i am as a person. What my fears are and what I feel inside. Some people say that it's a bit stupid and that I can't really do anything of the sort, It at the same time I feel as if they don't know what they are talking about.

We all have different mindsets, If he can't control his Lucid Dreams enough to have stuff like that, Or is not open to the idea of. Then I don't think he can tell me what I think otherwise.....

The time is 4:51AM. And I plan to sleep for 5-6 hours, And wake back up at around 12 to attempt a WBTB method. It may be a bit hard for me at first, But I'll give it all I got. It's the only method I've had "ANY" progress so far.

I hope everything goes alright, Otherwise I fear I'll sleep straight through the alarm. Time to put the computer speakers on max.