long term dream needs answers very confused

**weirdlongdream** · 04-04-2016 08:00 PM

Was wondering if people could help me interpret my dream, i have never till now told anyone about it.
I have been having it ongoing now for about 5 years, every couple of weeks or so, its the same dream, and i having trouble trying to get any meaning,if any from it. nobody in my dream is anybody i reconise.

Firstly im married,40 years old, have one child, live in UK, been around the world with my fathers career, but never been to the united states. I do have diabetes, insulin dependant. I have never done drugs, and am a teetotaller

My dream is this

I walk out of a wheat-field, its a warm sunny day, and i hear the sound of children playing and birds cawing. In front of me, is a worn farmhouse with a verandah, and a porch swing, table and rocking chair on the verandah. As i walk towards the house, 3 children run towards me shouting daddy, i have the feeling that they are my kids, i feel love towards them. they are wearing beige dirty clothes, the little girls have what is almost a bonnet on there heads, something similar to what you read about Laura Ingalls books. All blonde headed, the little boy with scruffy unkempt hair. They have dirty faces and hands. the smell of pig crap fills my nostrils as i look left and see another two older children come out of a pig sty,”just fed the sow da” the elder one says.
“children come wash up, your supper is ready, your father will be back soon”. Then in the doorway stands a very attractive women, long blonde hair to the shoulder, wearing a ankle length skirt which is partially covered with a long apron, “too late” she says, looking at me with a beaming smile, she walks towards me, telling the children to go and wash up as she walks. She stands in front of me kisses me, and says “bad day honey”.

“yeah, the hard red is doing good, but we are going to have problems with the white, might not be enough at harvest, dam crows.
“well forgot about it tonight, go wash up and have something to eat,” she says pointing towards the horses trough full of water that is in front of the house, she turns towards the doorway turning her head towards me, looks cheekily at me saying and when the children have gone to bed, ill take your mind off crops”. I slap her backside as she walks towards the house. As im washing in the trough, i see myself in the water, it is me, nobody else, im wearing a collarless shirt and denim dungarees (no im not a 70s lesbian). I plunge my head in the water and when i lift it up, its twilight and im standing on the porch with this women from earlier looking out over the wheat-fields”take the children some food and water to the fruit cellar, looks like weather turning, could be tornado's, we will ride them out in the cellar., i look towards her and she smiles nervously and nods. When i turn my head towards the Wheatland again, its different.

Am now sitting on a cart on a dirt road, a mangy looking dog is sat beside me looking back behind us, the road ahead is just a dirt road with fields on each side. The dog barks, and i look behind, on the side of the road is a pile of earth with a cross on it, i have a feeling of immense grief and sadness, the back of the cart has my furniture on it, i hear a voice, its the dog .the dog talks to me its says look forward” and says my name, i look forward and see sky, im flying over fields, deserts forest and start flying over water, but im on the back of a giant eagle, we fly towards a island and i see a cave opening at the top, we fly though it, its dark, i can feel the wind in my face, then i see a light, the light is getting closer, the wind is hitting me faster and harder as we travel towards the light, we emerged in the light and im almost blinded by it, as my eyes become adjusted, a image comes into view, im now sitting in a old car, in front of me is a large black mass that covers the horizon for as long as i can see, then i see a message on it, it says now the journeys end, as i drive into the black mass is the point where i always wake up.

**Athanor** · 04-05-2016 10:51 PM

Generally speaking, dreams try to keep an overall inner equilibrium in place so that the dreamer doesn’t let a certain outlook or attitude etc. dominate awareness too much because this could tend to block off areas of self-development over time if persisted in.

In the case of a recurring dream, it’s usually because some such generalized block has formed for whatever reason and it’s very important for the dreamer to become aware of this situation in order that steps can be taken to move forward more fully towards becoming a generally well-rounded individual.

Being 40 years old is still young from our point of view, but even at age 35 when this recurring dream began, from the point of view of dreams, an ascent has ended and decline has begun.

That is, the general mid-point of life has been reached where our work to build a career and family has now to take into account that a gradual descent is beginning and we have to do our best to fill in parts of our personality which had to be left behind during the climb during the first half of life.

So it’s not unusual at all for dreams to appear with a “Memento mori” theme, i.e. “Remember that you have to die” and I think this could be part of the meaning of your dream.

It’s possible that the opening scene with its mostly pleasant “Little House on the Prairie” atmosphere could be hinting that a kind of unrealistic and maybe generally sentimental approach to life might tend to take over if not watched out for.

This doesn’t mean that your current outlook is deficient in any way, only that the recurring dream wants to shake you up in some way so that certain potentials which you have can be worked at and fulfilled in the years ahead because presently, you could possibly be mostly unaware of them.

Of course, the unusual fact in the scene is that you’re a man. Since you’re apparently quite happy being a heterosexual, the dream could possibly be saying something along the lines of “Your masculine side tends to be somewhat unrealistic and sentimental”.

This would mean that your “mind” side and thinking, focus, spirituality, assertiveness and determination etc. might lean towards the conventional and perhaps be based on general homilies and “accepted opinions” etc. instead of being derived from your own unique experiences and thoughts about them.

For example, the “kind dad and mom” image along with the “happy kids” etc. is tending towards the syrupy although on the other hand, there apparently is a reasonably good and realistic connection with the instincts (e.g. the smell of pig crap etc.).

However, there’s a hint of trouble about the potentially poor harvest and the more immediate threat of the tornadoes in the distance.

The next scene which follows directly afterwards suggests in its imagery that the “tornadoes” did indeed cause the death of your “wife” and the “children” (e.g. the apparent grave at the side of the road and the fact there are no kids with you).

It’s very significant if any animal in a dream speaks because this shows that deep instinctive roots have been stirred in the dreamer.

In this case, the dog barks, causing you to look “behind” where you see a grave which makes you feel immense grief and sadness.

Then the dog uses your name when it says to look “forward”.

Apparently you’re still a man at this point and the idea could be that you’re going to have to leave behind your role as a mother in real life over time (i.e. the presumed woman in the grave) and fly with an eagle in the realm of spirit and meaning.

You should apparently try to undertake in some way new inner experiences of thought and reflection (i.e. flying above the fields, deserts, forests and water).

This can apparently lead to a new area of conscious awareness (i.e. the island, the cave) where the spiritual side of your nature could become very challenging but could also lead to great insight and understanding (the very strong wind, the blinding light).

The final image in the dream could be showing that a person’s life won’t go on forever (e.g. the old car) and at that some point before we know it, we’re faced with the “black mass” of our journey’s end, so it’s imperative that we fulfill our potentials as well as we can while there’s time.

Anyway, without knowing very much about you, this way of looking at your impressive recurring dream might not fit your personal circumstances very well, but I hope these ideas can be helpful in some way.

If you think over this interpretation and it seems to click in some way, then the dream should stop recurring or at least appear less often, especially if you take any practical steps to gradually fit in as well as you can any interests etc. that had to be dropped during the first half of our life.

Author James Hollis has written various useful books regarding how to make the best of the second half of life which you may find interesting.

In any case, please feel free to ask any questions or to make any comments about this particular way of looking at your dream.

**weirdlongdream** · 04-05-2016 11:26 PM

Originally Posted by Athanor

Generally speaking, dreams try to keep an overall inner equilibrium in place so that the dreamer doesn’t let a certain outlook or attitude etc. dominate awareness too much because this could tend to block off areas of self-development over time if persisted in.

In the case of a recurring dream, it’s usually because some such generalized block has formed for whatever reason and it’s very important for the dreamer to become aware of this situation in order that steps can be taken to move forward more fully towards becoming a generally well-rounded individual.

Being 40 years old is still young from our point of view, but even at age 35 when this recurring dream began, from the point of view of dreams, an ascent has ended and decline has begun.

That is, the general mid-point of life has been reached where our work to build a career and family has now to take into account that a gradual descent is beginning and we have to do our best to fill in parts of our personality which had to be left behind during the climb during the first half of life.

So it’s not unusual at all for dreams to appear with a “Memento mori” theme, i.e. “Remember that you have to die” and I think this could be part of the meaning of your dream.

It’s possible that the opening scene with its mostly pleasant “Little House on the Prairie” atmosphere could be hinting that a kind of unrealistic and maybe generally sentimental approach to life might tend to take over if not watched out for.

This doesn’t mean that your current outlook is deficient in any way, only that the recurring dream wants to shake you up in some way so that certain potentials which you have can be worked at and fulfilled in the years ahead because presently, you could possibly be mostly unaware of them.

Of course, the unusual fact in the scene is that you’re a man. Since you’re apparently quite happy being a heterosexual, the dream could possibly be saying something along the lines of “Your masculine side tends to be somewhat unrealistic and sentimental”.

This would mean that your “mind” side and thinking, focus, spirituality, assertiveness and determination etc. might lean towards the conventional and perhaps be based on general homilies and “accepted opinions” etc. instead of being derived from your own unique experiences and thoughts about them.

For example, the “kind dad and mom” image along with the “happy kids” etc. is tending towards the syrupy although on the other hand, there apparently is a reasonably good and realistic connection with the instincts (e.g. the smell of pig crap etc.).

However, there’s a hint of trouble about the potentially poor harvest and the more immediate threat of the tornadoes in the distance.

The next scene which follows directly afterwards suggests in its imagery that the “tornadoes” did indeed cause the death of your “wife” and the “children” (e.g. the apparent grave at the side of the road and the fact there are no kids with you).

It’s very significant if any animal in a dream speaks because this shows that deep instinctive roots have been stirred in the dreamer.

In this case, the dog barks, causing you to look “behind” where you see a grave which makes you feel immense grief and sadness.

Then the dog uses your name when it says to look “forward”.

Apparently you’re still a man at this point and the idea could be that you’re going to have to leave behind your role as a mother in real life over time (i.e. the presumed woman in the grave) and fly with an eagle in the realm of spirit and meaning.

You should apparently try to undertake in some way new inner experiences of thought and reflection (i.e. flying above the fields, deserts, forests and water).

This can apparently lead to a new area of conscious awareness (i.e. the island, the cave) where the spiritual side of your nature could become very challenging but could also lead to great insight and understanding (the very strong wind, the blinding light).

The final image in the dream could be showing that a person’s life won’t go on forever (e.g. the old car) and at that some point before we know it, we’re faced with the “black mass” of our journey’s end, so it’s imperative that we fulfill our potentials as well as we can while there’s time.

Anyway, without knowing very much about you, this way of looking at your impressive recurring dream might not fit your personal circumstances very well, but I hope these ideas can be helpful in some way.

If you think over this interpretation and it seems to click in some way, then the dream should stop recurring or at least appear less often, especially if you take any practical steps to gradually fit in as well as you can any interests etc. that had to be dropped during the first half of our life.

Author James Hollis has written various useful books regarding how to make the best of the second half of life which you may find interesting.

In any case, please feel free to ask any questions or to make any comments about this particular way of looking at your dream.

thank you for the interpetation, it has given me some thoughts to think about, only one worry while reading it was the sentances"
Apparently you’re still a man at this point and the idea could be that you’re going to have to leave behind your role as a mother in real life"
i should have mentioned that im a man lol, but thinking about it, the fact that im the carer for my elderly mother might put that into perspective for me,

once again thank you for a well informed interpetation, i am very grateful.

**Athanor** · 04-06-2016 12:30 AM

Sorry for the confusion. I guess the phrase “no im not a 70s lesbian” threw me off but the overall interpretation seems to hold up all the same and you might just need to concentrate some more on your abilities for reflection and deeper insight. As I mentioned, if the dreams happen less often, this would be a good indicator that the overall approach was the right one, so let’s wait and see what happens!