Thread: Mrs.D's

12 12 05

Just 1 recall today

Im making the hugest mixed drink ever. its in a cup about 4 feet tall and Im stirring with what looks like a paddle

12-13-05

barely recall one thing

Im in an old style jail looking out into the hall thru the bars....

Nice dreaming there.
Now, seriously. i dont seem to see a difference before and after using stones-with-long-names. are you positive that its working?

anyway, have you woken up in midnight before starting to try LDing?

scept. ok,ok maybe not , but maybe and who am I to say. hell if I know anything Im just along for the ride. some people suggested the stones, and yes at first they seemed to work, but... Im sure they only worked because i belived them to.

I didnt know you could even post im my dj, but I enjoyed it, and thought it was funny to see someone reading my dreams, lolol. My dreams seem to be pretty boaring . I see there are some 300 visits to my dj, I think its to funny people would sit and read my boaring crap , and lololol, there you were, hella funny!

I wish more ppl would post ther 2 cents on my dreaming,
Pecae
Mrs.D

mmmm... preety boring? i dont read 4 pages of boring stuff
by the way, it seemed rather odd to me that i am the first to put a response here.

(about the stones- i think its just a placibo affect, but hell, you can never be sure.... ).

I should write a Yoda's Philosophy to lucid dreaming, ok I only read a couple pages and most things seemed pretty short, and included:

I woke up at these hours, fell asleep, and had no dream recall.

Now the point of a dream journal isn't to write down if you recalled or not, it's to write down what you recalled. Like writing a book about what you remember happened in your dream! With this you will learn your dreamsigns, RCs, blahblahblah and so forth.

Ok, a tip to dreaming without waking up every few hours...

Say this before you go to bed:

I will have a highly vivid dream.
I will have a highly vivid dream.
I will have a highly vivid dream.
I will remember my highly vivid dream.
I will remember my highly vivid dream.
I will remember my highly vivid dream.
--
or whatever works for you, also you could add,I will realize I am sleeping and become lucid in my highly vivid dream. hehe ^_^

Try that, and put the stones back in the garden

L8erz,
Ezekiel

12-13-05
Ok nice to hear from you Ezikial. I write down as much detail in my dj so I can view the techniecs I user to aid in my recall.

but any how, here it is my first real lucid dream !!!!!

woke up at 2 am can never recall a thing at this point,.
woke at 4:01 with some clear recall......

Im running thu the woods, up hill on some kinda gravel dirt road, bare foot. I feel like I have glass or splinters in my feet. The woods are shady from all the trees but I can still see flecks of sun light in places that the trees let it in. I dont know why but I continue to run up hill, no one is after me. I notice that I am still running with the splinters in my feet and relize that I would have picked these out of my bare feet had I been really awake. I then relize I am dreaming ! I get all excited to lucid dream and do what ever I want! I try spinning myself into the next experience but when I spun myself I felt weird kinda cool like morphing drunk and really stoned into somthing unexplainably weird. I keep spinning , feeling drunk/ stoned spinny weird. all the long Im hearing the beatles song " hey jude dont be afraid take a sad song and make it better , remember to let her into your hars and you acn start to make it better" I woke up from the weird feeling ! I was so excited about the lucidity I could not go back to sleep.

a couple hours later ,still laying in bed trying to wild but cant get back to sleep, I remember a couple more things. first I recall ...

a dishwasher under my tree with a big red bow

next I recall...

Kissing an old friend (bic)

Go Beatles!

here it is for ya Ezekial... non dream details, but Im sure they are the reason I didnt recall much...

I was all ready and excited for bed to get beck to by dream life. Then right before bed I had crazy porn star sex ,witch I think fucked my mind set all up. I still was telling myself " Ok Im going to become aware that I am dreaming and take full control of my dream" But the crazy sex must have set off some kinda weird endorphins or what not that made my brain all to relaxed and at ease.??? I think sex is better in the morning anyway! does me better than coffe!

ok so I baraly do recall one fuzzy clip of a dream..

Im wrapping giftys and placing name tags on..

I didnt even think to do a reality check being it seemd like somthing I would be doing about now anyway.

12-16-05

I barely recall one clip of a dream......

Kaya is loading bong rips for uncle Andy,

12-17-05

Ok so Im back on it and trying probably to hard again. I am still so excited about the one lucid dream I had. This night I tried to wild right off the bat. I was watching the streaks of light in my eyelids, it started to look like the branches of a bare tree in fall. I watched as long as I could , listning to my breath, trying to stay concious. then maybe 30 munites later, I lost concious awarness and slipped away.....

I did recall some things when I woke up, first recall ,and I am assuming this had been the latest dream i had been in...

I am sneaking into someones house so quiet and sneaky like a ninja, My feet are bare again , I am slowly tip toeing down a hall with a shiny hard wood floor. I make it to the end of the hall and look into a bed room. still sneaky and peaking around the wall. I see a bed and I sneakily crawl up into the bed thru the bottom of the covers by some big feet.

after I layed in bed for about 20 munites the next recall came to me.

I am with a male friend, cant tell who? we are laying under a big bare oaktree, we cudle and enjoy each others comforting company. Im looking up at the blue sky thru the bare branches. comfortable and in love.

12-18-05

Pre bed time amp up....I yell at myself, trying to get it into my head that I can have full lucididity and control. I meditated for 15 min trying to clear any desires for my lucid experience. Then I tried to WILD again right from the start, no dice. I slipped away from my conciousness within 20 min.

woke at 11:45 and tried to go back WILD'ing , cant fall back assleep when I think to much about the wild, so I tried the counting backward from 10 tech( tell myself " I am going to count backward from 10 and when I reach 1, I will enter dream state and have complete awarness" ). I counted slow 10 .....9.......8 and that is as far as I recall before I was unconcious.

next I woke at 2:25 and tried to WILD yet again for the night, again no luck. I counted backward from 10 and didnt even make it to 5 once again ( I guess I know how to put myself to sleep now, but not conciously )

again I woke at 4:45 ,now I have a recall and I write it in the journal......

this wasnt a good dream....

I droped some dished on a few people sitting by the sink and then there were dead people everywhere!
I dont want the kids to see the dead people so I make Mike hide them, sept, he cant pick them up, so he drives a forklift in the house ,( whitch is not my house), and scoops the several dead people up and stacks them in the bath tub. Im freaked out by this time and were still hiding all this from the kids who have no idea there is a huge pile of dead people in the tub. The shower curtin is pulled and they dont notice. Im all "we have to cal 911 and tell them the truth!". so I tell Mike to hide all my bongs , bubblers and pipes. I have to hide about 15 dirty peices before I can call 911. I pick up the phone and dial the # some one answers. "hello" in a weird old voice. I start talking but I am screaming and crying all at the same time... " there has been an accident, we need HELP, please hurry! please! ". By this time Im thinking maybe some of those people are still alive and really need help. The shakey old voice says.." Oh I am so sory you have the wrong # this is 919. I start to calm down and tell her "ok, I am sory to have bothered you".
then I wake up..... I had to lay in bed at least 5 min befor I could remember all that and after I did recall I wished I had'nt.

Lucky I got to fall back to sleep ! when I woke at 6:05 I had one good recall

I see some didges on a corner propped against the wall, I know they are Tyler Spencer didges. I walk over and take my pic witch is, a really long, knotchy, light wood didge with a really bad sharp mouth peice. I give er a blow and wow! the sound is so smooth, so soothing, I love it. I prop it up on a black tile to bounce sound off. I play away , vibrating and resonating with the lovely didge.
:vibes:

12 20 05
Of course Im still waking back to bed 3 times a night.

Damn Sex and Drugs!
I was all excited for bed like usual, when,my train of thought got all fucked up with sex. Yes Sex is good( great), but Im on a mission here . My mission to become fully aware and concious in the unconcious.
Damn I barely recall one tiny clip of a dream

....Im putting my mouth up to a tube of bamboo holding it in my hands


when I woke up I tried to lay still with my eyes closed and I peice my dream together.I couldn not tell if this tube was a didgeridoo or a bong, my 2 favorite items, they seem to be inmy dreams alot. so I geuess a tube can be one of my dream signs weather it be a didge or a bong.

I f ed up on the dates as I will see later when researching and reviewing, blah blah blah..

the 20th no recall, damn ie!

the 21st hella recall

first.... I see the big ash tray with huge camel butts in it I know they are my dads. I ask a man Im with " are you a smoker too"?

Next dream... I was going back to bed at 3 am , trying to WILD
I DID IT, I WILD'ed! I was singing the song hey jude in my head untill I relized I was feeling all spinny drunk and weird again, I get excited (I did it) Im spinning and hearing the song again. I start rubbing may hand together to ground myself into the dream. I stop spinning. Im still rubbing my hands together and Im looking down a black vacuming hole. Im yelling for Brandie ... Blade..... Anyone...... its just black and I am alone rubbing my hands.

another recall...... Im at the grocery store picking up a prime rib roas. Ifeel all of the roast they all feel tender and , I note prices 30-4o-or $50., I pick the 440 roast and go to check out.

yet one more recall... Im leaping thru that air almost flying

some pretty clear recall....
Im at roosovelt middle school I have to go home accross the street to get somthing, I run and I come back to school. I run into the restroom because I have to go so bad. I wake up now and have to use the restroom, but not as urgently as my dream suggested.

I tried to Wild at this point again imaging myself rubbing my hands together in a dark hole. Did not work this time

I do recall.. Im waiting in line at a checkout counter. I have to sign my name and give my phone # befor they will let me go.

12 -23-05


I only had one small recall .....

Im standing at the buffet (Empire), all the steam riseing from the different foods and alot of lights.

pretty cruddy recall. damn it!

I got a great book today, from Santa. it has some good tech in it.
(Concious Dreamng, by Robert Moss). I read this book for a couple hours today.
It gave me some great tips for my dream adventures. I first wrote my desires on a peice of paper. I wrote....
" Fully Aware " " " " ""Fully Lucid" " " " "
and
"Im going to fly thru space, Im going to play in uiversal love and chi"
I doodled some clouds and starst on the paper folded it up and placed it with my lil pouch of dream stomes under my pillow. It worked very well.... This looks to be the longest entry in my paper journal at bedside.
I wake at 2:43 and go back to bed trying to WILD. I imagine myself back in the black hole rubbing my palms together. I lose conciousness..
first off, Im naming my dreams now and the title of this one is
Over the hill to Work
Im walking up hill, the hill seems to be getting steeper and steeper. I note how hard I am trying and struggling to get up this hill. I then remeber this hill is one of my dream symbols and I relize I am dreaming! I stop climbing the hill and start rubbing my hands together because I feel myself get excited and i want to ground myself into the dream state. I can hear myself humming while I rub my hands together and I fell my sleeping body I focus on my hands rubbing and stay with the dream. all sudden Im in a big fancy house. Im looking from room to room untill I see a really messyand un orginzed room. As I stand at the door way looking at this messy room a man walks up from behind me and say's" Make sure you vaccume this before our guest arive" I go into the room and start picking up. after the room is all picked up. I look in the closet for the vacume. Its not there. I go to look for the man to ask him where the vaccume is. I am running fast and feel very hurried to get the room clean. I look upstairs and down and basement and then I finaky find him in the garage . I ask him where is the vaccume? Im still in a huge hurry , the guests must be ariving soon I think. He says its in the hall closet. Still in a hurry I run back upstairs and to the hall closet , ahh there it is. I pull it out fast and run to the messy room. I am in such a hurry now I runn all the while I vaccume.


next I recall just a dog

lastly I recall....

naming this one
Frustrated Mike
Mike is yelling at me and making me feel hurt and wothless

The last two clips were to short and ordinary to relize i was dreaming, when I woke I felt hurt that Mike makes me feel worthless witch I already knew. But empowered that I can see this and dont need to feel worthless in the least

I also listend to some sound healing CD with Delta brainwaves thru out the day
This was my 3rd lucid experiance in a week, F-ya!

12 26 05
I wrote on the peice of paper in my pillow case,
" why am I climbig? what am I climbing from and why am I running? what am I running from?"
well I probably should have started with just one question. But I always over do and try to hard.
I went to bed tired and fast. I woke at 1:45 with this recall
Uncle Andy got the kids samarui swords and some kind of old fashon fan, (that you have to squeez these two things together and air pushes out a box top) . The fan and swords were both Black with red and gold.
BTB, woke at 3:38
[i] the number 1822, and then me and Kaya in a short deep bath tub

Im in some unfirmiliar house, SD? Sara and echoe are there and I think about telling them im pregnant, but I cant decide if Im going to have this baby.
I dont tell them and I decide to have an abortin because I dont want to bring more suffering into this world?:
When I went back to bed it was 3:45 and I noticed it was the perfect time to try to wild, but then I changed my mind. I want to try dream reentry , dreaming the dream onward. I want to know why I am always climbing .. So I visulise myself on the hill I often climb, struggling to get up like I usualy am. I counted backward from 20.. loosing conciousness...

Im standing at the top of a mt. it is a pass.The powder is fresh and it is snowing. Im with a group of maybe 10 peolpe. Then a helecopter drops down bringing a load of snow Bikes. These look like reg bikes accept the tires are big innertubes. after a couple guys go down the hill I decide to grab a bike. Three girls say wait wait let us be your cheering sectin, I feel they just wanna flirt with boys but whatever. I start down the mt. all a sudden In boarding, HELLA fast! the my is like strait down! the cool crisp air in my face and the snow falling just blures by like acid streakers, I catch myself looking into the strerakers of snow and all's a sudden Im turned around riding backward. The girls all cheering away up top and I giggle and wave . this turning made mystomach drop like a rollercoaster and I grabbed my stomach. The girls up top are laughing now and holler "shes ganna blow" .After I reached the bottom i started to walk back up the hill to go again. I wake , its 4:45. BTB by 5

6:25
I had two small clips come to me while I lay in bad after my final awakning

Im in a shower, then I sit at a table with kaya ant we read magazines, on of these magazines is not for children I keep trying to hide it but curiousily want to peak.

For Fuck sake There has to be some meaning in a few places here. I dont even know If I wanna find out though.
damn computers Im done typing here

dang I forgot to name those dreams so here are names for them 4 dreams 4 titles.


andy spoiles my kids

not telling,

strait drop off

hiding somthing

why names ?????

12 27 05
First I wrote on a fresh peice of paper,
FULLY AWARE, FULLY LUCID, look at my hands, feel them. Then I drew a little hand with a spiral in the palm, I placed it in my pillowcase.. I aslo Looked at my hands how I pland on looking at them in my dream state.
Next
I imagined native drums as I fell to sleep, hoping to have meaningfull dreams.
woke 1:28 I recall three dreams

#1Im Dancing

#2Im outside on a city street. It is night time. Justice, the harmonca player from reeble jar walks up from behind me and wrappes his arms around me and gives me a hug from behind. I can only tell it is him when his strait black shiny hair brushes up against my neck. It is soft and smooth. He says " hold on to this will you" , and he hands me a tiny porcilin stardust (the lil puffy thing from rainbowbrite). Im looking at the little thing when it turns into a little rubber stuffed toy. It may only be 2 inches tall. I pull all the stuffing out of the little things feet and take a lighter and torch the inside of it. now it is hollow and burnt black around the edges

#3 Im looking at my hands and relize this is what I came to do.. Im Dreaming again.!!! I really look into my hands. they are kinda blotchy and blue looking. I start gently rubbing my finger tips together. The right thumb with the pointer finger. I can feel evey crease in my fingers as if they were ripples of desert sand, I keep looking at my blotchy handsand gently rubbing my finger tips,

wow another LUCID, cool!

I wake for the final time at 5:50, my head is empty, I lay in bed trying to find any thought of memorie, finnaly I recall a couple of very short clips of dreams...

#4 two puppets on strings putting on a puppet show, Im watching

#5me and someone else? who, eating ice cream cones, or maybe its frozen yogurt, I get rainbow sprinkles


the past 2 days , I have been using delta brainwaves durring the day for two 1 houre sessions. I cant wait to get some Theta brain waves to listen to while I sleep. But since I only have the Delta CD, I figure if I listen to is a couple times a day when I go to bed maybe I will be naturally ready for theta.

oh ya I will give dream names later

12 28 05

today I was at my whits end , I think I had a sever nervous break down. I was way to stressed to even think about dream work. I had such a break down my body broke out in hives and I cried and cried. KIDS god damn it! I will have no more! No More!
In other words, I had no recall and Im sure it was due to stress overload.

12 29 05

I wrote on paper
" fully aware I will play didgeridoo and sit under my oak tree"

I visulised my tree and the sound of the didge as I contiualy told myself I was going to my dream world to play that didge and enjoy myself. It was amazing what happened next! I started to feel the vibrations of the didgeridoo, I could see the long dark brown agave hovering above me as I lay there. It played starting in my toes and moving up till it had taken my whole body into a violent shaking vibration. I then lifted off out of the body and flew high into the nights sky. I knew this wa again a Tyler Spencer didge. Now I do not think I was dreaming because there was no lapse between the vibration in my head and to my body. I knew what I was doing when I lifted up and out.. It was really great and felt wonderful like pure extacy, no better than X, like pure love. :vibes:

WBTB at 2:40


[/i] I was at an amusment park with Mike, both my kids,Heidi ,Andy, Margaret , and moto Mike. We arte all sitting at a picnic table watching the rides and eating elephant ears( you know fried bread with cinnimon sugar ). Andy and Margaret go wait in a really long line for some big ride. Mike is on a freis wheel up high and hes rocking the seat. I see him fall out and at leat 50 feet to the ground. I run over to him fast as I can and start Quantum touch healing on him.




This has been by far my best experiance in all my research yet.!
Hella sweet!

12 30 05

I wrote my mission on paper slid it in my pillow case,my mission=
"I will walk down my lifes road and go down my path"
"I will view into my future self"
I drew a little road with different paths on the paper. then I started the alphabet game in my head, A apple, B ballon,C cat, E eggplant, by the time I got to F Im only picturing things I really enjoy or desire, Fun,G Glass, H honesty ect ect.

a faint recall of
being on the shitter and having no TP, I yell at Kaya to bring me some kleenex

Lastly I recall,
The tall long haired man, he is standing in a dark corner and he is looking strait into my eyes this time. I feel he can really see me as who and what I am. A soul of infinate love and graditude

Again this night my mission is not licidity. It is to see myself in the future. To see where lifes road is taking me and to examine what I view, naturally whithout my ego trying to alter the dream in any way. But maybe, just maybe, the alphabet game on my hopes and desires took the natural flow of dreaming out of my head and put some of my alphebetical wants in play? maybe just maybe, because when I got to T it was Tyler Spencer Didge. Tyler is tall with long hair and big tweeked out eyeballs.

I was out partying at the reeble show, up till 3 am, woke at 5 btb woke at 6 and no recalls, nothing much on 3 hours sleep.
I did go to sleep with didge sound in my head and woke with didge sound in my head. I had no true mission for this night except to dream about my soon to be, agave didge

Now I would like to addres my previous night future expedition...

This is truely freaky.. I asked to go down my the future path. each thing I saw in my dreams formulated it self the very next day !12 31 05

First When I woke there was no TP were I needed it. ( weird coincidence)

Next I had an email from one of my business peeps. I didnt previously(that night) recall this dream untill he said somthing. I dreamed I got a large order 30 sp 30 whips. The order came in by noon, but a tad larger even ( freak preminision)

Lastly and this may be the freakiest part of all
When I went to the reeble show the band was playing in this dark corner of the bar. I had been to the bar but forgot what bar it was untill I got there. As soon as I saw the sceen I prepared myself for my last dream to formulate, and so it did. Tyler ( the tall man with long hair and the eyes) looks at me with those big tweeker eyes, from the dark corner where he was playing didge. He is dressed in all black so the only thing that stands out of the dark corner is his face, his eyes! It was a fucking trip. ( strait spookey) My stomach dropped and when I heard the didge play it resonated with me deeply, thu my whole being.

Damn when I get this far into the research, I get kinda freaked at the simple facts. I felt as If I was fucking crazy as the incidents unfolded thu out my day. I will try this again tonight, maybe I will recognize early warnings if I try looking down my future path. Maybe this can help in my daily decision making?...
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