side notes

Sometimes I hate living with 2 people. They always get up early. My partner either moves or shifts position or an alarm goes off. It's really disruptive to my dreaming. Thankfully both of them had to leave early today and I was by myself for most of the morning and I was still tired enough to go back to sleep.

I am with Ashley and a group of random friends I don't know. We are going out to a club. When we get there it reminds me of one of the "open-minded" clubs that I go to where I live, where all sexual orientations and a wide range of flavors of people go - Everyone from goths to punk-kids. We go to the second floor. My sister hands me a beer. I down it pretty quickly, and then someone else gives me a cocktail (rum and coke) that I also suck down.Surprisingly I actually feel quite drunk in the dream after that - so much so that I feel like I need to sit down. I stupidly end up sitting at the edge of the stairs with my legs sticking out. A girl comes around the corner and then trips over my feet. She lands on a group of people who are also heading downstairs and they all tumble over. The girl I tripped gets up and comes over to me quickly.

"Don't worry it's not your fault. It's really theirs for not knowing how to prevent themselves from falling," she says.

(Wow, my subconscious really does try to shift the blame!) Another girl who fell that was with the group of people also walks up to me.

"Nice job," she looks angry, "Idiot!"

I don't say anything to her, I just walk over to a fire-pole, and slide down to the first floor. I hear her call my name as she throws something down at me. It hits me in the head. Before I can look to see what it is the dream ends and I am awake.

I turn over....annoyed that I didn't become lucid. I figure this is a good time to try WBTB. I close my eyes and concentrate.

Suddenly I am back in the club. I hear this really cool music. It sounds like a punk girl band. I am pretty impressed that my mind can make this stuff up. Then the dream fades again.

I am back in my bed and I decide I have to do it again.
This time it's harder though. I close my eyes and I can feel my head coming out of my body. Everything is black but I can feel the process. First my head, then my arms. I basically feel like I climb out of my real body. I try to concentrate on going back to the cave where I met that mysterious DC who knew about lucid dreaming. It doesn't quite work. The dream scene appears and I am in a nice village with lots of small streams and ponds. I start flying. For some reason I feel like the cave would be located next to the ocean. But there is no ocean around..and I wake up again.

Even though the dream was kind of boring. It was my first WBTB so I note it as a big achievement and had to post it on here.

A couple of friends and I are in a haunted house.We are on a balcony area when one of my friends is grabbed by something invisible, and thrown into a small closet that's up there. I open the closet and she is bound by shackles and chains. We are told that the only way we can free her is if we go into the house, find a chainsaw, and saw her feet off. I look closely at what are supposed to be her feet and realize they are made of plastic. So I feel better knowing they are "fake" feet. The other girl and I enter the house. Immediately we are terrorized by spirits. I am dragged down a hallway by a woman who has sharp pointed teeth, and my friend is dragged another direction. I am able to break free and I run into a room and find my friend there as well. Apparently she escaped too. The room resembles the master bedroom at my parents' house. That's when we hear this terrible growling screaming noise that consumes the entire room. A window is open and wind blows into the room tossing papers and anything light up into the air. I grab a small rock I find on the ground and throw it at the window.

"Leave us the f**** alone!" I yell.

Nothing happens. In fact that only angers it even more. Now I am being shoved and tossed around like a rag doll by this invisible entity. I start screaming. It was actually very frightening.

At this point I realize I am dreaming. I call out to anything to help me get rid of this thing. I attempt to summon an angel to combat the evil ghost in my dream, but my attempt fails. Strangely enough though, everything stops for a moment and is calm. This is my chance. I run into the bathroom connected with the bedroom. There is an attic hatch on the ceiling. I try to envision it being a portal to another more friendly realm. I open it, and all I can see is water, hovering in place. I jump up inside and start swimming. Everything is dark and murky at first but gets lighter toward the top. When I surface, I am relieved to find I am in a much more welcoming dream. The landscape looks like a tropical fantasy island. Lots of green, with pieces of pink and purple foliage and plant life. Some areas are a bit pixelated like a video game would be. I try to stabilize it to make them more clear but that doesn't remove the pixelation. I decide to let that slide for now. I see a couple of tiny people swimming in the water near the shoreline. They remind me of realistic versions of anime chibi people - kind of like Kingdom Hearts.


Kind of like this except with bathing suits.

I swim to the shore and when i stand up I see a little black chibi boy with a small sun tattoo in the shape of a heart on his left cheek. Right before I start to introduce myself to him my roommate wakes me up from the hallway with a huge belch. I am thoroughly pissed.

I had a dream similar to this with the same creepy invisible ghost who bellows that god-awful unearthly scream in my room at night - a couple nights ago. It was short so I never actually bothered to record it on here. In that dream I could not escape, even though I had become lucid. I was paralyzed and physically incapable of moving out of my bed (or waking up for that matter). Eventually I did...but I have to wonder where this ghost is coming from in my subconscious. The next time it happens I think it would be interesting to confront it to ask what it represents.

I am with two people in a movie production. We are the actors. I don't know what the plot is but I know it has something to do with video games (I think I was supposed to be Donkey Kong). We're in an abandoned place that looks a lot like a hospital. I open the door to a hallway and there is what looks like a Silent Hill mannequin nurse at the end.

"Silent Hill!" The actor next to me yells, "That's not original at all!"

We run away from it pretending to be scared for the cameras. Out of the corner of my eye I spot the beautiful Mena Suvari working behind the scenes. We head down some steps towards what appears to be a cave. At this point I realize I am in a dream.

This guy comes out of nowhere and introduces himself and tells us that this cave is his place. He is taller than I am, and has medium length black hair. He seems really nice, and I feel like I know who he is, and that he is another dreamer.

"I want to show you something," he tells me, leading me further inside.

We come to a piece of art painted on the cave floor. It's an animal, comprised of different animal parts. Mostly bird but part lion, similar to a griffin except not quite the same.

"Do you change into this form in your lucid dreams?" I ask him

He nods yes, "Look at this other one I've been working on. I'm trying to perfect it's abilities."

We walk to the right and look at a second painting on the ground. This one is of a raven with huge outstretched wings and flowing feathers. In the image the bird is actually breathing frost like an ice dragon. It looks awesome.

He walks away for a moment and one of the other DCs I was with earlier comes up to me.

"Your friend has a present for you."

He hands me what looks like a candy bar. I pull open the wrapper and see that it's actually some kind of jerky meat. I start chewing on it. It tastes funny, I don't think my mind was quite settled on what it wanted it to be like. But it does the job. It helps me to stay grounded in the dream. I realize he gave me the present to do just that - keep me in the lucid dream. It makes me smile. I run up to him and give him a big hug.

"Thank you," I say.

He grins, "No problem."

At that moment I think about my body lying asleep in bed. Everything starts fading out. Crap! I'm not supposed to think about that! But it's too late. The dream dissipates and I wake up.

During this dream I was told the name of the guy who was helping me a few times. I can't for the life of me remember what it was. All I remember was that it sounded like a screen name. Like he came from the forums. And I felt like I knew him well. When I woke up however, I realized that I in fact have never met him before in waking life. I do not know who that was. It's a weird deja vu kind of feeling.

Red Lobster seems to be on my subconscious a lot lately... Probably because I used them as a reference for one of the restaurants I applied to...and when that restaurant called them, they were told it had been too long since I had worked there for them to give a reference for me (only 2 years). So I didn't get that job - and I guess my subconscious mind just hasn't gotten over that. But this dream ended up being an exact play by play of me confronting my general manager LeeAnn about this happening.

I walk up to the front doors of the Red Lobster I used to work at. I look at the sign at the right of the door that displays the name of the general manager who works there. LeeAnn's name is still there - good. I go inside and look to see if I can find her. The layout is definitely different than what I was used to when I worked. I spot LeeAnn in the doorway to the kitchen. She has an apprehensive anxious look about her, which tells me she probably knows why I am here. But unlike on the phone, she can't exactly ignore my presence. She sits down with me at one of the empty tables.

"How are you?" I ask her.

"I'm good. Look. I have to cut down right to the chase. I can't give you a reference from me. It's been too long since you've been here."

"It's only been two years though," I say, "I wanted to transfer to a Red Lobster where I live now, and I couldn't find any that were accepting transfers. So I applied to Best Buy and was hired there. I've been with them for two years, but I've always wanted to go back to serving. Now that I had that opportunity, I couldn't get hired because you guys refused to give me a reference!"

"Yeah, the other managers told me they get a lot of reference calls about you though."

"Why does that matter? To be honest, I know I was a great employee. I gave you 2 MONTHS notice when I left. I never made any trouble for you and always did a good job."

"Well, why get back into serving again?" she asks.

"Because it's the best pay for the time spent working that I can get right now. Not only that - you get to interact with many different people and it's never boring. It's fun, and not monotonous whatsoever."

She laughs, "You are so passionate about it we should get married!"

We get up and walk together, down a corridor and into a seperate room. There is a queen bed in the middle and I can see my friend Brittany laying down in it. She makes a joking comment about how me and LeeAnn better not be having sex. LeeAnn gets out a piece of paper and asks what I want her to write for a reference letter. She ends up writing down a list of good qualities I have. I don't remember what exactly they were. I just remember that I wasn't too impressed - but it would do.

Brittany speaks up to her, "Don't forget to sign it for him!"

She quickly signs it and then hands me the slip of paper. I feel accomplished right before I wake up.