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iok for some reason I dont remember a lot of my dreams from last night. Maybe I went to sleep too late last night. What I do remember is from what feels like just recently before waking up. I'm with my supposed ex from high school. I say supposed cause I dont think it was only her, only as entitiy disguised as her to trick me into something else.Iveseen it before in other dreams. Fucking assholes. From talking to my ex in some weird meadow place, the scenery turns into this house with the family with that evil pfriend that threw me into that hole of confusion in it. It feels like the deil is talking to me through his parents trying to trick me into masturbating by tricking me while I am in a really tranced state. on the left side of my face ever since I did something really dumb to my body, I have had this weird bulge there. But last night before going to sleep I focused on it ( iusually refrain because it results in really weid nightmares or ejaculation to a demon being) but this time I felt I could handle looking at it. I just remember seeing something really gross with a whole bunch of eyes. From reading about my origins as a race of human with a whole bunch of dna from different star systems, I realized if I could find the orignins of that weird monster via the different races in my boddy, I could dismantle it. DOing that plus going to sleep really late probably equated to me not being and to remember a lot of m ydreams, I should be sure to do one or the other, if I do both I wont be able to remember much.

Anyway so the medow place where im talking to my ex turns into that guys house and his parents are trying to seduce me (possesed in dream state) to ejaculate using clever hypnotic terms which are very personal to me. They were doing something like I could have something ( only made sense duing the dream and alluded to fragmented parts earier in th edream) only if I did what the cast memeberss from the office did and ejaculate for something. I made the realization right before I woke up how stupid it sounded and how dangerous that action would be and a now writing it down. I thought they were good people but fuck that. ugh why cant i just be left in peace!

didnt do much today. actually I did more today than I usually do. I ate some organic macaroni, some doritos, cereal (raisin bran) with organic milk. My uncle soul came over. That guy is a wreck. I dont even think he is mentally alive anymore. He always trys to hug me but ive learned to not let him affect my aura, he just feels dangerous. He tried to shake my hand but I just couldnt. I had to cleanse the house after he left. I felt a lot better after wards. Then later I helped my mom clean the garage a bit, took a lot of stuff to donate to good will, and got my new tablet upgrade (im using it ight now). Im gonna be using it to make my dream journal updates, start a dream map using this really nice drawing app, read pdfs. Its gonna be awesome. Played some game s of league of legends with my friends and then hung out on my roof for a while. I used this realllly awesme app on my tablet which maps out the stars in real time from where I am. That sounds silly cause I should be able to do that with my mind but oh well ill use whatever tools I need until then. I' not sure why I even write these on here, im thining im just gonna start a journa and just write in it. off site. I just really like the format on this website I guess.

What I thought was aspacehip in the sky turned out to be some start system. I was really dissapointed at tfirst but just decided to get over it. Good thing I did too cause I found this webpage with so much information about all the various races interacting with planet earth, the earth project, where I can mentally connect to to find out about human history (mt. shasta, the north pole). Apparently there are civilizations underground way ahead of our time. They probably have tunnels all over under the cities and advanced traveling. Ill try to connect to them tongiht, I could really use some guidance. thats all that happened today. This will be my last post, im just gonna find a journal app and start writing in that. Something with dates, times, color editing, something I can really get my mind into.

1:53 am tme to sleep for a bit. actually i might just finish my dreams for tonight on this website then find the journal app tomorrow.

one last thing, its awesome that I found that website with all the ET races tonight. It synchs perfectly with the new time matrix I found on the internet. ITs something that makes much more sense. if yo uwant to check it out its at lawoftime.org

its a calaendar based off the moon gravitational cycles and how it affects the chakras throughout time. Its perfect for planning things out and blah blha blha jsut go check it out yourself. if you do thoug hI recommend loking up info on the chakra centers on the internet. alright ill be back

So today was halloween. tried meditating earlier but felt strange, and was compelled not too. I suspect tonight could possibly be a night for sexual attacks but hoping for the best. Today I ate raisin bran cereal, cheese and crackers with turkey, and this little pasta packet with a tomato based power which I add to with cilantro jalepenos limes and avocadoes with tortillas. Very healthy, I think, except for the possible gmo pasta. I dont really like eating much. Had some tootsie rolls though. And doritos. Couple glasses of water as well. I met my mom's boyfriend with friendly eyes for once today, finally getting over my stupid reasons for not liking him. Thye were cleaning the garage for my house which is awesome, really needs a clean. Hopefully the etheric spiders that were in there were cleaned out. Oh I just realized, i had a dream about october today actually, halloween, and really gross spiders in my garage. ew dubstep spidrers. apprently a friend I met over the internet named loohan cleaned them out though. i hope so. I felt a ship in the skies but apprently there wasnt one or maybe it was cloaked cause an hoour later it was in the sky. Its pretty awesome seeing those ships now. Anwya played agame of league of legends and now Im going to sleep. Will come back if I have any dreams.

3:18 am cleaning ups ome shit

Cant remember much. I just remember being in an expanded and altered version of my home. I remember telepathically explaining my situation to a ET spaceship outside my home, I think they agreed to help. This was before I fell asleep.
While falling asleep I remember I think they were helping me battle ogf something from my various spirits, Something important happened with my friend zach but I dont quite remember... I think he was just feeling really negative about something with me. I wish he would just let go. One of the later parts that I remember is that I am in that expanded version of my home with my uncle david. We are fighting each other, but he seems to be acting as akind of mentor at the same time. He was givging some kind of lesson about power but a lot of this stuff is coming to me really fragmented, its hard to remember. I end up beating him and then something happens with weird random people showing up in my house. They keep telling me to do something but I think I was ignoring them, except for one request which I found ok to follow. I hear a very pronounced statement from my friend karyna talking about something about paying attention right now but she kept saying it a lot and kind of strangely I guess? I dcould barely hear what was going on. Then things started to get weird. Im at what looks like some lava pits. Someone was giving me a lesson on the mechanics of positive and negative yang aspect of this universe. On how it keeps balance. Then he showed what looks like how people (i percieved them as video game cahracters) were tyring to leave hell( the lava pits) but would gte punished, smited somehow and then thrown somewhere else. I saw this as an example as the first guy getting lazered somwhere else while trying to climb ot of the lavapts. another cahracters was presente tome as the video game cahracter sivir from league of legends. She was able to fly by jumping from metal pole to metal pole out of the lava pit but apprently it was really difficult, I heard a voice tleling me she might fail. but sivir ends up getting out barely even though at the end she just barely missed the jump to exit at the end. They gave her a chance ,reset like the last seconds, and let her make it out. I think this was a memory of these et's trying to help get different aspects ofm yself out of these weird places theyre in. Either that or they are showing me whtat other people are going through. After that sivir scene I m at the bridge where sivir made it to and htere was various goblin races from the game world of warcraft.

ugh im trying really hard to try and remmeber what happened at my house. I remember seeing some girls who I dont really know and achieving some kind of hyper time state. some kind of power was restored to me through the pla of events that happened there. Maybe ill rmember more when I wake up in a bit.
back to sleep


9:33 am alot of success

Ok s o ihad a lot of success this morning. Fro mwhat I remember I was at this weird apartment place fro mwhere I remember being before. I was staying there. There was a cop outside the frrotn door who was supposed to stadn guard. I was walking aroudn the house making sure evrything was safe. I knocked on the front door window to notify the cop I saw him. Not long after someone broke into a window upstairs . Thye had weapons and I was exposed in front of the door so I couldnt notify the cops. Someone got hurt in the house and I tried to break open a window on the side of the house to jump through and notify the cops but that wouldnt have worked out. Apparently the cops were notified and helped secure the situation. Afterwards eveyrone who was there was just talking and happy that everything went better tha nexpeced. I talked with a girl who I had a strong sexual attraction to. From there I was taken through on this road pertainting to my aunt and cousins in california. They were driving and I was jsut trying to pay attention. They were talking about artificial things. Anyways we're driving and then we get to this big parkinglot. We all get off and I start walking towards where we were supposed to go. All of a sudden all these people appear on the parking lot, it looked like a photo shoot. A lot of pretty girls were there. My cousin corine was there too so Iwent up to her to talk. She was dressed with a lot of make up and extravagant clohting, she looked kind of different but I could tell it was her. She said she was supposed to be some kindo f geisha. i told her she looked pretty but I didnt like some aspects of the costume. I rmemeber feeling kinda paranoid aat the same time. Anyway I start walking with this group of people. We collide with a nother group of people but I use my abilities to phase thorugh them so we wouldnt bump into each other. Apparently one of the guys tried to spit at me. I grabbed the spit with my mind, twisted and flaunted it around a bit, and threw it back at him as he turned away. He got all his friend (tey were playing some kind of sport) and got them to all try to spit at me at the same time. I tried deflecting all of them but it was too much and I got all wet. Someone girl ame to defend me and told them I was a good kid and ther was no reason to start fighting. Here is when it got good. She was talking to someone but from her hands she slowly showed me this doorway into the infinite. I think she was trying to see how I I would react, to see if I as ready. It just looked like , where her hands opened, there was a really white landscape with golden eyes in a golden ratio spread through th e little white space. it looked beautiful. There I became really aware and could tell I was suppoed to try and enter the white space. I remmeber getting anxious and saying wait wati wait im not ready and closed my eyes. But then I thought about it and said "well ive been trying to reach this point for a while now, might as well just see it" so I opened my "eyes" (it was my non physical eyes) and right now im leeping in front of a balcony door so whenat I saw was the balcony door with the the same white space wtih golden eyes background waiting for me to enter it. I focused my attention on it to see what would happen. Instantly I felt it almost engulf my awareness and i felt almost the most incredible sexual feeling. Im sure this is that nirvana peopel talk about. It was really intense though. I almost just like expanded into infinity lol. I couldnt stay focused on it though, it was too much. SO i toned it down and just let myself download whatever information it needed to make the nxt time it happens easier. tTHe sexual feeling was amazing. Just like aa really golden fluttery feelingin my pelvis. Im sure that is myself aligning with the god source. My creative center making some kind of alignement. I tried just letting go into the white light but I couldnt, so decided to just try to sleep. I made sure I clsoed the doorwway first, I didnt want to confuse that divine sexual act with another and gte caught with that sexm onster again. Anywaythe next dream occurred when apprently I was withm y dad and a friend karyna. We had driven to some parking lot which what looked like lowes. Yea deifnitely lowes. Everything felt really e xpanded and msytical. My dad went into the store but I was still wlaking with karyna. but I started to get confused. Is tarted to, unconsiously, do something which made a voice come to me and say " stop, why would you do that" it was a female voice. I almost, again, unconscionably just flew away ignoring her voice but I become more aware and was like "wait, why would I run, I want to clean myself of evil, not perpetrate it. " At this point I got confused though and couldnt decide who was right or where the voice was coming from. I knew I was about to do something dumb and couldnt discern what the fuck to do. Should I listen to karyna or should I listen to the voice. Thats when I decided to jsut stay in place and liste nto the voice and she jsut said " you're not a bad kid, remember that. Why would you put people into evil mind loops if youre good.' i know mind looops have been a big part of this for a while so im guessing that just had something to do with someone else I know. Although maybe I have ben unconsiouly doing it myself to other people. All I know is that with the help of that voice I reassured myself that I wouldnt do that to people. I remember thinking " but I dont do that" but just let the whole situation go entirely anyway to better myself. From there I was taken to this house with a creepy looking front lawn and a gate. I went into the front door and it closed behind me. There was a video screen in front me me showing some kind of creepy video tape. Some dark looking poeple were in it. I got scared because in the video tape they lock the door with multiple locks and that door started to look like the door that i just entered. I was like fuck that and looked for the power button on the dvdd player. The player was upside down which idk represents my stupidity for not looking at the tape and being paranoid or becasue I really was in a bad situation. nethertheless I opened the door before it could lock and left the house. everything was in the same place as before outside the house. I think its a house on the street where my aunt becky lives.

I think aI woke up at that point. i truend my body and tried to go to sleep again.Some stuff probably happened butI wasnt aware until I was in this school lokoing/ library place. They were putting new books up by bill cosby. I rememebr thinking they looked interesting and asked someone nearby if they would read that book. They said yea. I think I tried stealing the bill cosby book. It had like 3 book covers on it though so I ook them off one by one. It turned into a really cool spider man comic. i almost walked off with it but thought about it before I left and was like man I shouldnt be stealing, especially a spiderman comic book! so I just went back and apologized in m ymind at the library guy that was there and returned it befffore anyone supposedly noticed. By then all my family members started to enter and th elibrary place started to look more and more like my house. Alon with other of my familie's houses. I knowm y uncle carlos was there, my aunts, my mom. M yaunt from california, elia, was there. I've always thought she was pretty and she was saying something without much substance though. Anyway I start talking to my cousin elton ad nsteven and his sister is there. I told him Ive almsot htought him to be my favorite cousin. He just smiled. Oh yea I remmeber when I looked at elia I held back some weird paranoid angry feeling. i was doing a lot of telekinesis just for fun. Like moving food around. I moved some waffles to this toaster/blender ting which was weird and asked my cousin tito to heat up the waffles please. He set them to heat and I continued to talk with family. it was a really happy feeling. it was weird at some point that girl that played mary jane in the first 3 spider mans was there. I felt kind of smitten by her but was like wtf are yo udoing here lol. I kind of jsut ignored her but allowed her to stay talking with everyone. Then I remembered about my waffles and realized thye were already in my hand. I ate one of the waffles and then started walking to my front door. Even more family started to enter the house. I was standing there greeting them as they entered with my uncle carlos. At one point this dark looking fella came to the door to drop off a package. He dropped it off and looked kind of suspicious. I offered him a waffle to kind of lighten it up. He said ok but I felt reall suspicious and said wait no nvm. Then he got even mre uspiciosu and was like fine here have a waffle. When he grabbed it from my hand he hurt my right hand, I felt liek a pinch, and he pulled out a gun and started to shoot at me. He was really close but he couldnt land any shots. I think my uncle carlos was helping and I started to deflect shots with my hands. He didnt land any shots and my uncle and I were going backwards tryng to get to safety. I was trying to figure outwaht to do. I couldnt take the gun from him but I saw some objects on the wall above him and near where he was so I used telekinsesis to throw the heavy objects on his head. they were heavy guns and some pots and stuff. They hit him pretty hard and he retreated. I brought one of the guns that I threw at him with my mind to my hands and tried shooting him but I think I missed all my shots. Then I threww the gun. But then I got angry that he would attack me after I tried being nice so I grabebd the gun again and tried flying to the car he got into. it was relaly difficult to fly, I think i was being held back. But I made it and caught up to the car. I started to shoot at the car but it was a bad mistake. I couldnt even damage the car but these guys turned around and shot a fucking missle launcher round at me through the windshield. i wasl ike holy shit. I tried really hard to direct the missle up into the ksy as it was coming straight towards me. Apparently I affected it cause he was redirected to this house near my house . It made a huge explosion and all these people came running ou with injured hands and limbs. I felt guilty, I should have just lft thatguy to leave or not even have offered him a waffle. Anyway everyone started to get all rield up. We were trying to calm everyone down but my cousin got overwhelmed and started to yell at al lthe little mexican youngsters who were hurt. We were all at this weird bench place kind of thing with a canopy. I starte to become more aware and recognized the place. I realzied something was about to ttack us from above, I couldve sworn I remembered it happen before. I yelled for eveyrone to shut up and jump off the little bench we were on onto the trees to the left of us, I ken something was about to happen. Everyone listened and we jumped into the trees. Someone yelled they're in the trees and everyone st arted chanting like maniacs and shaking the trees. There were only birds in the trees though from whatI saw. Then this huge brown bird came flying from behind this building probably ike 50 feet in front of us. It was huge and looked dangerous. I was ready to fight it off though. I had sued webslinging to hand on to the the trees and was gonna try to just grab the bird with a web and throw it onto the ground. But the web slinging wouldnt work and the bird came flying at me.

Im thinking this might be just some kind of paranoia episode I had with family years ago still replaying itself in dreams, like while we were animals or just dna garbage from the past. Or a premonition of something to come. Either way ill see it coming if it happens in real life and just save it from happening entirely. Wont offer that douche bag a waffle and just send him on his way.

SO this is a dream I had last night before my most recent dj entry.
Recently my friend has been getting posses at night by this really ugly spirit. Demon vampire chompy creature. He keeps attacking me but he is my brest friend so I just put up with it. it usually ends after a short time. In the dream he ( it might not even be him, just aprojection) and he comes at me with sharp teeth trying to bite me. I know him well though so I dont let him. he might have a lot of suppressed emotions and its coming out like that sadly. if you read my recent dj entry I made some progress on finding out what this shit is so maybe I can help him soon afterwards.

I know I had some others dreams before these ones but maybe ill remember them later.,,oh ok I remember. I remember doing something to troll an old teacher at school, ms. ramirez. It was something really miniscule....like playiong music really loud in the class whne she said not to but it was like I was doing it over the internet? Sadly , I might have been attacking unconconsiously and was confusing it with something else? Maybe it was just a prank, im not sure. Anyway in the dream I was banned from that webpage. I felt bad but I was just playing a joke but decided to just leave it alone anyway.I remember her getting really mad at some point...Im glad I saw this, I might actually have attacked her unconsiously...ugh I was afraid I was doing this but damn Im finally seeing it. OK anyway from there the enxt thing I remember is my sister helping me take some implants out from my left leg. It was 3 horizontal cuts on my left thigh. I just remember her taking off these scabs and then she cleaned the area. Im not quite sure where I was, it was asmall little room. Anwya the weird part was when I got and walked to the deresser because I had to get ready for something, fig nutons started tofall out from the cuts. Im guessing this is because I read a dreamview post yesterday about someone having a 3 month recurring dream of pulling worms out of his legs. Either I fixed something with my own legs, confused my point of view with that of another, OR helped that guy with his leg stuff a little bit im dreamtime. Not netirely sure on that one. anway way after al ittle bit they stop coming out and I thrhow all those weird goopy fig nutons away.My sister cleaned the cuts again and then put some weird bandages over them. Oh actually i remember she put the bandages before I got up but I realized they would gte soiled if fig nutons gets running into them so I waited until they stopped leaking shit to seal the bandages. When they did THEN I put them completely down on my legs. still 3 cuts. At some point I was like oh I stilll have to take a shower sO iwas asked my sister what should I do, she said to jsu t take the bandages off until Im done with the shower. So I warp to my shower dream style and weirdly there is me sitting down on like bench seat kinda things facing each other. to the left of me is a relative from my dad's side in who lives i nicaragua. to the right of me is my uncle carlos who I find to be appealing. In front of me to the left is my uncle danny, in the middle is my aunt becky. Theyre making jokes about a time when they were riding a rollercoaster and then thye call got startled buecause their feet were in weird positioning and when they looked down to notice, they thought the ground was missing but it wasnt so they started laughing. I asked my uncle who it was that started the chain reaction of them getting startled. He looks at my uncle danny and becky and my aunt becky has two hands jokingly pointing towards both of them, signifying it wasnt her, kind of in a childish motion. They jsut end up laughing. All of a sudden, more peopl are in the bathroom. My uncle david more specifically. apparently what we were getting ready for was a trip to nicaragua. I hadnt even taken a shower yet but everyone already had there luggage in the bathrrom there. I was lsike " wait, I dont even have my luggage yet wtf?" and they were like aw you moved too slow. i was like w/e I dont mind, ill jsut get stuff over there. I had a little dream fragment of being in nicaragua but then quickly went back to where i was. Anway we get to the airport and we are quickly making our way to the airplane gate. it's weird, in dreams ill usuall start doing telekinesis as if Ive always known like a pro how to do it but i dont remember where I learned it from. Like in this sequence, As we walked various corridors to get to the airplane gate, there were a lot of people I KNOW ive seen from different dreams, never in phsyical life though. 4 girls specifically behind the counter working tickets I guess? older women, they looked decently pretty but idk who they are. Maybe older lovers of my dad? ppast life people idk. Anyway I see them, I walk inoto some other room with a whole bunch of those sign things+ those fabric line maker things. I use my telekinesis to move the sign for some reason im not really sure. Ugh again I feel here the sign might be a metephor for someones spirtual sign that I moved somewhere else, which is a bad thing. Gotta pay more attention when I do that. Anyway so we get there, my family and I, and they started boarding for airplanes soon. While we are outside the gates, I start doing random telekinses tricks. One of them was grabbing the suitcases with my mind so I wouldnt have to hold them, plus it looks cool. Then the other was me grabbing a pizza from someone from afar. Here, a friend I know, jacob, comes uo to me and asks what spell I used. I said I just imagined the pizza moving to my hand and he pictured it as if I materialized the pizza tomy hand. it wasnt exactly what did but I found it interesting how he percieved what I did. Anyway everything happened really quickly, planes were getting boarded and by the time I turned around my whole family had gone into a gate. The gate we were assigned to was gate 13, I turned around and saw my family go into a gate ethat didnt say 13 so I looke daround and wasl ike, " wtf where is gate 13, I couldve sworn I saw my family go into that get" and then I heard one of the attendants tlel me that wasnt gate 13. Weirdly again my sister, by herself, went to a completely different gate. The other one was closed and the one my sister went into was about to close. I actually got there when it was already closed and they said it was too late, but I used my telekinsess power to open the door (it was electronically controlled) walkedin . The person at the gate yeleld at me the plane was al ready leaving. I went in anyway (jeez im a mean kid lol) and opened the plane door with my mind. they were leaving in 5 minutes is what I heard. I went in and saw m ysister. I told her it sucks our family isnt joining us on the trip. She said I know and then I sat down towards the back. It was weird, the seat corridors looked like prison cells lol and I was sat down i na really cramped spacewith 2 other people. I dont remember exactly, it looked like a shapeeshifting person was next to me. He was morhping into multiple people. I felt cramped so I teleported to the lane seat next to that guy.


Ok so this dream obviously indicates some kind of decision being made. As a family we were supposed to enter some gate but my family entered the wrong gate and M ysister and I went to the "right" gate, the one assigned to us, which might not even be right, could be some kind of phony plot. eithr our decision was wrong or my families, dont realy know. This dream showed me alot about how I enjoying fuckign with things that I dont know about so im gonna try to stop those things now. My sister is actually yougner than me so Im guessing i went on the airplane with her cause ididnt want her to be alone. Oh, also, that jacob guy was on that plane so I felt better about who I would hang out with in nicaragua. im guessing th e plane we went on was the wrong one because the seat corridors looked like fucking cinderblock prison cells LOL so yea ill have to do something about that. back to sleep for a bit.


Blue = things that were added later the same day.

Ok so isntead of going to sleep I ended up dropping my sister off at school. and stayed up for a very little. I'm st arting to think the previous dream wasnt really significant, it could have just been a premonition of what pccured soon after but with strange symbolism. My friend ( the evil one that caused me to fall into a b lack hole) liked to do stuff with looking into the future and i've realized ive done the same at times. Actually most of the time my dreams are a preview the the day ahead, which reallly sucks but im thinking my awareneso f the present moment is horrible becasue I keep seeing everything before it happens. Its not totally bad but it messes some things up. it COULD still be some other kind of premonition but right now I feel it isnt.

Ok so while I'm falling asleep ( I put some purple ear plugs on) I start to hear some strange chanting. Ive never heard that shit before but im really feeling it is some people doing some kind of satanic ritual because soon after I was completely bombarded with sexual demons. They way I think it works is when they need to summon energy for soemthing, the start chanting or singing to activate or push possesed people to have sex, or jsut people who are sensitive to that shit, to summon the energy they need. Me having an aspect of my self in a strange tentacle sex demon monster of course start feeling a lot of the symptos of them trying to seduce me and hearing sexual noises and what not. This shit sucks guys, dont ever fap to tentacle porn or to demon ladies or men. Anyway I made the relaization trying to find what there chanting noises were which REALLY is gonna start helping me to see befoe these waves of ertards having sex come about. You guys might not belive me but my groin muscles will actually contract involuntary when other people are ejaculating. It is so disgusting. BUTT I made another important discovery. The aspect of me that is in a black hole or whatever the fuck it is. It's not a completel black hole cause ive had sdreams where it is contained by aspects of my self but is is certaintly trying to be. Anyway THAT aspect , I can see it now when it is trying to get my physical body to get taken over by it. It's like this picture



except the way it ooks from outside is that my head or an image of my head ,"me" is in the middle and that version of me looks at rest of the universe completely different. Well I dont think Im in it yet anymore now that I think about it....wel lsome aspect is I dont know hwo to explain it.... but black holes dont work thew ay peopel think they do. Yes they are scary and weird, but its jsut conscioussness. Just htink of it as getting soooo confused or disoriented as to how this universe works that you st art to create your own mini universe that completely contradicts the rest of the universe. It becomes a black hole. If you get close to it ( swhich some beings liek the fucking asshoels they are try to get people to fall into black holes, fuckign assholes...) the perception of the world will change dramatically, so dramataically that you semmingly lose perception of yourself. Black holes DO get dissimenated over time, and they do that by shedding light on the conscioussness that created it from the outside. The universe is a strange place ok! So anyway after I heard the chanting, and people started to have sex, whenevr I did feel a surge come over me, or my muscles flexed, I would feel thataspect of me that is in that strange place ( Ive seen it before first hand and it is dfeinitely not a place anyone wuld want to be.)...its hard to explain. Like I would just feel really bloated, spiritually, my face goes into a face that looks like it's asleep, eyes closed kind of a flat face, and that aspect of me would take the sex in. After I realized this, I knew I could see this shit happeneing before it hits me now, So im thinking I learned how to deflect it, at least a little bit.

lests see....that happened maybe the first 30 minutes. Once i realized how it was happening, Everytime the feeling of the aspect came over my I pushed it away and found that where my muscles would have convulsed, i Had stopped it. Fucking great news for me at this point. I was able t o eneter at least an alpha state, not delta I dont think. This proved to make GREAT progress afterwards. Oh , thats also why scientists say yo ucant see a black hole, because it is usually personal to the person and whover is involved only. it is detectable though by everyone since we are all connected. Anyway the great progress that I made was that soon after falling asleep, I had a dream where Im prtty sure the aspect of myself in the black hole started to wake up. I jsut remember that aspect seeing these two guys I know from school but they looked kind of diffrent. The guys I know are actually twins, and so were these guys but the newer guys looked slightly different but I jsut knew it was them. I remember asking if it was them or if they knew them but they just shurgged, but I f ucking knew it was them some how. except one of the gys right side of the face looked burnt and his eye was glowing yellow which is what signifies this balck hole. but I jsut remember the feelings of wholy shit its yo uguys!!! I think that feeling was me waking up from that hole. Right after though i saw in the sky the fabric of that matrix black hole and at the top was the creator of it, My evil friend! So hopefully ill be able to make progress now. Soon after I had a dream where I was at that friends houseplaying a video game and I felt something in my back and my friend said like "Oh I just lost something". Im thinking now that it was that aspect of me that woke up that he lsot, which is really awesome. Im realizing now that guy is evil but he doesnt know he is evil. He is so lost in his different entities that he is unconcsiouly confusing what he thinks is his reality with that of one that hurts and enslaves people, including me....hmm great progress. I feel his perpetrators are on to me now, but fuck them I know whats going on now.


ok so after that I woke up and thought to myself ill write the drea mdown later. Fell asleep and entered a dream where its me with my family on my dad's side. Some of my mom's side family ws here too and my friend aaron tilley was there for some reason. he is alwasy there at the weirdest times...I hope he isnt a spy...ugh he might be but w/e il lsee what happens. Maybe not, he actually might be helping. i hope he is. We crossed a big river lake thing and made oru way to his house. I remember the hosue well, its in nicaragua, but the water wasnt there before. I remember my family said we would have to go somewhere but it would be dangerous. I just said nah it will be really easy and we left on a small boat with my uncle. All these bugs tried to fly on him and my family was yelling to get them off of my uncle. I webslinged them against the walls of the boat and succeeded. we went to some strange place where I had to kill these weird exploding things and weird monkey thing it was weird, I dont quite remmeber. I got overwhelmed though so I webslinged up to a safe spot and chilled there. I thin I ended up waking up.

I woke up and told myself to remember both those dreams to write them down later. Went back to sleep (everytime I try to go to selpp there is so much random shit thta pops up in my brain. Im assuming its coming from the weird people in that black hole.) so while falling asleep I heard all this weird shit but ended up falling asleep. Oh yea I just remembered another creepy dream I had last night, il lpost it in another journal entry. Ok so This time I was in a big auditorium watching some kind of movie with a lot of people. I was sitting next to my friend zach. He's been creeping me out though thse past weeks so I kind of shyed a way from him to go talk to other people. I went to talk to some girl who said that I was giving off a bad vide and she tried to help. She put her right brain on the right side my head and closed her yes while trying to heal. I dont think she did anything lol but her intention was good so that made me feel better. I remember walking by a whole bunch of different people but I dont quite remember who. I end up getting directed to the exit of the auditoriu m and right outside was my cousin tito ( was probably taking the place of his father in terms of symbolism) choking my dad in front of a water fountain. it was horrible, I could hear like his neck was making all these cracing noises and I thought he was gonna kill him. I got infuriated and went to tito, slammed his head on the water fountain, took his hands off his neck and pinched him on this place on his back. It was pretty violent. That pinch fucking hurts, trust me. What yo udo is yo upinch the fat in a certain place on the back and that shit will hurt for a long time. Anyway I did that and he backed off. People went to go get help. i went into the entrance of the auditorium and trid to explain myself so I didnt look like a violent asshole. When I went back my da wasnt even there anymore but my friend steven was there. Appaently he had a borken nose and people were putting it back into place... ugh man I might have been tricked AGAIN by fucking holograms or seom shit. Man I really dislike people who do that, pick on the lesser aware people. Its frustrating that they pick on the peopl wh oare trying to become aware even more! I didnt hurt him too bad though, and he has been helping a lot in other dreams so im sorry for doing that. ANyway thats where i woke up and came to write this shit down.

usually I see ships outside my house in the sky, probably cleaning up the city. here is a pic I took of it tonight. I tried connecting to them mentally to tell them about some places I think need healing in my city. Hopefully they got the message, maybe ill remmebr hanging out with them at some point


ate some spaghetti at around 730 pm, hopefully I wont succumb to any sex demons. If I eat too late I find I become more susceptible to such things. I dont think I will. Anyway ill be posting any dreams I have, going to sleep soon.

Also if youre on dreamviews you are most likely an ok soul who is jsut trying to learn more about life. However, if you are a negative entity who is making this planet worse by attacking people, get the fuck off of my page.

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