Sex monsters, Demons, Tentacles, space ships, balck holes, and a whole bunch of nonsense (oh and spiderman)

iok for some reason I dont remember a lot of my dreams from last night. Maybe I went to sleep too late last night. What I do remember is from what feels like just recently before waking up. I'm with my supposed ex from high school. I say supposed cause I dont think it was only her, only as entitiy disguised as her to trick me into something else.Iveseen it before in other dreams. Fucking assholes. From talking to my ex in some weird meadow place, the scenery turns into this house with the family with that evil pfriend that threw me into that hole of confusion in it. It feels like the deil is talking to me through his parents trying to trick me into masturbating by tricking me while I am in a really tranced state. on the left side of my face ever since I did something really dumb to my body, I have had this weird bulge there. But last night before going to sleep I focused on it ( iusually refrain because it results in really weid nightmares or ejaculation to a demon being) but this time I felt I could handle looking at it. I just remember seeing something really gross with a whole bunch of eyes. From reading about my origins as a race of human with a whole bunch of dna from different star systems, I realized if I could find the orignins of that weird monster via the different races in my boddy, I could dismantle it. DOing that plus going to sleep really late probably equated to me not being and to remember a lot of m ydreams, I should be sure to do one or the other, if I do both I wont be able to remember much.

Anyway so the medow place where im talking to my ex turns into that guys house and his parents are trying to seduce me (possesed in dream state) to ejaculate using clever hypnotic terms which are very personal to me. They were doing something like I could have something ( only made sense duing the dream and alluded to fragmented parts earier in th edream) only if I did what the cast memeberss from the office did and ejaculate for something. I made the realization right before I woke up how stupid it sounded and how dangerous that action would be and a now writing it down. I thought they were good people but fuck that. ugh why cant i just be left in peace!

didnt do much today. actually I did more today than I usually do. I ate some organic macaroni, some doritos, cereal (raisin bran) with organic milk. My uncle soul came over. That guy is a wreck. I dont even think he is mentally alive anymore. He always trys to hug me but ive learned to not let him affect my aura, he just feels dangerous. He tried to shake my hand but I just couldnt. I had to cleanse the house after he left. I felt a lot better after wards. Then later I helped my mom clean the garage a bit, took a lot of stuff to donate to good will, and got my new tablet upgrade (im using it ight now). Im gonna be using it to make my dream journal updates, start a dream map using this really nice drawing app, read pdfs. Its gonna be awesome. Played some game s of league of legends with my friends and then hung out on my roof for a while. I used this realllly awesme app on my tablet which maps out the stars in real time from where I am. That sounds silly cause I should be able to do that with my mind but oh well ill use whatever tools I need until then. I' not sure why I even write these on here, im thining im just gonna start a journa and just write in it. off site. I just really like the format on this website I guess.

What I thought was aspacehip in the sky turned out to be some start system. I was really dissapointed at tfirst but just decided to get over it. Good thing I did too cause I found this webpage with so much information about all the various races interacting with planet earth, the earth project, where I can mentally connect to to find out about human history (mt. shasta, the north pole). Apparently there are civilizations underground way ahead of our time. They probably have tunnels all over under the cities and advanced traveling. Ill try to connect to them tongiht, I could really use some guidance. thats all that happened today. This will be my last post, im just gonna find a journal app and start writing in that. Something with dates, times, color editing, something I can really get my mind into.

1:53 am tme to sleep for a bit. actually i might just finish my dreams for tonight on this website then find the journal app tomorrow.

one last thing, its awesome that I found that website with all the ET races tonight. It synchs perfectly with the new time matrix I found on the internet. ITs something that makes much more sense. if yo uwant to check it out its at lawoftime.org

its a calaendar based off the moon gravitational cycles and how it affects the chakras throughout time. Its perfect for planning things out and blah blha blha jsut go check it out yourself. if you do thoug hI recommend loking up info on the chakra centers on the internet. alright ill be back

So today was halloween. tried meditating earlier but felt strange, and was compelled not too. I suspect tonight could possibly be a night for sexual attacks but hoping for the best. Today I ate raisin bran cereal, cheese and crackers with turkey, and this little pasta packet with a tomato based power which I add to with cilantro jalepenos limes and avocadoes with tortillas. Very healthy, I think, except for the possible gmo pasta. I dont really like eating much. Had some tootsie rolls though. And doritos. Couple glasses of water as well. I met my mom's boyfriend with friendly eyes for once today, finally getting over my stupid reasons for not liking him. Thye were cleaning the garage for my house which is awesome, really needs a clean. Hopefully the etheric spiders that were in there were cleaned out. Oh I just realized, i had a dream about october today actually, halloween, and really gross spiders in my garage. ew dubstep spidrers. apprently a friend I met over the internet named loohan cleaned them out though. i hope so. I felt a ship in the skies but apprently there wasnt one or maybe it was cloaked cause an hoour later it was in the sky. Its pretty awesome seeing those ships now. Anwya played agame of league of legends and now Im going to sleep. Will come back if I have any dreams.

3:18 am cleaning ups ome shit

Cant remember much. I just remember being in an expanded and altered version of my home. I remember telepathically explaining my situation to a ET spaceship outside my home, I think they agreed to help. This was before I fell asleep.
While falling asleep I remember I think they were helping me battle ogf something from my various spirits, Something important happened with my friend zach but I dont quite remember... I think he was just feeling really negative about something with me. I wish he would just let go. One of the later parts that I remember is that I am in that expanded version of my home with my uncle david. We are fighting each other, but he seems to be acting as akind of mentor at the same time. He was givging some kind of lesson about power but a lot of this stuff is coming to me really fragmented, its hard to remember. I end up beating him and then something happens with weird random people showing up in my house. They keep telling me to do something but I think I was ignoring them, except for one request which I found ok to follow. I hear a very pronounced statement from my friend karyna talking about something about paying attention right now but she kept saying it a lot and kind of strangely I guess? I dcould barely hear what was going on. Then things started to get weird. Im at what looks like some lava pits. Someone was giving me a lesson on the mechanics of positive and negative yang aspect of this universe. On how it keeps balance. Then he showed what looks like how people (i percieved them as video game cahracters) were tyring to leave hell( the lava pits) but would gte punished, smited somehow and then thrown somewhere else. I saw this as an example as the first guy getting lazered somwhere else while trying to climb ot of the lavapts. another cahracters was presente tome as the video game cahracter sivir from league of legends. She was able to fly by jumping from metal pole to metal pole out of the lava pit but apprently it was really difficult, I heard a voice tleling me she might fail. but sivir ends up getting out barely even though at the end she just barely missed the jump to exit at the end. They gave her a chance ,reset like the last seconds, and let her make it out. I think this was a memory of these et's trying to help get different aspects ofm yself out of these weird places theyre in. Either that or they are showing me whtat other people are going through. After that sivir scene I m at the bridge where sivir made it to and htere was various goblin races from the game world of warcraft.

ugh im trying really hard to try and remmeber what happened at my house. I remember seeing some girls who I dont really know and achieving some kind of hyper time state. some kind of power was restored to me through the pla of events that happened there. Maybe ill rmember more when I wake up in a bit.
back to sleep


9:33 am alot of success

Ok s o ihad a lot of success this morning. Fro mwhat I remember I was at this weird apartment place fro mwhere I remember being before. I was staying there. There was a cop outside the frrotn door who was supposed to stadn guard. I was walking aroudn the house making sure evrything was safe. I knocked on the front door window to notify the cop I saw him. Not long after someone broke into a window upstairs . Thye had weapons and I was exposed in front of the door so I couldnt notify the cops. Someone got hurt in the house and I tried to break open a window on the side of the house to jump through and notify the cops but that wouldnt have worked out. Apparently the cops were notified and helped secure the situation. Afterwards eveyrone who was there was just talking and happy that everything went better tha nexpeced. I talked with a girl who I had a strong sexual attraction to. From there I was taken through on this road pertainting to my aunt and cousins in california. They were driving and I was jsut trying to pay attention. They were talking about artificial things. Anyways we're driving and then we get to this big parkinglot. We all get off and I start walking towards where we were supposed to go. All of a sudden all these people appear on the parking lot, it looked like a photo shoot. A lot of pretty girls were there. My cousin corine was there too so Iwent up to her to talk. She was dressed with a lot of make up and extravagant clohting, she looked kind of different but I could tell it was her. She said she was supposed to be some kindo f geisha. i told her she looked pretty but I didnt like some aspects of the costume. I rmemeber feeling kinda paranoid aat the same time. Anyway I start walking with this group of people. We collide with a nother group of people but I use my abilities to phase thorugh them so we wouldnt bump into each other. Apparently one of the guys tried to spit at me. I grabbed the spit with my mind, twisted and flaunted it around a bit, and threw it back at him as he turned away. He got all his friend (tey were playing some kind of sport) and got them to all try to spit at me at the same time. I tried deflecting all of them but it was too much and I got all wet. Someone girl ame to defend me and told them I was a good kid and ther was no reason to start fighting. Here is when it got good. She was talking to someone but from her hands she slowly showed me this doorway into the infinite. I think she was trying to see how I I would react, to see if I as ready. It just looked like , where her hands opened, there was a really white landscape with golden eyes in a golden ratio spread through th e little white space. it looked beautiful. There I became really aware and could tell I was suppoed to try and enter the white space. I remmeber getting anxious and saying wait wati wait im not ready and closed my eyes. But then I thought about it and said "well ive been trying to reach this point for a while now, might as well just see it" so I opened my "eyes" (it was my non physical eyes) and right now im leeping in front of a balcony door so whenat I saw was the balcony door with the the same white space wtih golden eyes background waiting for me to enter it. I focused my attention on it to see what would happen. Instantly I felt it almost engulf my awareness and i felt almost the most incredible sexual feeling. Im sure this is that nirvana peopel talk about. It was really intense though. I almost just like expanded into infinity lol. I couldnt stay focused on it though, it was too much. SO i toned it down and just let myself download whatever information it needed to make the nxt time it happens easier. tTHe sexual feeling was amazing. Just like aa really golden fluttery feelingin my pelvis. Im sure that is myself aligning with the god source. My creative center making some kind of alignement. I tried just letting go into the white light but I couldnt, so decided to just try to sleep. I made sure I clsoed the doorwway first, I didnt want to confuse that divine sexual act with another and gte caught with that sexm onster again. Anywaythe next dream occurred when apprently I was withm y dad and a friend karyna. We had driven to some parking lot which what looked like lowes. Yea deifnitely lowes. Everything felt really e xpanded and msytical. My dad went into the store but I was still wlaking with karyna. but I started to get confused. Is tarted to, unconsiously, do something which made a voice come to me and say " stop, why would you do that" it was a female voice. I almost, again, unconscionably just flew away ignoring her voice but I become more aware and was like "wait, why would I run, I want to clean myself of evil, not perpetrate it. " At this point I got confused though and couldnt decide who was right or where the voice was coming from. I knew I was about to do something dumb and couldnt discern what the fuck to do. Should I listen to karyna or should I listen to the voice. Thats when I decided to jsut stay in place and liste nto the voice and she jsut said " you're not a bad kid, remember that. Why would you put people into evil mind loops if youre good.' i know mind looops have been a big part of this for a while so im guessing that just had something to do with someone else I know. Although maybe I have ben unconsiouly doing it myself to other people. All I know is that with the help of that voice I reassured myself that I wouldnt do that to people. I remember thinking " but I dont do that" but just let the whole situation go entirely anyway to better myself. From there I was taken to this house with a creepy looking front lawn and a gate. I went into the front door and it closed behind me. There was a video screen in front me me showing some kind of creepy video tape. Some dark looking poeple were in it. I got scared because in the video tape they lock the door with multiple locks and that door started to look like the door that i just entered. I was like fuck that and looked for the power button on the dvdd player. The player was upside down which idk represents my stupidity for not looking at the tape and being paranoid or becasue I really was in a bad situation. nethertheless I opened the door before it could lock and left the house. everything was in the same place as before outside the house. I think its a house on the street where my aunt becky lives.

I think aI woke up at that point. i truend my body and tried to go to sleep again.Some stuff probably happened butI wasnt aware until I was in this school lokoing/ library place. They were putting new books up by bill cosby. I rememebr thinking they looked interesting and asked someone nearby if they would read that book. They said yea. I think I tried stealing the bill cosby book. It had like 3 book covers on it though so I ook them off one by one. It turned into a really cool spider man comic. i almost walked off with it but thought about it before I left and was like man I shouldnt be stealing, especially a spiderman comic book! so I just went back and apologized in m ymind at the library guy that was there and returned it befffore anyone supposedly noticed. By then all my family members started to enter and th elibrary place started to look more and more like my house. Alon with other of my familie's houses. I knowm y uncle carlos was there, my aunts, my mom. M yaunt from california, elia, was there. I've always thought she was pretty and she was saying something without much substance though. Anyway I start talking to my cousin elton ad nsteven and his sister is there. I told him Ive almsot htought him to be my favorite cousin. He just smiled. Oh yea I remmeber when I looked at elia I held back some weird paranoid angry feeling. i was doing a lot of telekinesis just for fun. Like moving food around. I moved some waffles to this toaster/blender ting which was weird and asked my cousin tito to heat up the waffles please. He set them to heat and I continued to talk with family. it was a really happy feeling. it was weird at some point that girl that played mary jane in the first 3 spider mans was there. I felt kind of smitten by her but was like wtf are yo udoing here lol. I kind of jsut ignored her but allowed her to stay talking with everyone. Then I remembered about my waffles and realized thye were already in my hand. I ate one of the waffles and then started walking to my front door. Even more family started to enter the house. I was standing there greeting them as they entered with my uncle carlos. At one point this dark looking fella came to the door to drop off a package. He dropped it off and looked kind of suspicious. I offered him a waffle to kind of lighten it up. He said ok but I felt reall suspicious and said wait no nvm. Then he got even mre uspiciosu and was like fine here have a waffle. When he grabbed it from my hand he hurt my right hand, I felt liek a pinch, and he pulled out a gun and started to shoot at me. He was really close but he couldnt land any shots. I think my uncle carlos was helping and I started to deflect shots with my hands. He didnt land any shots and my uncle and I were going backwards tryng to get to safety. I was trying to figure outwaht to do. I couldnt take the gun from him but I saw some objects on the wall above him and near where he was so I used telekinsesis to throw the heavy objects on his head. they were heavy guns and some pots and stuff. They hit him pretty hard and he retreated. I brought one of the guns that I threw at him with my mind to my hands and tried shooting him but I think I missed all my shots. Then I threww the gun. But then I got angry that he would attack me after I tried being nice so I grabebd the gun again and tried flying to the car he got into. it was relaly difficult to fly, I think i was being held back. But I made it and caught up to the car. I started to shoot at the car but it was a bad mistake. I couldnt even damage the car but these guys turned around and shot a fucking missle launcher round at me through the windshield. i wasl ike holy shit. I tried really hard to direct the missle up into the ksy as it was coming straight towards me. Apparently I affected it cause he was redirected to this house near my house . It made a huge explosion and all these people came running ou with injured hands and limbs. I felt guilty, I should have just lft thatguy to leave or not even have offered him a waffle. Anyway everyone started to get all rield up. We were trying to calm everyone down but my cousin got overwhelmed and started to yell at al lthe little mexican youngsters who were hurt. We were all at this weird bench place kind of thing with a canopy. I starte to become more aware and recognized the place. I realzied something was about to ttack us from above, I couldve sworn I remembered it happen before. I yelled for eveyrone to shut up and jump off the little bench we were on onto the trees to the left of us, I ken something was about to happen. Everyone listened and we jumped into the trees. Someone yelled they're in the trees and everyone st arted chanting like maniacs and shaking the trees. There were only birds in the trees though from whatI saw. Then this huge brown bird came flying from behind this building probably ike 50 feet in front of us. It was huge and looked dangerous. I was ready to fight it off though. I had sued webslinging to hand on to the the trees and was gonna try to just grab the bird with a web and throw it onto the ground. But the web slinging wouldnt work and the bird came flying at me.

Im thinking this might be just some kind of paranoia episode I had with family years ago still replaying itself in dreams, like while we were animals or just dna garbage from the past. Or a premonition of something to come. Either way ill see it coming if it happens in real life and just save it from happening entirely. Wont offer that douche bag a waffle and just send him on his way.