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    About to Die

    by , 09-10-2015 at 07:47 PM (706 Views)
    I had a very disturbing dream where I was going to be killed at the end of the day. I was at home with friends and family, and everyone just accepted that fact. No one was trying to figure out how to stop it. And to make it worse, I was going to be beheaded.

    I worried about how long it would take me to die after the ax hit my neck. I wondered who would miss me when I was dead. I wondered which of my dead relatives would meet me after I left my body.

    I remember wandering into my bedroom ( I was a teenager and living at home in this dream). I wondered if I should clean everything out now so no one would have to do it for me later. But I decided I shouldn't have to worry about that. I had enough to worry about.

    At one point I went into the kitchen and saw a chocolate cake in the cupboard. I didn't know whose it was, but I decided that I could get away with eating some of it. No one would be able to get mad at me later. I would be dead. And I no longer had to worry about trying to eat healthy. I was going to die tonight anyway.

    I started to feel sorry for myself. And a little angry. Why didn't anyone care about what was going to happen to me? I was in a room with my mom. We were looking at a magazine or something and I saw something that looked interesting. I said to my mom, "Hey, I want that for my birthday". I knew I was going to be dead, but I wanted to see what her response was. She said, "Sure, if that's what you want we can...." and her voice trailed off as she realized I wouldn't be around for my birthday. She seemed sad, but resigned to the fact that I was going to die. I felt a little bad I did that to my mom. I'm sure this couldn't be easy on her either. But I walked off without saying anything else to her.

    I don't really remember any more specific details, but this dream seemed to last all day. I felt my tension grow as the day progressed. I was alone for most of the dream.

    I'm sure this dreams represents some real feelings deep inside. Although, in real life I have a very caring and loving family that would never have acted like this, so this must represent something deeper. I'll have to think about it.

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    1. DannyCool's Avatar
      Dreams about death in the Tibetan Tradition are thought of as being very positive. Meditation on death is said by the Buddha to be the best of all meditations and his own death his greatest and most important teaching. The fact that you can dream this as in your able to let your subconscious express this is a really good thing. It reminds me of Charles Dickens - Christmas Carol. The Ghost of Christmas future shows how people gossip and quarrel after we are dead and how our body will surely die. This gives us a new lease of life as we enjoy every moment we have. Meditating on going to execution by guillotine is a specific meditation on compassion where we watch ourselves going to our death and not being able to do anything about it.

      So how do you actually turn all this what seems as morbid into a positive?

      Well... If you keep meditating on this especially when you are in a good mood you will breakthrough and find what Milarepa the great Tibetan Yogi and Saint called the deathless unending nature of mind. He said: "In horror of death I took to the mountains and again and again I meditated on the uncertainty of the hour of death. Capturing the fortress of the deathless unending nature of mind now all fear of death is over and done."

      What I am saying is enjoy chocolate cake, a kiss, a dance, walk and the simple acts of kindness, think of everyone and never give up on anyone and most importantly find your full potential.

      Dreamviews is fab
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    2. Twoshadows's Avatar
      DannyCool--I somehow missed your comment until now. Thanks for sharing your insight and advice! It's interesting stuff to think about. I don't dream of dying too often, but I have had enough of them to appreciate the feeling of waking up alive and well. I appreciate you taking the time to comment.
    3. DannyCool's Avatar
      The quote from Milarepa is from the Tibetan Book of Living and Dying end of chapter 3 by Sogyal Rinpoche.
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