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I had an LD tonight. I went to bed around 8:30 pm for a nap but it took me some time to fall asleep, and I woke up at 10 pm. I rarely have LDs at night, but my sleeping times are messed up currently anyway.

It started with some painful sensations like the last time but I was aware I was dreaming this time, and tried to get rid of them but couldn't but at least I knew they were not real, so I suffered less. Then I thought I woke up and realized it was false awakening and became conscious again, and false awakenings kept happening, probably 5 times. I tried to summon somethings each time, but it didn't always work. There was never a time enough to go with the flow and live a story or something but I had some fun in between them.

I remember in one of the false awakenings, I thought that my body moved in real life while spinning in the dream. I thought that because when I woke up (not really, just a false awakening) I found myself in a weird position and floating! and that sounded realistic to me at the time until I realized later I was still dreaming.

I was having trouble sleeping, and the last time I checked the clock it was past 8 am I and woke up around 9 am, so it wasn't a long sleep.

I was having a normal dream and I realized I was dreaming, I was excited but somehow I was floating over my bed unable to change my position. I almost always have full control over my body when I LD, but this time I had only control over my mind. I ignored that and tried to conjure something behind the door while floating over my bed and failed.

Then suddenly I was in my bed thinking I'm awake but I wasn't. I had very painful sensations.
I felt like a couple of balls are moving inside my skull, they were moving and crawling under my skin, and I was shaking badly.

I also felt hot air coming out of my ears. I can't remember every sensation now, but I was in so much pain and trying to fight it. I tried to move my body and it made things worse. It all felt so real but I think at some point I realized that it wasn't because I tried to snap out of it and I woke up.

It didn't feel like sleep paralysis because that's not how it felt in previous experiences but probably the same person experiences it in many different ways.

I failed to sleep after, and I am still awake with only 3 or 4 scattered hours of sleep in the last 34 hours .

I opened a discussion about it here including a previous recurrent experience.

I haven't had many LDs lately.

I didn't record the last 2 here because there were not much details, but I used my LD app on mobile to save the dates, April 30 and May 5.

For the April LD, I remember trying to run too fast, I probably turned to a wolf at some point running on four, but my memory is fuzzy now. I also recall asking questions that went unanswered for the first time, maybe because I said something and waited a comment instead of asking directly.

I don't remember anything about the May LD because I fell asleep after it, and my entry on the app says "Don't remember details" .

In the next post, I will write about my today's LD.

I had an LD this morning with a false awakening after it, so the memory of the LD is very vague now, but I just wanted to record the day by posting here

I had a brief LD this morning.

As usual, I forgot the exact moment I realized things were odd, but I remember they were not too odd, I just somehow managed to tell it was a dream, so I had to test it. I did something I never thought of awake or a sleep, I decided to hit the dream character I was talking to . It was someone I was buying something from. I thought if nothing happens when I hit him, then it is a dream. I hit him on the head many times and the bat went through his head like he was a ghost . It sounds crazy to me now, and I have no idea how I got this idea in the dream.

I also remember being in some family's house. I wanted to leave them, to do some adventures, but they were saying goodbye and being nice, and I thought I have to be nice and take my time saying goodbye. It is crazy, I was very aware I was dreaming, but I cared about their feelings, and couldn't just leave them, so they wasted my time, and eventually I woke up.

Anyway In this dream, I acted a little bit odd. Let's hope next time, it will be longer.

I had an LD this morning. I thought it was becoming a weekly thing but it turned to a monthly thing . This time and the previous time were on work mornings which is good. I used to think I could have them only on weekends since I can sleep more on mornings.

It was the usual "that can't be real" that got me lucid. I like that I don't force LDs. I like when I realize I'm dreaming because things don't seem to be real. It feels like my awareness has grown. That's one of the reasons I prefer DILD.

I recall driving a car, and I became lucid there because something silly happened or so but I can't recall the details now. Then I tried to drive a motorcycle (I never did in waking life). I don't recall summoning the motorcycle. It sort of just was there. I just got my driving license, that's most likely the reason for all the driving in the dream.

Then I was in my house , and I don't remember how I got there. I decided to summon a door to a secret underground room or so. I found a crack on the wall which doesn't exist in reality of course. I tried to get this crack to open, and it did, and I went to some place that had bright nice looking rooms. The odd thing is that in the dream I thought these rooms looked like the real ones in my house with slight changes, but now I can tell they were much more different than i thought, so probably my memory wasn't perfect this time although I was lucid.

I recall being afraid to jump a long distance. I have this silly thing, I fear doing risky things in dreams although I know there can be no real harm. I'm afraid that my fear will make it hurt, because my fear means I believe it could hurt.
Anyway it was like in silly old computer games where you had to jump from some objects to others, and I managed to overcome my fear for a while and do some of them.

I have many memory gaps, but I recall telling some dream characters that this was just a dream and they were not real. Their reaction was exactly like the last time, they were shocked and frustrated that they were just in my mind. Poor DCs .

When I woke up I realized I didn't do any stabilization techniques like spinning which I use usually, or shouting at the dream which I only used last time. It is not that I didn't want to use them, they didn't cross my mind at all which sounds off to me now, I always did them before.

It has been around 4 weeks since my last LD. I sleep much deeper than before now that winter has started, so it is getting harder for me to DILD.

I woke up at 7:45 am and felt more awake than any other day at that time, but decided to sleep more before getting ready for work. The alarm woke me up at 9 am after a long LD , so I think I had my REM in less than an hour.

I was in the middle of some weird dream about schools and so. I dunno why I always dream of school and people from school although college is a closer memory. Anyway, I was going down some stairs with a school friend to do something that I can't recall now, and suddenly I realized that this all not real and I'm dreaming. I love when I realize it like that without reality checks. I just notice sometimes that things are unrealistic, but that doesn't happen as often as I'd like of course.

As the last LD, I was moving fast between rooms trying many things, and when I do that I usually don't remember most of the dream. Maybe I should focus next time on a few things that I can recall later.

I recall failing at flying as usual . I also tried to make the things I was carrying fly behind me, but that didn't work so well. Then I tried to run fast as a boost, and I got in the sky for a moment then ended up somewhere else on a floor like I teleported but against my will .

I tried to summon a celebrity behind a door and that actually worked, and I interacted with him for some time then he disappeared. I tried to summon someone I knew in the past, but I got other DCs instead of him. They were standing in a queue for me to check them , and they all looked the same, but not him, Maybe I didn't want it enough. I was just messing around.

For the first time, I shouted my requests in the dream. I think I read that here in the forum. I shouted that I wanted to stay more, when the dream seemed to fade, and it worked . I also shouted some things I wanted. Some worked, and some didn't.

I remember telling a dream character that we are in a dream, and he was shocked and his reaction was loud so others overheard, and they were in shock too. I left them and moved on though. It was the first time I tell DCs the harsh truth that they only live in my mind.

There is one thing that bugs me. When I have a long LD, and I try to remember later the decisions I made there, I can see that my memory of my real life there is good, and I usually try things that I read about or thought about when I'm awake, but I don't recall my thought process, so sometimes I don't know why I did some of the things I did. Like now I don't remember why I chose this celebrity and not another. It was Kenny Taylor btw . He guest stars in some show I am watching currently and I just saw him the night before, so maybe that's why, but the thing is I don't remember how I reached that decision in the dream.

This morning I had an LD again . It is becoming a weekly thing I hope!

So far, most of my lucid dreams, I realize I'm dreaming when I notice odd things. I stopped doing reality checks in waking life, but I think doing them for a while made me notice signs better in dreams. I just feel like "Whoa, that's not real" or 'I'm not supposed to be here", and I become lucid, no special reality checks in the dream.


Here are some highlights and notes I'd like to remember:

• It was the longest LD I had so far. I did too many things and went to many places, so I don't remember all the details, just flashes.
• This time I had no false awakenings! The last few LDs were full of false awakenings, so I'm really glad they stopped, at least for now.
• I tried to summon a pen I saw on the floor to my hand, and it moved to my hand for a second then disappeared, but I still consider it a progress. I never summoned anything before except a door.
• I used many doors that took me to many different places, but I didn't try to control the scenes at all.
• I went to a beach at some point, and I was afraid to swim in the big sea as I feel in waking life. I knew it was a dream, but as with flying before I was afraid that my fear and negative expectations would result in a nightmare or wake me up.
• The beach was too crowded, and I had some fun with some DC friends, then some DC was drowning, so I though I could try to save her, I ran there and she was already saved, so I was relieved that I don't have to do it, but again illogical since in a dream it doesn't matter if she drowns!
• I changed my clothes at the beach by thinking about it. I changed into a bikini .
• I had a few girls running around with me going on different adventures. Mostly, one girl at a time, but they changed. For some reason that I don't remember, I didn't try to change that or control it. I even thought of them as friends not DCs which sounds very illogical to me now. Maybe I wasn't 100% in control of my thinking, but I was 100% aware I'm in a dream.
• I went into a big building (I think near the beach) and I used an elevator to find a quiet room to do some stuff with my friends (DCs) since there were too many people everywhere. When I went up everything looked consistent. I mean I was still in a building that looks the same, just a different floor.
• I just watched Vanilla Sky last night, and there was a scene when the lucid dreaming company's tech guy was telling Tom Cruise that he can control the crowd around him. When I reached the room I wanted, it was too full of dream characters like it is a conference room, and I wanted it for myself, so I told them to go. Some left, and some resisted, so I called security to take them out as a trick .
• Everywhere in the dream was too crowded! I usually don't meet many DCs in my dream. It was the first time I dealt with too many.
• At some point, after I kicked the people out of the room, it seemed like I forgot why I was looking for the room. I remember now, but in the dream I did something different, so I probably forgot the goal.
  
• In the room, I talked to my DC friend and asked her a question just for fun that was related to helping people heal, and she just said one irrelevant sentence, "People are unformidable, so I moved on.
• I am learning driving lately in waking life, so I was looking for a car to drive in the dream. I thought I'd steal one, then I thought "Oh, I can just buy one since I can summon money". But now I think I was already in some kind of a vehicle when I thought of that, but this part is foggy now since I woke up before I got to find a car.

Finally, I think that was the only dream that I actually had fun and adventures like I'm in a normal dream without stressing about changing things. The problem is that I don't remember myself making this decision in the dream, it just happened.
I recall making many decisions about things in the dream, but I moved with the flow most of the time. I don't know if that means I didn't have much control, or I just made that decision and I can't recall it.

This morning I had an LD again .

Here are some highlights and notes I'd like to remember:

• I could fly for a short distance, finally. It was more like a levitation. I didn't fall but I didn't go higher.
• I tried to walk through things, but that didn't work.
• After some time in the LD, I heard a loud noise, and I struggled to stabilize the dream, and I did for a while, but the noise kept coming back until my sister woke me up. I was so mad that she did but I couldn't tell her I was lucid dreaming since she knows nothing about it.
  
• Then later when I woke up after a few non-lucid dreams. I realized that the noise and the waking up were a part of my false awakening. I should have noticed that I woke up on the couch and I never sleep there like I noticed the wrong bed in last week's LD.
• The memory of LD is a little foggy since I woke up after I had some normal dreams. I usually remember it way more clearly when I wake up right after it and replay it in my head.
• I had 3 LDs so far this month, and I'm very happy I'm getting better.
• When I used to stress over having LD, I never had it, but now that I know I only get DILD when I nap in the morning after a good sleep especially if I'm just feeling drowsy and not tired, I kind of go to bed for these naps (I never force these naps) expecting an LD without obsessing over it, so it happens. I can't have these morning naps except on weekends, but that will do.
• I really need to work more on my surroundings control.

This morning, I had a long LD with many false awakenings (I think 4), and with every false awakening I realized I was dreaming immediately .

There is a recurring nightmare that I've had many times before. The repeated pattern is that I feel something coming out of the the back of my neck and I can't stop it, and it is like at this moment I lose conscious or control. Usually I have a false awakening at this point in the non-lucid dream. The scene and feeling is like when a demon or so comes out of a possessed person in movies , a strong force coming out, and I can always watch it in a third person view.
This time I was aware I was dreaming and it was much more painful. I tried so hard to stop it from happening by thinking it was gone, but it kept happening. I also had false awakenings, and everytime I thought I woke up, and I found the same nightmare, I realized I was still dreaming. I was totally aware, and in control of my dream character except of what was happening in the back of my neck. Finally, I decided that just thinking it was gone, was not working, so I used a trick. I convinced myself it was just a pin or something like that stuck there, and I removed it with my hand. When I did this, the pain stopped , but the feeling of something coming out lasted a little longer, then eventually it stopped.

The dream was all in my family's apartment, so after that I went to the balcony, and decided to jump to fly. I was scared because I read somewhere if you believe it will hurt, it will. I decided to overcome my fear though. I tried the finger reality check to reassure myself that it was just a dream, and jumped. I landed slowly and nicely, but I didn't fly up.

Then I recall trying to fly down through the house and I think I did, but this part is foggy, and I think I had another false awakening then. I recall waking up in a different bed, and realizing I was still in the dream because I knew that wasn't my bed.

I also recall smelling a yellow flower because I read how things smell and feel great in the dream. It smelled nice, but I don't remember the smell now. I also recall looking at the sky expecting some beautiful scenery, and I saw a beautiful sky with colors in the horizon. The scene kept changing but I didn't choose to see anything in particular.

I met my family in the dream, but they ignored me at first like I was invisible. Then I decided to let them see me, and talked to them. They answered some questions I asked, then the dream faded and I woke up in reality.

That was my longest lucid dream. It is only my 5th overall anyway. I'm very happy that I overcame that silly nightmare at least once. I'm also happy I jumped from the 2nd floor for the first time. I still need to work on my my control and flying skills though. I'm also very happy that I became lucid after every false awakening, and that I didn't need to use spinning to stabilize my dream.

​This morning I had an LD again after almost 2 months with a few false awakenings.

I have no idea how I became lucid, somehow the memory of that is gone, but I remember parts of my non-lucid dream before it, and I recall trying to change things knowing that's possible in dreams. I was trying to prevent a murder by moving him away by just thinking of it .


Anyway when I became lucid, I watched my sleeping self smiling (not in the same room I sleep in), then I tried to fly or float for the first time, and failed although I really believed I could do it.


I moved on to not waste time, and tried to change the scene by spinning, again nothing, so I tried to imagine some fancy door that leads to another place, and I did it. I created a door but it didn't look like I imagined, just a simple white door.


I went in anyway, and again not the natural scene I tried to create. I found a house with old styled furniture. I checked a newspaper and it was 1909, It felt like I traveled back in time, and I remember feeling younger (of course I wasn't born yet in 1909 ).


I remember having some false flashbacks in that house (related to my waking life not the house) so I guess my lucidity was fading after I crossed the door because I don't recall making decisions while exploring the house like I usually do. I also remember talking to a character from a TV show that I watch currently who offered me fries and some food, then I woke up.


For the first time, I wasn't really happy and excited when I woke up. I guess because I was disappointed I couldn't do something as simple as flying , I tried to push up many times to at least float, but didn't work.


What do you guys do to fly? and can you be half-lucid during some parts of your lucid dream? I was still aware I was dreaming, but I think I didn't have full control over my character after I crossed the door.

It has two years since my first two lucid dreams. I admit I wasn't trying enough and at some point I forgot the whole thing, but lately I decided to try again. I was trying DILD mainly although DEILD is what worked for me before, but it requires much luck, it is not easy to remember to stay still when you wake up before you make any move. Also I find WBTB difficult, I don't think I can relax enough, so I'm saving this one to later.

Anyway I watched dream signs and I could never commit to doing enough reality checks, but today I finally did it!!!
I'm so excited and I wanna write the whole story but some parts I don't remember accurately.

First, I got sick and took a permission to work from home today, but I still woke up at 8:30 am without an alarm from a non-lucid vivid dream, then I talked to someone at work who is leading the project I'm working in, and he said I don't have to work from home today if I'm sick, so I decided to take a nap and then decide if I will work or not. I woke up from the lucid dream around 11 am, so the nap was around 2 hours long. I mentioned the times because I had my last lucid dream during a morning nap too, so I'm guessing that's something I should try more often at least on weekends.

It was a DILD this time, no SP or any other kind of transitions which is totally new for me since I had SP the first two times.
I was having a normal dream that I don't recall with details now but I think it was kinda scary then somehow ended in a car going to work, and as I mentioned above I'm staying at home today in the real world and I was considering more than just one day working at home, so in the dream I started thinking "Why am I here? I'm not supposed to go to work, I probably should go back." (The reality check I was trying lately but couldn't commit to was the "How did I end up here" one. so I guess it worked ). Then I started to suspect that this wasn't real because I am sure I shouldn't be here. Anyway I arrived there and decided to do a check. I dunno why I didn't try the normal reality checks, but what popped to my mind was to try to test the taxi driver's reaction. My logic was that he normally has to get paid, so if I'm in a dream he probably won't care , so I opened the door, and got out without paying anything, but he got mad! and starting yelling at me. I paid him and somehow I realized I'm dreaming while I'm paying him, probably because I kept thinking "I'm not supposed to be here". I literally threw the money at him after I realized I'm lucid dreaming, and walked away fast.

At that moment I tried to control my excitement since my last lucid dream was so brief because I got so excited and touching the floor couldn't stabilize it back then. I walked to the middle of the street and started spinning (it was the first time I try this technique), it felt so nice and the dream got stabilized. I tried to change the scene with spinning but I saw only slight changes, like colors and so. I was trying to change the scene to something simple I always planned to try, a green big field and a black horse. That didn't work, but I decided to move on and not focus on it so much.

I walked around and ended up in some building. It had my bedroom which I wasn't sleeping in tonight, and many other different rooms that can't be in a house. Anyway I didn't try to control the surroundings, but doors led me to different rooms which I don't remember in detail now like when I wake up from a normal dream. I got in my bedroom which wasn't exactly the same, and decided to ask my subconscious some questions (I made the decision a while ago to try that first since it is easier than changing scenes).

I started with my first question which was something about jobs always getting screwed up for me, something always happens that makes it is too hard to stay. Anyway, my voice at first was low, later I could shout. When I asked the question, I got a cat thrown from the window, it was like an empty stuffed cat and I thought he/she would talk, but he/she did nothing. So, I asked again, and I got a real cat jumping through the window, and he/she talked to me. That was kinda scary at first but I listened. It was a low deep male voice, and the answer was cynical, something about how all people with talents should be screwed like that, but I don't remember the exact words now. The voice was low, and I asked the voice to repeat some parts, and it would only repeat the last part it said, never more.

I left the cat and asked another question which was about a risk I wanted to take. A business to start because that has always been my dream and because I am sick of working for others. This time the answer came through a phone, a traditional one. I didn't dial anything, I just held it, and I don't remember how it ended up in my hand. I got the answer with the same low deep male voice, and again it was cynical about how that would be a risk and if it would fail "that would be it for me" in my career. The same thing happened with repeating parts I didn't hear. I was walking around while talking, and noticed some teens around who were making noise and making it hard to hear, so I yelled at them "quiet", and that's when the voice stopped answering, maybe because I got distracted.

Anyway I got out of the room, and decided to try again to change the scene, but it didn't work and I woke up. I just woke up like from a normal dream, nothing special.

Conclusion and notes for me:

• Morning naps work for me
• How did I end up here reality check might be the best for me.
• I am much better at stabilizing dreams now, and spinning works! I also tried touching my body while spinning.
• I'm not good at control yet, I was in full control of my character in the dream, but not the surroundings or other characters.
• I hardly interacted with dream characters, only the teens I yelled at, and the taxi driver was before I realized I was dreaming. I was too focused on me, and didn't pay attention to other characters. I should try to change that.
• I dunno what the voice I heard was, but if it is my subconscious, it is so cynical and I don't think I want to talk to it again
• I need to read much about creating scenes and practice visualization more.

I had my second experience today! My first one was a week ago (June 13), back then I knew nothing about Lucid dreaming but the concept, and I freaked out at the transition part and woke up, I posted it in my DJ too.

Since then I read some classes here, The introduction, the DILD and WILD ones, and I started doing reality checks but still not able to feel really skeptic about being awake when I'm, and I haven't done any reality checks in my non Lucid dreams yet, but I almost remember a dream everyday, which could be because of the subliminal affirmations I use, I added one about remembering dreams.

So thanks to you all for sharing these great classes and experiences, it is hard to find all this knowledge in once place but here .

So I didn't have the courage to try WILD yet and had no luck with DILD, but I think I had a WBTB.
I went to bed around 3 am and woke up (after the Lucid Dream) around 12 pm, when I woke up the first time I had a split of second of awareness before I open my eyes so I decided to keep them closed and try to Lucid dream, I can't remember anything after that till the point I felt the SP and the transition which feels like my soul going out of my body, this time it was more peaceful and vivid and I could stay calm knowing nothing bad will happen.
Then I found myself in a grey empty space, nothing colorful, I could stabilize the dream for a minute or so, I was aware I'm dreaming, I touched the grey floor because I remembered reading something about touching floor or objects to stabilize the dream and I tried to create things but the grey scene disappointed me, I thought what is the point if I create things and they look grey, then the dream started to fade, I tried to resist but I felt like my soul is coming back to my body and I woke up.

It was a short experience but I will list my notes and improvements:

1- The fear is gone of the transition, I was so calm, much calmer than I expected.
2- I can say that the vision of my body moving up and floating is a pattern in my transition but I had only two Lucid dreams so far so I'm not sure yet.
I have a belief (religious one) that souls go out of our bodies when we dream, and come back when we wake up, and that's so close to what I see in the transition, but I don't see a soul, just my body acting like one.
3- My dreams are not vivid yet, it was so vivid in the transition only. I wish there is a way to improve that, The grey wasn't pleasant at all.
4- I could stay in the dream longer than the last time but I still need to work on stabilization, changing scenes and creating things if my dreams are going to start in an empty space every time, I thought I'd start in my room as I read many do but I didn't.

Ok that's all, sorry if I mentioned many details, but that helps me memorizing the dream.

Hi, I'm new here, I just had a short experience this morning that I would like to share and hear your opinions about, please excuse me if I mention useless details, it is just that I don't know yet what is important and what is not so I'll tell the whole history.

I've heard about Lucid Dreaming years ago and I never had the courage to try, maybe it is an unreasonable fear but I just didn't dare.

Lately I've been more curious about it, but still I didn't read any techniques, just the general idea. Then yesterday I looked it up again and only read some techniques for reality check, that's all, and I decided that soon I will read more and someday I will have the courage to try.

Then at night, I went to bed early and woke up before I get enough sleep, stayed up for few hours then went back to bed when I felt weak but wasn't really sleepy.

Since I was a little kid, I can't sleep without some visualizing for somethings I wish to happen or whatever ideas come to my mind, this time I visualized nothing special, but for a few seconds I recalled what I read about reality check and Lucid Dreaming, and went back to my visualizations, anyway I dunno when did I fell asleep, but I know it didn't last for long, I can tell for sure that the time between I went to bed and my wake up, was less than 45 minutes, and I never fall asleep immediately.

I remember first thing was feeling paralyzed, it is not the first time it happens to me, so I was aware it is related to dreaming and tried to stop the failed attempts of moving my leg and relax.

Then I remember felt like my body was moving up (in my mind) without being able to control or stop it when I'm aware that my body is still on my bed, and I had some dreams about that before but they were that kind of dreams within dreams when I wasn't aware I was dreaming for real.

This time I was conscious, it was like I'm watching something happening to someone else but wasn't very clear, and I remembered (in the dream) what I read about Lucid Dreaming and thought it might be it and I freaked out, also the idea of dying crossed my mind for an instant, because I relate dying to souls going up out of body, then I decided I'm dreaming and I'm going out of it (I read that you can get out when you want so I believed I can) and I got out and woke up, I think all that happened in few seconds or it felt so.

After waking up I felt so excited and happy and my fear disappeared, I wrote some notes in a notebook about what I experienced (I never did that before) planning to go back to bed for a normal sleep, but I couldn't sleep, I feel active and my mind is so clear, it feels like I had a full sleep and not feeling sleepy anymore, so I decided to look for some forums about Lucid Dreaming and look for advice.

A side note: I'm using subliminal affirmations for 2 weeks now, and I only added some about remembering my dreams that day before I sleep, but nothing was about Lucid Dreaming, just about remembering my dreams because I have trouble remembering them lately.

Anyway sorry for the long post, and whatever what I experienced is called, I know that getting out of the dream easily when I wanted to made me less afraid of trying to Lucid Dream willingly.

What do you think? Was that Lucid Dreaming?