Neo Neo

Lately I have been reading on DVs how it is possible to choose love in face of nightmares or attackers, instead of fear or fight or flight responses. This is a bit from last night's dreams.

I was in a two story house with a basement, and it was at night. I believe I was on the second floor. Outside though I knew something from the sky was coming crashing down out beside the house. I'm not sure if it was a meteor or a UFO, but I knew something impacted close to where I was at. I was going downstairs to check it out. I was in the basement, and the lights were off, and I saw a glow of lights out side. Some were flashing, and I sensed that police were outside as well. For some reason I was getting really paranoid as with most scary dreams I have. I think the police were investigating whatever was outside and were about to come in and arrest me. I turned around in the house to try to run out the back but I knew they would probably catch me either way. At the last second though I realized I could face them with courage and love. At least to the best of my abilities. The dream was ending, but I felt a change in my gut and how I could approach the situation differently. I just can't get over how freaked out I feel in dreams and how it is always a "flight" choice I make. Or just hiding. Anyway, I have started to remember how to deal with these situations differently while in dreams so hopefully I can approach my fears and pursuers with courage and positive feelings next time!

Yes! Finally another lucid. I had one last month and its been a while.

I am on some type of train/transport and I know I am moving, and I think I did get a glimpse of the outside landscape for a moment. I was passing through a residential area and I remember seeing trees and green hills. But the inside reminded me of being inside a house; there was a larger room I was in, then it split off into another room and then a hallway leading into the next "car" of this transport. This other room looked more like storage, and had a metallic tint to it, and the room was kind of shaped like the cargo area of a airplane. This next part I was starting to become lucid. But then I ventured off to this other "car" area, and it looked just like my garage at home. I walked back and forth a couple times and noticed that I was passing some kind of barrier between two distinct dream places: one being this weird transport that was in motion, and one that would lead to my home.

I thought "Hey, I wonder if I open up this door to the outside, I'll end up at my house." So I went up to this wooden garage door thats normally there in real life, and opened it and as I walked through it I was at my parents house. This was when I became fully lucid. The sky was blue and it was a bright and sunny day, and there were two cars in my drive way, plus this hippie/hobo guy walking towards the backyard. There was this sweet looking silver car that I thought about driving. The other car was my dad's, and he was sitting in it, drivers side. Both cars were facing right and parked horizontally in the driveway. I was thinking of getting in the car and seeing where he wanted to take me, but instead I wanted to talk to him. The silver car was in front of my dad's, but then I went up to my dad and the silver car wasn't there anymore. And his car was facing the left, when it was originally facing the right. I started to tell him about me having a lucid dream, and that this was a dream. He was ignoring these remarks, and had the demeanor that he didn't care and thought it was real life (like most DCs). Anyway, I could tell he wanted to tell me something, and so I stopped talking about dreams and asked him what he had to say. He told me the name of two universities, the university of kansas and missouri, and (university of) cincinnati. This intrigued me but I didn't ask him any further. I then was thinking of ways for me to remember this, because it seemed significant to me. I then saw this hippie guy leaving my home, and I laughed and thought it was really random. My dad was then out of the car and following me, and I was walking in my front yard. I then thought about flying, and then floated up towards the top of some of the trees in the yard. It was very peaceful and there were also clouds passing by, and I heard music too (from DBZ, but it was peaceful music from it lol). I floated towards the top of one tree, then too the other, and was expecting to find bird's nests up there but didn't, and near the second tree someone threw a brown and grey feather up towards me. It was probably my dad because no one else was there. I had some trouble flying, but was able to stay in the air.

Although this wasn't a long lucid, I was able to consciously talk to a DC and experiment with flying. One of my longer sustained lucids. Then I woke up and felt sick again, and realized how awesome it was to feel free of being sick in the dream.

Gah! I'm having so many vivid dreams but having trouble finding time to post them. Here are some bits:

-explored the bottom of an ocean, near some ocean ridge with some other DCs and found some octopuses
-saw queen of naboo and amidala open up a portal in space through some kind of chant, and then went through the portal with them into this wormhole
-chatted with a DC friend who works at a airport, and he was talking about discrimination with work hours because the women there had less hours >_<
-was hanging out with some friends in a dorm room and they were talking about "college kissing" and implying it was somehow different than making out/kissing in highschool. then I was getting angry because I liked one of the girls that was there and had to leave because I was frustrated lol
-was with a tour group for new people/freshman for a while, and ended up getting recital credit for it. was with my violist friend for part of it, and it was random that we got recital card credit for being with this tour group
-this isn't related to dreaming per se, but I was delirious/hallucinating and hearing full orchestral music and seeing parts of its score while it was playing while trying to fall asleep when I was sick in bed. still sick actually, and going to the health center tomorrow on campus.

Man, I can't remember very well the dreams from the past couple days. But they've been intense. Maybe because I'm not feeling well and out of it, or because I've recently gotten off Everyman, but whatever the reason they've been super vivid. I've also been getting close to 7-ish hours a nite too, so thats got to be part of it. Anyway, will try to report back better on my dreams.

More dreams, out of sequence, and non-lucids.

Segment 1
I am in a pine tree forest and there are a bunch of wooden cabins here, and its some kind of camp. It was in the valley of a small mountain range. I am there and interact with some other counselors but I forget what I was doing. I remember walking around this place but forget my purpose or what my job was. It was somewhat cloudy, but it was in the afternoon and the sky was really beautiful light blue. Then I remember going to the top of this wooden building, that resembled a large rollercoaster platform, and then looking out over the forest and noticing the clouds and sky.

Segment 2
In my dream, for whatever reason, one of my friends was into hang gliding. She had a video camera attached to the bar of her handglider so she was able to record what she was seeing. Then I was seeing from her perspective hang-gliding through this mountain valley area, and then also knew/remembered that you could travel the world like this; by hang-gliding through towns. From the perspective of the handglider, I was approaching a small town and the valley was opening up out of the mountain area. There were a bunch of people in this courtyard, and I was landing down there. It was really awesome flying through the pine tree valley, pretty breath-taking.

Segment 3
I was walking around this city, eventually making my way to this strip mall on the outskirts of it. I remember being near a few skyscrapers, and it being at night because I could see the moon out. But the moon was shaped weird, it had almost a peanut shape to it (it wasn't perfect circle as it appears in the sky) and some parts were dark and some light, like it was missing parts. But it was also a full moon because there was a white halo around it. I kept glancing up at the moon because I was like "woa, the moon's all weird". I eventually made my way out of the center of the city, and the moon was more in view than before. As I past the last skyscraper, the sky had a orange-ish tint to it and was hazy. Then as I reached the strip mall, the sky was back to black, still with the moon out. Then a small booth area caught my attention. It was one of those phone-line fake psychics and there were a bunch of funny advertisements and messages on it and they were also black. One of her main posters said for no one to call her ever, or to not bother her (and implied to not contact her outside of her reading times). There were also lots of pictures of a black pastor and his family, then other pictures of him with a bunch of other women (supposedly prostitutes) and it totally sent the wrong message about him. There was also a facebook crawl about famous people's statuses about how bad this place was. Tom Hanks had a quote up that said something like "It makes my die on the inside". And for some reason, lots of people with the bad facebook statuses were supposedly jewish. For some reason this booth really fascinated me, because I was around it lots, and so were a couple other guys. There were small red and yellow banners over it, and it reminded me of something that should be found in Asia and not in the US.

So, I just now remembered more dreams lol. Here they are:

Segment 4

I am returning home to this shared house-like apartment with my DC roommate. He and I are staying here with two other girls, and its a pretty big place. I'm assuming there are at least 2 bedrooms, perhaps 4, because I wasn't on the second floor. But we had a kitchen, a big living room, a dining room, a downstairs with a main room with a pool table and chairs/couches, and then at least 3 other rooms in the basement. The walls were colored light blue and there was carpeting that was either of a white or blue shade, that made the place have a blue tint to it. I go inside the apartment first and the girls were in there watching TV or something, and remarked that "Oh its just you, we thought it might've been the _____ mechanic" (can't remember which one, might've been 'water mechanic' or '*something* workman') and I chuckled and said yeah, its just me. Then they went back to what they were doing. Then I saw some other girl with them too, and was taller than them. They each had long straight blonde hair and were college-student ages. I eventually went downstairs and there was a party going on. There were about 15 or 20 people there, and I think there was alcohol there but I'm not sure. Anyway, it was in the big room in the basement with the pool table. Looks like one of my cousin's basements actually. So after a while I notice that I'm naked. Except, I didn't used to be naked, but somehow the dream changed and I was naked, and everyone else was still clothed. But I didn't really care. Then, I needed to go to the bathroom. For whatever reason, there was a huge guy's restroom in the basement of our house, and I went in one of the stalls. This restroom had at least twice as much space as the room the party was in. For some reason it was uncomfortable sitting down on the toilet so I started to cuss a little, and then some guys walking about gave me looks of distaste. But I was thinking, "I'm just expressing myself, AND its my restroom technically." I thought it was funny how they were offended by my swearing.

Was dreaming a lot last night, and will refer to bits of my dreams as segments, as all of these were part of the same dream but do not remember their exact order.

Segment 1

I am watching the dream from 3rd person, and it is Vash the Stampede and some other anime character that resembles Vicious, except with a more gentle and not stone-cold demeanor. This guy had a low voice like Rai-Dei the Blade. Vash was flying through the sky with this other guy hanging on to him (I thought "woa, Vash can fly too?") and they were flying across this suburb area. of a city with lots of trees. They were going to face off against some enemy, and this other guy was talking about Knives (I presume, although he said some other first and last name) and he said something like "It would be ironic if another (half) demon was going to be the one to fight (Knives)". Then Vash instantly stopped in mid-air, and looked uneasy, because he knew that he was the one that was like Knives, because they were both not human. This other guy asked what was wrong, but Vash said it was nothing and then they kept on flying towards their destination. Then they both were getting worried that they wouldn't get to a certain place in time, and I started to get images of another place and this girl in trouble.

Segment 2

I saw an cylindrical interior of this factory, and these two circular metallic platforms in it that resembled blades, and a couple short platforms leading to them. These platforms were just supported in this interior by being the width of this chamber, and there were no supports beneath them. The walls were a rusted faded light orange-faded green color. I saw this anime-looking girl in some futuristic clothes that was in distress, with this another anime-dressed bad guy with some sort of sword or staff running after to her. He was saying something to her but I forget what it was. Vash and that guy were not going to get there in time, but then a kind of police officer arrived, and with her several other guards with these big white and yellow colored rifles, and they looked like children's toys kind of. Their uniforms were white and gold and some had hats. They surrounded this bad guy around the perimeter of this chamber and the women in charge said for him to stop what he was doing. They all had their rifles pointed at this bad guy. Suddenly the two circular platforms everyone was on started to dislodge themselves from the walls and began to fall down the pit of this chamber. It seemed to be an endless pit but I could hear other machinery in there. The girl who people were trying to protect was either gone, or out of my vision, but I could see the bad guy, the police women, and lots of the guards fall down into this bottomless pit.

Segment 3

I was around my parent's house and saw a little of my mom and possibly my sisters, but then I ventured out and it was a totally different place than what my normal town is. But I somehow knew where everything was, and I was going to get this butterbeer from this tavern, and I also expected to run into this enigmatic older guy that was the head of some large company or someone of significant authority. And his reputation was that he was into dirty work, and involved in illegal/bad things. But his business was secure and prospering. He was wearing what a captain of a ship would wear, with the hat and everything. Anyway, I was walking down this street full of small shops and businesses, and could see a larger part of the city in the distance with some skyscrapers, and also knew that we were near a bay or dock and that this town was built next to a lake which eventually lead out to sea. It was a peaceful town and I felt at home there. I entered the tavern; it had a hardwood floor and wooden tables, slightly dim lighting and two large "dining" rooms. I saw several people sitting and chatting, the admiral too (although I didn't approach him, even though I knew I needed too eventually) and approached the counter. They had several things to eat here, hamburgers, hotdogs, onion rings, and various combination's of food and some types of food I didn't recognize. I also saw the butterbeer on the menu, and even though it wasn't "real" beer (it was like root beer, except a different flavor, presumably like honey) and I wanted some, and also wanted to order this hotdog meal that came with a interesting type of curly fries and something else. But I had a flashback that I had met with this admiral before, and I knew I needed to do the same thing before. It was like I was having precognition of what was to come and I knew exactly what I needed to do with a strong purpose.

So, I remember having more dreams last night, but not the specifics right now. Hopefully I will later.

Here are some short fragments from a nap earlier today, will expand on it later:

-was lucid
-train, framework
-armies, rancor, explosives
-turned super saiyan
-group of guys, possibly the enemy, or dream guides
-being tested
-was able to stop a train with my bare hands, although it pushed me back a while
-shouting "I will stop this train!" and screaming lots too
-powering up while being pushed back by the train
-kissing a girl
-embarrassed in front of a friend
-traveling somewhere
-finding something that was lost
-being in a city
-possibly being in front of traffic?

from a couple nights ago:

-saw baphomet, then saw baphomet in portrait form
-talked to a friend from interlochen about having seen baphomet in my dream, in the dream, with the big portrait of baphomet in front of us
-in this lounge area of a house, light blue colors, calm mood

Took me a while to find some time to post these dreams, but here they are. Below is the list of fragments which I'll expand upon:

-interlochen friends
-driving, being driven, then actually driving myself
-biking, and changing lanes and letting cars pass, and biking through this marsh area
-lake, marsh area, tripping out
-2 talking mountain lions, one of them was eating dead snake, mentioned eating a orangutan too and other animals that didin't fit the habitat around them
-michigan
-forest areas
-driving back to my friends house, knowing the way back (in interlochen)
-angry with my mom
-at home, annoyed
-mood was calm in the michigan area
-mood was kinda angry and tense at home

I was at my parents house, and it was at night, probably around 8pm or 9pm. There was a feeling of tension in the air, and then I heard my mom and one of my sisters arguing (or yelling, I forget) and I walked down the hallway to the laundry room/downstairs. I said something to my mom but forget what it was, and generally felt angry that she was yelling at one of my sisters. The back porch door was open and so was the door to the garage. I could see that it was dark outside, and I also knew that my other sister was outside. My mom was standing near the doorway to the garage facing me, and the sister that got yelled at was upstairs. I woke up slightly saddened by this.

I woke up after this, then went back to sleep.

I was with one of my interlochen friends, and he was driving us through this bay area that resembled traverse city, MI. There where red brick houses along the street, a median with trees and black street lamps, and lots of pine trees behind the houses. The sky was clear and it was extremely peaceful. We were leaving my friend's house in the dream (although its different than real life) and the dream started when we had already left from his house. We drove for some distance, passing hill-y areas, but I don't remember where we stopped. Then I was the one driving, and by myself, and I needed to drive back to his place. Don't know why, but I had to. So I was basically driving the same way we came, except backwards. I remember feeling accomplished that I was able to remember the way back. After passing through the neighborhood area again, I approached a more open forest area, with some bigger houses too. Then I was suddenly on a bike instead, and passing through a subdivision. I needed to get on this next street outside the subdivision, and it was going uphill and there was a forest on the other side of it. There was just tons of green and trees and forests around. When I got to the street, I checked the road before riding out onto it. As I was biking down the road, three cars were behind me and couldn't pass me. So I biked to the side of the road and stopped to let them pass.One of them did pass, but the others did not. So I hesitantly got back on the road and continued on. Eventually, the road was changing to a gravel road, then a dirt road, then just damp forest ground. I kept biking uphill, and then I started do see a lake up ahead, and this road divided the lake in two. I don't think it was very deep, because I could see the bottom, and there were cattails and long blades of grass in it. I kind of felt like swimming. Some parts looked kinda murky, and marshy, so I didn't think I wanted to swim in it. This lake reminded me of one from over the summer.As I passed through this lake, I found myself in an open field, and then I saw two mountain lions. I started to get a little nervous, because one of them was eating something that looked like a dead person. These lions were by a lone tree in the middle of this field. As I biked closer, I heard them talking to each other, and also saw a big dead gray snake by them. They mentioned eating a baboon, orangutan, and some type of bird. I didn't realize it in the dream, but they were mentioning species that were not native to this habitat. But neither were these mountain lions. The forest sounded quiet in this area, and I thought that it was because the lions killed off a significant portion of the wildlife there. I heard some birds but not many. I then was biking parallel to them, and eventually was leaving this field. For some reason the dead snake got caught on my bike, and I frantically tried pulling it off, and succeeded after a while. After I left this field I woke up.

So, this was after getting lots of sleep vs only the amount I'm supposed to on Everyman. But I think I'm back on my schedule, so hopefully my body will adjust so I'll have dreams during my core sleep.

I don't have time to elaborate on my dreams now, but I will post some fragments on them:

-interlochen friends
-driving, being driven, then actually driving myself
-biking, and changing lanes and letting cars pass, and biking through this marsh area
-lake, marsh area, tripping out
-2 talking mountain lions, one of them was eating dead snake, mentioned eating a orangutan too and other animals that didin't fit the habitat around them
-michigan
-forest areas
-driving back to my friends house, knowing the way back (in interlochen)
-angry with my mom
-at home, annoyed
-mood was calm in the michigan area
-mood was kinda angry and tense at home

I know I was dreaming last night, and I remember faintly being near a city-type place, but nothing other than that.

But, my naps are starting to feel like I'm entering deeper stages of sleep, if not REM. And I am getting more and more hypnogogic imagery, as well as some short blips of dream scenes starting to appear, but then fading away. Generally the appearance of dream images in my naps is increasing, and that I've not been remembering dreams from my core sleep. Although, feeling more adjusted to Everyman than ever, so I think I'm reaching the point where my recall is starting to improve again.

So, yesterday I overslept my core sleep by 4 hours , and then didn't sleep again at all until 3:30 to 6:30am this morning. I had lots of dreams, but only remember one specific part at the moment.

I was with one of my friends from interlochen and we were meeting up for the first time since the summer. We were happy to meet up again and I started to say how I mentioned him to some of my friends here, and that I talked about him to my closest friends here. I thought of the music people I've been hanging out with. Then he said he mentioned me to several people he knew, and I got faint visual images of both guys and girls. Outlines of them, and kinda shadowy. This meeting was very vivid, it seemed as if we were actually meeting in real life. We were in some sort of building, possibly black walls, but then with fluorescent cylindrical lights along the corners. We were just standing and talking, and it was from first person as usual.

If I remember my other dreams, I'm posting them as well. But it makes me happy that I dreamed vividly on 3 hours of slelep, hopefully tomorrow night will be like this as well

I've been shifting my sleep pattern to Everyman, and in the process I've been getting more and more bits of dreams during my naps. I've not recalled anything from my past two core sleeps, but then again I've been going to bed later than intended.

Will try to record dreams sooner after I've had them, and also post a few short ones at some point.

Finally, I'm remembering parts of my dreams from the previous night.

For part of a dream sequence, I was in this city at night. I remember being at some event or performance inside a concert hall/theatre, along with the crowd present. Then I remember leaving this theatre building and heading down this dark road in the city (no street lamps or lighting) and having a black cloak on. I might've had some sort of mask on too, and was carrying something but forget what. And my appearance was threatening, and felt tough and assertive. The majority of the crowd was behind me and only a couple people were already in the area I was walking through.

I was also around a suburb area near some farm land. It was daytime and the sky was light blue and a few clouds. I was walking to and from places, and there were people around again. I am not sure what my tasks were.

I don't remember anything really specific, although I got almost 8 hrs of sleep. I think I saw a friend, and I remembered where I was earlier today but now I've forgotten .

I was at a variation of my college, and between two dorms for part of it. There was more space, and a large crowd, and maybe some white rectangular structures attached to the dorms. It was during the day too. I was also around this girl from one of my group projects in real life. In the dream, I had an attraction to her (and also in a previos dream) and we were hanging out around this area where there wasn't anyone around. Then we were kissing, but it was unpleasent and almost painful. Just weird. I don't have any feelings towards her in real life so this is just random.

I am starting to remember more from naps and my core sleep, so at least my recall is improving. It also seems like I can begin to experiment with having WILDs when I get used to falling asleep to these 20 minute naps.