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    Gibberish - TOTMs

    by , 03-03-2013 at 02:10 PM (668 Views)
    Ok this WILD was really "forced". I had started with MILD but it was failing. I just don't think it works well with Galantamine. I had several failed WILDs that began with FA's. Finally after a couple of hours of failing a waking I really had to try hard.

    I tried visualizing a repetitive hand motion but it just wasn't working. I tried passively observing HI but it became weak and almost non existent. So I resorted to just focusing on my cheek bones and chest. For some reason this feels natural and works.

    Gibberish WILD - TOTMs 5:43AM


    This time my SubC was a little tricksy. I thought I might have felt a very brief vibration but wasn't sure. I tried forcing it and focused on the back of my neck. Nothing. I tried rolling my eyes to strengthen it. Nothing. So, I waited a bit focusing on my cheek bones. In a few seconds it felt like my head was thumping up and down on the pillow. Ah, now we are getting somewhere. I felt something like a shift. It was subtle. I tested it by moving my left shoulder back a little (I was lying on my right side). It felt sluggish and exaggerated. I open my dream eyes but I am still unsure. I do a nose plug RC and blow through. It's always a surprise when that happens.

    I transition out of bed with a little difficulty but manage fine. I can see the bedroom door. It doesn't look right. Its always really dark in my room so I hurry out. I pause. We have a couple of bookcases immediately to the left full of books in waking life. This is where I placed the note for TOTM. I look for the spot but don't see it right away. The room is dark but there is somehow a nightlight behind the bookcases shining through. I notice several books are missing but that doesn't matter now. I look and find the folded sheet of computer paper. My wife had written something without me knowing what it was before hand. I wanted to add a little spin to it. I pick up the paper and examine. It looks exactly the same. I open it.

    I find that I have to tilt the paper toward the light to read it. To my surprise it was just a bunch of gibberish. I really focu on it and try to make sense of it but it's just a string of letters and numbers on two lines. I thought to memorize it. I committed the first bit to memory but thought whats the point? It read something like this:

    S312F65FT689SDH
    FT3489FG8923VF8


    That's my the password to my account! Wait no. It's not. I'm ok.

    I just look at the paper incredulously. For some reason I whisper, "What the crap?.... Ah shit." I think to try and force it to make sense but really I was satisfied enough to have done the TOTM. I toss the paper aside and move on. I walk into the living room but everything is going dark now. I start rubbing my hands and thinking of a new location. I rub my hands for quite a while just walking around in the void trying to make something appear. I can't decide where to go. I lose focus and wake up.

    I stay still and DEILD. I feel like I have to force it the way I did the WILD. Really it's just that I have no vibrations and I have become dependent as making it my signpost for "GO" time. I stay patient and calm. This time I feel a definite but subtle shift. It almost feels like a brief dizziness. I take a risk and do a nose plug RC. I blow through and transition out of bed.

    I walk back into the living room but feel the dream ending and going dark again. This time I resort to making out with the hardwood floor and rug. I mean really making out. (You gotta do what you gotta do) The feeling of the floor on my tongue is exactly what I would expect. While I feel the rug in my left hand, I even put a leg up and slide up and down on the floor. It was not sexual per-say just really about getting as much tactile sensation as possible.

    Anyway, after I feel stable I notice the room is brightly lit and vivid. I look up and see our old boxy awkward looking TV where our newer flat screen should be. I smile and think this would be something to break. I sit up and punch the screen but it's solid and hurts my hand a little. I try again with the same effect. This time I think to aim beyond the screen and really follow through. My hand just phases into it. I give up and look around for something else to break. I see an empty beer bottle on top of the TV. Perfect! Thanks SubC! I step back and throw the bottle hard into the TV screen. The bottle shatters into a million pieces and makes a really nice and clean glass-breaking sound. Satisfied I walk out the front door.

    But I pause. I think, "I wonder what this dream is about. I wonder if I am in my house for a reason." Standing halfway out the door, I turn and look at the room. I was surprised to see that the room was completely furnished and surprisingly close to real life. Usually my LDs have very little furniture. The only odd thing that I see is an extra doorway where there should be window. It is completely dark in there and I think I better not go that way. Besides I have another mission in mind. (I kind have wished that I checked it out, now that I think about it)

    I slowly step outside. The front porch and yard is vivid and realistic. I feel self conscious because I feel like I am in just my underwear. I touch and feel myself and see that I am right. I tell myself it doesn't matter in a dream. I want to find the TARDIS and see where it takes me. I look around as I walk down my sidewalk. Something catches my eye to the right. I see a ground level sign about 8 ft. wide and 4 ft. tall mounted on a brick foundation. The sign is light up from inside. It is white with blue lettering. I think its some church sign. I walk up to it and look closer. It reads:

    FAMILY
    FA MILY


    I find the sign to be annoying so push my shoulder into until it tips over and crashes on its back. I hear an electronic short circuit and the light goes out. Ha! I broke two things.

    I look around and see a cop car across the street at some gas station. I worry that the cop saw me and will come arrest me for vandalism. I run back to my yard and feel somewhat safe. I think to run to the back yard and hide but I figure I'm better off not looking too guilty. Then I just forget about the cop and remind myself that this is a dream.

    I look up at the sky and see two moons. One is a normal full moon and the other is a reddish orange full moon. Both are a little blurred. I note this as strange but normal for my dreams.



    OK focus. I want to find the TARDIS. I look around expecting to find it. I imagine the unique sound it makes when it's teleporting. I stand there looking and waiting. The dream is fading. I realize that I was idle for too long. The dream always fades when I do that. I remember the success of making out with the sidewalk I had last week so I run and jump and do a belly flop on the sidewalk in the exact same spot. I start licking the concrete and feeling the grass. But I eventually wake up.

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    Updated 03-04-2013 at 05:13 AM by 5967 (Typos, Detail, Moon Part)

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    1. CanisLucidus's Avatar
      Congratulations!! Huge dream for you, especially picking up all of those Tasks of the Month.

      I am going to have to give some thought to this "cheekbones and chest" technique that you use to anchor for a WILD. It's also interesting that the HI tended to fade too easily for you. I am going to try raising G to 8 mg and I'll have to report on whether this "hardens" the HI a bit and makes the WILD smoother. Or if it keeps me up the entire friggin morning.

      The only odd thing that I see is an extra doorway where there should be window. It is completely dark in there and I think I better not go that way.
      Yeah man, that's a tough call. I am always very wary of walking into the dark, so I think I'd have done the same thing, even if I was curious. With the Tasks on your mind, you kinda feel like you have a lot to lose. It's impossible not to wonder, though.

      You sure did get a lot of action in this dream, you casanova. You sure you didn't take any menthol before bed?

      Congratulations again on getting both basic and advanced in one dream and so early in the month! I'm glad I can vicariously enjoy your success after my melatonin-induced stupor gave me zero dream recall!
    2. Xanous's Avatar
      Thanks man. It wasn't as successful as last week but still really fun. I really wasn't completely happy with how much I had to stabilize but I pulled it off anyway. It was just sloppy.

      I am going to have to give some thought to this "cheekbones and chest" technique that you use to anchor for a WILD.
      Really, it's just my version of LaBerge's One/Twin Body Technique. I just simplified the 61 point relaxation to my chest and face. I have no problem relaxing so I just focus on my body until I feel certain things going on. Then I transition.

      In case you don't have your copy handy or forgot or for anyone else:
      Quote Originally Posted by Stephen LaBerge
      THE ONE BODY TECHNIQUE
      1. Relax completely
      After awakening from a dream, lie on your back or right side with your eyes gently closed.
      Tighten and then relax your face and head, neck, back, arms, and legs. Completely let go of all
      muscular and mental tension, and breathe slowly and calmly. Enjoy the feeling of relaxation
      and affirm your intention to consciously enter the dream state; let go of all other thoughts,
      worries, and concerns.
      2. Focus on your body
      Now focus your attention on your body. Use the 61-point relaxation exercise (page 54) to pass
      your attention from one part of your body to the next, recurrently going through all points. As
      you do, notice how your body feels at each point along the way. Watch for signs of strange
      sensations, vibrations, and distortions of your body image. These are the harbingers of REM
      sleep paralysis. Eventually you will experience sensations like those described above which
      will rapidly develop into complete paralysis of your body. At this stage you are ready to leave
      your paralyzed body behind, and to enter the dream world.
      3. Leave your body and enter the dream
      As soon as you feel that your physical body is in a pro-found state of sleep paralysis, you are
      ready to go. Remember that the body image you are currently experiencing as a paralyzed
      physical body cannot move (in mental space) because sensory information is telling your brain
      that your physical body is motionless. When sensory input is cut off (when you go deeper into
      REM sleep), there will be no information (except memory) indicating that your body is still in
      the position it was before. Now you are free to feel movement of your body image or dream
      body without any contradiction from your sensory systems. Your body image can move without
      reference to the actual position of your physical body, as it does naturally in dreams.
      Moreover, if you are experiencing sleep paralysis, you can be sure that inhibition of sensory
      input cannot be far off. Simply imagine that your body image can move again. Imagine you are
      somewhere other than sleeping in bed: anywhere else, in any other position or situation.
      Once you experience that your dream body is out of bed, you will no longer feel the sensations
      from the paralysis of your physical body
      So as you can see it's not that much different. Nothing I came up with. Just a variation.

      Yeah man, that's a tough call. I am always very wary of walking into the dark, so I think I'd have done the same thing, even if I was curious. With the Tasks on your mind, you kinda feel like you have a lot to lose. It's impossible not to wonder, though.
      I really wish I had at least probed into it and took a look around. I just really wanted to find the TARDIS but who knows maybe the TARDIS was waiting for me in there.

      You sure did get a lot of action in this dream, you casanova. You sure you didn't take any menthol before bed?
      I know it's getting ridiculous but it works when I am desperate. I love me some floor/ground let me tell you.

      Congratulations again on getting both basic and advanced in one dream and so early in the month! I'm glad I can vicariously enjoy your success after my melatonin-induced stupor gave me zero dream recall!
      Bummer. How much?
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    3. CanisLucidus's Avatar
      Cool, thanks for the additional info on the tech that you used! I do remember that this bit from LaBerge existed but only after you reminded me of it.

      I really wish I had at least probed into it and took a look around. I just really wanted to find the TARDIS but who knows maybe the TARDIS was waiting for me in there.
      You know, it seems like 99% of lucid dreamers are Doctor Who fans! Is this the new series that you watch or some of the old stuff from back in the day? Doctor Who looks interesting but it's overwhelming thinking of where to start. I'm trying to remember, but did you tell me you just watch the newer series? Would starting from the beginning of that be a pretty good place to begin?

      Bummer. How much?
      Just 12 mg of melatonin! Dude, I cannot hold my melatonin. It's so sad. I actually managed to wake up for my WBTB but I could barely keep my eyes open. Then I fell back to sleep once my head hit the pillow, leaving me no time to even do MILD. Then I woke up hours later, really groggy and remembering absolutely nothing about what I'd dreamed. Wimpy!!

      What's funny is that last week this dosage got me a nice but weird lucid dream (the one where Paigeyemps was a safety pin.) I was exceptionally dumb in that LD, and I'm thinking that has to be have been melatonin hangover. Guess I'll have to stay in the 6-9 mg range and see how that goes.
    4. Xanous's Avatar
      You know, it seems like 99% of lucid dreamers are Doctor Who fans! Is this the new series that you watch or some of the old stuff from back in the day? Doctor Who looks interesting but it's overwhelming thinking of where to start. I'm trying to remember, but did you tell me you just watch the newer series? Would starting from the beginning of that be a pretty good place to begin?
      Well my first Doctor Who was a black and white episode. I think it must have been the first ever episode since it had William Hartnell as the Doctor. I did some searching on netflix and found the 2005 series with Christopher Eccleston who is the ninth incarnation of the Doctor. Apparently the series goes all the way back to 1963 with the first Doctor. I think I am fine with the 2005 series. It really starts off from Rose Tyler's point of view so it's great for first timers. I think lucid dreamers like it because it has such great imagination and dream material.

      Just 12 mg of melatonin! Dude, I cannot hold my melatonin. It's so sad.
      Nah its probably a good thing. Less is best.