nightmare

I was having trouble sleeping, and the last time I checked the clock it was past 8 am I and woke up around 9 am, so it wasn't a long sleep.

I was having a normal dream and I realized I was dreaming, I was excited but somehow I was floating over my bed unable to change my position. I almost always have full control over my body when I LD, but this time I had only control over my mind. I ignored that and tried to conjure something behind the door while floating over my bed and failed.

Then suddenly I was in my bed thinking I'm awake but I wasn't. I had very painful sensations.
I felt like a couple of balls are moving inside my skull, they were moving and crawling under my skin, and I was shaking badly.

I also felt hot air coming out of my ears. I can't remember every sensation now, but I was in so much pain and trying to fight it. I tried to move my body and it made things worse. It all felt so real but I think at some point I realized that it wasn't because I tried to snap out of it and I woke up.

It didn't feel like sleep paralysis because that's not how it felt in previous experiences but probably the same person experiences it in many different ways.

I failed to sleep after, and I am still awake with only 3 or 4 scattered hours of sleep in the last 34 hours .

I opened a discussion about it here including a previous recurrent experience.

This morning, I had a long LD with many false awakenings (I think 4), and with every false awakening I realized I was dreaming immediately .

There is a recurring nightmare that I've had many times before. The repeated pattern is that I feel something coming out of the the back of my neck and I can't stop it, and it is like at this moment I lose conscious or control. Usually I have a false awakening at this point in the non-lucid dream. The scene and feeling is like when a demon or so comes out of a possessed person in movies , a strong force coming out, and I can always watch it in a third person view.
This time I was aware I was dreaming and it was much more painful. I tried so hard to stop it from happening by thinking it was gone, but it kept happening. I also had false awakenings, and everytime I thought I woke up, and I found the same nightmare, I realized I was still dreaming. I was totally aware, and in control of my dream character except of what was happening in the back of my neck. Finally, I decided that just thinking it was gone, was not working, so I used a trick. I convinced myself it was just a pin or something like that stuck there, and I removed it with my hand. When I did this, the pain stopped , but the feeling of something coming out lasted a little longer, then eventually it stopped.

The dream was all in my family's apartment, so after that I went to the balcony, and decided to jump to fly. I was scared because I read somewhere if you believe it will hurt, it will. I decided to overcome my fear though. I tried the finger reality check to reassure myself that it was just a dream, and jumped. I landed slowly and nicely, but I didn't fly up.

Then I recall trying to fly down through the house and I think I did, but this part is foggy, and I think I had another false awakening then. I recall waking up in a different bed, and realizing I was still in the dream because I knew that wasn't my bed.

I also recall smelling a yellow flower because I read how things smell and feel great in the dream. It smelled nice, but I don't remember the smell now. I also recall looking at the sky expecting some beautiful scenery, and I saw a beautiful sky with colors in the horizon. The scene kept changing but I didn't choose to see anything in particular.

I met my family in the dream, but they ignored me at first like I was invisible. Then I decided to let them see me, and talked to them. They answered some questions I asked, then the dream faded and I woke up in reality.

That was my longest lucid dream. It is only my 5th overall anyway. I'm very happy that I overcame that silly nightmare at least once. I'm also happy I jumped from the 2nd floor for the first time. I still need to work on my my control and flying skills though. I'm also very happy that I became lucid after every false awakening, and that I didn't need to use spinning to stabilize my dream.