Ww dj

Smoked with James. Vision begins to 'frame' like normal, but then tunnels. Sight magnifies to James' face, the mouth, cant control it. Let go, the dream is being revealed. Relax and go with it. Hand RC lucid but dont remember after

I'm with a group of bad govt types. I get busted and shot in the chest trying to escape. Friend drives up and wants to take me to hospital. Have to go back and get my wallet. it has my ID and address. 'They will hurt my parents'. Should not have gotten involved. Sneaking back in. Dogs find me. Get by, find my wallet but ID not in it. Go out front but friend not there. In car with jamacan / island circus gang. Dreads and lots of hacky sacks. James and I are prisoners. They threaten us with razor blades. James pulls out his blade. 'You want to take it there?' No it's okay, well do what they say. Look at the guy and he doesnt like it. mood lightens in the car and we go to a party. A monk in japanese gold & black shinto robes is there with his apprentice. He mentions for me to sit next to him. 'Do you know whats going on?' I observe. I'm dreaming. People in the party congradulate me for becoming lucid. Very stable lucid, and notice how this whole dream had been continuous. Lots of interesting people in the house. Less intense, and felt that I could enjoy myself and socialize with the DC's. When I asked one if he exsisted, he said 'ya' matter of factly. In a room with a guy who I thought was James. told him that he was dreaming. He was actually alseep in bed and everything was a dream. He didnt believe me. showed him my hand and told him to count my fingers. They were warping and moving as usual. He counted quickly. '12345' I say, no look. (warping hand) Its changing. He sees and understands. 'We can do anything'. He starts flipping around the room, doing acrobats. Notice I havnt done magic yet. Do a back flip. Sit down and try to make a lightning bolt. Do it the way I normally try, by forcing muscle and mental strength. Trying to visualize. See visions of characters making lighting. 'look at this new trick I learned' referring to letting go. I start to black my mind and realize the illusion. manifest some sparks, but nothing comparable to a WL feeling. dream fade, rematerialize outside. See Dawson and show him where I got shot in the chest earlier. Long lucid (bad recall) Later telling Rach how DC's act the way she does when I say it's a dream. They have same facial expressions. DC's rarely make me lucid. They argue against it, making difficult in WL. No one is going to tell/ show me. Have to believe and remove own doubt. A difficult self created truth. 2 other dreams where I tell Rach about the dreams where Im telling her how WL feels like a dream. irony.

Hand RC, lucid. Not stable, so meditate. 'Don't know' meditation. Begin to float and spin, flying through many scenes, but remain focused on 'don’t know'. Fades, reenter into a stable scene. 'Ego fulfilling, I’m going to play with magic now.' DC enters. Completely break down in front of him. All of it, just not getting it. So conflicted all the time. Nonsocial Lucid Living. No reservation of not being understood in WL. Scene change. Long coherent, vivid, plausible non lucid. Feels off Get mad at becoming lucid. Felt like WL and showed how lucidity is possible by believing. Woman DC talks about Gia, love, people. Very 'life' directed. Balance of dream and purpose. Argued: look I can become lucid, justifying psychedelics. Felt like I don't control becoming lucid, it just happens. Feel like I’m being judged, total confusion

On a couch next to Rachel. There is a TV on like TC's house. Rach is talking about Justin. Things feel off and I become lucid. I continue talking to her to stabilize. As Im talking, it fades. Breif awakening and HI begins to form. Feeling of being tested in front of a council of Light beings. Felt I could pass by being brave and rational. Knowing that it is only HI. Felt that I had passed, but the feeling of the test being real accelerated the HI. Began floating and thought 'hey'. Shound 'hey' echoes in different tones. Free Falling song begins to play. Doesn't sound like the song until the chorus. Float by a large transparent cube. there is writing on it. The writing is very sharp and clear. Dream begins to form. Its dark, in a park like place. Sidewalk, street lights and grass. I want to jump in and start walking, but I relax and fall into the dream. Literally let gravity take me until I had to catch myself. Was pretty pround of this entry and walked around confidently. no fear. Opened eyes, maybe waking eyes. Pressed my eyes shut, but I could still see. Struggeld with stability for a while but woke. RC fail. reality.

Talking to a girl with bright orange eyes. "I could stare at your eyes forever.' 'You know it's a dream.' she says. 'If this is a dream, then I could fly.' I argue. Later, I'm in a high ceiling room. Feels like a cafeteria. Random hand RC. 6 Lucid. The Random RC shocked me. Didnt actually think I was dreaming. The surprise just made me laugh. I looked at someone and just laughed hysterically until the dream faded.

I'm walking to the bus stop with a new girl I've never met. She knows Erin from Aikido. 'He looks different with his hair cut.' I think how he reminds me of my bald dream guide. 'Ya he looks like a skin head.' I joke. We get on the bus and sit down. The volley ball team comes on and sits down around us. Brian is on the team now. John has braces still. They're all in uniform.
Later,I get home and call out for Shea but then remember that he is dead.