I seriously need help with this one...please. Dream guides? Anyone with experience?
I believe I had my first LD in a long time and not a fake one. I also believe I had dream control. But this brings up a very important question. Let me tell pieces of the dream so you can see:
In my dream, I faced a woman who was supposed to be my mom. I recognized that she wasn't my real mom. This woman was very in control of me and mean. I immediately said out loud, "I am dreaming. Reality Check." I ran to the microwave and saw the time clearly. I turned away and said to self, "This is it! This is how I will know" I looked back and saw the clock was fuzzy and altered.
QUESTION--How do I know I didn't dream to alter the clock so to make myself think I was in a lucid dream??
Continuing--I didn't like the dream. And I tried to escape. The woman said to me--"Oh, you are not dreaming. Stop acting silly. You are not going to get away from me." I tried to alter the dream setting. No luck. I tried to fly. I flew a bit, but was grabbed and brought back down. I ran down the street and bumped into a famous actor. I asked for help.
QUESTION--If I was in lucid and capable of thinking for myself and dream control, why would I ask a stranger for help? If I knew it as a dream and I couldn't control it, why would I ask a stranger? This shows I wasn't thinking logical. Was I again--dreaming about lucidity? How do you know for sure?
Continuing--I hated the dream badly and wanted to escape. I did do other reality checks to make sure I was lucid. Each one proved I was dreaming. And I did become excited to see that I was really noticing this. So I yelled, "I wanted to change this!" But nothing happened. I remember a conversation I had with someone here at the forum about not making an enemy with your subconscious. I looked to the sky, "Subconsious--we got to work together. I am sorry for being mean. I don't like this dream. I want out." I heard a voice in my head--'where do you want to go.' I thought of Walt Disney World--my precious childhood memories and happiness.
QUESTION--If I was truly lucid (thinking logical), I would have thought more thoroughly on where to go. It was more of a sudden thought. This tells me it was a dream thought. Again--Was I dreaming lucidity and dream control? How would I really know the difference?
Continuing--I saw a banner and curtains with Walt Disney written above. I smiled as I walked through. Keep in mind, I was being constrained/held by a man who worked for the nasty woman. When we went through--it was beautiful. Sunny sky, families, rides, food, horses and carriages, Disney characters. But I was afraid of what was behind me--the man still holding me. I said, "Please be my father." I looked up and saw my father looking down at me and hugging me. I then saw the rest of my family join me. We went to eat at a restaurant. Sat down. My mom sat away from us. I started to question this--started to analyze or interpret why my dream did this.
QUESTION--Analyzing a dream during a dream--is that a sign of lucidity?
Continuing--I ate some breadsticks and felt real good. I saw a beautiful horse and buggy out the window. It got me thinking--"This is too good to be true. I don't want to destroy this. i don't want to lose control." I remembered in my dream that some people on the forum saying that their control doesn't last long. I turned to my family and said, "I want the dream to end now. Thank you." My dad looked at me surprised. "Why?" he asked. I said, "I just feel it is time." Dad nodded. "If that is what you want," he said. My family got up to leave. The waitress had came by to take our order--"You're leaving already?" We headed out and I felt everyone looking at me in shock. I then woke up.
MY BIG QUESTION--Can one dream they have dream control? Was I really lucid and was I really in control? How do you know for certain.
I really appreciate any help. I am being serious. This dream is bothering me. It is a big thing for me since it has been so long that I have achieved anything like this.
Thank you so much!!
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