Hey there!
Your dream, from an outsiders point of view, makes a lot of sense.
First of all, I don't think it means you're looking for exterior partners (unless, you yourself think that!) After all, the first dream symbols are not at all sexually pleasing
Aside from that, let me give you my first impression from just reading it, and from your helpful background information (after all, I believe we all subconsciously know what our dreams mean to us). The main parts that made sense to me was that you have no children yourself, and you dreamt of a girl (and your current girlfriend has a young girl). And the second part that stood out was the age difference between you and your girlfriend, which you noted in the background information, and the girl at the end of the dream being 18 years old.
Therefore, I believe the dream is you trying to psychologically understand these two points.
Now, let me help you interpret the symbols so that you can understand more why you would dream about these subjects, and also provide insight into them.
I was in an office setting at a past job, with many people around.
First of all, this dream could relate to problems of your past. It refers perhaps to how you like to be perceived, and how you think people perceive you. After all, a lot of judgement happens within an office (people gossiping, people playing the hierarchy game), and offices typically tend not to be the most positive places in the world. So, maybe this aspect of the dream is pointing to some negative thought pattern, where it is related to how people see you/judge you. It can also mean you're mind has been overworked lately, and you need to take a mental break.
Some I knew, and some I did not. Including a couple who were in my office who had a handicapped daughter. Probably young adult, but I am unsure of this. Her handicap was likely down syndrome. The handicapped daughter got close to me, and took a liking to me it seemed, when out of the blue she grabbed my genitalia,
External people in dreams, can either be symbolic, or can be our self trying to understand the relationship between a person. In this case, I feel the people you know, and those you didn't, were aspects of you that are known and that are not known. You said originally in your background info that you don't know anyone disabled. In this case, the disibility is on the daughter of the couple. The couple could be an outward reflection of your own relationships of the past, or it can represent something that you feel missing in your own relationship. How did the couple behave with the girl? You note the girl was a young adult, similar to the age of the girl you are dating now. This I feel, highlights that the girl with downsydrome, is a reflection of something you feel, or judge towards your girlfriend (or even, what you worry other people think). You also noted the girl had down syndrome. This signifies that it is a mental worry, or it is something that is not mentally clear to you yet. The girls dissibility, in contrast to the perfect girl in the next dream, signifies your reflections of your current girlfriend, what you consider to be negative and not working as well in this relationship (of course, these things are where we can most grow and mature in a relationship). Next, (I feel this is an important symbol) you say the girl likes you, and becomes 'close' and suddenly grabs your penis, so this can mean that you know your current girlfriend likes you, but that when she becomes 'close', you can feel that she is becoming possesive (grabbing the genitals is a very possesive thing, as possesive as you can get!) When the gentials show in our dreams, its highlighting to us our attitudes of sex, the union of sex and even issues of commitment and pleasure. Perhaps the fact the girl in this dream is the daughter of a couple, it is highlighting to you that when you're in a relationship that involves a child, you have an issue of commitment and responsibility.
Okay, the next symbols of this dream I will sum up because I covered a lot You said the pain was excruciating (we females have sensitive areas too, periods and we have to give birth, so we have our share of pain!) Okay, well, I think it relates to what I told you before, that the possesive/commited aspect that could be developing in your current relationship could be a painful barrier for you to overcome. Maybe it's even painful to think of and causes mental unclarity because of things that have happened to you in the past. Then, no one came to your aid. This could relate to when things have been painful for you in the past, no one has seemed to be there for you, and disappear when times get hard. The next symbols relate to how you deal with pain. You pushed the girl away, and forced her away to stop the pain. So, maybe when you have to deal with issues in relationships in the past, you've always 'pushed' the girl away, and isolated yourself to solve the problem, rather than discussing the problem.
The business transaction could be your mind trying to work out the problem after isolating yourself. You go within to solve the problem, which is good. Though I think the next symbol blocks you: being in a crowded room. Surrounding yourself with people is a way to escape, and not solve the problem. Which is why the problem returns, with the girl having a grip so deep it seems to touch your soul. It seems to me that this issue subconsciously touches you so deeply, that it seems to reach your very soul. I think the dream is pointing out, you need to go somewhere quiet with no people and understand this deeper part of you and discuss with your current girlfriend about it. Maybe even share this dream as she may have more of a clue having known you deeper. The last symbol: The couple takes the girl away. Perhaps this signifies that when the going gets tough in relationships, you wait for an exterior event to end it, rather than trying to solve the problem.
This is quite a complexed dream! I will sum up the next events as my eyes are turning square looking at my monitor.
The strange house. A house is representive of our own self and soul, and how we see it, view it, and how connected we are to ourself. The unknown, strange, is parts of ourself we don't know, don't like, or don't like to admit to. It can also represent a change, consider how you feel about the surrounding. If you are afraid or lost, then it indicates that you are not ready for the change. You are not ready to leave the past behind. If you are excited or happy in this unknown place, then it suggests that you are ready for change.
The 18yr old girl, who appears to have a perfect body and no disbilities this time, is the positive aspects of the relationship, and where you think it is working. It seems to me you are enjoying the physical aspects of the relationship, even if the 'strangeness', the unknown could mean you are concerned about where the relationship is going for the future, or what it can mean on your future (change!). The sexual parts of the dream, can just simply mean desire (which is totally natural), or if you feel it is something deeper, perhaps a fantasy of having sex with someone other than your girlfriend. However, I'll leave that interpretation up to you.
Whew, that was quite long!
I hope this has shed some light on the dream for you.
Remember though, you hold the key to the dream, and not me. I gave you my thoughts, and hopefully they opened a few doors for you.
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