PROLOGUE
First, the intensity you felt is that you felt in reality.
For an 8 year old, feeling his father is sort of leaving him behind, would explain that, and the kid's desire for closer connection and to be loved by his dad fully.
So, if the dream has you sleeping, that means you are asleep in your mind, unaware - or you see something is asleep in your life.
But the idea you have of your dad is beckoning you to wake up. You want that relationship to wake up.
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THE DOORWAY
Him in your doorway ready to go fishing says to me your idea he was fishing for you, trying to catch you.
Oscar by his side might mean how you wished your father would be like Oscar in the way of totally affectionate and loyal to you.
Static means not tuned in, though softer than TV static, is still static. And static means stagnant, not in motion, not receiving the signal. Not a vision. A real vision. It means your realationship to your dad was not solid and in tune or in focus. A bit ghost-like. You said it best yourself: spectral father.
Bluish white might mean peaceful, and good though. At least it was that and half okay. Others have much worse of course.
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THE INTENSITY OF URGENCY
Then, you thought of the urgency to get up and get along with your dad, or else you'd make him angry.
So I gather from that maybe he got angry easily if you did not go his way.
Or else it can just mean get the relationship right or else he would make you angry - he would represent anger in your mind.
But you declined him, meaning there was a problem you had with him that made you refuse him in some way, which made you think he'd prefer your bro Joe insteed, or else just not you.
And your affection and attention would go, with the dream dog, away.
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REAL WAKE UP
You woke up to sheer terror and confusion, which is how the real situation made you feel. Because you feared your dad dod not love you.
"whenever I think about how my father looked as he was trying to wake me in that dream, I feel a watered down version of that intense feeling, and my eyes start to water." = How you wanted that spectral vision of your father to wake up into a fully real or realized father.
And even now affects you, as he must still be partially the same but getting better. The intensity has watered down now.
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