I was diagnosed 8 yr. ago with bipolar, & took all the appropriate drugs, although they never seemed to help much. Finally I connected with an excellent pdoc who diagnosed me as having toxic anger syndrome. I have since come, mostly, to grips with my anger issues & have stopped bottling up my frustrations & anger, & learned to express my emotions in a more appropriate manner. I have gained a measure of self-esteem, something I have never had before, & I have much more faith in myself. However, I have recently been having very disturbing dreams. I find myself in situations where I have committed the same embarrassing behavior that I displayed in the past - losing my temper over unimportant incidents, being laughed at for inappropriate responses to situations, & generally losing all my hard-won self-esteem. I find these dreams very disturbing, as they are displaying a part of me that I feel no longer exists. I have not yet been able to remember my dreams with any great detail, it takes me such a long time to fall asleep that it is hard to keep telling myself that I must remember my dreams for such an extended period of time. However, I continue to try! In the meantime, I would like to know why I am having this dream of failure at a point in my life when I feel I am doing so much better. For the first time in 8 years, I am working, making new friends, initiating conversations & generally being much more outgoing than I ever have in my entire 57 years of existence! Any ideas?