Thread: Aaronoscar's Workbook

Quick end of February update- as have been messaging with Patjunfa, have been feeling a bit distant from lucid enthusiasm as last 2 weeks efforts had been all for one but none at all
Had been going through what felt a bit like lucid lock out with a good few WBTBs, enthusiastic daytime practice but no nightly carryover.

Last night was good as a last-chance-February effort and happily had some nice lucid carryover (so I can be happy to say I got lucid ONCE at least in Feb. Ironic in that my average at home would be 2-3 per month and here I am dedicating dream yoga efforts abroad )
Though it unfortunately was short there was a nice small victory of progress within that - had lost visuals quickly after lucidity and then your suggestion fogelbise came to mind- about how you often affirm things even if they're not there yet. So I began affirming being in my aunt and uncles living room, really feeling the texture of their couch. Soon enough that's where I found myself.
I began investigating the solidly of things and seemed to be stuck on reifying them: unable to put my hand through objects despite affirming they're all made if dream material.
I soon moved on to my dream plan and shouted out, very clearly, "how can I have more lucid dreams more often? ...Please give me a clear understanding of what I can do."
I think a dream character threw a spoon at me and then went to get another wooden utensil that looked interesting...possibly a honey stirrer (I don't think it was also going to be used as a projectile but who knows).
But the dream collapsed then suddenly and I waited my way into non lucid sleeping for the next hour or so.

I think it may have collapsed as a background doubt is sometimes in mind when I shout intentions. Possibly due to collapsing being a kind of regular reaction but maybe partly due to expecting that... Hard to know but shouting feels like the intent is really there and when works carries through with more response...
Unless the spoon was a reference to the matrix quote "there is no spoon" (which Patjunfa and I often pass back and forth)... Other than that I can only interpret it as your unfriendly neighbourhood dream character strikes again.

There's been a lovely carryover today of renewed drive and awareness with rcs and a boosted confidence for lucid efforts again after such a dry spell. Lucid mindset and expectation feels closer to hand.
Expecting good results tonight and even if not, feeling good for March!

When I read your post I was thinking of a spoon for a bit of Galantamine or something? Dunno...gud luck