Thread: SuorKaterina's Dream Journal

8/13 Nap NL

I was living in this house. I was both mother and sister. At the beginning I was like a roomate. Then I went to get another girl from a friends house. It happened to be my friend Kelly from Grade schools house. We got back and were siting around. There was this girl and me and a boy. I thought to myself. I've seen this boy in a movie recently. Then the girl was smoking. Suddenly I asked her. Does chris let yo smoke. She said yes. Then we talked about them eating crap food. So I said I would feed them from now on. They were very happy and then were like my kids. Then the boy asked chris f he was going to college. And chris said of course. So I interjected and siad, but only if you want to.. Although it is very hard to make good money without one. I was mad at chris for telling him he had to go to college.

Ah naps, lots of vividness in those

8/16 NL

I was traveling around to these different people. SOmehow I ended up in a little plastic kyak and I was racing these other people around a moat. For a while i thought I was winning but it turned out I was last with all the lazy people that were barely paddling. There was something about my name too I think.

Keeping my resolution early! NL 12/3/05

I was in some sort of shooting/ I was in the back of a cop car I think with another person and the cop in front sht the driver. I was afraid to tell anyone because I thought he might shoot me. The I was in school taking english classes. The teacher told me I idn;t need to be there. I said I wanted to take HS classesbecause they didn't cost anything. hen se told me I wouldn;t get any college credits for HS classes and I was mad. Then I wa in this volunteer class and I thought I would get college credit towards social service from it. I was telling some girl. SOmething about Ben from grade school. Then we were in a hous similar to mine but bigger. We were going to live there for a mon th or so. It had actual closets and was well furnished. It had a back bedroom and one with two twinbeds. Our friends were there, aparently they were goig to stay with us because we were having a party. Then I was at this office and there were 2 men selling food but none of the office people would eat their food. It was sad cause they weren't making any money. Then there was something about talking to my uncle cozy, but he's dead. My mom sid he was with aunt sunny now and they were happy.

I think that;s it.
FIN

1/1/06

I dreamt i was on this boat. We were coming to some island. Then we were on this little boat. I was taking a shower and there was a guy in a room across from me and I was trying to get his attention but I couldn;t and it made me sad. SO I went and startd yelling at this woman. Then it turned into 3 women and I was calling them names as I chased them towards the edge of the boat and they fell off. Something about me being a audio/visual learner.

1/3/06

So i attmepted to have another shared dream to no avail. Whenever I try to have a dream I can't. I guess you just can't force these things. I'm beginning to think it wasn't shared anyhow. Just a projection of what my subconcious mind was craving. So I woke up fairly often, ever couple hours or so and retold myelf what to dream, which cost me the memory of what I had dreamt. I think I need to concentrate for the moment on lucidity, not dream control. When I have that down then i can move on. Ah well.

1/4/06

Well jo such luck on the confirmation of a shared dream. Ah well

Dreams last night were nto well remembered. My morning(snooze button) dream was about me being single again and dating. I was dating this tiny hispanic man and thinking that I should just break it off cause he was too small for me=P He was talking to me abour Oren. He said "You know Oren right?" I siad "Yeah by association." Which is true in WL I know about this person but have never met him. So as he was telling me this story, which I was generally ignoring. I was trying to put on my shoes. I kept dropping ym boot. First into a bucket of water, than a sink etc. Then at one point someone had this teal tube of hair dye and I borrowed some and put it on my roots. But I was self concious about doing it because I had an interview or something. I was living in this housing development. Houses looked adobe style, flat.

Damnit! I can;t remember yesterays or last nights dreams! grr. Maybe it's from lack of sleep or too much on my mind. Must relax before falling asleep. Maybe that will help. And go to bed earlier.

1/7/05

Well I lost a good dream I think. I had something to do with me over F&H's house. The next one was about being at some school type building, living there. Something about the biggest shopping day of the year being the day after christmas. Sleeping on the floor, a used condom. An old lady, possibly my grandmother. Really scattered. Is there such a thing as trying too hard?

1/8/06

Well I didn't catch much last night either. But I remember my mother threw away my Mozart Requiem CD because we had digital something arother to replace it and i was mad. Something about a childrens writer, Rahl Dall or whatever his name is. I think I was his daughter. Ugh. more recall now!

1/9/05

He was wearing a tux. Then I was in this parking lot chasing a celebrity, or being chased, in a car. Something about grades too I think.

1/10/06

Good dream recall tonight. Had a notebook by my bed. Writing in the dark was kind ofsketchy, might get a little book light.

Dream 1: I was in this house. There was this boy there who looked like Ian the guy I work with. Was living with my dad. My dad repeated something and the boy made a weird face. I was mad because I didn't want him to hurt my dad's feelings. Then we were outside being chased down dirt roads, finally we were caught up wih and some officer was grabbing me by my bra. I said "Don't grab me by my bra or I will kick you in the nuts." I remember thinking baout that movie that Q Terrintino has out.

Dream 2: I was at an amusement park with a the guy that played the wolf in 10th Kingdom. He really wanted to go on a roller coaster but I would't go. I didn;t want to tell him that I was probably too big for the ride. But he found out and was very sweet about it. I asked him why in every movie he plays a wolf. Then we were going to this concert maybe, in a big many floored building. I was in a bathroom and I peed on a matress pad and felt ashamed untill I saw a pervet watching me. People were trying to get this pervert but my man who was now wearing a burgundy suit to match his floor(my floor was midnight blue and so was my dress) he grabbed him by the foo and dragged him down many flights of stairs letting his head bounce on the steps. Everyone was watching, at some points I was him. I felt proud of myself for deffending my woman. On one flight I could see her look straight at me, I smiled a little inside but kept on my mean and determined face. He sort of remindedme of Galen too.

Fin (unless something else comes back to me)

Bad recall!

ALl I remember is being at this party. People wouldn't let me sit with them and I got mad and sat at the end and then got up and went and peed in a suitcase to piss them off. What is it with me peeing in bad places?


he was there

1/12/06

I dreamt I was at this school type area on a waterfront. Someone wanted me to go out with some guy but I didn't want too. I poured water on my head so I wouldn;t have to. He didn't want to go out with me either. Then there were these pepole who wanted me to model this coat. I was having trouble with the shoot untill someone told me to pretend I was acting, which I did and everyone loved the shots. I was sad that I only got to model in every day clothes but then I was at some get together and aparently I was a supermodel. Then back at the school this group was trying to slander my class. They had an exibit up of us doing these horrible things, then at the end there was the SS Katerina which was sunk, indicating that I was going to die and all my friends were upset that they had done this. Then someone said something about forward advertising, meaining they were advertising on the future and that it was like cheating.

No peeing in weird places last night...thank goodness. Although I guess that would be a good trigger.

1/14/06

I opened a newspaper and the headline said "wait for chris".

Then I was working at this hotel and the front desk person told me to check all the rooms. Then there was this influx of people who were going in the rooms while I was trying to check them.

There was this flea market type thing that I was going through with Heather. She was trying to avoid the Pottery people so we went to the back and there was this jewelry makr. The earings were huge but I really wanted a pair. I think I went back later or was thinking about it.

1/15/06

I was eating this big meal. I had a big square bowl of red rice and was eating the whole thing. But I wanted to be somewhere else. Then I was in this theater and Dan Radclffe and the kid who played Cedric were sitting a few rows in front of me. There were bodyguards in front of us. Then there were people living in a cave but when I went down there with someone I mentioned that light shone in so it couldn;t be a cave. Then we sent kids down to the basement to play and I gave them a boom box to play music on. Then I was outside and this person was after me I think and somehow his hands got cut off. then he was after me on a road and a truc went by with some sheet metal on it or something and cut off his legs. I pushed him in between the roots of a tree and he fell underneath. It was fall so the leaves covered the hole.

Very scattered...oh well

1/17/06

I was on a trip with a bunch of people. One of the girls wanted me to negate a spell for her, but every idea I had the girl and her friend said wouldn't work. So I sai I would check my books but I don;t think I had them on the trip with me. The there was this other girl. SHe was kind of quiet. Something about traveling in a van.

Then I was at chris work place. He was trying to get a portflio together around 1am but all these people kept coming in to distract us. They all wanted jobs done and were really mad. Kelly's mom was there and she was going through the cash bo. Then when chris came out of the office she yelled and threw the money up and said they were trying to cheet him and his should take the money. Then chris tried to put the money back in and Kellys mom started going through the file drawers. Then we finally left because he couldn't get anything done. People from college were there. In the backround someone was play welche wonne welche lust and weall started singing along and we were trying to outdo each other on our way to the parking lot.

Then I was going down bayview street and I wanted to get a room. I think I was on bike. Their were prices listed but some were really expensive and some were really cheap but I couldn;t afford any of them so I left

I think their was something about a parade.

I was in this mobile home type park and I was picking flowers. I had 5 daisies I think. I didn;t know what I was doing there. Then there was a child dying I think. So they daisies were for the kid. But then my mother was there and she had her hands chopped off. And we were all just sitting around until finally someone ceckd her and she had died.

Then I was on this feil on a horse. All my friends were there. I was the Captain or soemthing. I was this tall thin blond woman. Some people from far away came and gave me anote that they wanted my friends first born children. I said no and sent them away. I was very angry. There was something about making food for the foreign peopl. We didn;t have any cream.

Then I was outside the mobile home and there was a comercial for Disney but it was all Fair like and scary and chris was with me. Then someone wanted me to rehang a curtain but I had areal problem doing it. I couldn;t get the lights to turn on in the room. Finally I had them on a spear type rod and put holes through the curtain ad it orked but someone else took the credit for it.

I was sun bathing. There were kids running around. I think I was supposed to be watching them. Then I chased one kid. He had drum batons and as he ran the little ball things fell off. I went to grab one that fell from under a car, we werein a parking lot. But then I realized this guys was a jerk and I threw it again. Something about writing on the bathroom walls. My poetry I think.

Bad recall today. But I don;t feel like I lost anything important. I think it was all pretty much, surface stuff.

I was at this place with heather and another person and their kids. They asked me about my situation. I said I was getting desperate but I was working on i. There were kids in a special class. Someone asked how they got picked and they looked at me. I had picked them cause they were kids that I knew. I think I was a teacher.

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I was at aschool and I was taking classes. There was an english class and a cello class. Their were some other ones too. One was a science class which I think I was failing. I was still working. School was 2 hours away. Their was a hallway with swaeters I was supposed to cut to make pillows but instead I thought I was supposed to shred them in the big shredder next to the table. My english teacher was my sort of guidence councelor. Then I was in the back of a classroom and the cello instructor was scanning people with this light thing and if it turned green it meant you were gifted. She put it on me and it turned green so I went into the class. I showed her my violin. She had a cello head and neck and we were going to learn on that. While I was playing she gave me an O.

I dreamt I was working at a campground. I was the "shithouse" cleaner. YUCK. Then this woman I used to work with was there. Something about us goin on road trip. Then I was talking to chris about buying maternity clothes. I was saying, wy don;t I just wear the same thing all through my pregnancy and just wash it every other day, like one of my friends did. He was saying that it was gross.

DS: Context/Setting-Place & Ego? The preagnant thing...I'm not. Although my dream self seems to consistantly tell me I am. If I ever do become pregnant, I won't be able to rely on dreams to tip me off!

I went to sleep chanting "I will wake up after every dream, I will wake up within my dream." Then I switched to Om Mani Padme Hum as I got sleepier, which is my usual focusing mantra. But I remembered less dreams. But I will perservere!

This is where I have decided to write all my notes and goals and progress. I don\'t have a written journal, so I\'m gonna keep it all here.


<span style="colorrange">Jan-->Feb 2006 Goal: Do reality checks every day, record dreams every day, try to wake up after every dream and do the 61 point relaxation. Ultimate goal by end of month, at least 1 lucid dream.

There were a group of us. A school maybe. We were all outside. SOmething about warm honey running down something, like a wooden cabinet...Then my dad was there(but he wasn't my dad) And he gave me this white parka and said he had stolen it from me when I was younger. The lining looked like it was made of tiger fur so we were looking for a tag that said what the material was but we couldn't find it. I was disgusted as the thought. Then I was in an auditorium and Mike(old boyfriend, like from freshman year High School, why he keeps popping up I have NO idea)came off the stage and wanted me to rescue him from being up there by going up myself and singing. I said I would just give me a couple seconds so I ran outside and got my music. Then I was up on stage but it took me forever to find the aria I wanted to sing, I don;t think I actually got to sing cause it took me too long to find my music. Then there was something about two people sitting in a sun room talking about something, me I think. Something about how going to school for voice performance was a waste of time.

DS: Context/Setting-Place-Character & Form/Character