Sasso0o

I had an LD this morning. I thought it was becoming a weekly thing but it turned to a monthly thing . This time and the previous time were on work mornings which is good. I used to think I could have them only on weekends since I can sleep more on mornings.

It was the usual "that can't be real" that got me lucid. I like that I don't force LDs. I like when I realize I'm dreaming because things don't seem to be real. It feels like my awareness has grown. That's one of the reasons I prefer DILD.

I recall driving a car, and I became lucid there because something silly happened or so but I can't recall the details now. Then I tried to drive a motorcycle (I never did in waking life). I don't recall summoning the motorcycle. It sort of just was there. I just got my driving license, that's most likely the reason for all the driving in the dream.

Then I was in my house , and I don't remember how I got there. I decided to summon a door to a secret underground room or so. I found a crack on the wall which doesn't exist in reality of course. I tried to get this crack to open, and it did, and I went to some place that had bright nice looking rooms. The odd thing is that in the dream I thought these rooms looked like the real ones in my house with slight changes, but now I can tell they were much more different than i thought, so probably my memory wasn't perfect this time although I was lucid.

I recall being afraid to jump a long distance. I have this silly thing, I fear doing risky things in dreams although I know there can be no real harm. I'm afraid that my fear will make it hurt, because my fear means I believe it could hurt.
Anyway it was like in silly old computer games where you had to jump from some objects to others, and I managed to overcome my fear for a while and do some of them.

I have many memory gaps, but I recall telling some dream characters that this was just a dream and they were not real. Their reaction was exactly like the last time, they were shocked and frustrated that they were just in my mind. Poor DCs .

When I woke up I realized I didn't do any stabilization techniques like spinning which I use usually, or shouting at the dream which I only used last time. It is not that I didn't want to use them, they didn't cross my mind at all which sounds off to me now, I always did them before.

It has been around 4 weeks since my last LD. I sleep much deeper than before now that winter has started, so it is getting harder for me to DILD.

I woke up at 7:45 am and felt more awake than any other day at that time, but decided to sleep more before getting ready for work. The alarm woke me up at 9 am after a long LD , so I think I had my REM in less than an hour.

I was in the middle of some weird dream about schools and so. I dunno why I always dream of school and people from school although college is a closer memory. Anyway, I was going down some stairs with a school friend to do something that I can't recall now, and suddenly I realized that this all not real and I'm dreaming. I love when I realize it like that without reality checks. I just notice sometimes that things are unrealistic, but that doesn't happen as often as I'd like of course.

As the last LD, I was moving fast between rooms trying many things, and when I do that I usually don't remember most of the dream. Maybe I should focus next time on a few things that I can recall later.

I recall failing at flying as usual . I also tried to make the things I was carrying fly behind me, but that didn't work so well. Then I tried to run fast as a boost, and I got in the sky for a moment then ended up somewhere else on a floor like I teleported but against my will .

I tried to summon a celebrity behind a door and that actually worked, and I interacted with him for some time then he disappeared. I tried to summon someone I knew in the past, but I got other DCs instead of him. They were standing in a queue for me to check them , and they all looked the same, but not him, Maybe I didn't want it enough. I was just messing around.

For the first time, I shouted my requests in the dream. I think I read that here in the forum. I shouted that I wanted to stay more, when the dream seemed to fade, and it worked . I also shouted some things I wanted. Some worked, and some didn't.

I remember telling a dream character that we are in a dream, and he was shocked and his reaction was loud so others overheard, and they were in shock too. I left them and moved on though. It was the first time I tell DCs the harsh truth that they only live in my mind.

There is one thing that bugs me. When I have a long LD, and I try to remember later the decisions I made there, I can see that my memory of my real life there is good, and I usually try things that I read about or thought about when I'm awake, but I don't recall my thought process, so sometimes I don't know why I did some of the things I did. Like now I don't remember why I chose this celebrity and not another. It was Kenny Taylor btw . He guest stars in some show I am watching currently and I just saw him the night before, so maybe that's why, but the thing is I don't remember how I reached that decision in the dream.