I don't understand what happened

**yost** · 09-11-2013 11:59 AM

So last night, I had a moment of SA(sporadic awareness, as described in Puffins DILD Guide). I am using the SA Technique(SAT), as a few of you know. The moment alone was enough to make me lucid. However, my vision narrowed and blurred. I tried rubbing my hands together but it was very dark(also spinning did nothing) and I could turn the light in the bathroom on. I left the bathroom, enter the hallway, and used my mind to have lights. I saw better and tried again, still nothing. I pretty much lost control of the dream. Was this because I was waking up from that dream? Or am I simply that bad? Should this go on my lucid count?

Note that I used the bathroom after this dream, so I could have woken up with a purpose.

I am using SSILD(not on weekdays, but I'm experimenting with doing it before bed to effect dream vividness) and SAT alone.

**Scionox** · 09-11-2013 02:53 PM

Yeah, you could have been waking up, or maybe you weren't confident enough with stabilization/control or dream was too unstable already. And no, you are not bad, you had a lucid dream and it is good, every lucid is progress! Think positive and keep practicing, i am sure you will have more lucids and more longer ones! Definitely count, unless you have some kind of limits on your counter.

**yost** · 09-11-2013 09:01 PM

Thanks for the encouragement. This morning while typing this I was thinking, "WTF, why am I disowning this? I've been looking for progress, and here it is!!" I think I will celebrate

**Prelin** · 09-18-2013 04:12 AM

I've noticed that if I move too fast in dreams, turning my head quickly or jumping around corners too fast, some details don't manifest right away. It's like I get ahead of my brain's rendering power. Usually if I hold still for a second and give my vision a chance to draw everything in, it sorts out.

**paigeyemps** · 09-19-2013 08:27 AM

I agree with Scionox, definitely count it! And congratulations~

**moved to Dream Control**

**Ganstaform11** · 09-19-2013 12:57 PM

Count it! Unfortunately dreams can go this way sometimes but it doesn't mean you can't (just the opposite actually) this used to happen to me a lot before I found ways to stabilize that work for me... demanding stability and clarity and for "more vivid" has worked for me. (not at the same time though so its more effective -- start with stability)