Thread: Unseen Wombat's Dream Journal

2-21-08

Again, I had crap for recall last night. I woke up at about 3:30 and remembered a little of the past dream, though I struggled. I didn't think it was worth remembering, so I only tried half-heartedly and didn't write it down. I then slept through my alarm at 4:45 and woke up angry at myself at 6:05. I tried to WILD, but felt like I just dozed off a second, but the next time I looked at the clock it was 6:22. I did manage to force myself to remember one dream from the 6:22 to 6:45 period after I woke up.

That's the third night in a row that has sucked.

Resident Evil-like fragment

This dream was totally nonsensical. In the beginning, I vaguely remember being in a video game type situation where I was, I think, with Vince. We were going through these doors and there was a dead body in front of each one. We opened them by pushing on the body.

Hot lawyer and bad directions

Later, I was at work. I was assigned to go to a farmer's market to buy some cow poop. I had a bucket that someone else had went to fill with cow poop, but came back empty handed. I went there and couldn't find it either. I was out in the street then and I guess I looked lost, because a hot woman stopped in her car and told me I needed to go to the police station. She was a lawyer.

So, I went to the police station, and was there was long counter there, and the room looked vaguely similar to the screenroom at my old trailer. There were two guys working behind the counter and I was waiting for a guy to finish asking his question, but soon as he was done, this family came in and butted in front of me and the police started taking care of their question or problem. Finally they were done, and I asked where I was supposed to go. (I don't think at this point I even remembered about getting the cow poop). They told me I needed to go to the German camp. I said, but I was told to come here! They said, "Yeah, did a lawyer tell you that?" and I said yeah. They acted like they expected that and said that the lawyers say that to get me in trouble or to make money or something weird like that.

So I went to the German camp. There was this gate, and I went through. It was kind of like a tunnel, and at the end, it was very low. The ceiling was only like 2 feet high, and there was an overhead garage door there. I came out of the other side, and there was a German soldier there. He seemed really happy and nice and had a German accent. There was also a gay German messenger. I don't remember what he was doing.

I was apparently in the wrong place again, because the German soldier said I needed to go back to the police station.

I really hope I have better luck tonight. I hate having no recall.

2-22-08 Pretty bad recall, though not as bad as the past few nights. I tried autosuggesting that I would remember every detail of my dreams, (though I’ve been doing that), and I did wake up several times during the night and feel pretty well awake, which is odd. I woke at 3:30 and remembered I had dreamed, but couldn’t recall a lot of the details. I then didn’t want to go through the effort to try, so I went back to sleep and have now forgotten all of it. Then I woke at 4:49 and again my watch hadn’t gone off, or I just didn’t hear it. I tried taking some 5-HTP last night at about 8:00, but I couldn’t tell a difference.

I did barely manage to remember one dream, the last one. I had to put so much mental effort into recalling anything. It was stupid. However, by sheer force of will, I did drag up quite a few details and though I only remember about 40 to 50% of it, it’s still a lot, because the dream was of epic length.

Search for Christmas Tree/PE review/Phorenice story

The first thing I remember is that I was on Chevy Blvd. I was on foot, though so was everyone else, and there was a guy in front of me. There was also a toy train going down the center of the road, and the first several cars of it looked like cargo containers and were each made of a single red brick. The train was set up by a store at the corner of Chevy and Brookpark as a Christmas display. I went there and saw a really big Christmas tree. It was like 20 ft tall.

Then I don’t remember what happened in between, but I was now at the mall. I was looking for their Christmas tree. I found it, and I called either my mom, or my wife on the phone and said something like, “They have it here, but it’s not nearly as nice as the other one.” The tree was an artificial one, and it looked like it didn’t have enough branches, because you could see the aluminum trunk.

Then there was another break where I don’t remember what happened, and I was in my car, driving. I got a phone call from this Indian guy who worked at a gas station. He called to tell me that he found a review class for the PE exam for me, but it was in Houston. I had already found another gas station that was offering it, “way down on Chevy Blvd.,” and told him that. I felt kind of bad that I hadn’t called him before and had made him do all the work of looking for one for nothing. He called out to someone there on his end, saying something like, “Bring back my knife.” He had given someone a knife/stake to stake/reserve my position in the class.

I imagined someone going out after the guy who had gone to stake the position. Then I was that person. Then, I was the guy doing the staking. Then, I was a white bird who was carrying a message, and there was a wolf chasing me. The next thing I remember is I arrived in this living room without having been caught. The wolf was still with me though, and he snapped at me a few times, though he was too tired to bite me. We were both tired. We got up on this couch, and there was a family there.

I started telling them this story, and I was no longer the bird. I was holding the bird, which was now a really strange thing. It looked like a bird wing, with no feathers, but it was still white, and was opening and closing at the elbow joint. I started to read the story from this, and it turned into a white plastic bag shaped like a tornado.

The story had something to do with Phorenice. (She was the wicked queen of Atlantis in an old story called “The Lost Continent,” by C. Cutliffe Hyne. It’s one of my favorite stories. She was killed when the Sun Priests sank the entire continent because of her blasphemy). Well, I don’t remember if I was just rereading that story, or if it was something new, but near the end, as I got closer to the bottom point of the tornado bag, I found I couldn’t get any farther. The last thing I remember reading was that Phorenice had come back to life, and had been queen again for a while until she died again.

Then I woke up and made an epic struggle to remember even this little bit. Tonight is Galantamind, so I hope I do better.

2-23-08

Yes! I got lucid last night. I had 2 separate dreams that were lucid, and one semi-lucid. The first one was just from remembering that I
wasn't really in the dream scene, I had just gone to sleep in my bed. The second one was almost a DEILD, but I had a short non-lucid in
between. It was also my first DV member dream. I was at Hiros' apartment.

I went to bed at about 1:00 and woke up once before my WBTB. I had just had a super long dream, but didn't remember anything. Just that
I was drawing a square on a highway sign. Then at 6:30, at my WBTB, I had just had another dream, but forgot everything again, except one bit
about chocolate donuts. I then took the Galantamind and stayed up reading my own previous dream journal entries for about 45 minutes. I then
WBTB, and tried to WILD on stacked pillows on my back and got nowhere. I gave that up at about 8:00, and tried to WILD from my side. I fell
asleep, but wasn't very deeply asleep, because I had my first lucid. I was also listening to my first, best preset, 12-21-07, on the
meditation engine. I don't know what it is about that one. It's just bouncing from 4 to 6 hz, no bells or whistles and no tricks. But it's
given me the best results. Go figure.

Floating crouton lucid

The first two non-lucids aren't even worth writing down. After I gave up the WILD from my back, I started to dream about being at a
restaurant. I don't know what it was for, but I think it was a special occasion for work maybe. My mom was there, and I was at the salad bar.
There were great big leaves of lettuce there, and I was tearing them into smaller pieces onto my plate because I couldn't eat anything that
big. I don't know what happened then, but I left the restaurant, and there was a crouton floating in front of me. I don't think it was because
of the crouton, but because I happened to spontaneously remember, "Hey, I'm actually in bed," I became lucid! I was looking at the
crouton floating in front of me, and made it sway from side to side. I didn't have much clarity though, so I thought to myself, "I need to
trigger a false awakening so I can have a better lucid dream."

So I pretty much just collapsed there in front of the restaurant. I was laying on the ground, and I could feel the pulsating sensation in my
head, and then I woke up, I think, for real.

Hiros' apartment/Vampire Jessica Alba lucid

I tried immediately to WILD again. I got right back into a dream, but I wasn't lucid. I was with a bunch of people from work. I think we were
at a banquet. I suppose in the same restaurant. I was on the computer making a hat for my wife on Cafepress.com. It said "Love," and I was
editing it to say "'Til Love." The secretary, Tana, made an annoucement. I was then at a table and TB sat down and said something about the
company being ripped off by their dental insurance company. I was mad because I felt he was ripping off the employees by paying us peanuts.

I don't know how I transitioned, but somehow, I was in an apartment, or dormitory, and Hiros was there. He looked like a person I had
never seen before, which, I suppose is appropriate, since I don't know what he looks like, but I can't even think of a famous person I can
compare him to. I'm surprised I didn't think of him as his avatar of Peter Petrelli, because IRL, when I'm on a forum, I usually visualize
people looking like whoever they have in their avatar. He had kind of long dark hair, and was pretty big. He was sitting in a chair there by
the window. He said only like one thing I remember. He said, "{something something} {something about zombies and ghouls}, Maaaaan," like he
was high. I guess I only remember that one word.

Then I wondered if my dream had put me in Australia, or if we were in America. I looked out the window, and there was a bus that had an
Aztec-looking design above the front-side windows. I concluded we must be in South America.

Then I looked around the room, and the dream got clearer. I don't know why. I went to the back of the room. It was pretty long, and there were
several beds in there, that's why I think it was a dormitory, though only the one window in the front. I came back up to the front, and near
the entry door, there was this alcove full of electrical equipment, and wires running vertical. This is where things got really clear. Hiros
was no longer there. I spontaneously remembered I was trying to get lucid. I reminded myself that none of this was real; I was
dreaming and actually in bed. I decided I should first ground myself, so I touched the bars that were around the alcove to keep people away
from the electric equipment. They felt cold and just like you would expect smooth steel bars to feel. I felt some vertical wooden bars too.
They were really smooth and had been urethaned or varnished. I felt the bricks around the corner from the alcove. They were rough and felt
exactly like real life. There was also a radio playing. It was a talk radio show. The host had a guy on the telephone who was talking about
George W. Bush, and how we should get the satellite program funded or something, so that we could get the aerial photos of World War II.
I wondered if the radio in the other room IRL was actually playing this show, or if I was just dreaming it.

I decided I had enough of grounding and... I'll give you three guesses what I decided to do next. Yes, I decided I should go out of the room,
because that was where I would find Jessica Alba. I paused at the door, then opened it. I didn't see Jessica Alba. I was now in a long
corridor that was part of a hospital. There was a desk to the right, and a nurse or receptionist was behind it. I paused and looked down and
to the left. There was a nightstand there with a telephone. I felt kind of dizzy, but looking at the telephone gave me back some clarity.

I turned around, and there was Jessica Alba! It was the blonde version again. Almost immediately though, I became Jessica Alba.
There was another Jessica Alba there, who I don't even know where my subconscious gets off thinking that was her. It didn't look like her at
all. She looked like a goth girl with like chin length, dark hair. She was still pretty hot, but looked more like Nitara from Mortal Kombat.
And she was, like Nitara, a vampire.

Yeah, like WTF. The vampire Jessica Alba got to one knee in front of me and swore her devotion to me or something. Then I was looking at all
of this in third person. There was the vampire kneeling in front of the blonde Jessica Alba. I looked down the corridor and there was this old
lady coming towards us. She was laughing and I knew she was a zombie. I was like, "Oh great." I would have to fight her, or else she would
ruin my dream. I went to her met here near the nurse's desk and grabbed her by the arms. I started swinging her around. She was still laughing
and trying to bite me in the ribs. I threw her over the desk, then thought, "Okay, I didn't get bit or scratched, I'm not infected." I guess
the thought of scratching took over the dream, because then I saw the vampire's fingernails. She had pretty white fingernails, and looked like
she had too many fingers and they were too long and slender. She was making scratching motions.

Lucid dreaming DVDs

I then woke up and went back to sleep. It was very hard to get back to sleep, so rather than try to WILD again, I figured if I just went back
to sleep, I would become lucid anyway, because today was already really good. I then had another dream that I don't think was lucid.
The beginning may have been though. I was watching these DVD's about lucid dreaming. There were several sections, and I was watching with my
mom and wife. Each one showed a different person and how he or she gets lucid. The first one we watched was this old lady. She had a lot of
cats. She had this chair with a rack attached to the side of it. There were three tiers on the rack and they had a bunch of watches. The first tier, near her feet, had watches that showed the correct time. The other tiers, getting closer to her head, showed time that wasn't right. And the watch that sat on the chair right next to her didn't run at all. I'm not sure how this helped her get lucid. There was a cat sitting in the place where the non-running watch sat. He was playing with a cat toy.

Then there was another section I watched. There were these black kids, about seven of them, that had ropes with a hoop at the end. There was a bar at the end of this room, and the walls were stone. They put the hoops over the bar and brought the ends of the ropes back across the room. The one kid at the end put the hoop over the end of the bar and it passed right through the support that held the bar up. In the dream, I knew this was impossible, but I figured it was just a DVD. There was then this black guy and a British lady who were talking and teaching about lucid dreaming.

Vacation to Connecticut/Airport movies

Then the dream shifted, and we were out driving on the highway. I wondered if we were in England. I looked at a sign on the highway, and it had a picture of Connecticut. We were on a cross-country trip to visit different mountains. It was then time to go back home. We went to the airport. There was a hot babe standing in line in her pajamas. I figured she was living there at the airport until the flight left.

I looked at the tv monitors there. They were showing a preview of this movie that was a remake of a Chinese movie that had not done well in the theater. I remembered the story from the original movie. It was an American remake, and the actors they had cast looked really out of place. One guy, who was supposed to be an old kung fu master, was played by Marky Mark, or someone like that. Anyway, the story was about this guy who was supposed to protect the Queen. There were two other guys who ganged up on him and killed him. Then they kidnapped the queen. The movie was called, "Seven Samurai: The Protector of the Queen," or something like that.

Then my phone rang and I woke up. Oh well. The lucid part was really nice. It was probably the longest really clear lucid I've had so far. And at least my screwed up recall has been broken. Hope I can do it again tonight.

Originally Posted by unseen wombat

I don't know how I transitioned, but somehow, I was in an apartment, or dormitory, and Hiros was there. He looked like a person I had
never seen before, which, I suppose is appropriate, since I don't know what he looks like, but I can't even think of a famous person I can
compare him to. I'm surprised I didn't think of him as his avatar of Peter Petrelli, because IRL, when I'm on a forum, I usually visualize
people looking like whoever they have in their avatar. He had kind of long dark hair, and was pretty big. He was sitting in a chair there by
the window. He said only like one thing I remember. He said, "{something something} {something about zombies and ghouls}, Maaaaan," like he
was high. I guess I only remember that one word.

LMAO! Thats awesome, Maaaaan.

Btw, I'm tall but not big. 6' 2" and skinny. Caucasian, short dark hair.

I wonder if you'll look like a wombat in my dreams?
I know a guy who's nickname is wombat, maybe you'll look like him
Haven't had any DV member dreams yet, although now that I've said that I probably will.

Congrats on the lucid, and getting JA to appear. Too bad the zombies and vampires had to distract you

Oops, yeah. That's what I meant by big. Not fat, just tall. But not gangly either.

2-24-08

I got lucid agan last night! Twice! And they were both WILDs! Finally!

Rope-climbing WILD!

I got the rushing feeling again and it was even more intense than the time last week or two weeks ago. It felt like I was gonna be shook apart. And I heard voices too. I took 2 Galantamind again, for the second night in a row, and it worked. I woke up at 6:30 just like yesterday. Stayed up for 45 minutes playing Mortal Kombat II online, then BTB. Again, I tried to WILD from my back and got only mild vibrations only in my neck. At 8:15, I turned to my side, then laid there for I don't know how long. Eventually I started getting tingles in my arms and legs. Then my arms started vibrating. I only had my arms going, so I figured I'd try to use them on the rope technique. It was hard to climb, because I was thinking of how it felt to climb in real life. Then I realized, "Hey, this isn't real. I can climb by just using my arms." I climbed through the ceiling of my room, but instead of the attic, I was above my old trailer. I climbed higher, up into the air above it, I'm pretty sure I was dreaming at this point. I wasn't thinking at all about my body in bed. I stepped off onto an invisible platform in the air and let go of the rope. Then I did remember my body, and woke up.

Shang Tsung in the dark/Midknight WILD!

Finally my whole body started vibrating. The feelings were a lot like what I feel when I do the energy raising exercises on my hands and feet, but over my whole body.

I was laying there, and I wondered if I would hear voices, then I did! I started to hear someone in my right ear saying "Go on," over and over. It was just like someone was right there.

The vibrations came and went. I don't remember exactly how, but I was able to make them stronger, I think by doing the stirring exercises. Eventually, one time I made them really, really strong, then the meditation engine beats turned into a single tone, then started back up again, and the vibrations got milder. It felt like my body was sinking back into its original position. I was really close there I think.

At one point I really did start to dream, I woke up and noticed I was in the bed with the same comforter and everything, but I was in the back bedroom instead of my real bedroom, and two cats were laying on the bed with me. One was our grey cat, Crixus, and the other was a black cat. I said, "Hey Mid." (I forgot about Draba for a minute, and thought that it's a black cat, so it must be Midknight, our black cat who died back in 2001). I was a little disoriented, and was almost unsure if I was dreaming. But then I remembered that Midknight was dead, and knew that I wasn't really in the back bedroom.

It was really dark in there, and I tried to look at my hand. I was almost scared to do it, because I remembered how it scared me the last time I did it in a dream. But I couldn't see anyway. I thought, "Okay, I'm going to be Shang Tsung." (While I was playing Mortal Kombat during my WBTB, I decided this is what I would do when I became lucid). I don't know if it worked, because it was too dark for me to see if I had changed. I knew I had to get out of there and into someplace brighter. So I thought, "No, I'm Raiden. I'll teleport to the kitchen." It didn't work. I tried to clap, as though we had "the clapper" to turn the lights on. And this was weird, but my hands just would not make a clapping sound. It was as though I was hitting the heels of my hands together, and they were just making a "thunk" noise, even though the palms were hitting each other and I should have been clapping.

Then I remembered that I was ignoring Midknight, who was here back from the dead. I gave him a kiss and petted him a couple times. Then I put one foot down from the bed and strode out with the other foot. I got to the bedroom door, and could see some light at the bottom of my vision. (I had a sock over my eyes IRL because my room was too bright. The sock was also over my exposed ear too because the room was cold). I realized I had my eyes closed in the dream, though I could see, darkly. I tried to open my eyes, but opened them in real life. So I woke up.

Still, even though I didn't actually do anything in these dreams, it was awesome that I was able to actually WILD. And the sensations were incredible. It's worth staying up just to feel that.

Yeah, I was thinking big as in broad and strong. hehe.

Yes! Congratulations!
We both made breakthroughs on the same day, I had a DEILD, yay. Although yours is more significant. What exactly is your WILD technique btw? I've been trying on and off for 2 months almost and still no success

Everything changed for me about a week after I started reading Astral Dynamics and trying the exercises on my hands and feet. I think most of it is hogwash, all the stuff about actually being separated from your body and meeting other dreamers, but the bits about visualization of your energy body must be connecting neural pathways for me or something, because I never felt such strong vibrations before.

Otherwise, my WILD technique is right from the "How to trick your body into falling asleep" thread. I can't seem to do it from my back, because I always need to swallow, and that messes me up. I notice it also helps if I'm really warm. I have an electric blanket and I set it high enough that it's slightly uncomfortable while I'm awake. I theorize that when I sleep and my body temperature normally goes down, this keeps my mind thinking that I'm actually awake.

I'm also taking 8 mg of Galantamind, staying up for 45 minutes, then BTB with my meditation engine set on the preset I posted earlier. Then, about 45 minutes after that, I give up trying from my back (I don't know if this has anything to do with my success or not, but I do it), and turn to my left side and put something over my ear so it stays warm. Eventually, I get really powerful vibrations. Then, this last time, I didn't even notice the transition, but I'm dreaming and aware.

2-25-08

No lucids last night, and not very good recall either. It was a strange night, because I took half an actifed before bed, so I slept pretty deep. I woke up to my alarm at 4:30, then thought I dozed off for only a minute, and it was 5:05. I got up and took one Choline pill. I wasn't sure if it would help any, but I gave it a shot. I then remembered one dream a little later, but before I woke up to go to work.

I'm a girl, and a hot nurse, on an airplane

My recall started with me watching a commercial about ratios and prices. The first scenario was of a high price and good service at a doctor's office. I was a woman, and was a nurse. I was real nice to the patient and took off his shoes nicely. The second scenario was of a low price and crappy service. I was still the nurse, but I was in an airplane and had a small matress that I threw down the aisle to someone who asked for it.

I was then myself, and was watching as the nurse (who was really hot) and the stewardesses threw stuff all over the place, giving crappy service. They were roaming about the plane and eventually all wound up together and had a parade, walking around the aisles in a single file.

I looked outside, and we were taxiing to the runway. The plane wasn't moving on its own though. There were all these hot black, latina and asian babes pushing on the wings. There was a black guy behind the plane who was rapping about them.

Then it was time to take off. I had an empty McDonald's bag in my hand for some reason. I went to the back of the plane, where it was open and like the deck of a boat. The tail of the plane made up the back wall. The plane accelerated really fast. Much faster than a normal plane, and I almost fell off the back, but caught myself on the tail. I looked at the ground behind us and there was a vortex of spinning dust. It went across a dusty, stony area and kicked up a whole bunch of stones, but missed all the hot babes and the black guy.

Then I woke up and didn't really have as hard of a time as before remembering all this. Still, it was the only dream I remembered. I think my recall has been so crappy because I was about to get sick. Today I was feeling pretty crappy. Hopefully getting over it will restore my recall.

2-26-08

I'm sick now for real. I stayed home from work so I could go to the doctor today. I tried to WILD, but couldn't stop sniffling. I did remember a few fragments of dreams.

Bun-bun's booby-trapped house

In the first one, I only remember that Bun-bun from Sluggy Freelance (www.sluggy.com) lived in this elevated house. He had stairs going up to it and people were trying to get up there. He had booby trapped them though. There was this metal block that came out from the side rail of the steps and hit you in the foot. The steps also rotated flat so you would slide down, like in just about every episode of Scooby Doo. There were other booby traps, but those are the two I remember.

Ancient Greeks and Summer dog fragments

In the next one, there were these guys standing on top of stone pillars. The pillars were about 5' square and the people were citizens of some ancient city. One of them was the king, and another was his priest/prophet/advisor. They were taking over some city.

In the next one, I only remember something about the "Summer Dog Competition." It was like an athletic event for dogs. I saw a dog running across a field. That's all I remember.

Vacation at the supermarket

The last one, as is typical, was the longest. My mom, my wife and I were on vacation and were in a supermarket. We were visiting different parts of the supermarket like it was a tourist attraction. My wife bought a camera case with a little stuffed Tasmanian Devil bust on top. We were looking for another one with a different animal for my mom's camera, but could only find an old one with an elephant that looked all saggy like it had been deflated or all the stuffing had come out of it.

At the end, we went to the front air lock and there was a video game there. It played all different old Namco games. My wife hit a button really hard and broke the machine. There were woodchips all around. They were like little odd-shaped balls of wood. We were trying to brush them away so no one would notice that we broke the game. The guy that we see every time we go to Quizno's worked there. He walked up but didn't seem to notice, or maybe didn't care that the video game was broken. He said, "Feel free to take some fruit." There was a wooden bin with cantaloupes and watermelons wrapped in paper near the door. My wife was going to take a watermelon, but he said not to take that one. I'm not sure if it was because the watermelon was too expensive and we couldn't have that, or if it was because it was old and not good anymore.

2-27-08

Crappy recall last night, only one dream near the end, but I'm not surprised. I was sick and sniffling all night long. I did wake up after one dream in the middle of the night, but I thought if I got up to write it down, I would just make my sinuses worse. I couldn't breathe through my nose, so I breathed through my mouth and if I hadn't had any chapstick, I would have had really chapped lips. As it is, they're still a little dry and cracked.

Dirtbike mound in field with Vince and Holly

I was in the car with my mom I think. We were driving down the back road of the trailer park, right alongside The Field. The Field was much bigger than it actually is. I saw Vince out there and got out. There was this big mound of earth that had been made by dirtbikers to drive around on. In the dream, it was winter though, so there was a snowbank on the edges of the mound. We were on this elevated spot and were watchng the dirtbikers try to ride on top of the mound even though it was icy. The first guy sped up the side of the hill and did a wheelie. He lost control though, fell off the bike and both him and the bike slid right through the snowbank and down the opposite side. The next guy then sped up the hill and did almost the same thing, except he got stuck in the snowbank. It looked like a lot of fun! The last guy did it too, and Vince went over there and was going to do it himself. He didn't have a bike, so he was just going to run.

He asked me to come slide into the bank with him, but I was wearing jeans or dress pants or something, and didn't have on my waterproof ski pants, so I said no. He got upset like he usually does and said I was a stick-in-the-mud or something. I said, "I'm not going down there without my ski pants. I'll get all wet and cold. So he got ready to do it himself. I looked on from the elevated spot and saw there were a lot of people standing around. Among them were a bunch of girls who didn't want Vince to slide into the snowbank. My ex-gf, Holly, was their leader. She didn't look like she used to. When I knew her, she was thin and pretty. Now she had grown into a bruiser of a woman. Not super-fat really, but she was a tough-looking woman. Like Hellga from American Gladiators, but with Holly's face and dark hair.

So Vince ran across the top of the mound, and I shouted out to him, "Run like a deeeeer!" in my most retarded voice, (old inside joke from RL), but before he could reach the snowbank. The girls teleported through it and grabbed him. About 4 or 5 of them started carrying him down the hill toward the swamp in the back of The Field. I knew they were going to throw him in, and it was winter and cold, so I went to rescue him. It was more like a fun game though than a dangerous situation. I slid on the ground underneath them and grabbed one of the girls by the ankles. I tried to pull her down but couldn't. I went to a different girl. I had a real hard time pulling any of them down, but I think I may have gotten one of them at one point. They were still carrying him to the back though, so I got up and grabbed Holly by the arms and tried to wrestle him free. She was really strong and I couldn't break her grip.

And that's all I remember. I really hope I feel better tomorrow. Today would have been perfect for WILD, but I had to be sick. Of course, if I weren't sick to begin with, I would be going to work, so it's a catch-22.

2-28-08

So last night I was miserable again. I did manage to stay asleep longer than an hour and a half at a time though, and had 2 pretty long dreams that weren't hard to remember at all.

McCain/Obama energy box

In the first one, I was watching the presidential race on TV. John McCain and Barack Hussein were the nominees. Hillary was nowhere around, So I guess it was sometime in the future. They were trying to raise their popularity or something, but they didn't do it by debating and stuff. There was this wooden box that had dadoes on the top and a spline in the lid that slid in the dadoes. It was my box, and the candidates were trying to fill it with their energy. There was a piece of glass across the top, and blocks of energy from one candidate or the other would fall down through the glass and activate it or something. In order to win, they had to get the energy across the entire piece of glass, but it was really hard to control where it landed, and if it landed on a spot where they had landed some energy before, it wouldn't count. At one point, Barack Hussein tried to cheat by spreading his energy across the entire thing, There were like strings of lightning going across his square, but it was weak, and didn't work.

What a crazy stupid dream.

Work/church in Houston

In the next one, I was back in Houston. I was on some field assignment with my boss from there, Glenn. We were staying at a hotel, but there was only one bed. The bed, and the room we were in looked just like my actual room. We had to share the bed, and I tried to keep as far as I could to my own side. The next thing I remember was that I was riding in the HOV lane with my mom and wife. We were going to church. When we got there, it was a memorial service for my Grandma, like the catholics have. (She died like 15 years ago). The church was like the Lutheran one we used to go to, but the pews were turned 90 degrees from what they actually are. During the service, I was talking to my mom about our ebay project where we sell stuff donated to the church to raise money. There was a big black woman sitting in front of us who was responsible for the shipping. She had on this sheer blouse and we could see the back of her bra. For some reason, we had to pad the bra straps in order to do the shipping, and my mom was supposed to sew the padding. I kept asking her if she was sure she could do it. It seemed really difficult to me.

Both of these dreams were quite a bit longer, but I felt crappy so that was all I managed to remember since I didn't write anything down.

2-29-08

No recall at all last night. I was really miserable. I had chills before I went to bed, so I didn't even bother to try to remember anything.

Tonight is my night to WBTB and WILD with Galantamind. I'm going to try to duplicate what I did last week, because that seemed to work great. I probably will try to go after JA again, but I am not going to be distracted by zombies or anything else. This is my dream and if they show up, I'm gonna blast them away.

3-1-08Tried to WILD last night with 8 mg Galantamind and the preset on 12-21-07. I stayed up 45 minutes then BTB. I didn't cover my ear because I forgot to bring something to the bed with me. Tonight I'll remember.

I did get lucid, but it was low level throughout the majority of the dream, and when I did get higher level, it ended really quick.

I didn't remember anything before the WBTB. I was really annoyed by that. When I started to WILD, I didn't feel anything from my back for about 40-50 minutes. I turned to my side and it took a while, but when I let my mind drift a little, I started to feel the whoosh. It didn't last long, and then I had that feeling of my body sinking back into the original position like that other time. That happened twice. Then I guess I drifted off.

Walking around/flying lucid

I was walking around my neighborhood with this girl who, in the dream, I used to be friends with when we were little and we grew up together. I had a flashback of us being kids and we snuck through a row of trees into some guys yard to steal some fruit. He threw something at us and we ran away. Now we were older and walking around. There were kids that were bouncing a ball to each other across the street and stopped as we walked past.

At one point, we were walking back to my house, and I noticed the streets weren't right. Like I was walking on Tuxedo, but it was going north to south. This made me become lucid, but it was pretty low level. I had no control. We arrived at the house, and it was strange. There was a front porch and a balcony, like the old two family houses. The sill on the porch rail was made of a pressure treated 2x12, and I climbed up the front of the house. The upper balcony opened right into the attic. I was in there and decided I wanted to get back down. I spontaneously gained control. I was about to climb down, but thought, "Hey, this is a dream, why don't I leap off and fly?" So I did. I fell almost all the way to the ground, but was confident that I would be able to fly.

Suddenly, near the bottom, I swooped up and started to fly over the street and towards the houses on the other side of the street. It was incredible. It felt like riding a roller coaster. I had butterflies in my stomach. The excitement was too much and I woke up. I still had butterflies as I lay there in bed. The high level lucidity was short, but flying was awesome.

Bar in my basement

I had another dream after. It began in the church, which was also sometimes my house. I was waiting for my mom to come back from somewhere. I was in the kitchen for a little while, then was in the basement, which wasn't like it is really. There was a bar down there and there were old fashioned signs from bars. The only one I remember was one that said, "In this place a girl was shot ____ shot shot." In the blank, there was a symbol that looked like a shield. I figured it was a sign for a triple shot of something. There was a bartender down there too. In a different part of the basement I found these chisels made out of wood. I didn't realize how useless they would actually be. At some point, my mom came home from her class. We were in the kitchen, and the bartender gave us these hats. I asked what they were for, and he said the football game. We were going to a Browns game with some people from the church. Inside the hat, there was an am fm radio with earbud headphone on one side, and a regular speaker on the other. I actually thought that this hat would be good for WILDing, because I could listen to my meditation engine with it. But I didn't get lucid.

With my grandpa at electronics store

Next think I remember, I was in this electronics store with my mom and grandpa. He asked me if I wanted to play a joke on my mom. There were two things he wanted to do, but I was distracted by a Pussycat Dolls commercial on the TV's. I didn't think my mom would appreciate having a joke played on her. I asked him to repeat what he said, but he wouldn't. There was then a movie on the TV's that was like "Finding Nemo." There was a Beta fish that was harrassing another fish that looked like a Beta, but wasn't. The fish said, "I'm not a Beta!"

Then I was back at home, I was getting my computer ready to take with me. We were going out somewhere. I had my computer bag under my arm, and everything fell out onto the floor. My mom said, "Well, it was ready to fall out anyway." I said, "Well that was just great." She got mad and started yelling, saying I said "That was great," disrespectfully or something. I yelled back "I didn't say it like ______," and made my voice really naggy and scratchy. This actually caused my throat in real life to get scratchy and I started coughing! I have no idea how that happened. I don't think I was talking in my sleep.

3-2-08 Tried to WILD again, but only got weak vibrations mostly in my neck, but also my arms. I did remember my vitamin last night, unlike the night before, but didn't get lucid this time. I drifted off a couple times, and then at about 9:00, I gave up and went to sleep, hoping for a DILD. That didn't happen either.

My hot babe friend

The first one I remember was really good. I was with this girl who was really hot, and we were friends. Apparently, I knew her from school. I think it might have been Darla. She had just broken up with her boyfriend and was asking me for advice. We were in this building and Joel from wrestling came in to talk to an advisor or something. Darla said "He is so hot." (He was pretty buff from what I remember, but had really nasty acne). In the dream, he didn't have acne. I wanted to help Darla, so I tried to talk to Joel to get him to stay. I said, "So are you still in wrestling?" He just said "yeah," though, and walked away.

I started to feel bad, because I really liked her, but she was into buff guys who looked like underwear models, and I was just ordinary and a little fat around the middle. At some point though, she caught on and gave me a hug, then we started to make out, which was really nice. I don't remember much else.

There was then a dream about me working at wal mart. Don’t remember details.

Evil rich guy golf tournament

Then I had a dream about these rich guys. They were having a golf match against another group of rich guys. I remember one guy practicing with a black practice club in his fancy house. They were bad guys I think, because they met with this arab who was wearing a suicide vest. He didn't have any explosives in the pockets, but did have knives.

Then they played against the other group. They all had lined up their cars on this road, and they were at the tee-off spot. It was right at the edge of a really tall cliff, and they were hitting away from the cliff. One guy hit the ball, but it popped up backwards and fell off the cliff. Then, everyone noticed that the green was actually at the bottom of the cliff. The next guy just chipped the ball over the edge and landed it on the green.

Originally Posted by unseen wombat

Suddenly, near the bottom, I swooped up and started to fly over the street and towards the houses on the other side of the street. It was incredible. It felt like riding a roller coaster. I had butterflies in my stomach. The excitement was too much and I woke up. I still had butterflies as I lay there in bed. The high level lucidity was short, but flying was awesome.

Thats awesome. Flying dreams are the best. I get the butterfly feeling too.
Usually when I lose control and start falling, I freak out on the way down and get the roller coaster feeling but manage to land ok. Then the fear vanishes and I just take off again.

Yeah, it was awesome. I'm not surprised it didn't last long, because that was my first flying dream ever, lucid or not.

3-3-08

Just a couple dreams last night, neither were lucid. I didn't WBTB. I was so sleepy, I just tried a little autosuggestion. When I got up at the end, I was still sleepy and was sleepy all day.

Uninteresting fragments

In the first one, I only remember that I was scuba diving, and I was looking for octopus. There was this cave where there was a pink octopus which was also sometimes a pink starfish.

In the next dream, I was at work again. It was really clear and realistic. My boss JS was there at my cubicle. Someone was working on a computer program and was trying to maximize the window by dragging all four sides of it. I said, "Hey, all you have to do is hit the maximize button up there in the corner." They acted like I was trying to cheat or something. JS said "Get ready to start earning a lot less." That's all I remember.

Neither dream was really spectacular, so I didn't bother to try to remember a lot of details.

I've been raising energy and can really feel the tingles in my hands and feet today. Hopefully that means I'll get lucid tonight.

3-4-08

Tried to DEILD last night. All that happened was I forgot my regular dreams.

Short Mortal Kombat dreams/construction worker Raiden

In the first one, all I remember is that Sub-Zero was in it. I don't remember what he was doing.

In the second one, I only remember that Raiden was at a construction site. There were these really big cinder blocks there. They were like twice as long as a regular cinder block, but only had 2 grout spaces, and about 4 times as tall. I was controlling him, I think. I was trying to get him to put rebars into the hollow grout spaces. At first I could only make him uppercut the blocks and a couple flew off the stack. Eventually, I was able to make him put the bars in the blocks.

That's about it. Why can't I ever get DEILD to work? I always just fall asleep. It's supposed to be so easy. I guess I did move a little, which I shouldn't do, but when I normally wake up and shift my position, when I'm not DEILDing, I fall right back to sleep in seconds, but when I'm trying to keep my mind aware, I can't fall back to sleep.

I'll give it another try and do it precisely as recommended. Then if it doesn't work, I'll know it's not because I moved a little.

Originally Posted by unseen wombat

That's about it. Why can't I ever get DEILD to work? I always just fall asleep. It's supposed to be so easy. I guess I did move a little, which I shouldn't do, but when I normally wake up and shift my position, when I'm not DEILDing, I fall right back to sleep in seconds, but when I'm trying to keep my mind aware, I can't fall back to sleep.

I'll give it another try and do it precisely as recommended. Then if it doesn't work, I'll know it's not because I moved a little.

DEILDs happen very fast in my 2 experiences, and based on what I've read here. So if you try really hard to keep yourself conscious for 10-20 seconds or so and it hasn't worked then get up and write your last dream down.

Apparently you can move a bit for a DEILD. I didn't think you could because every time I've tried after moving slightly it doesn't work and the 2 times I fluked it I hadn't moved at all. Maybe its different for different people?

Interesting Raiden dream btw. That would be a really weird game to play

Yeah. I tried it again last night. I still moved a little, though. I had some dreams that I forgot again because of it, but they were nothing special from what I remember. I woke up and remembered I had dreamed and even tried to imprint a few details on my mind. But now I forgot them entirely.

I think probably for me, I can't move. I know that if I move, even to swallow, during a WILD, it won't work. (Actually, it only seems to work well when I do that and take Galantamind, which bothers me. I hope I'll eventually get to the point that I don't need the drug).

3-6-08

Roman soldiers and dinosaurs

I just had a super long dream about roman soldiers and dinosaurs. First I was in this swimming pool learning about cranberries. The pool was empty but there were about 2 feet of cranberries in the deep end. Someone was there with us and was teaching us from a book. One lesson was about the different stages of seed growth. There were some actual seeds in the book that had stopped developing at a particular phase and were there as examples. Another lesson was about what it would be like to be attacked by cranberries. I was then covered with them, but dug my way out. They weren’t very deep. I tasted several. They were really tart, sort of like a really tart cherry. I guess they tasted sort of like the cranberry juice I’ve had in the past. I liked them. The teacher said at one point that I didn’t have to worry, they were grown on avocados and something else. Water? I didn’t care, because once they became a cranberry, it’s not like I was eating whatever the thing was that they fed to the cranberry plant.

At some point the dream changed and I was this long thin dinosaur like a really thin Ornithomimus, or like a snake with arms and legs that ran on its hind feet. I lived with a farmer. There was this other dinosaur who was really inspirational. He wanted us to go somewhere to do a mission so we could be free of people. At one point, I was hiding behind a tree, blending in with the bark as a person ran past on the trail. I arrived at the lodge or whatever and was greeted by another lizard who was pink. He was indignant that we had to be there. He thought the mission was stupid. Two enemy lizards came up. They were green. I watched as they bit him at the head and the tail and one pushed him into the mouth of the other. I could hear him echoing as he yelled from inside the one’s belly.

Then I wasn’t a dinosaur, but was in a video game where we were supposed to recapture this base occupied by roman soldiers. I remember looking over a course that consisted of a trail on the side of a hill and like a picnic pavilion on top. I had to first scramble up a rock and evade a soldier who was on top, but was going into the pavilion. I did this and climbed around on the outside. The ground sloped sharply away from the pavilion and I was hanging and swinging from the rails around the pavilion. A couple times the soldiers inside saw me and said, “Hey, can I help you?” Eventually, I climbed up the rail and decided to just try to get in, even though I knew they had spotted me. As I stood on top of the rail, one wearing a white T-shirt came and blocked my way in. So I stood there. We were going to be tried or something. I guess there were other people who were trying to break in. I saw the soldier with the T-shirt holding some keys. I said something like, “Are those our keys?” He threw them to me while none of the other soldiers were looking. I guess he was a traitor. I was holding my own shirt in my hand and tried to hide them in the folds of the shirt.

We were escorted out. There was a hallway and this old Mexican guy said goodbye to us, and I said, in perfect Spanish, “It was very nice to meet you.” DM from work was with me and we walked out the door. He said something like, “You really know that course too.” I guess we had both taken a course in Spanish. Then I woke up.

3-7-08

I had two really long dreams before I woke at 5:40, they were pretty clear and vivid too, but when I woke up, I couldn't remember them, no matter how hard I tried. After that, I remembered one dream.

Jennifer Lopez movie

In the dream, I was upstairs in a house that was supposed to be mine, but wasn't anything at all like it. Jennifer Lopez and Ben Affleck were there. They were making a movie, again. It was an action movie, because when I went downstairs they were doing a scene where JL was on her back and BA was standing behind her. She turned over onto her knees and did a back kick to his face. I watched them do like 5 takes of this scene.

That's about it. Pretty pitiful.

3-8-08

I'm up for my WBTB and haven't recalled hardly anything from before, though I know I had at least 2 really long dreams. I only have a couple fragments. In one, my cat, Draba, was outside, which didn't bother me for some reason, and he was with a little dog and they were both rolling around on those harnesses that they put on paralyzed animals. Only these ones had 4 wheels instead of only two. I don't think he was paralyzed though.

In another dream I was arguing with my mom. We had just made the frame of a woodworking bench out of 4x4's.

Pretty soon I'll be WILDing, so hopefully that goes better.

Edit: No WILD. I did start to feel the rush of energy in my arms, which was rather cool, but then I felt that same sinking back into my position feeling and I was like, "crap." I was uncomfortable then, so I turned over. I think maybe I shouldn't and I could have maybe gotten back into it. I then drifted off and had one dream.

Victorian garden party, with pornstars

I was in this great big house. It was sort of like the mansion we visited in Galveston last summer. It had two outside balconies and there was a painting of the house inside. Apparently it was mine, I had just moved in. There was an event going on in there. I don't know if it was a party, but there were a whole bunch of black people milling about in the foyer. I was about to go outside, and the butler, who was sitting by the door, said something like, "I wouldn't leave those people in here alone." He thought they would steal something. The butler's face was dirty. He had something like soot all around his mouth and nose.

He said something about painting over the walls in the foyer. They were pretty dirty, but at the top, there was a painting of a victorian-era lady. I thought I didn't want to paint over her because it might be some valuable art. Then I looked at the rest of the wall. It was actually an advertisement for tomatoes or something. I didn't care about it anymore.

As I was looking at the lady, I started to see her fighting with another lady. They were doing martial arts and stuff outside. I was then outside with them. (Yeah, it's weird). There was a garden party going on. There were tents set up all over the yard. In one tent, there was this pornstar. She was offering her "services" to anyone who came in. I was watching in third person, and the guy who was in charge came in with someone else and asked her how things were going. He asked her if she was able to handle some guy who had come in. She said yes. He asked her the same about some girl that had come in. She said yes. The guy he was with then said, "Can you handle me?" She looked scared, then he did something nasty to her with some broken glass. It's too graphic even for me to say, even under faded out text. In the dream though, I wasn't super-disturbed by it for some reason.

The same thing then happened in another tent. This time it was a guy prostitute. The man in charge asked him if he had been able to handle the three guys he sent there. He asked him twice about two different groups of three guys. Then the other guy said again, "But can you handle me?" and did something equally as nasty with the broken glass. The dream ended with me watching the male prostitute pulling little bits of glass out of his skin.

Thanks for not telling what they did to those people. That really sounds pretty horrible.

Yeah, it was a pretty bad dream. Only now that I'm awake though. Due to crazy dream logic, i didn't seem bothered when I was in the dream.

3-9-08

No WILD again today, even though I tried with 2 Galantamind. I stayed up for 45 minutes playing MKII, then back to bed. I kept my mind active and awake. Perhaps I was too awake.

Everytime I felt myself drifting off, I'd force my mind to think about me trying to WILD. Eventually, I started to feel the rush of energy, but it was weak. I don't know why. I did have one of my b6/b12 vitamins right at about dinnertime yesterday. Maybe that had some effect.

Before the WBTB, I had one dream I remember. Afterwards, I didn't have any dreams, because I was too awake WILDing.

Hercules video games

I was in the woods with Vince. There were these video games out there. There were some in arcade cabinets, and some ps2's and ps3's. All the games were Hercules: the Video Game, starring Kevin Sorbo, which doesn't really exist AFAIK, and its sequels. (Hercules used to be my favorite TV show). I knew in the dream that the original game was good, but the sequels got progressively more stupid. I remember looking at the monitors, and I think it was a fighting game.

At one point me and vince were walking, and I saw my grandpa and John McCain hanging by their feet from a swingset. Someone said something about cancer. I don't remember much else about that part. And that's about all of the dream too.

3-10-08

Fair recall last night. I remembered 2 dreams.

Heath Ledger movie

I was watching this movie with Heath Ledger. In it, he was on this ship with a bunch of people and I guess he was the captain. The people hadn't eaten in about 2 weeks and were really hungry. There was a pig that they were going to slaughter, but they liked the pig and wanted to slaughter him with respect, so they had the pig over the edge of the ship so that the blood would pour into the ocean. I'm not sure why that's respectful. Then I saw them 2 weeks before. Heath Ledger was passing out bread to everyone. They were all different shaped loaves, most of them were round though. Everyone was happy and they were tossing the bread around to each other.

Basketball game with Gwynn

In the next dream, I was at this basketball game and was sitting next to Gwynn from Sluggy Freelance http://sluggy.com/daily.php?date=080311. She was also alternately Lydia, my ex-gf from about 12 years ago. We were watching halftime I guess, because the cheerleaders were all out there doing a routine. There was this kid sitting on the other side of me. He kept asking if I thought his mom was attractive. I was trying to watch the show, and responded absent-mindedly with something like, "Yeah, whatever." Then he got really excited and said "I knew you would think my mom is attractive!" Then I tried to take back what I said, because he was going to try to hook us up or something. The cheerleaders' routine ended, and these two black guys were taking bets, on the game I guess. One black guy was really tall, the other was pretty fat. He looked like that one that I see in a lot of movies. I don't know his name though, or even any movies I remember seeing him in. The tall black guy gave me the money to hold. Then, almost immediately, the game was over and he came back to take some of the money. He didn't take it all, just a little more than half, I guess just enough to pay off the winners. I was then sitting there with Gwynn/Lydia, and I came up with a plan to try to win the money we had left. I said I would make a bet with the black guy when he came back that I could guess the serial number on a bill that she drew. I told her I would "force" this one particular bill on her, so we were memorizing the serial number. I was making her memorize it too. (Even though I would be the one guessing it, whatever). Then the tall black guy came back and wanted the rest of the money. I said something like, "Would you like to make a bet that I can guess the serial number on a bill that she draws?" Then he laughed and said something black to me like, "Naw, no way, dog," or something.

That's about it.

3-11-08

No recall last night, except that I know I dreamed. I just don't remember any details. That makes me mad.

I woke at 5:45 or so on my own. I think now with daylight savings time, I need to start setting my alarm to 4:45 so I can get used to waking up on my own and trying to WILD.