Lucid: No
Dreams: 2
Betraying The Brother of Love and War
A dream within a dream, is the only way to start this off. I dreamed these, thinking they were real, and only later in the dream did I realize that they were, in fact, dreams within my dream. Bold indicates a dream within a dream.
I am standing next to my "boyfriend's" (I don't have a boyfriend in real life) brother. He's a bit taller than me. His hair is just longer than his eyebrows, dangling a bit in his eyes. It's blonde. His eyes are a beautiful blue. I grip his hands carefully - gently, lovingly - and my heart flutters once. He's looking down into my eyes. Then the distance between us closes, and I'm locked in a passionate kiss. "We shouldn't be doing this... He'll be gone in two months, to Afghanistan," he whispers to me. But I can only swim in his blue eyes, like the ocean.
I am carried away to Afghanistan.
There are poor people, all over. Children with dirty clothing, poverty widespread. And then there's the gunfire. The tanks in the far distance. The sight of a man much like the one I kissed moments ago - but so much different, too. The American Army camouflage dances on the edges of my vision, and I only feel a defeated sadness fill the tips of my fingers with lead before I turn and walk away.
Then I'm in school. I'm walking on a white sidewalk, around a bend. The sun is shining in front of me. Again, the boyfriend's brother (never did figure out either of their names) is with me, about five feet ahead of me and on the left side of the sidewalk, while I am on the right. Suddenly, a short kid who goes to my school (only comes up to about my shoulder) steps in front of me. His shadow blocks me; he's only six or seven inches away from touching me. I silently cringe, sending a look that pleads for help in BF's bro's direction, but he just smirks. The boy walks on, and I hear BF's bro say, "Must think he's hot, huh?" I glared at him before rolling my eyes. Then I get to my next class, in the portable. In the room are BF's bro, Clark, Kyle, "Hot Kid," and one other guy. I look at Kyle and feel my heart freeze with sudden terror as our eyes lock. Then, the bell rings after we're in there for only moments, and I'm released to go to my next class. It turns out that this one is where we learn about Dream Journals. I see on the projector screen (which is hooked up to the teacher's computer monitor, getting her output) the DV Chatroom, but there's nobody in it. It's a dream journal, and only one person can see it... or rather, that's how it's supposed to function. However, we can see this, as it is an example. I read the output.
[E-A] --> They put drills in my vagina
[E-A] --> OMG YEAH, I KNOW, SEX
[E-A] --> Who knew other girls could be so cruel?
Then I saw BF'S bro's DJ, which described our kiss... we had unlocked the secrets of shared dreaming! It said something along these lines...
"She took my hands carefully, gentle and almost motherly. She was more tender than a mother, and this love was definitely more than what a mother felt for her son - which I didn't know was possible. I looked down into her eyes, and I knew it was wrong... but I couldn't help myself. We kissed..."
There was a really big paragraph about it, but I can't remember much more than those things.
Finally, we got let out of this class, and I was walking with my friend Erika to lunch. She says, "I'm not going to commit suicide!" Her voice is breaking, like she's going to cry... sort of whiney. "They have someone watching me 24/7!" I replied, "Is that what they did with Jessica?" (Jessica tried suicide, a girl at my school, and blamed it pretty much all on me). I ate, then left, and went home on the bus. I sat in the front seat and got let off at my driveway. I went to sleep in the dream, and woke up the next morning really early, to go to my grand parents. My parents were still asleep. We go to their house in the car, and pile out. Hannah, Sophie, Logan, Andrew and I are there. I text my mom, "Hi," and she replies a few minutes later with, "Rise and shine...," and as I read it I can hear the sarcasm. I answer her, "Sorry." She doesn't reply again. We are trying to work out sleeping arrangements; there's a King mattress, which Sophie, Logan, and Sophie are laying on, and a Twin, which is my bed, and Andrew is curled up in. I glare at him, s hove him o ut of the bed, and get in it myself.
Then I'm in another dream journal (physically, I'm standing in a room like a portable, with blue-ish tainted walls. There's a table, and there's a few people in it including myself - probably the people from the class room). A girl appears, and a welcome tune chimes something like, "Welcome to Dream Views chat!" We whisper along with it, and she says, "Ookay..." and moves into the next room.
{Dream Ends}
Taking Chances with Starting out Fair
The second dream of the night wasn't so bad.
I'm sitting in a theater (downtown, not revealing its name... stalkers), with red, comfortable chairs, where plays take place. They're arranged in a circle around the area. Sitting two seats away is mystery boy from the first dream; I glance at him. Someone on stage, like a priest, asks us to greet someone (i.e. "Good morning *shakes hand*," like at church). With another glance at him, I slowly reach out and take his hand, but don't shake it. I hold it there, warm, and feel him gazing at me, but not in a bad way. Not staring. He seems relieved, and out of the corner of my eye I see him slowly shake his head with a smile on his face, as if he's thinking, "I can't even believe she did that," but he's glad I did. And then the play is over, and I'm at home on my computer. Suddenly, an IM window pops up, and the message I see is, "Will you go out with me?" (probably "will u go out w/ me??"). I know the screen-name is his, and so of course I would say yes! Afterward, I was in my house, waiting. I saw my coat, grabbed it, and pulled it on. When I got outside, I saw an angry black girl staring at me and I see her crammed into a truck with her boyfriend. They are squealing across the street, tires protesting the entire way. I look to see my boyfriend (I still don't know anyone's names... I'll ask them tonight if I can... maybe make out with him officially >D) and I do see him. He holds out his hand to me, opens a door, and allows me to get in before him. I smile at him, and climb in, squeezing his hand carefully before he gets in with me. We're going somewhere, but I don't know where.
Dream Fragments:
* Explore (sex ed.) - Brittany and Bree battle! O: "Yeah, you got that right, I just called you Rhoa!"
* I'm standing in the door of a bathroom, when suddenly two black girls storm in, and as I'm watching, another boy follows and stands next to me. I'm stunned as the taller girl starts peeing standing up into the toilet, and the other girl is encouraging her. "You think I can't do anything a boy can?!" she yells at him. "Well, now then, I just proved you wrong now didn't I?!"
* All the snow is gone. YAY =D... I woke up and almost cried because it was still there... T__T
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