Maybe the fact you loved yourself despite the fact you were even a completely sex and another you that was also the opposite sex was jealous that he got with the girl you means that despite how harshly you judge your flaws, you still love yourself as a person. Or, maybe some part of your mind was trying to get you to start doing that. It's not uncommon to be our own harshest critic, especially as a teenager. It's important to accept yourself as a person though, and love yourself even though you have all these flaws... nobody can say they are no longer a work-in-progress. If they're flaws you can fix and improve upon and you are working towards that, there is nothing to feel bad about. If they are flaws in your physical appearance or something and they can't be "fixed" or improved on then there isn't anything to feel bad about either, because there isn't anything you can actually do to improve yourself.
In any case, I'm thinking your dream was a rather weird way for you to see from the outside in. You were able to both love yourself as another person, and two versions of yourself who weren't actually "you" also loved you. It was a way to both experience and prove that you're a person that you love and others do too, and that you're maybe being too harsh on yourself.
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