CloudStrife1992's Dream Journal

[CloudStrife1992]

Nothing the night before last (hence no post yesterday), but OMG! First Lucid last night! I'm pretty sure it was lucid anyway. It felt very much like how people describe lucid dreams, but some things weren't right about it, like how long it was, how I didn't really get excited at all, that I remember, how easily I stayed in it, how I wasn't sure if one part was reality or not, even though the spot was a mix of two places I've lived in, and how many things I missed. If it wasn't actually lucid, I congratulate my brain on a dream well created. 2/28 - 3/1/09 1) This one I only remember bits and pieces of, but it was a sleepover at my friend's house (the one who I'm calling C in my DJ) and another friend of mine, who I'll call J, was there too. I was once again, as I usually am when he appears in my dreams, in love with C. Thing is, he had a girlfriend (which he has in real life) and I was being extremely sneaking about trying to get him to like me. I think he was getting the idea by the end. It was odd, and I get really annoyed when I have dreams involving him. 2) During all of this dream, especially the part I'm pretty sure was lucid, I had an utter lack of emotion. Good for staying lucid, but it makes me wonder if I really was lucid. I was in a room that was fairly empty with someone else. We went into another room and stole a circular object, and I was expecting an alarm to start blaring, but it didn't. We went back into the other room, hearing robot voices following us, and I set the object that had now become a box on a stand near the wall. As I open it, I start thinking "Alright, now for those dream superpowers" That's when I remember that I do have superpowers. I was in a dream! Strangely enough, I thought this more as if it was fact and only got a little excited, as far as I can remember. I never did any reality checks either. I unfortunately realized this just as the evil robots came in the room and started shooting little white balls at us. I dropped to the floor, then was trying to get my bearings as they continued to fire at us. I then lifted my hand and willed the balls to stop, thinking or saying something like "stop time!". They stopped, sort of matrix-style and just hung in the air. I don't exactly remember what I did next, but I think I was trying to fix an itch or something in the corner of my right eye, but instead of fixing it in the dream world, I actually opened my physical eyes for a moment. The dream of course, vanished, but I was still very aware of my dream body. I dropped to the floor, which I could still feel, and started feeling the hardwood floor, then rubbing my hands together, and switching between the two for a while. Eventually, a new dream materialized. I rubbed the carpet, then rubbed my hands together for a couple minutes, then set off down the street that happened to be in the house I'd materialized in. I went over to a window in my living room (this part actually looked a lot like my current living room) I thought I'd try walking through glass. I put my fingers against it, but it remained solid. I tried a few more times, but it still didn't work. I put my head against the glass and it broke a little bit. I backed away and decided to break it, so I punched it with my palm facing it. It shattered. I then decided to try to fix it, so I moved my hands up and toward me. All the pieces of glass jumped up and filled in the hole, but it didn't look repaired. I tried a few more arm movements and got it fairly well fixed. I then moved it to the side, on accident, and a bunch of people came through. I tried to close it again, but I didn't. I think it had suddenly become winter, but I don't remember feeling cold. The glass had become ice, but I didn't notice this. I turned to a bunch of boxes that also had ice in them. I tried fixing them, and the DC's seemed impressed. Then another one came in, and started lecturing me on how this was the last thing we needed and something about a flood. I listened to him, then left and walked back up the street. I then remembered my idea to find Cloud Strife from the Final Fantasy VII game, so I willed him to appear behind me. I turned around and he was right there, though it was actually a female version of him with red hair and a ponytale. I jumped on him anyway and changed him into the male version as I did. I remember C and J being somewhere nearby. C handed me a carved circle of wood or stone about 8 inches wide. It had letters of the alphabet on it. So I left Cloud and walked somewhere else. I spun, trying to create a scene in my novels. It sort of worked, but the place appeared in the distance. I tried again, but nothing changed. I walked forward and saw that there was a stadium in the middle of the circular valley. I don't remember teleporting there, though I'm pretty sure I tried to, so I might have been successful. I was now in a vine-covered area and decided to changed my clothes into Lightning's from Final Fantasy XIII. This almost worked perfectly, but I think some parts were flipped (right leg instead of left). I then followed someone else down the side of the stadium I was standing next to. There were handle bars every couple of feet, but some of them were coming out as I grabbed onto them. Neither me or the person I was with now with fell though. We got to the floor in a book-store sort of place and I heard DC's muttering about people not escaping from that performance. I then continued to follow the girl I was with. She was kind of evil, but not really. (Looking for the bad guys but being really vicious about it.) We entered a room while she was muttering various things. I saw me, C, and J standing there. This a was scene from my previous dream. I spun, trying to create the Forgotten City from Final Fantasy VII. It sort of worked, but ended up being a scene from a dream I had a few days ago and had forgotten about, with a few dozen short glowing trees. I think I lost lucidity somewhere around here, I think when one of the glowing trees walked up. It looked like a purple/blue carrot at one point with a whole bunch of faces on it. I tried to plant it, but woke up before I did.

[CloudStrife1992]

Don't remember dreams from the night before last, so no post again. Here are last night's: 3/2-3/09 1) Started out in a large building, from what I remember. I was with another friend of mine, who I'll call B, and we were looking for C. We eventually found him in a room with another friend of mine, D. Next thing I remember we and a couple other people were walking on a beach near a house that resembled tall, sharp, dark rocks. I'm not sure if this was the same building from the beginning of the dream. At some point we all decided to make an AMV MEP (Anime Music Video Multi-Editor Project). I remember being on the computer several times looking at posts on a forum about the MEP. I think it had the number 4 in it's title. 2) I had to leave the house to go get something. I think my mom was going to do it, but I assured her I could drive. I couldn't (although I was in the back seat of the car for some unknown reason) and I nearly hit some guy walking his dog, who I avoided by making the car turn left by leaning to the left. I was able to crawl into the front seat, and then was able to drive fairly well. I kept switching between riding a bike and driving for the rest of the dream. I was in a park at one point and rode my bike by the guy I'd nearly hit, who was talking about the incident. He didn't recognize me though. Then I was in a parking lot sort of area, which led to the entrance to my old school's library. The librarian wouldn't let me into the rest of the school, so i turned around and got in the car. My mom had now appeared and was driving now. 3) Possibly a continuation of the previous dream, but I'm keeping them separate anyway. I was in a tropical school (palm trees everywhere and thatched roofs) that was my friends' new school. I was visiting them for lunch, like I tend to do in waking life. I mainly remember seeing two friends, H1 and H2. I was with H1 for a while, then I got thirsty and found the cafeteria. I found some water bottles next to a 5-10 gallon jug. These bottles were orange, 4-5 feet tall, 1-2 feet wide, and 5 or so inches thick. I filled it up with the intention of taking it home with me. I had also picked up some tortillas and a couple other food items. I found another water container that I think was a little smaller and filled it too. For the rest of the dream, I was talking with H2 and carrying around all this stuff, and dropping a lot of it.

[CloudStrife1992]

Yay! Second lucid! Though I feel a little better now, since this one was more like what you'd expect from a first lucid. I was feeling like I was being unfair or something, considering how long my first lucid was. Though I'm still not 100% sure the other one was a lucid... I've noticed while keeping my dream journal the past week or two that I almost always subconsciously know I'm dreaming, like throughout this entire dream, I knew I'd seen it all before. I need to learn to take advantage of this every time it happens. I also wake myself up from a dream once in a while, when it starts to get to where I don't like it. I almost never remember the dream when I do this, though, just the fact that I'd had enough and woke myself up, but had never been lucid. 3/3-4/09 1) This is a recurring dream, and I didn't remember it until now, but it's actually what got me lucid. I was with someone in a field that had two parallel rows of trees in it and a white fence (I think) around it. This someone was I think either a friend of mine or a relative I almost never saw. She was teaching me how to fly using 4 ft. by 2.5 ft. boards that were made of either stone or wood. I flew around for a while, loving it, then I landed for a while and my mom came out. I tried to show her that I could fly, distantly remembering a time when I'd been able to do something for someone, but not my mom. I couldn't fly knowing my mom was there. Mom left and I was able to fly again. At some point I flew into the trees and spotted my mom watching me. I was then able to fly with her around. Next thing I remember is me talking with someone (an uncle?) about being very careful doing something I don't remember. We then took his rusty old over-sized car, lit a back section of it on fire, and went around the field picking up trash. We put out the fire before it reached a part of the car that would make it explode, then storm clouds started gathering quite fast. The rest of my family (many of which aren't family in waking life) come out of the house and get ready for the storm. (We apparently party in storms in that world. ) At some point someone claps their hands or something and the storm starts. It starts raining fairly hard, lighting, all that stuff. I have a lit match for some reason, which I then drop in the wet grass and it goes out. I take my shoes off, and I remember they were really tight. Then I remember thinking ...recurring dream... this is a dream. And I was lucid. I get up on my knees, but my breath catches (I don't remember why) and the dream starts to fade. I rub my hands together and feel a sort of tingling through my body for a minute. I think I also felt a little numb. I opened my eyes to a false awakening once those feelings had dissipated, and did the nose-pinch reality check. I could breath, but the dream started to fade again. I remember doing the reality check again, then I suddenly opened my physical eyes. I did the reality check and I couldn't breath, so I thought about my dream for a while, then got up to write it down. 2) This one seems like it took place in the middle of the other dream, but I've never had this part of it before, so I'm writing it down separately. I was with some guy and and a few other people in a bed-room and we were talking about West Wing. The guy I was talking to was the director of West Wing, and in the dream he was just starting to work on the fifth series. At some point I asked him if he had any spaces left for a video editor. I explained how I loved video editing and how the second to last episode of the fourth season had really inspired me. I also asked him how they found their songs, since I'd also loved the song in the end of season 4. He asks me something about how good of an editor I am, and I say I can make it look really good. My cat was in this dream somewhere too. I also remember I was constantly trying to get comfortable.

[CloudStrife1992]

Third Lucid! This is way too easy for me. Now I just have to learn to control them better. Though I am remembering some of what other people and I say. 3/4-5/09 1) I only remember bits and pieces of this dream. I don't really know what parts came first, so I'll just go with what seems sort of logical. My mom and I somehow moved a building (which I remember was yellow or gold-ish) onto another building, which I knew was the Square Enix headquarters building (which is actually in Tokyo). As we moved, the building tipped from side to side. I nearly fell off, but was able to pull myself back up. Then my mom fell off, but she couldn't get back up and just fell. We both had parachutes (though I didn't know this until she used her's) and I jumped down after her. We both landed safely and got back into our truck. Second part I remember is me an mom in a store or something that had a recreation of us lifting the building. It looked quite cartoonish and had a sign pointing out the concrete at the bottom of the building. Some people try to rob the store, or some other criminally thing. Most of the people in the store were now characters from the West Wing, including me. I was Toby again. Four other people jump into an elevator, then I jump in and the doors close. I played this part over several times. Third part was the five of us doing something near a building. I believe we were trying to take down an evil company of some sort and rescue the president. At one point I was flying around the outside of the building searching for Lightning (from FFXIII), but I didn't find her. There were around 5 other girls climbing up the building though. 2) I don't remember how I first became lucid, and I almost completely forgot the whole thing. I was in the middle of trying to get to sleep again to have a lucid when I remembered I'd already had one. But I did remember it! I was also worrying that it wasn't a dream most of the time, which is probably why all the things I tried didn't work. So I was in my bed. I do a reality check and I can breath. I think I then immediately had another false awakening, so I reality checked again and could still breath. It took me quite a long time to stabilize the dream, but once I did I tried to make Cloud Strife appear. Didn't work, but I remembered my goal to find my Dream Guide. I got up and went into the kitchen and found my mom (and a couple friends of ours, K and R). I remember the kitchen table was gone. I asked, "Mom, where's my dream guide?". She went into her bedroom, then said as she waked back, "He's in here.". I went in and... there was no one there. I do remember that the room was completely different than it is in waking life. There were clothes hanging on the wall as if they were decoration and the bed was in a different place. I check the room a bit more, then go out and tell my mom that he wasn't there. She doesn't respond (as far as I remember) so I then remember the Task of the Month. I ask her if she has any green eggs and ham. I think she just kinda looked at me funny and laughed. I talked to her for a minute, then walked back toward my room. In my room, I said aloud, "I have green eggs and ham in my hand!", remembering that it had worked for someone else. It didn't work, though my hand started to look like a plate. I went out and thought I'd try to do a shared-dream type thing and enter my mom's dream. I said something like "take me to mom's dream" asking it of the dream/my subconscious. It didn't work, but the ceiling caved in again. I asked again, and this time the ceiling started to look like it was melting. The third time I asked, everything short forward, leaving me in blackness. Nothing happened, then I think my house bounced back into view. I assume my mom had woken up by then, so my mind wasn't able to find her dream. At some point I decide to try to fly. I sort of jumped, then slid on my stomach across the floor and nearly hit a desk. This fully brought back my house and R, K, and my mom all seemed a little surprised. I went back into my room and tried to summon Cloud a few more times. Still didn't work. I'm not sure if I tried to go to the Forgotten City (from FFVII) or if I only thought about it. I was still in my room though, so if I did try, it didn't work. I found a picture of my old house (though it was actually a picture of a room with my parents, my current cat that I hadn't had there, and my dog, who had webbed spines down her back). I tried to go there, but then I either lost lucidity, or woke up. If I had more dream after that, I forgot it.

[CloudStrife1992]

Well, no entry for two days (almost three). First night I didn't remember any dreams, second I only got 4 1/2 hours of sleep, so didn't remember my dreams, but last night I had a few very long dreams. As I'm recording this very late, I don't remember much, but I did have my fourth lucid and a dream where I dreamed I became lucid. 3/7-8/09 1) I was in a very large place that I think was orange colored and a stone/crystal/glass stairway. I have a feeling this place was inspired by a game I've been playing. At one point I was going up a set of stairs and suddenly realize I'm dreaming. I don't remember what happened after that, so I think I lost lucidity soon after. At one point Tina/Terra from FFVI came in and blew a hole in the floor with some tornadoes. 2) I was running from someone/something along with a couple other people. That's all I remember. 3) I was in a neighborhood that was similar to one I used to live in. I had a table and my laptop in the forest and was using the laptop for a while. Then I hear flames and I run to tell someone. At some point I fall asleep in the dream and dream that I was lucid for a minute. I then woke up in the dream and never actually became lucid. Soon after that I ran back to my laptop and got it out of the fire.

[CloudStrife1992]

Didn't get myself to write down my dreams till now... I'm getting out of habit. Both of the dreams I had last night may have been the same dream, but I'm separating them anyway. 3/8-9/09 1) First thing I remember is I became lucid. I really have no idea if I was actually lucid, but I think not, so I'm not counting it. I was with C again and I think J too. I was with them for a while, then I was in a wooded area covered in snow. Someone else was there with me and C. We went through a door into my old house. I went into my mom's room and then 'woke up'. I followed my mom around for a while after that. 2) My mom and I were on a road trip and we'd stopped at a party of some sort. I think C was here for a while. I remember a little Indian boy dancing, then me and a bunch of other people put away a ton of Japanese food. After that my mom and I left and went to a hostel where someone had about a hundred emus.

[CloudStrife1992]

*hits head on desk* you need to write down your dreams whenever you remember them, Nira! (that's my online name/what I call myself/con-name, by the way) *hits head on desk again*. My recall is getting worse. Hopefully this is just a short-term lapse. I'm going to start writing down my WILD attempts starting now. This will give me something to do everyday, so there's never a day where I don't have to record something. It will also make me think of what I did and how I might be able to improve. 3/11-12/09 Dreams: 1) I may have been partially lucid during this, but if I was, it was such a low level that I'm not counting it. I was a witch or sorceress of some sort and at one point I summoned my staff (I think I was most lucid during this part). I then remember some dude came over with a paper bag filled with chocolaty desert balls he called Sweet Balls. I took one, then he told me to take five because no one wanted them. I only took one more though. They tasted really good, but the dream was fading here and I tried to regain it, but failed. 2) I was in a car with a bag full of candy, which I was eating. That's all I remember. WILD Attempts: As always I tried to make my body fall asleep and stay conscious using various mantras and relaxation methods. Some time later I remember waking from a state between sleeping and awake to very numb fingers (and maybe legs/feet/toes). Unfortunately the numbness only gradually went away, no matter how much I tried to ignore my physical body. I was never in SP that I remember.