I apologize in advance for the size of this post. I've just been saving them up for the last few days here at my grandparents'.
December 22, 2007
Wow, I slept so deeply that night that I don't even remember turning off my alarms. And there were four of them. My sleep is supposed to be getting lighter with a regular schedule, but for some reason that's not happening.
Literary Mass
HCA was held outside the church that I attended a few years ago. My principal popped out from behind a tree and informed me that I was in trouble for a uniform violation. I looked over my uniform and couldn’t for the life of me figure out what he was talking about. The principal did the same thing to three other students who seemed to be in line with the code. We asked him repeatedly what it was that we had done, but he simply wrote us up. I entreated him with my best puppy-eyed hurt look, which my friend Jessica said was executed so perfectly that she almost cried.
We then went inside the church, and Mr. Carlson was teaching AP Literature. He had us read several emotionally powerful novels, and I read Wuthering Heights with my friend Bryn from RCA. We sat in the sanctuary, and saw on the schedule that there were to be masses and services given on the various novels. Someone walked in and asked Mr. Carlson if the "Three Musketeers" one was going to be a mass or just a service. Mr. Carlson thought it would be a mass.
The Vortex
I was in my third house, circa age 6. A large, powerful black hole appeared outside of a second-story window and started sucking everything out of the house. It then reversed, and shot everything back inside. I tried to find a room with no windows, thinking that I would be protected there. Somehow, the black hole was my fault. My mother was there, but seemed immune to all of the flying crap. I remember finding a suicide note.
December 23, 2007
Jam
I was chatting with someone on a message board, which was somehow a series of pod-like rooms suspended in the sky. We were laughing and discussing trolls of days past, including several banned DreamViews members. There was something involving three locks, each one performing a different function.
The scene switched to Dunder-Mifflin, and Pam was talking to Jim by his desk. Jim made a subtle literary reference and then said, "What, has no one read Wuthering Heights?" Obviously, no one answered. I thought to myself, "Hmm, that's strange. In The Office episode with the Finer Things Club, Jim didn't seem to much care for books." Jim looked sad that no one got his literary reference, and Pam comforted him while Toby watched in jealousy. Then Pam and Jim started having oral sex, and my mother walked in. I tried to shield her from the scene, as if it would get me in trouble.
Fragment I looked at myself in the mirror, wearing my RCA uniform. I pulled at my clothes, wishing I was thinner.
Implosion
Somehow, I taught myself how to destroy my insides just by willing it. I made a few areas of my intestines explode, and decided that this was how I was going to commit suicide. I considered the moral implications of such an act, but felt that I was in the clear. I went to ask my brother if he had any final questions for me – I was willing to tell him anything at that point. He simply went to sleep. I chickened out of destroying myself at the last moment, and instead went to get my father's gun. I couldn't find it, and decided that there were things in life that I wanted to accomplish before killing myself.
Dreamball
I was in the gymnasium from my elementary school. I was thrown onto the basketball team, but was nervous as I hadn't played in almost a year. I didn't do too poorly on the floor, but I couldn't hit any of my shots. Someone named "Ia Dmin" joined the team, and he was an agent from DV sent to sort out the very best members. I asked the coach who "that cute blond" was, and he explained. I walked over to Ia, and told him that he should join DV not only in my dream but in real life, as it would be nice to have a forum of only the best members. (What?! How was I not lucid?)
We talked about dreaming for a little while, and then he joined in our basketball practice. I continued to do decently well, but I didn't understand some of the drills we were doing.
DV: Underground
I’m fairly sure that I had a false awakening in which I wrote down this dream. I somehow learned of a new, top-secret area of DreamViews meant only for the most dedicated lucid dreamers. QwinsepiaSquared and I decided to head over there together. To reach this place, you had to travel by boat in a river that spiraled downward. We took a gondola of sorts, and the descent into the underworld reminded me of The Phantom of the Opera.
We came to a large stone door at the end of the river. It required you to say a password that had been given to each person invited to this section of DV. Qwin recited hers and entered, but I was confused. I remembered an e-mail my mother had received with my password in it, but she had deleted it. Her bank advised her to do so, saying that it could contain a virus. I was forced to return the way I had come.
I had a brief awakening, after which I re-entered the dream. In the style of Narnia, more than a year had passed in the life of DV Underground since I had first tried to gain admittance. I received an e-mail from Adam, giving me my password and explaining that I could still join. I took the same path I had a year before, and my password worked.
Inside, everything was black and white. The narrow halls and doors were scribbled all over, and the scene reminded me of the hatch from LOST. I could see greenish glows emanating from a few of the cracked doorways, and I entered one. I found a few DV members hunched over several arcade games, looking as if they hadn’t seen daylight in months. Their faces were hollow, their eyes sunken, and their skin served as mere reflectors for the sourceless green glow.
Two large groups of members walked in behind me, and briefed me on how things worked. There were two major groups of advanced dreamers with different approaches to lucid dreaming. One group was led by Adam, and another by an admin named Callos. Since Callos seemed more advanced and had a larger group, I joined him. They led me down a steel hall to begin my training.
December 24, 2007
Fragments I was extremely tired upon each awakening, so I didn’t record anything until this morning. And I was too lazy to elaborate before going downstairs to open gifts. I visited my college as a psych student, drew pictures of Dumbo, impressed the professors, and had a crush on someone. Every other dream was spent surfing DV or DV Chat. No joke. Though I don't remember anyone distinctly from those except Exo and Vex Kitten.
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In light of this, I’m going to spend a minimal amount of time on the computer today. I never think to do reality checks while browsing, so it’s detrimental to practicing for sleep. Also, Sara and bro have convinced me to try out the Everyman sleep schedule. I’ll start that in early January after I get back from Italy. I have almost a month before going back to school, so that gives me time to adjust. I’m excited about it.
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