Bizzare things happening... - request for a dream interpretation.

**Morfine** · 12-10-2013 12:51 AM

Ok so that might be hard for you to interpretate... at least it seems like it to me, it might be the weirdest dream I've ever had.

1. First thing, I notice I'm pregnant. The feeling is very realistic and so are people's reactions... I have a big belly that I can touch and I know that the father is my ex-boyfriend. That fact is meaningless really, we broke up half a year ago and have been friends since. I never really felt anything romantic to him. It was just a random fact that didn't matter at that time or later in the dream... I automatically decided to give the child up for adoption which calmed everyone down. It's the second time I've dreamed of being pregnant, the last was about a year ago and both very realistic.

2. The next moment after the pregnancy matter was settled (that part of the dream was really short in general) I find myself in my Chemistry lab. I'm a chemistry student and it's an authentic lab I'm in... I'm having a small plastic bowl of meat that looks like chicken breast fillets which I strongly believe in my dream, is going to become my baby. I open a box of one chemical I actually used before and it looks like small, white, round solid balls (maybe 4-5mm diameter) and I put them into the bowl. I know that this chemical is very dangerous and causes severe burns and I seem to be aware of it in a dream and only slightly curious as to what might happen. I pour a little bit of water to dissolve it and the meat is covered by a light but ~2cm thick and dry/crispy crust. I panic a little because I know the mother's new child is waiting and I feel like I've messed something up... I try to take the crust out but I can't so I pour more water to dissolve it and get rid of the chemical by diluting it. Eventually I'm able to peal the crust off which still leaves bloody marks under the outermost layer of the meat... like a bruise but read with some tiny veins visible. I pour more water but the mother appears in the lab, some distance away. I'm not afraid, rather I think I don't want it to show when the baby is already grown up... all the time I believe that the baby will be made out of that meat. I rush trying to rinse it as much as I can before she comes but I don't do it as much as I planned to, she takes the bowl from me. The woman's and mine relations are neutral-warm but not actually contact is made.

3. My last though is "wonder if the baby will have those hematomas when they grow up" and the next moment I see a baby girl in that woman's arms and her face is all covered in it. It's bloody in colour like the meat but no open wound. I don't know if the picture of the baby girl is me imagining it in a dream or actually moving a few years forward and seeing it. The child might be 2 years old.

I'm a 20yo female Chemistry student that rarely remembers her dreams. Please ask me more specific questions if it's necessary, I don't really know what else might be important. I don't feel nervous about the dream, but I acknowledge that it's weird and I'm curious about it. I feel that if I believed in dreams more I might be scare of this one, but I was calm and somewhat reserved (though it was fully realistic) while it lasted except of the first part of it when I was mostly trying to soothe my parents and other people mad at me.

**Sivason** · 12-10-2013 01:49 AM

When I read the first part I was going to surprise you by telling you that you were 19 years old, but you told us you are 20 in the last part. I however could guess your age. You are having a biological clock issue, in which your instinct tells you should have a baby soon, before you get to old. You how ever are not sure you want that in general. You certainly do not want a baby if the guy is not right, but a part of you feels time is running out. You also doubt your own ability to raise a child and fear things like birth defects. You go from thinking the meat is your baby, to thinking it is another woman's baby. I think the woman is your mother, and you feel she is wanting a grand child; you however are feeling that in many ways you are still a child.

I am normally good at this, so please let me know if it all fits. No harm if it does not.

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**Morfine** · 12-10-2013 08:39 AM

Thank you, I might

Unfortunately I suffer from chronic Insomnia so I can't really work on my dreams that are rather rare in general as I tend to sleep 3-5 hours every night.

I often feel old despite being only 20 years old but it never had anything to do with having a baby. I'm planning one when I'm around 30 and it's a very conscious decision that doesn't worry me more. Of course a baby at this time is the last thing I might possibly want. Part of the reason is what I tell my friends "I'll wait with a child until I can afford a 24h babysitter", but the part about defects is 100% correct. I'm really afraid of it happening to my future child even though I don't give it much thought at the moment.

The woman however isn't my mother. She seems rather young, maybe in her 30? I feel no connection to her, she's a stranger that I feel good about since I trust her enough to give her the child (though I don't really care about it in the dream since I'm consciously hurting it). Might be weird, but the guy doesn't really matter... it's more important that the guy that is raising the child with me is right than that it's the right guy who's the father. I might want to be in control of raising the child as I feel I'd have little remorse to just run away and raise the kid my way if I can't communicate with him.

**JoannaB** · 12-10-2013 02:40 PM

Very often dreams of pregnancy are not actually about pregnancy though but for example a new project, something new you have embarked upon, for example a new idea for a project in your chemistry lab which you are excited about and yet a bit worried about that it could go wrong.

Btw, sivason's idea that the woman may represent your mother may still be right even if she looks nothing like your mother, it could be just symbolic. However, I am thinking it is even more likely that the woman represents an older you yourself - again no need to actually look like you. The reason why I say this is because first of all othe dream characters often represent some aspect of oneself in dreams, but also here is a woman who is around the age you plan to be when you have a child, and here is 30 year old you finally ready to have a child.

I think part of the reason for your dream is that you worry that if you wait until you are 30 to have a child, then you will be more likely to have birth defect because the likelihood rises the older the mother. Also you may worry a bit whether your concentrating on your career first will interfere with your chance of being a mother later. Furthermore, you may be worried whether any of the chemicals you handle in the lab are dangerous and might make birth defects later more likely.

Of course, I may well be wrong about any of that. Feel free to disregard if this does not sound right to you.

**Superman1** · 12-11-2013 07:09 AM

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YOUR EX-BOYFRIEND
1. This new thing growing in you is either from your relationship with your ex-boyfriend - like growing from it - or he is a symbol for something else like him. That can mean something with qualities like him, or growing in something you are separated from.
It can be thought of a new boyfriend.

But it must have alarmed you, because you decided to give it up to calm you, unless calm others.
Or you decided not to adopt this new idea.
Did you first think of splitting with your ex about a year ago? Or what else new happened then? Because if so, maybe that idea has repeated here.
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NOT GROWING THERE AGAIN
2. It didn't take you long to dismiss the new idea.
Next you were thinking of your chemistry - maybe with him, boys, or people.
Maybe you opted for the cheaper chicken's way - instead of adopted the genuine courageous effort (sorry, I don't make dreams, just read them). But maybe you like chicken? But might mean both. You strongly believe you can grow from that.
But you know it can burn - or hurt - and is dangerous. You were severly burnt by your ex or splitting? So maybe you gave up your 'baby' from him because of fear of being hurt in a new relationship?
Or maybe you deliberately were hurting yourself, or else just feared it would happen.

HURT LOVE
You were only slightly curious, and this chemical equation in you dried your nourishment with a crust.
You panicked because you know the new growth or new you that you want to become is waiting (yes you are the mother).
You messed it up, tried to dilute the harm, and bruised your new self - which you could see the tiny life of under the removed crust.

YOUR SUBSTANCE
You believe the the baby will be made out of the meat or substance in you, that builds strength.
The outcome was neutral, like you were only semi-curious before. Your heart wasn't in it, though you were preparing the chicken's heart area - the breast.
So you did not contact your new nurturing self of this new growth.
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HURTING YOUR GROWTH
3. You wondered if your newly-growing love would have that cancer eating away at it when it grows. Because something was eating away at you, from past hurts probably.
So you pictured your future expression of this covered in these, though not a new wound.
Maybe you were with your ex for 2 years? Or was just your projection to guage success or failure.

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LATER NOTES
It sounds like you were mad at yourself, for not being successful in a relationship like your parents are. Or you feared they'd be mad at you.
I wonder if your chronic insomnia is from your chronic fear shown in this dream?
Being afraid of defects happening to your future child can only be a projection of the defects of your growth. If you consciously hurt your growth, again it's because you were hurt so is like a vicious cycle.

I wonder if any of that is right.