..today at school we worked on a group project with students from different grades..im in 10th grade and he is in 9 th grade.he always kind of flirts with me and he is the only guy that has ever treated me right after two heartbreaks...i never had a real boyfriend to be honest ..and im not looking for one..but i really like him.i have dreamt of him several times before but today when i came back home, I just saw the most beautiful dream in my nap...in my dream, i saw this really big house with all my school teachers and friends rehearsing for an event and it grew dark and almost everybody left except me and a few teachers..but i was really upset because i felt worthless and ugly ( im really insecure in real life too) then i was laying in bed in one of those rooms and i heard his voice from a phone like device like he was a genie...he told me that i wasn't ugly and he will stay with me forever and he loved me...then i told him that i loved him too and the next moment we were hugging (in real life after every group project he gives me a hug. but today we couldn't hug each other.) when we were hugging in my dream..i felt love for him..and i felt so much peace and warmth in my heart ..like he had calmed my storms. In real life i do have feelings for him but i have to suppress it because i know it would not work out because after 4 month i would go to junior college and he will still be in high school and i dont want to ruin our friendship..we are really close and he treats me so well..no guy has ever treated me the way he does...i know he likes me too ..im crying as im writing this because my dream was so beautiful,..i wish i could get that moment back and i just wish it was real...i felt so at peace and finally comfortable with my insecurities..what do you think this dream is trying to tell me?? oh at the end of the dream, i left the house but he was no where to be seen and i just saw a lot of shoes??/!!! thank you for reading ..any reply would be appreciated |
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