lucid

did a wbtb and walked around for a few minutes. tiny smoke then back to bed. found myself lucid on top of a massive cliff/diving platform, so realised that i could just fearlessly throw myself off it and go and buzz my mates down below. only other bit i remember was looking at my surroundings in my front room and having them move as if i was tripping.

many long drawn out near lucids this week, but only a few moments of true wow lucidity

had an amazing series of lucids last night. it started back at my old school. i was generally causing mischief and when i realised i wasnt being punished i knew it was a dream. it was good fun so rather than fly or anything i just thought id have a laugh by messing around. i was back in my old form room and just singing songs. mostly about how crap the school was and how education is a load of shit designed to train people into being good obedient little slaves. i even did the old thing we used to do where you make a really long tone without moving your mouth so no one knows who is doing it. its great to be childish sometimes. anyway theis went a bit more dreamy and the characters changed a little.biggy smalls was sat in the corner and i think for some reason this sparked the next part.

in order to pacify me from being such a disruption, the teacher came across and gave me a joint. around this point something really amazing happened. i became fully aware of my body lying in bed. normally this would destabalise, yet the dream was as solid as ever. the teacher kind of morphed into this black guy with an afro and i started ruffling his hair, messing around and telling him it was a dream as a reminder to me. it felt amazing and he laughed as it stabilised the dream. i knew that i was lying in bed, yet still locked into this real dream. if i opened my eyes i would be back awake instantly i felt, but i thought i would be able to go back this time. i opened them and awoke completely, but then concentrated on getting back. i wouldnt class it as a proper wild because there was stilla gap in consciousness. i still had the spliff id been given so started to smoke that. this was the weirdest thing ever because i was 100% awake and aware of my body in bed, yet smoking a spliff in a dream that felt 100% real, taste smell, smoke everything...

after that i drifted back awake briefly, then decided to go back to another dream. i was still with schoolmates, but this time i was driving a rally car. it was a dream where it switches between 1st and 3rd person view, unfortunately normally as the car started to go round big corners. as soon as i hit the corners it would switch to me sat there with a computer controller trying to swing it round but without any kind of good view of the car. i got out of the car and started kicking a football around. someone kicked it away so i went to get it and thumped it back hard. it smacked someone on the ass and knocked them over so i apologised. we walked towards this building and it all felt like a school pe lesson. we got into our swimming stuff and dived into the pool. for some reason we had too much kit on our upper bodies, so i couldnt breaststroke properly, which put me off.

later i realised i was back at my old work again (tes). this was a pretty good lucid reminder but i must concentrate on it because its the worst feeling ever to waste such a vivd dream there. i met an old unrelated friend and we chatted about what we are up to over christmas. probably because he supports the same team and is from the same town as the team i watched last night. cant remember much more for now

me and my brother were going to take over this guys pet shop who was retiring. its a real shop yet in the dream was bigger and packed with all sorts of weird things (sharks, parrots major dream signs). i was walking around town and didnt care i was in a dressing gown and bare feet. i became lucid because of this. i went home by running at an incredible speed then jumping and running through the air along parkway road. i lost a bit of lucidity when my brother failed to make a tight turn on his bike and crashed into some railings. i got home and found jane hall in the shower

well i was just messing around outside in the garden and for want of a better expression me and my family were being dicks. this partly made me realise that all wasnt quite right here, and when i looked at my surroundings closer i became lucid. this was one of those completely lucid indistinguishable from real life ones, where all your senses are as they would be in reality. i looked around and said wow weve done something amazing here guys. of course no one knew what i was going on about.

as it was so vivid i thought well perhaps these people may be more than just dream characters, anyway it felt like it was worth checking. my immediate thought was to pick somebody who may be the likeliest one to remember such things. i chose an old family friend, probably because i have tried and failed with members of my family before. i staballised the dream by rubbing my hands on a small wall in front of me. the woman was over the other side of the wall and i very calmly looked into her eyes and said something listen what we are in is a 100% lucid dream. now even if nothing comes from this shared dreaming wise, it was stilll a very useful learning experience for me, as i got to see from the other side some of the things that may have scared me in dreams before and how silly it is to fear it.

she looked back at me in amazement at first as i held her hand. then she backed away slightly and said why me? i said something like its not just you its all of us, and tried to calm her fears. as iwas doing this everyone started crowding round and i could see this was worrying her. this has also been one thing that has really put me off having deep dreaming experiences because its scary to have everyone crowd round like that and be the centre of their attention. even though theyre motives seemed harmless i urged them not to crowd so much and this calmed her and she started to slip into the experience. she just had this big relaxed smile on her face and she slowly lay down on her back and seemed to be in a heightened state of physical pleasure. she just kind of dropped off to sleep while gently rocking and smiling as if it was some kind of psychadelic experience for her. this is where it kind of faded for me and i just left her to enjoy the dream.

who knows eh if it was part of a shared dream and she gets in touch then great, but either way i learnt alot and will be far less fearful the next time someone tries to teach me out of my comfort zone in a dream

ok so i went back to manchester again and got lucid partly thanks to another parrot flying past..

anyway i treid to revisit this place i repeatedly dream non lucidly about. it is a big building on the middle of a wooded area that sometimes appears old, but sometimes like a newer industrialised structure. i was even seeing it on maps in the dream as being in the north east of the town. i found the street and many nearby buildings that i had visited many times in dreams before. the was a house that bears a resemblence to one of the places i lived, and also a pub in which this girl told me it was her birthday. she was pretty but i was so single minded about finding this house that i just kind of ignored it as a non lucid dream character. i didnt really find the house, but i think i eventually ended up back inside it or something really similar.

i have been thinking alot recently about how i have developed a real problem in socialsing, or even wanting to socialise, but in the dream i was back in a party mode and with a couple of old mates. again it wasa really comfortin dream that really reminded me of the simple joys of just being around other people. i wish i could remember more of that part of it though, as it almost seemed like the only reason if was fun was because i was drunk again which i have been off for aout 3 years now. in the dream party imet people who claimed to be my step brothers. i asked why and they said that my mum had had a relationship with their dad. this is odd because a long while back i had a dream at the same location in which my mum was no longer with my dad and was in a relationship with some greek guy who i never saw. odd. either its something like just a reminder of how we are all family and i should be spending alot more time meeting the rest of my family and socialising, or perhaps it is even an insight into another life...?

15/10/2010 WBTB WILDish still a little gap

lying down on left side with arm under head after 15 mins energy work on back.

drifted into a work dream, was there with a mate and we laughed about this massive long truck that someone was gonna have to try to drive round the yard. went inside and had to sit a test with odd questions such as bushs involvement on 911 and prizes of vouchers for milkshake. realised i didnt work there anymore so got lucid and asked my mate if he wanted to go and do something fun. he was pretty unresponsive which worked out well as i got the chance to just sit there and study the surroundings. was so real down to the fluttering of the papers pinned to the wall.

i tried to get fixed into the dream by studying the visuals and then decided it was time to try to hold the visuals while trying to wake up as slow as possible to try to find the borderline between awake and dreaming. started to get a subtle but beautiful buzzing feeling as the dream seemed to get realer and yet fade at the same time as if i was splitting my consciousness. my vision started to fade, but mostly in one eye, as if reality was in one eye and the dream in the other.

after losing the dream in one eye i tried to go back into it and was there straight away. normally when i sit in a dream and try to take it further or learn something, this is when the bizzare imagery pops in and also sometimes when frightening things start to happen as if to put me off. this happened again and my mate also got a little odd as if he was warning me but unlike past attempts this time the efforts were laughably helpless to stopping me. its like you change from concentrating your vision on the whole image and the image splits into many parts all of which your brain tries to concentrate on at the same time. this is usually off putting but this time it was easy to ignore it and try to find the gap between wake and sleep. finally tried to learn something again while lucid even though i initially just wanted to 'go do something fun' again

13/10/2010 well i really should have written this down as i woke up but here goes. i revisited a place similar to one i keep visiting and i can only suggest that it is some kind of dream college. there was one massive rectangular hall with high ceilings that i was using as a flying practice zone. there was an old school style to the rest of the building and the grounds were like some manor house. this is about 10% of what i remembered on awakening...

6/10/10ish i was standing in a park with a group of people when some larger than life characters flew over making me question the reality and realise it was a dream. i also had to ask myself if these people flying past were actually other people dreaming and visiting my dream because they just looked like they were extremely comfortable and experience at dreaming. they were essentially flying together stacked on top. the guy on the bottom had a kind of shamanic tribal clothing amd headgear thing going on and was doing most of the flying. there was a second bloke lying on his back who i dint get a good look at because i immediately looked past him to the woman on top who was white haired but really young looking and beautiful and just curled up half asleep with a grin on her face, on top of the second guy. she was dressed in a white robe type thing.

09/10/10 wbtb and then started kind of dreaming that i was looking through my closed eyes at the light imagery and gradually making it brighter and try to pull myself into it. moments later found myself in a dream which was fairly non descript exept for a couple of female dc's. tried not to get distracted while i just tried to settle myself into the dream, trying to think of the most worthwhile thing to do. eventually they crossed my path and i got a bit distracted contemplating the moralities of seducing dream characters and kind of faded out while still trying to stabalise