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really weird one on thurs (01/09) where i was riding around on my bike alot. eventually i realised i was just outside the zoo. its great because it always feels the same with different parts of some zoos but always based around the most local one. you can see alot of the animals by just going by outside but the ones where you actually get into the zoo are pretty amazing but never done it lucid yet.

i was just outside this massive lion field and i had to go back for my bike just incase i had to make a getaway. as i was coming back up the hill i saw the elephants in the back ground which were the size of houses almost like something from a dali painting. this almost got me lucid but i didnt quite make the jump.

the other odd bit was that i had these riding shoes that also seemed to double up as some kind of ipod type thing. this got me thinking about dress sense and it was odd because i remembered having certain different clothes from previous dreams yet still didnt get lucid. i remember thinking that i had lots of good bits of clothing but never really coordinated. then i realised that i didnt care at all

had one that i have had many times before only much clearer, longer and more lucid than before. i was explaining to people that i had dreamt this before yet didt quite get completely lucid until later. it is set in this big building like a pub/house/hotel style thing. it often revolves around the owner who is a shady illusionist type guy. the clearest and weirdest part of this one was going up to 'his' door again. its often in this dream and it feels like this is the key part of the dream. this time as we approached the door (im usually alone but this time reece and grumb were there) water was cascading from out behind it as if it would flood everything. however when we went up to touch it, the water was completely false, just like some visual illusion. there was much more general pub/friend stuff but nothing i can remember apart from taking pics of ugo and others as we watched some show.

i think the building must somehow represent my mind, and the owner/my boss is like the piece of my that is truely in control (subconscious?). ive been through the door in a similar dream, however not in this setting. its rare to have such odd, twisted characters in a dream as this guy, he is sometimes like some kind of derren brown 19th century occultist or something and it often feels like he is just fucking around with us

other random notes i remember are being in my name is earl and being in bed with all of them even catalina. also talking about wild caveman hair with this girl... random also being in a studio with karen and trying to make some music... hm more will probably come up soon

a really lengthy stable semi lucid last night. felt like a good few hours at least. it was based in this area i have been before which is like a cross between manchester,london and a holiday resort. there was even a mix of manc friends home friends and my brother was there too.

it was all based around trying to get into this waterpark club type thing which is a common theme these days. i needed shorts to go there and luckily i had been wearing shorts the day before and still had them on in my dream. this isnt the first time ive been wearing that days clothes in a dream... anyway my mates all got into this park. to get in there were 3 stories and lifts taking you up. all the lifts but one only took you up to the 2nd floor but you needed to get to the top to get into the club/park. i got up to the second floor with my bro but then he got in the next lift which was tiny and had to be hand pulled. i remember getting a funny look from someone when i tried to stop this crazy lift to get on, by pressing the wrong buttons. there were loads of them and how was i to know . 4 people were in it and it was full so i couldnt go. rather than wait around i tried to find alternate routes. i asked this girl how i could get there, struggling to get out the words to explain what i meant. i managed though and she complimented me and tried to help. we were off walking round this plaza trying to find another way in when i got a bit sidetracked.

i spent most of the rest of the dream going round in a quad/go cart style thing, looking for something but losing track of what i was looking for. there were loads of other people in weird little remote control type cars too which was odd, but they were all waiting in line and driving like it was a real road with laws while i was just having fun. it was like one of those vehicles i always get in dreams where you just have to pull the front up a bit and it will go. ive had this with airbed/lilo type things in the past and its a great way to travel. next time iwill have to try out a magic carpet because i imagine its pretty much the same effect. i will get to that fcking waterpark. ive been in before but never very lucidly and never really managed to get on the monstrous rides they have there. there is one bit i have been to alot though where there is a diving platform above these 4 pools. i think in the past when i have dived off into these pools, they often take you away into another part of the dream

glady back to some epic dreams with some stable lucid periods too. one i remember was just sitting on a big square area with other people and just using senses to explore the space without mving and just trying to stay there for as long as i could. only felt a couple of minutes but it was more stable than other recent lucid bits. i remember saying to a friend 'so even if there was any possibility of us sharing a dream, i bet you would never get in touch to check would you? no one wants to be the one to sound crazy...'

an epic work/school based on last night. based around a vending machine type thing which i had to scan into to get my stuff to pack and deliver. had the numbers switch and move but i still battled on unlucid for a while. the main theme of the dream was once again authority figures misusing their power and me trying to get out of it and change it but this time was a bit different. this time it was call me dave cameron blended with some old bosses of mine. he had done or said something that was completely out of line and i was trying to cath him out somehow. trying to do it without resorting to violence although i do remember squeezing him/something in my hands to show it that it had no real power.

i remember asking people how i could go about sorting it and one answer i remember from a neighbours character was basically just that i had to become like my own lawyer and learn the law for myself in order to beat these guys. for once a dc talked absolute sense was good to have one of these dreams and be conscious enough to actively go about changing the whole situation for the better, rather than just avoid it or run away. even if i wasnt lucid enough to realise non of it mattered, perhaps i just need to see it through. in past dreams i definately remember having a room where it feels like you just cant go into because your bosses are some kind of inhuman monsters, but in this one there was no fear only a brief recollection of past similar moments and then i definately went in although sadly cant really remember what happened when i did.. perhaps thats when i squeezed cam,, i dont know

just a quicky-managed to breaka vivid nightmare where my house had been taken over by a gang who were using it as a base. just before i tried to go for help, i thought hmmm what if even this could be another dream? i didnt believe it was at all though as i was sat in front of the computer as real as i am now. the lucid moment didnt lead to a lucid dream this time though, just woke me up which was a good enough relief anyway.

i also got very close to some good wilds. funny thing was i didnt care about staying still at all. just rolling around and breathing deeply getting closer and closer to sleep while just observing what was going on quite passively

had first stable dild for a while. went straight to practising how to get to the lucid crossroads. tried just going through doors and hoping that the other side was where i expected. first just tried a door, no luck. then tried a fancy door and it almost worked but the picture on the other side became solid. then i tried to draw a door on a wall and try to use that. just found a bit of chalk and scratched a door onto a wall, still no luck. i even tried explaining to everyone what i was doing in case they could help, but no luck. then i tried to teleport by going through a mirror. it worked better than all the doors, and almost got me though to my destination but it was a bit shaky and hard to fully manifest it. all in all good focussed practice though, and next time ill nail the mirror technique hopefully

the last part i remember of the unconscious dream i was having was being texted by these 2 girls. i tried for ages in vain to text back, but each time i looked backa t the phone, what i had written had changed. ive never become lucid like this yet, and this was the most frustrating dream because i tried repeatedly to type yet failed miserably. it sems to be pretty hard to dild for me these days but it doesnt matter because mild, deild, and wbtb are working like a charm every time.

i woke up and tried to stay awake. i contemplated the do not move policy, but this is hard to maintain for me and often i still just fall straight back asleep. i need to wake myself up slightly to have any chance of staying conscious, so i went to the toilet. back in bed and i start to try to go through a few techniques to keep myself awake while the body goes back to sleep. phantom wiggling is the best one for me right now, and i think i got closer than ever to a full on obe. however i quickly found myself straight back into the dream with a bang.

i was in london with my neighbour and a few friends. i think they thought we were on some kind of job, and we did a bit of sightseeing on a bus, passing some amazing parks and fairgrounds etc. i met upwith lexy, grumble and helen later and this is where the most lucid and stable part of the dream began. i kept it stable with touch, and also finally managed to keep repeating to myself and others that we were in an amazing dream. lexy had just got out of the shower and told me to follow her...

i managed to keep focus however, which is probably the hardest dream task ive managed yet. people were smoking weed, probably because i have not had any for a while. i decided to try it to see how it was. i remember trying it then just saying to everyone around me how good dream weed is. i used it as a prop and told myslef that with every toke, the dream would be made more stable which worked like a charm. i was still wary of dropping ash though which is odd.

eventually i had so much focus that thoughts turned to the magic of the placebo effect. i waqnted to use a prop so went up to a shop. this tested me as the shop was closed. this normally would break my concentration but i was so in the zone that i just walked straight in past security. the shop owner just said 'oh as its you i suppose its fine'. they even let me steal the pipe/flute that i wanted for my test! i picked it up and tried to play a tune on it with the goal of using it as a healing placebo effect for my physical ailments. didnt manage much of a tune but it didnt bother me. i even managed to explain to all the others around mewhat i was trying to do with absolutely no kind of embarrassment. if someone told me i would be doing this a few months ago i would have laughed

11/02/11

11/02/11

i went to a series of lessons, mostly on US obesity in a classroom at the top of a scyscraper in london. heights are a big dreamsign for me so i slowly caught on and started to do my usual disruption of the class while explaining that its only a dream to people. no one else seemed to catch on, but on the way out i explained to friends that i was now going to float around all the time just so people could no longer deny it was a dream often in lucids i fade out of lucidity easily, but floating was a great way of having a constant reminder that it was a dream. i exited the building and one mate agreed it was a dream which is rare and he was floating a bit too.

i came to a dead end school quad like building and my mate russ came out of the door looking really pleased to see me. i spoke to him clear as day and said "so is this just a normal dream, or are you astrally projecting or something". he is about the only mate i have that openly knows about this stuff and just said something like "well its more of a kind of dream within a dream kind of thing". i really need to listen to other people better... anyway he left and i floated up the building and noticed that inside the school each class wa being led by a foxman/man in a fox suit.

there were balconies all over the building like my old uni halls. i floated up them and started chatting to 2 girls and a boy i thought i recognised but cant place. i said something like "when someone floats past you thats usually a good sign that you are dreaming". the boy questioned me, something like "well if this is a dream what day is it"? i found it quite hard to access my real memory so said "hmm ive lost track, its about thursday i think". we thought about it and came to the conclusion that it was now friday wihch seemed right. i explained to them that since i had become lucid i was just trying to interact with people in that state and see how they reacted when i told them it is a dream. one girl said "dont do that its scary" and i said "what is scary about sitting up on a balcony drinking with a couple of mates in a dream?" she kind of agreed that it wasnt realy scary but still looked a little apprehensive

16/10/2010 had first bad dream for ages last night. weird thing was it started as soon as i fell asleep. started with a kind of paralysis where i was trying to walk, but i couldnt get anywhere fast due to some massive weight that seemed to hang onto my lower back. had similar ages ago but never this vivid and mindfucking.

anyway after that i was at some school event and afterwards we trashed a room. that room turned into my dining room. i drunk some red bull in the dream and i was 100% convinced that i had gone into some kind of freaky rage and trashed my house. so much so that i spent the rest of the dream putting everything back where it should be, constantly missing obvious dream signs of misplaced objects/furniture. woke up as i was picking bits of plastic up off the floor and i can still feel it now.

the lower back feeling has really made me think there is something in the idea of astral parasites, i cant think of another plausible explanation. i keep waking up with this odd feeling in my back, which isnt quite pain, yet is almost worse than having a pain there if that makes any sense. like the most extreme restless feeling that i just cant kick no matter what position i roll into