non-lucid

I cant remember how long I was asleep for but I could hear my little brother squeeling with joy in the living room. I fell asleep and had a false awakening in my bed. My door was slightly open and there were two way bigger than normal puppies in my room. I got up to smell them and the first one was so frightened it wanted to run. But I wouldn't let it. I started petting it so that it would get used to me while I was thinking about how I would break this dog and establish dominance. I think before this dream fragment I was actually asleep, because I remember my dad coming in late at night, and saying "there now everything has been fed". And outside lying against his car was a dead bloody cow.

Also when I woke in the morning my brother was holding two little Greyhound puppies. So I guess thats where THAT dream came from.

15-03-2014
I actually did something I haven't done in more than 3 years. A WTBD. Woke up for. Bit around 8:20 and went back to sleep. In my dream I was in my living room wearing my chinese gown. I think it was raining outside and it was pitch black. Outside. I did an RC and became lucid. I was about to fly outside like I usually do but I suddenly stopped myself. It was so dark I was likely to lose my newfound lucidity. I stabilised a bit and remembered my self imposed task. Summon a sword. I got into a stance and kept trying to draw a sword from my side over and over but it just wouldn't work. Then I went to my bedroom and fetched a wooden bokken. As I brought it back I saw my father creepily come down the corridor. He said "huh?" As if I'd asked him something but I figured it was just to psyche me out.

Then we fought and I couldn't use the bokken because of the close range we where in. Then He turned into some character from prison break or something just as I pinned him down and crushed his throat with the sword. After that I think I saw season 4 of Prison break about to play on tv, then I had a phone call with my friend that I recorded and listened to afterwards, then I imagined what would happen if U2 was outside in the darkness and how I would use a torch to save them( weird). This pulled me into some dream where I was with three other assassins in the middle of a mission. We where running through a building eliminating targets one after another. I think we had all turned into Bleach captains. I was Kyouraku and one of us had just died. The other two ( who looked like Ukitake and that squad 1 lieutenant whose name I can never remember) turned around and attacked me. They looked very crazed like they were powered by a hollow. At first I was being attacked from their perspective and they came across as good. But then the scene was repeated from my perspective and they were possessed by something telling them to kill me to unlock some weird sort of power.

I had one big sword instead of Kyourakus usual two. It had an even longer curve at the end which I soon learned was good for disarming an opponent. So I disarmed the one captain and flew away (because theres no way I'm getting killed for nothing right) I could hear shurikens being thrown at me and the first ones hit me but I changed my flight path so the rest would miss. I had my two swords and as I landed on a wall I focused and used shunpo. [for anyone who hasn't watched Bleach this is called flash step, just google it] to get away from the other two quickly. I hadn't traveled that far a distance but the place I was at now resembled one of the fields at my old High school. I saw captain Kuchiki walking around and knew he would realise something was wrong. Right on cue he started realising something was wrong. Suddenly I was the Head captain and I faked his voice and spoke Japanese so it would be believable. I shouted for Kuchiki to come at once. He started running towards me but then I woke up.

03-03-2014
The majority of this dream will not be written down, because having it in writing will probably have me admitted. I was in some type of war between two groups. The first one starting with a hibari kyouya character and me switching weapons and fighting. there was a little girl on their team who fused sweets together to create a boomerang that would hit people with lightning element, who was getting hit with her own boomerang as I managed to hit her with a lightning element attack during the fight. I was posed as one of her team mates that was lightning type. Her actual team mate phased through one of the walls to help her, only to realise it was actually me in disguise setting him up(bunshin). However he knew it was a clone and had sent out four of his clones to ambush me! At some point during the battle i became lucid. I tried to fly to go fight him but my dogs kept flying behind me and I kept having to tell them no! And hitting them on the nose. Then it was dark outside, I had lost lucidity and most of this part is censored and forgotten. Then I was in the house and became lucid again. I phased through the window and tried to fly away but I could hear my fathers voice tell me its no use. This time I had enough. I flew/phased back into the house with much effort( such effort, very time, wow) and looked everywhere for my family. None of them were inside except for my father who was in the bath. I screamed at him to come and fight me. I did a nose RC and looked in the mirror RC. The mirror one made me feel weak and weird so I went back into the bathroom. My father had knives in the bath with him so I took one out and told him to fight me. Then he came out in a towel, we both had knives but he wasn't invested in the fight. Then I pinned him down and with a lot of effort slit his throat. I was even able to tell the dream just how the blood should spurt out( I got really messy here, maybe I should leave it as an unrealistic slow drip). Then I did another nose RC and a light switch RC and then I left the room. I flew out of the house but then I woke up. Yes this dream is fucked up. Yes its not even the worst part of it. Basically I just need to realise that there is no room for fear, and my actions won't affect the real world. I can do what I want without fear of consequence.

12-01-2014
Had another formidable lucid dream last night. The non-lucid part was about me living in a house with my father and sister. [At some point in the non lucid part I think I lent that new Bleach game to D] I was at uni but the buildings all resembled buildings from my old high school. There were explosions all over and some person was trying to convince everyone to calm down and that the buildings had been standing for a long time and weren't about to go down anytime soon. there was a part of the non-lucid where I was in some sort of game. You were supposed to find the exit using different characters, and there were events like explosions, giant bugs trying to eat you etc. every time you lost you started again. There was only one way out by the looks of things in the game.

The two characters were some guy, and Jennifer Laurence holding a crying child who moved slower than the man. Before this the game was about collecting as many coin thingies as possible. Only everyone thought that this was real life, and some people weren't collecting them because they thought it was a hallucination or something like that. I was stacking cartons of eggs on top of each other. Then I went to a different room and started doing the same thing there with other stuff like ham. When asked what I was doing I explained it to someone from my real life who wanted to join me. Someone else told me that I stacked a bunch of cartons of eggs in the other room, but not in this one like I thought I had. I don't remember much about this part, only that I didn't like it. I did the nose rc and it worked, so I flew out the window.

My phasing wasnt working nicely but anyway I was outside. I saw Chelsea Handler outside looking hot and younger than normal. I grabbed her and proceeding to have my way with her by force like they do on Spartacus. My sister interrupts by appearing and saying she is going to tell on. I fly away with Handler is on my junk. But the dream changes and eventually it appears that all I'm doing is hanging onto the top bunk of a bunkbed in my old room. It sort of comes across as a false awakening. I hear my mother and sister call me from the kitchen asking me when I'm going to " wake up and greet the morning". In my mind I'm aware that its 7 in the morning, a weird time for me to be awake seeing as I sleep so late anyway. So I play along but I have a feeling I'm trapped in a loop.

Seeing my mother in the kitchen confirms my theory, and I scream out at her that I can tell whats going on and that her being there is where they fucked up. She is trying to play it off but she starts hitting me. We're in the living room and she starts attacking me. She says my granny is behind me who then appears and starts at me, but I shout "no she isn't!" So that my granny cant do anything. This is still my dream dammit Im in fucking charge. I fend her off and try fly out of the door but none of my powers are working at all. So I have to run out of the open door. My sister appears so I grab 3 bottles and fight her with them. One falls on the floor and breaks and she gets scared. I tell her not to step on the broken glass and that the red stuff is just ketchup. I leave her and start off with two of those bottles. The path leaving the house is all messed up, several of them are difficult to get through because of this weird game like blizzard thats in my way. I see a full size mirror and look at my reflection as an Rc. Looks really weird and bruised so I try to enter the mirror to end the loop but none of my powers are working.

I grab the mirror and use it as a shield, and one of the bottles turns into a really thin grappling hook. All of a sudden I'm in another area and the dream is very game-like. There was a castle with some guy on look out. He saw me and called the alarm so I used the grabbing hook to pull him down Splinter cell style. I was moving from one side of the building to the other with ease in this game. Pulling down people, barrels of flammable liquids from the top floors which would fall Down and explode everywhere, eventually taking the entire building down. Then I was standing on top of the building with the main boss at the bottom, ready to attack me. He threw like a huge boulder of ice at me and I evaded it. But then the building turned into my parents bed and the guy was right there, throwing underwhelmingly smaller balls of snow. My weapons were gone so I was throwing even smaller snow balls at him in response. Eventually I decided to just jump on the guy. Then I woke up.

Some key things I learnt about this dream: just because I cant use my powers doesn't mean that I'm not dreaming. This new time of dream where I'm trapped in a loop is actually rem state where my waking body can't move and I'm just forced to dream for a little longer. Which is awesome if you think about it. This time I realised the loop was a dream. If I just concentrate more next time, stabilise the dream and behave appropriately I may be able to use the entire length of the dream for whatever I want
Also my dream recall is fucken awesome, and I always write down my dream for the night in one go in the morning instead of waking up at night after each one.

07-01-2014
This one is a doozy so sit back and relax. It starts with me driving in the car with D. We're going somewhere to eat, he's driving and we're on the highway. he goes into a wrong lane and now were on the wrong direction on the highway. He tries to do some handbreak directional turn shit that nearly gets us killed like eight times. The view is of outside the car and we're getting nowhere fast. Eventually he gets us on the proper side of the road and we carry on driving. We get to some shopping mall. We go inside to the spur. He says sit there at one of the chairs, so naturally I assume something is wrong with it. I want to sit somewhere else but all of the chairs and tables are dirty and cluttered. He mentions how we should get yiros so I say lets leave. Im thinking about Cresta meanwhile he was thinking about getting mayfair yiros. I have no intention of driving so far. He gets to the top of the stairs and leaves. But then all of a sudden he's behind me. He's grinning saying I'm not gonna like the fact that I should drive all the way home to change into a casual t shirt and shoes, then drive all the way back to his house. Then I wake up

Or thats what I assume anyway. I'm in my room. Don't remember much of what went on at this point, only that I got out of bed(which was the bed that I slept in at my old house), and that I got a bite to eat from the kitchen. I plugged in my earphones to my iPhone and was trying to search for a song but my ipod wasn't working properly. I didn't even recall the search function existing in that part of my iPhone. I randomly do an RC while passing underneath the burglar-gate in the passage way and after a few repeats I become lucid.

I fly and phase through the gates in the darkness and exit this house by phasing through the window. As I do I hear a woman's voice calling me Chiquita and sounding evil as fuck. As I turn around while rubbing my hands together for clarity I see this strange spanish chick phase through my window(ok my lucidity is not always tops, and the nightmares I have always seem to have the same powers as me) The battle begins. Im pounding on her with punches and kicks while she claws at me or something unremarkable. She creates distance between us and flies to the other end of the swimming pool. She creates a mist around herself and starts throwing ice spears(not unlike the ice spears from Skyrm) But my view was wider than real life because of my lucidity so I was able to evade them. I flew to a nearby tree and tried to punch her as she flew after me.

She dodged and started throwing ice spears without any prior stance whileI was in the air. Due to a lack of mobility I was only just able to evade them. I landed on a tree, climbed to the other side and pushed myself off. In slow motion as she came to the side I was on, now accompanied by her evil boyfriend who looked pissed off at me but not interested in joining the fight I put up my right hand to resemble a ninja seal/sign and shouted "homing mass!!!" It took its time to charge and release but it hit her right in the forehead. Her boyfriend started "trying" to comfort her but he said something about her power level. As I was about to fly off I chipped in a little comment about the comment he made and the couple started arguing.

I flew away from those assholes to get away from them(losing lucidity here) and the boyfriend followed closely to get me for starting the mess. I was in a ships corridors now and I phased through a door the end of a lobby and hid. Dumbledore was standing outside it and knew I was inside, but promised to make sure I was safe. I was forming a strategy of defense when I realised that some other enemy could attack from behind and Dumbledore and I would be boxed in from both sides in this narrow cruise ship. I phased back out of the door to confront the boyfriend myself. I found the girlfriend on a balcony looking shocked to see me. Then the boyfriend flew in. At that moment I felt as if the said events had all happened previously and kept repeating because we were stuck in a loop. The girlfriend(looking normal, less vicious and more like this Megan girl from my old school) all realised that and huddled together, determined to get out of the loop.

I said we would have to change how we respond completely, and behave completely differently. We would have to work together. Then dumbledore came in to help, and some random woman, some random guy, a celebrity, a dj, a bunch of guys from my old highschool(ds), until there was like a school class worth of people in one spot. We all sat down and started watching a movie. I needed the toilet but there was no room to get out without disturbing everyone.

I think this dream was a result of my constant thinking about the time I was on shrooms and thought I had become trapped in an inception like loop were everything was batshit crazy and kept repeating itself. A lot of my fears often end up in my dreams.

Going to use my iPad as my journal from now on because I hate turning on the lights at night to write down my dreams. Forgive my spelling errors!

31-12-13
Had my first proper lucid in a long time. I don't really recall the dream prior to being lucid, but when I did the nose breathing check it didn't feel like it was working. I might not have become lucid, but I was already floating in the air at this point. I made damn sure to stabilise the dream by rubbing my hands, and shouting clarity. I flew over the wall and saw some pretty black chick in the courtyard. I attacked her, pulled down my pants and made her eat my ass. But then she turned into a potato. Don't really recall the dream after this, only that I flew off again, and kept increasing my clarity which actually started destabilizing the dream.

The second one I remember was being at trinity again. (Ds of note) Beforehand i knew of a matric dance, and had asked a girl from my old school to go with me and she accepted. Also there was a part in the dream where I had parked my car at the bottom of the schools parking lot. Then later I went into a garage and saw a big red car there. It unlocked when i pressed my key so I assumed it was my car. But later in the dream I realized it wasn't. (I think it was also raining at this point) i had a sports bag full of clothes in it that I had to remove and put in MY actual car. Then after this I was in their school hall. Someone announced that the dance was to begin that night and that we were to sit with our partners. I saw mine but didn't sit with her immediately for some reason.

Third and fourth were about me being taught a sword form by some guy. I was practising with a real sword. At first when I was being shown the form(in my living room ds) My vision kept being blacked out. I woke up afterwards and realised its because I haven't seen the next form yet. I went back to sleep, found myself in the same place. I cant say for sure that i was lucid, only that I knew it would work this time as I was by myself and able to make up the form at will.

A good nights recall for a guy who hasn't worked on lds for an entire year may 2014 be a great one