Thread: Nighthog's Journal unto self

22th February 2010

School surroundings

Walking around some school premises I was going around and around, can't fathom what I was doing there but now and then decide to walk up vertically at some walls up and down testing my ability on how easy it at times is just walking up a wall like it was the ground.
At times it worked marvellously at other times I could not even take a step without falling down.
I've been practising this walking the walls etc pretty much a lot these past while inside my dreams. I've been trying to make it sop I can walk upside down in the roofs or such but I haven't been much successful but on the vertical 90 degree wall walking yet. If it has turned even a degree or such more It usually entailed me loosing my grip and falling down to be in correct orientation.

At a earlier time I now remember I had been in a class room. There were these strange flying apparatus. I ended up closing the door and checking that the swarm would not try to get inside. It never did.

Inside the classroom I had just been attending whatever it was about. But it was more like recess and we were left to do what we wanted. At one time the teacher came in but the flying things made so that class never really started.
After that I had left and walked the walls etc for a while outside.

At the castle water dungeon paths?

After I was getting bored trying to walk the walls here and there I had followed whit some of the "crew" I had had whit me.

We were going to the castle and the water dungeons and paths underneath. It was a historical place. We were going to make a visit. Unauthorized visit to the water paths underneath the main castle were the normal tourists and people usually were all shown. We were explorers and even had a film crew to go along to film it I think.

We saw some damage from cannon balls etc destroying some of the bridges going over some of the water paths. It's like a labyrinth down here but there are many openings so the sun and breeze from outside can be enjoyed fully here. It's all made from stone blocks. Looks like a mediaeval castle. It's in pretty good shape non the less I thought at one moment. I was not really walking about in person as to float about in third person to follow the crew in their adventure to explore the area. We entered like it was a mediaeval water park or such.

There came some wooden and blocks floating on the water as a path to walk but they sunk down a little as you walked and when the whole party was walking this some had water up to their waist. This path lead to exit the dungeon area more to open air and the lake next by. The water paths were constructed into the lake I figure.

I had now been walking in person there rather than been floating about in third person as before as we exited the dungeon area and was now besides the lake and the paths here. It was more public area here. We were walking up to some huge blocks of stone that had been laid down on the other side of the lake across the castle. There was a more modern building behind them further away.


At the middle-age/Viking gravestones.

As we went and walked up to the stone blocks I thought they were Viking rune stones that had been laid down here from the area. But the more time and focus I put whit them I noticed they were not so much rune stones but more like mediaeval and they didn't use rune script either. They were in the sizes between 1.5-3meters in square/rectangle but not so thick as only 2-3 decimetres or the likes.

First I had only seen this one stone but I could not make out what it was unto it. Seemed like it was old and maybe fit to the period when Vikings were converting to Christianity. This stone more resembled it hadn't converted but sure was influenced.

The next stone to the right as I saw it had been encased in a wooden frame and a glass window. This was the only one out from the all 5 different stones that had been treated like this. Seemed it was the most detailed and intricate but also most fragile stone type. I had just glanced at it and then taken a look at the stones downward. they were not really that detailed or intricate but I figured out that these were gravestones from kings past.

I somehow sensed I wanted to look back at the stones prior in more detail I went to the second stone... But this one was left of the wooden encased one. A extra stone had been inserted now...

This stone had really been cut whit detail imagery and numerals and letters. And accompanied by a picture of the kings I guessed in the middle. There was writing going in a circle roughly all around the picture of the kind. I did not pay attention to see if I could read it or pay attention what kind of writing or letters were used.
This really drew my attention as I focused and looked unto it I was drawn to the upper left corner of the rock tablet soon enough. I saw that there was a faint but big "XI" cut down and then also a "11" on top more visible. There were some strange pattern whit squares all over then next to this and all across the top part. I thought they was starts first but it was 4 squares offshoot by a square in the middle. it was only the four offshoot squares around that were cut into the rock.
I started to mention that I could see "XI" and "11" have been cut into the rock but the others said they didn't see it. I tried to show and make them look closely but they didn't care it seemed. I got a bit frustrated by that. Why would they not listen.

Soon I went downward to the last stones. The second to last caught my interest as I thought this wasn't a gravestone here... And then I looked unto the last one also. These were rock cut paintings!
They both featured a maiden in them. Both had beautiful hair and those hoods or hats. This one rock cut painting got my attention more than the other by that it was a girl turned away and she was looking over this lake and this whole scenery of woods and all cut there to be seen. It was a fantastic "painting" I was thinking. Though I must say it was all way to faint and I had to really struggle to see the picture come out from this slab of rock. The girl had braids and they were swaying in the breeze of the wind. I saw the picture more and more clearly as I focused on it. I saw it was a sun there and a reflection of it in the waters. I was starting to sway and walk side to side around the rock to try and see all the details by getting the sun and shadows in different angles.

I walked over to the other stone to see what it had "painted" unto it. I saw a girl on a cliff side going down the the lake shore. I saw this painting in the rock come to life as I tried the same trick as before. Soon It got colours and I entered the scene of the rock cut painting.

At the Lake, the gold trinkets.

The girl jumped down from the cliff side into the water and soon another girl came running from behind there and also jumped into the lake and they were laughing and having fun. They were two fair ladies and had exquisite and expensive dresses on them and they were now drenching them.

They got out from the water throwing water and playing. They were really happy. The sun was shining strongly and it was warm. The cloths would not take long to dry I though. I was kind of floating my view from above the lake water level from a distance.
I saw that they had jewellery on them and thought maybe they had dropped some unto the little sand beach and water.

As soon as the two girls had walked up the cliff side, there was a path there up and away. Seemingly back to the castle I thought. I went down to the beach were they had been. I started to look and feel in the sand on the shore just beneath the water line and good god... There were gold and jewellery spread in the sand I could not believe it. I started to search the sand for rings and other things. I was putting them on the grass on the land next to it, I was trying to find a ring. But the things I found were just strange jewels and gold silver trinkets but no rings sadly.
I tried to make so that whit intent a ring would be gotten but I had no luck and just got some ring like objects but they were to small to fit any fingers.

There I was trying to get as much treasure as I could but having no luck whit getting that special thing I wanted. I soon realized I was waking up one and twice and third and still managing to fall asleep and getting back to the water and sand and the trinkets in the sand.

I was thinking it's funny how it's useless trying to horde this treasure when I was awake but still continue to try get more and trying to find that item when I got back to sleep. But when I realized I could go and do something else in the dream I just woke up again and so it went until I got up instead.

23rd February 2010

The school bag

Arriving from earlier dreams that I no longer could recall I had come unto the abode of my half brother I thought. I was on the lower level which is what he rents and I decided to go up to the second level to the kitchen and this area is shared whit the host family it seems.

When I had walked up I saw up to the walk way above on the third floor one of the daughters of the host family I thought. I said hi to her as I was walking up to the second floor. First floor is kind of a basement.
She noticed my greeting and said hi back where upon she thought upon she could ask me for help as I was there anyway.

She walked down next to me and had whit her this new school bag.
"Can I ask for your help on this?"
"I just bought this new bag for school but my friends and family tell me it's ugly, telling me to take it back"
"What do you think about this. Is it ugly?"
She goes and shows me this green bag she has chosen... I don't get really to impressed whit it. I thought it was a fishing gear bag! Not a school bag. It has this camo green colour.
The colour doesn't suit her at all I think and the design is kinda bizarre. I thought it was a fishing bag. It had three pocket sections next to each other where you would put your stuff.
"Well it's not really ugly..." I go to start whit and then meaning to continue.

I then focus more on what kind of clothing and style she has on her. I see it's a big mismatch between her clothing and the type of girl she is. Not to mention the colour doesn't fit at all whit anything she has I think.

I don't get to say anything about the things I meant to say before she seemingly is happy whit the answer I really have yet to give and goes about to leave... I never got the chance to tell her what I really thought about it.

My focus slipped about and I began to see her all weird... Seems my imagination went wild for a moment and I started to see overlapping images before I got shoot off into oblivion to another dream.

I remember I was standing in the kitchen for a short while but can't think of in which instance that was.

Swamps and alligators

I'm standing in water... Swamp green musty water and it's not nice at all this location... It's musty swamps and dead trees... There is a person whit me. It's female. Looks to be about same age as me.

I did not get much focus on her until I notice this huge alligator is in the water and we need to escape it.
We wade and run and try to climb over grass bunks and other hindrances. At one point the alligator goes in for a attack but we climb over this grass bunk and we manage to avoid it for the moment and we have time to get further away.

At moments we climb some trunks etc but wasn't much of help. We need to escape the swamp waters.

I spot the alligator now and then trying to figure out if it's still following. We get further and further away from the deep waters of the swamp and enter more lively area and greener stuff. The water is clean also and soon enough we are running away on grass on land...
But the alligator doesn't stop and goes to follow on the land and we have to run away in great speed but it keeps following whit speedy legs as it can take great leaps of steps whit it's huge body and legs as it swings about whit it's motion.

Soon I see I'm running for my house. I run through the backyard and then up to the front door. I open it in haste and make the girl go to hide in there. I see that the car is on the driveway whit the doors and such open. I go and close them and see the alligator now arrive under the roofing where the front door is located. I'm standing by the car.

Good seems it's targeted on me. My hearth is beating and I feel fear... I start to realize this is a dream but I'm too pumped up and I wake up.
I feel my hearth beating etc. I notice it really scared me for a moment there as I was looking at it and he back at me there.
I had thought I lost it just moments before as I arrived at the house. But got surprised when I saw it as looked back in the distance closing in fast.

24th February 2010

Watching a Live-Leak video

This dream I first forgot but when I read some news at live leak I remembered this.
I even confused it at first for a actual video I had seen but I saw that I could not find anything to it and then track backing my wake memory I actually never saw this memory of this video having been watched.
I realized it was part of a dream.

It starts out whit me going and looking at video on LiveLeak and then I click on this video of a "kidnapping" by Iranian Intelligence I think it was. Though it would be more like arresting some high up terrorist.

Someone had been on a multi tier building on a balcony and had a video camera and could video the whole scene.

It starts out that there is seemingly problems down at the main road. You hear cars starting to slow down and braking and all starting to pull full throttle on the horns. Soon you see from the right a fire-engine coming and pushing all the cars in the row into each other as it's a domino effect. The fire-engine has steered to the middle road not ploughing through all to many cars but it had collided light and hard enough for to make the row of cars all end up being pushed back a few meters all hitting the backs and fronts of each other in the row. Much damage is caused.

Soon there is a short clearing in the car rows and then fire-engine goes to drive in there and then cut off traffic from behind that point. You see men masked in black clothing and hoods to disguise their identities jump out from the engine and rush toward down the road but not after first firing a few shots down the road at the traffic they stopped and I see some gun fire had been actually first been fired from that direction to hit the fire-engine as it came to a halt.

The camera points fast much more to the left view and people in the vicinity panic and run away at the gunfire etc.
You see this long high class black limousine pulled over to the edge of the road. The door next to the drivers seat is open and seemingly some body guards around. A guy is about trying to escape as the body guards have been neutralized. The masked men run up toward the car and see they have acquired their target and their target seems to fall down from inside the car in chock as they arrive.

Soon they turn around to the public and start to cheer and swift their hands in the air. They seem to be joyous about this successful capture.

A few dreams I have no recall about
Yeah no recall...

In the car whit my brother
Soon enough for some reason I found myself inside my brothers car whit him driving it about on a highway.
And I don't stay inside I jump out and run behind the car for a while and take a look around and get worried as it's a highway I see and decide it's better if I get back inside the car before police or the sort pop up. I see some cas pass by. My brother is driving slow.
But he increases his speed and I have trouble reaching him soon. I decide to make more effort and whit some magic was inside the car once again after he stoped the car and turned away to some smaller road going somewhere. It's basically a one file road going into the plains and hills and forests until we hit a area whit housing. Seems like a summer house area.

My brother drives around the neighbourhood but soon we see the road was blocked so we go off roading on the grass fields and between the houses here and there. We drive without worry and also hit various yard decorations etc and bump some stone works etc. We then manage to get back to the road as it's clear later on. But we now are arriving next to the lake and my brother can't stop the car and it flies off into the lake from a cliff. I jumped out just before and saw it hit the water. I had tried to warn him but he had not taken it seriously.

I walk away and enter the premise of the near by house there. This house is off to the side of the main neighborhood that we just passed. Seems a little like a farm house. A has been farming place now a summer house.

I encounter the people here and walk about until I get interested in this particular girl that came close. I end up spending a little while whit her.

Mingling whit people
Just shortly to begin. I had a profound encounter this time in later part. All the people grabbing and sticking to me were all ONE AND THE SAME person.
Seems I encountered something interesting. Maybe on of the guides?
I was told this "Your words are scary"... I was angry and frustrated so I was using many non nice words as I figured and this person started to talk to me finally about this whole situation.
It confessed that it had copied itself and the disguised itself as people I know.

Well to the more longer story:
As I had been spending a little bit intimate time whit the girl I had meet we were interrupted by some meddling passer by from the house.
I was disappointed we could not spend more time and she went off and disappeared before I really could react much.
I was now in interaction whit these meddlers for short. Seems they wanted me to join and do something whit them but I didn't pay attention and walked off in the direction of the house and see what I could see there. I meet more and various people one after the other here... I didn't notice it much in the beginning but people came and disappeared and were replaced by other just like that for each moment. I looked at them and turned away etc.

I came to be sitting in place just because it was kind of overwhelming me. I saw then two girls doing a bit naughty stuff together for a moment and that got my attention for a few moments.
I was a bit surprised but as they just appeared there in front of me I just sat there. I also saw that there were people coming and going around me and next to the girls... Everyone seemed intent just to get my attention in one way or the other I now have realized. They tried to get my focus by saying or telling different things often directed directly at me. But as my usual dream self I'm really dense and pay no attention.

Soon the two girls go away as someone came up to them and wanted them to go whit them for some activity. I think it was shopping if I remember correctly. I looked shortly at few people that went by at same time and then I saw my oldest sister come by and sit whit me.

I was thinking this is good. I can have a bit more meaningful useful time usage here. We said a few words and we interacted a little but sooner than later I saw that she was disfigured... morphed. Seemed like she could not hold her figure. For short I just didn't mind it but she started to act in non familiar ways. I noticed this more and more. I kinda made a expression to let her notice I noticed things aren't all normal.

Whatever happened next my sister was gone and then I get approach by one after another person that appears from nowhere and disappears when I'm not looking. I'm getting worried and uneasy whit the situation.
I feel people grab me from behind more and more and seemingly try to hold me. I look but I see soon no people even though I feel people coming and grabbing me. I try to get away. I yell "let me go!" but no one is responding or anything happens to my requests. "leave me alone" I yell but it's futile it seems. I can grab and take hold of these invisible people and remove them as such. But it doesn't help much as new people appear. I soon get in front a mirror and in there I can see the invisible people grabbing and holding me. Or approaching.
I'm angry that they won't listen to my requests or that they persists even though I don't like this at all. When I stood in the mirror I took my hand and pushed it inside it and then grabbed the person in the mirror to drag out the mirror and then throw her/him away. I was free for a short moment and this helped whit that the people that appeared in the following were all now visible to me. I saw people that I know and recognize... I was unsettled to see them go about like this against me.

Soon I have gotten more unruly and am really unsettled for real and try to get away from them by any means. I start to run through walls and dropping through floors to the floor below. Flying up to the roofs flying though into the air... Nothing really works for long as they appear anew moments later.

I yell and ask what they want as I have realized they act as one. I curse and yell out banishing commands but it's off no use I saw.

I really use nasty words to say out how I feel and want this to stop. I soon have homed in that I have only one person in front as I had come unto realization that "they" all was this one. I just had picked one character out of the many as they were all the same anyway no matter who I addressed.

I hear now answers... She or it... I sense it was a she somehow as I want to write "she" the whole time while trying to think about this thing.

She tells me out of everything I have said... That my words are scary, my words hurt... How the &%# could it be different when I'm harassed in this way! All I had encountered was things to distress me and make me angry.
I was furious and pissed at this thing and all she could say was that my words where scary or that they hurt.

I spit out questions filled whit nasty saying and words and she answered only that the words were scary. She was scared of my words? But she was gentle and calm in her words I heard...
I just agreed for sure the words are scary whit more scary words.

Finally I get something else out from her.
"I copied myself and then disguised myself as your friends"

I said something in return but can't recall what. I now knew it was she who was them all I had encountered. I was confused why she would do so and why did she attack me in this way. I made her know I saw this as a attack and was not OK.

Later moment she seems to be ready to tell something more and goes to say.
"There is little time"
I blow up at this whit "Little time?" "There is no time!" "There is only now, the eternity" "the future or the past? You can access any moment from the moment of now"
I had interrupted her and have turned my back to her for a moment and say more low toned the following.
"Well I must first learn how to get to the past and future from now though "
I turn back toward where she supposedly was. I didn't get a good look at her but she seemed displeased. I was ready to listen now but seems she didn't want to talk and my time was up... I was waking up.

I had been still much angry and frustrated so I had a need to let out more steam.

Short views out the window from my room
I was fleeting between awake and sleep and confused and was unsure if I really was asleep the moments I looked up from bed outside and then unto the street. At moment I was trying to look up and out when awake and the next I was doing so in sleep so it was confusing.

I was just observing what was going on outside across the street to the neighbour. Seemed they were busy doing something. I soon saw the granddaughter of the house had come over.
She saw my parents downstairs going out from the kitchen and such and came to approach. They were talking happily and greeting each other. They seem awfully close and knowing of each other... I just looked down from the window half asleep-asleep. Thinking is this a dream or awake?
I did this for a while and looking more unto the scene below as I in later moments had contended it was a dream after waking up and trying to move my real body but feeling it was really heavy. I had shortly seen that the window curtains are closed and remembered it's winter... Not summer as in the dream!
Nothing much or interesting happened. I listened and looked at what they did. Can't now really remember what it was precisely.

25th February 2010

At a super big clothing store
Just a short mention.

The dream was about me walking around and about in this large shopping mall and then I enter this clothing department. It's gigantic and I can walk around in there looking at people and clothes. I walked around in circles back and forth between different sections looking for something interesting if I could find. Though my attention was not clothes it was the people.
LOL... lots of voyeurism going on there. There were many changing rooms but they were often occupied so people were changing on the spot to test out different clothes.
Well kinds pointless time waisted in the end. I had moments of lucidity but somehow decided to stay about this place and settings.
It was comical in the swimming clothes section...
There was a swimming pool and such there.
There was even a kids section were you could drop off your kids and be thought swimming and the parents could go shopping. It looked like a small water playground. There were instructors and all.

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26th February 2010

I'll write it down later. It's a long dream and content was this futuristic time placed army base. We had these "Gundam" robots. Though not really gundam looking though, they were in varied types.
I was some type of special attendant. I had been given some strange medals and also was to command one of the special robots of this particular unit. Though I was only in my own robot a minute or such before I never saw it again and was walking around and encountering different things and circumstances at the base.
I saw the results of some test we had done. I had been given 100/100 + 3.6 points as extra for something.
well I'll write the details at a later point.

3rd Mars 2010

I were away for a couple days and then forgot and didn't feel like updating for a few days after.

Though I didn't give up my dream goals.

I might have gotten much closer to the dream sharing goal this night than I've been before.

It was some short things happening at the end of the dreams this night.

Outside about the neighbourhood

Inside some complex, maybe a school

Doing a meditation

I was tired and feed up whit the surroundings up to now. I was just going around and around whit this pointless distractions if I should put it somehow.

I finally remembered one of the important things I should have done and should been doing for a a long time.
Sitting down a meditating in my dreams!

I realized soon that I don't need a special spot. Any location is as good as any other as I first tried to get away from the current place but soon stopped and just sat down. Then I tried to get into my meditation positions. First my back was all curved and I was leaning forward. I had little trouble to get my dream body having a straight back whit this but I persisted and soon I was in a more optimal position.
I had my eyes much of the time closed and tried to calm down and relax and clear my mind.
I was sitting there and trying to get myself cleared and soon I felt more comfortable and relaxed.

After a short while I started to see whit my eyes again even though I had closed them. I soon realized I was laying down on the ground somewhere. Not sitting up in my meditation position I just had moment before.
My vision was blurred and dark at first so I had trouble seeing where I was and my body wasn't really responding to my commands.

If I would describe it somehow it seemed I had been asleep for ages and finally woke up for a change.

I noticed soon enough I was laying in a crawled up infant position on a sandy beach and there was water just next to it coming unto the beach. There were small waves coming up and drawing back.
As I struggled whit my body my vision had come back faster I was looking around and saw the beauty of this place. The beach was absolutely stunning. I even looked up at the sky for a moment but I did not put it much into mind so I have bad recall how the sky looked.

The beach sand was somehow really loose and I almost felt like I was getting dragged into it as I tried to get up. The sand was making it a little more harder to get upright but it didn't take all to long. Soon I had climbed this sand bunk that was just behind and going along the sandy beach. It was a couple meters higher. I took a few moment to really enjoy myself. I got exited about I had managed to get to a important place.
I was having a bit more and more chaos in my thoughts as ideas started to go about. What's next...

All of a sudden two girl characters had arrived to the scene. They walked the beach but soon I got them to go and sit whit me on top the sand bunk there I went and gave the left one a kiss on the arm around the shoulder area and then went and did the same for the girl on the right. This was to show my thanks and appreciation for something. I wasn't really clear myself on what exactly but I felt I needed to respond to them somehow.
I saw the girl on the right to burst in tears as I did this. She somehow was in tears because she was happy whit something. We said some few things but recall fails on what specifically.

Soon they two go to leave as I sit back on the bunk still. The one girl turns around to ask where her bag has gone I think it was. I look at the location were she had sat and see like a sand pit and think the bag must have sunk into the sand. I point to the pit and say it's probably there. I go and rustle about in the location but find no bag but this weird small thing, it was partly white, and heavy for it's size. I can't recall if I gave it to her instead or not. She was good enough whit this and soon left.

My mind wandered a bit and I looked around. More and more people were arriving at the location doing different things. I looked over the waters and saw the tree line on the other side. And Then I looked to the left and saw the forest go all around the waters and be just next to the beach sand I was on. The forest was there behind me as well.
I noticed some activity to the left and then back off me but soon enough I noticed something strange about the place I was sitting on...

It no longer was just sand any more. I saw it was grey and furry? I looked more to the ground on the left and saw a wolf head? I was sitting on top a sleeping big grey wolf?
It was sleeping quite benign and petted it a little as it was a little distressed at first I thought of it thinking what may be sitting on top of it. It calmed down as I petted it for a little while. I was allowed to sit there and pet.

Soon I saw that there were chilren laying down on the beach on towels and etc things. I first thought they were bathing in the sun but soon saw they were asleep many of them. And many were to young to really be doing things as sun bathing. I noticed then some activity behind me and took a look. I don't recall what it was but some person was about to do something.

Soon as I looked back at the beach and the sleeping children I saw the waters had risen. I was worried. I went out and yelled for others around to go and pick them up as they would drown at this rate as the water got higher. The child I picked up was cowered in mud and I washed him off. But it was strange... The child was no larger than my hand really. Looked more like a doll.

Afterwards things started to go much disorientating. I had noticed people had rescued the others and I had lied down the "child" I had picked up. Next it was a bit hard.

We were about to prepare for dinner or the like for some visitors. I told someone I would slice and dice the foods... There were people arriving. I got hints by words and then texts pop in my view... Somehow I got the impression I was going to meet Nomad, Raven Knight, Mosh and the whole Shared dreaming crew?! And from some hint listening to the people around I got the impression they were already here.

I might have told out loud the following or thought it out loud in my mind "I'm going to meet the shared dreaming team finally!" As a realization thinking it was true.

Soon I noticed more disorientation and then some text and writing had popped in my view and being read. It was something about 0... I thought first Q? wait.. it was written as 0. Meaning Zero... So I got confused. 0 was a person I got out from the context of the text.
I woke up soon after.

4th Mars 2010

Just some spotty recall today sadly.

Underwater ice cave
There was snow about on the ground and I was headed toward this small water pond I thought. There was a little ice but not much. You could enter the water if you wanted. There was even this longer wooden plank and some kind of mechanical engine or something on one end off it.

The plank whit the engine started to go below the water surface whit the engine side and tilted up and down a little while until I drifted down under the water looking from below as this thing was going up and down. I could not figure out what it was for.

Soon enough I was looking around the waters underneath and I could see some ice up above and then the lake bed and then further away seemed there was some ice caves mixed whit the rocks... The ice was going down into the water like crystals. They were growing there below the water line downward from the ceiling. They had a hexagonal pattern to them. I was following the person I had joined to wander here. We were looking to find something here.

As I went inside this cave in the water I had forgotten about the water completely and was like walking in a above water cave. The ice was bluish and in contrast to some whites stuck to the rocks of the cave. I was talking whit the person whit me. We were supposed to find sulphur...
I didn't really register knowing what we were supposed to find and thought we had found it whit this huge crystal of ice coming down from the ceiling. I went to grab and try to brake it off from the roof but didn't work to well. I managed to first break it off quite cleanly from the roof but the ice crystal was weak and then went on to crumble and pulverize in my hand dropping in pieces to the ground floating down.
The guy whit me said that wasn't what we were looking for and then pointed me to show what we were looking for really. It was just next to the ice crystal I had just grabbed. There were like these small grains on the rock walls that we scrapped off. They were growing there. He said it was sulphur but it got me confused. It was grey/white/silver-ish there.

Picking up this Mandrake? ...

Walking next to this red coloured wood plank wall I saw this thing there next to the wall behind some stuff. It was just next to the wall growing out I thought but the next moment it collapses and falls down and leans on the stuff that was pile up. I go and pick it up..
"Is this a mandrake" I say to myself. It was a bit thick and such when I looked at it but when I picked it up it was this thin sticky thing black in my hand. I figured this was maybe something I had been looking for and went ahead to bring it to the guy there somewhere. As I was walking whit this to to the person to deliver it to I spot another one and pick it up. Same thing happens it turns into this really thin black wiry ball in my hand.

I didn't pay much attention and thought I was lucky having found two and brought them to the guy. I said I thought I found these mandrakes and showed them to him.

He says I'm wrong. They are not mandrakes but some al-- d--- something. I get the hint of some kind of living mushrooms. And sure enough as he said what they were they turned back to their normal form and now I saw they looked much like mushrooms.
They seem joyful and playful. They play a silly dance I guess. I left them whit him non the less. They are useful.


These are the small fragments I still remember now. There were much, much more. But recall is suffering.

5th Mars 2010

Gundam like robots in space

I caught myself walking into a hangar on the ship. I was going to look at the units in the squadron we had for ourselves. They were supposed to be all new and just delivered.
A person there says things and comments as I approach. They are supposed to be the best around. There are 4 units and one special unit for a total of 5 "gundam" units.
The person who just delivered them. Is kinda like a researcher, He has designed and made them. He says that each of them has their own name. I approach and look at the units as he mentions the names of each unit and then saying which unit is for which person to operate. When he goes to say the name for the unit on the front right side of the four normal ones it something to the like of E...k..w...l I don't recall the name bit from some few letters that were in it. This name caught my attention directly and I wanted it to be my unit and sure enough he says that it's my unit. The names for the others were also strange etc. but I didn't pay much attention. I looked at my unit a little bit until he then showed the special unit.

I got more interested and wanted to try it out instead. He said anyone in the team could use it if they could handle it.
Whit this I tried to enter the cockpit but it was strange... The cockpit was in the ceiling and upside down so I had to jump and climb around hanging down having a bit off issues not falling out from there as I tried to enter the seat. I managed to place myself in the seat position but as soon as I tried to use the belt to lock my position and not fall out I ended up falling away and had to try position myself in the seat once again by shear strength. I tried a couple of times to put the belt on but it didn't lock and I just ended up starting to fall away from the seat as the belt didn't hold me in place at all.
Soon I gave up and went to my own unit again. It was to bothersome.

Instead a girl in the team tried it and went and she had no issues at all. I didn't care at all for it really, I just let it be.

Something happened next and we were hurried to launch out in the units quickly on the spot. I had entered my units cockpit and activated it and soon enough I picked up a weapon and flew out into space. We were supposed to go and defend this other ship nearby that seemingly was something we were escorting. The enemy so to say was about to attack as they had figured out or position.

I and some other in the team that had gotten out. We were not all. We were only 3 in the hangar. One of us was slow getting out but me and the girl were out first and approaching the ship not seeing the enemy yet. We had yet not a location were they were. Soon enough the slower one gets out but as soon as he does we have acquired the position of the enemy they are just about in range to attack. I and the girl break away to engage while the other one goes to defend the ship. The last fourth person hasn't even gotten to the hangar yet. I hear in the intercom something about hurrying up.

I engage the enemy units whit my laser weapon. It's powerful and destroys them quick but it's energy consuming and doesn't have many shots and I am quick out of ammunition, or rather energy to it to shot. I took out two gundam like units before I was out and needed to return to the main ship to recharge it. I called unto the girl to take care of them as I went to reload.

She handles it well and the other guy is doing his job defending the ship now well enough.

I enter the hangar and see the slot for the weapon were you recharge it. It's integrated unto the wall. I click it in place and it recharges in a second or two and I remove it and need to shot at some enemies quickly. They were going after the hangar ship for a moment there as it was unguarded they thought. I took out them by surprise but i had to reload the weapon once again and pushed it into the recharge slot.

I then went out to look how it's going for the others and receive a call for backup. I head in their direction and get behind some enemy ships and blast them whit my lasers. But they take many hits and I use up the whole clip again on this single ship. It was some kind of special unit I thought or got information pertaining to.

Things were getting better. Most enemies had been cleared off already. They were handling the leftovers. I was just floating about there looking at what to do now.

Maybe not so pleasant encounter

This was about that I found myself in a room and there was my sister and her two kids. I was having a few words whit them. Suddenly this unknown person approaches and we get into a argument. My sister and them disappears.

After a few heated words exchanged whit this girl as she represented herself. I was trying to convince her it's all right. I'm trying to reassure her it's "safe"...
Well I manage to get her to sit whit me. She sits in my lap but not before she made some stingy remarks. I see she is cautious. She is somehow really upset whit me.

She sits down and I try and take my hands around her and give her a bit off a hug though I fail at it... She... well... gets upset before I really have had time to do or not to do anything. She is convinced I'm not holding up to my words. Though I would say she was too hasty about it all...
I have no time to calm her down before she blows up... well not really blows up but well... what happened next was I was blasted and found myself where ever I now was. It was a punishment non the less I could see and feel and knew. It could be nothing else but a punishment.
I saw these words spelt out in high contrast and clarity and heard them said loudly. "You are a f***ing pp" written and then I heard "You really are a f****ing pervert"... I might heard something like, "how do you like this then" and whit that I had been delivered that was she wanted me to experience. She went off and left me whit it.
All I say is... It was unpleasant to a extent. Not something I wanted to have thrown over me or anything I felt was really appropriate or really was to the context of what it all was about. I could see from it that this was kind a thing to represent on how she thought or saw me as... I was disappointed. I tried to get some stuff of me and such but saw it was quite a solid manifestation. I had no luck trying to manipulate my way away from it and had to sit there and wait a few moment thinking what to do next. How do I get away from this mess.

It was unpleasant and I got upset about it at first but soon realized how silly it was really. As I was thinking of how to get away from the situation I noticed I was waking up. I tried not to hinder it. Easy way to get away by waking up as soon a possible I thought.
But I was upset that my lucid time had been spoiled by the acts of someone like this. Though I must say I'm at fault as well. I didn't notice the feelings of this girl soon enough or recognize the situation I was in well enough.

Strange waterway hindrance circuit
Was about this water way that you were supposed to go whit. It went underground and in these mazes and whatnot. I didn't like it and just got out and walked on top the things and didn't enter the paths as the others did and I saw it was a damn pain if I would have tried. I was pleased I had decided to go the easy way and just walk over and on top. I saw how they others were struggling trying to get through it all. I would have woken up instantly I figured if I would have gotten stuck at some of those complicated turns and paths and hindrances. I walked and observed. I tried to help where I could the others but there really was not much I could do but say and ask why they did not like me and just skip the unpleasantness. There was no purpose of going through that hassle of a torture really what it all was.
I even noticed and heard like they were close to drowning and so on. I asked the person supervising this "aren't they drowning down there" as I noticed this sound and stuff at this really difficult part. I got no answer but a smirk I guess.

6th Mars 2010

In some city and art university?
What I recall is that I was walking around much in a city and different areas until I started to enter some buildings and the like. It looked like a mix of a old museum, art school and university. There were weird designs and stuff about and quite frankly many students. But I really didn't find classrooms per see.

I was just walking about in and out trying to find my way to something but constantly changing my mind of where to go and turning back here and there. Though the path behind wasn't as it was as I came.

At later point when I walked out I decided I would meditate. I just sat down on some grass and pavement on the side of a road and started some clearing of mind.

The meditation
I saw down whit legs crossed and back straight and closed my eyes and then tried to clear my mind and relax. It doesn't take long for me to get quite blank and then I feel a little energy or pain, headache start to build at the top of my head. It quite literally aches and I take a focus of finding dream guide, higher self. To communicate basically. The ache builds quite strong and I try to focus and shift the pain off. Somehow I manage to relax the tension and it eases a bit and shortly feels a bit more pleasant but I loose my concentration bit by bit now instead. My mind wanders slowly whit different thoughts and distractions but I want to have some guidance so I still pertain that focus to a extent.

Somehow vaguely I got something back in return for a answer. When I opened my eyes I had two small notes/cards in my hand. One was something to the like of art/acting something. The other was a card for a woodcutter.
I found them a bit odd.

I would say that the pain and ache I felt was like at the crown chakra.

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7th Mars 2010

Entering a house after some wood travels

Me and close family friends. My older sisters oldest son and daughter about same age as me and my brother were travelling about on some forest paths and roads on motorbikes and then we arrived at this house in the woods next to a dusty road. We decided to stop and then went inside to sightseeing. There was no one there but us.

I looked into the kitchen and a smaller adjoined room that was the old original kitchen. It had a huge fire fuelled stove and all, the new kitchen was 4 times larger. The old kitchen was now converted to the washing room of dishes and the likes.

We spent a little time in the house but can't recall anything else but the looking into the kitchen as such.

We somehow decided to return to our bikes outside and set to go back home. We all have a own bike we ride. Mine is like a mixture off a classical old bike but upgraded whit new modern parts. The wheels are quite a eye popper.. they are almost like car tires. wide and really flat.

When we left did not take long...

I broke my motorcycle
As I was last to go get going I was speeding up to catch the others but somehow I can't steer well and slide off to a pile of sharp rocks and fly up in the air from there whit tires trashed as I land. Air was hissing out soon enough as I was worried the tires would brake from the ruggedness and sharpness of those rocks. It had really rumbled and shaken the bike going over them.
I went for a stop and saying to the others I thought the tires broke in the jump. As I looked they really were really trashed. No help trying to repair.. New tires is needed. Well as that was that I tried to see if I could still ride but it only went a few meters before I had do stop. I diced to leave it and walk instead.

Continued at foot
The others went ahead shortly until they reached a hillside and there was a offshoot dirt walk going down a hillside down to the lake down there. They had gotten of their bikes as they could no longer go whit them on the path forward. It was not far from were I broke my bike so I catched them soon and started skidding down the hillside but notice my older sisters oldest daughter was behind me. She is just one year younger than me.
She was taking it slowly but I said to her to do as I and sit on her ass skid down it instead of trying to stand up which was dangerous.

She somehow listens but not before she drops down 4 canes as I was halfway. They rolled down. It caught my attention as I was not expecting to see any such things. She then started to get down like I did. I went ahead to the shore. There was a little outcrop of land put into the water to be used like a pier. Though sadly there was no boat or similar there at the moment we could use.

We had to swim to the other shore and the house that was by the lakeside there. I saw the two others already go into the water. I was just about to do so but I had a halting to wake up...

When I got back I had already gotten over the water and was by the house now walking by it and then heading on some paths walking further. I was now leading and going ahead the others and soon I noticed I had lost them much behind and didn't see them after again.

A bicycle

I was still in the woods but I acquired a bicycle close by after leaving the house by the lake. They were pine trees and such.
Didn't pay attention to what kind of bike but I was happy I had one and started to speed up and do my crazy bicycle trick riding and going on one wheel at 90degree angles and whatnot on front or back rolling and flying about.
I was cruising along a dirt path and was heading along a path next to a large clearing to the right side whit threes just around me and continuing to my left. This was a much used and walked area. The ground was full of dirth rather than the normal forest growth.

I soon noticed why.

Army field training
It didn't go long while spinning on the bike going ahead that I noticed people in army clothes and gear walk across and then tanks and APC going by and sitting around behind the tree line facing the clearing.

There were much personnel here. Many had taken positions and dug small holes for cower and hiding. I saw a commander on a radio and I was just passing through the lines on my bike avoiding hitting people and doing tricks and spins.

I somehow got the impression this was a field excursion going on.

I then just continue on my path trying to get through and sooner rather than later I had reached to other side of this line and I hit a dirt road going from left to right and had a large clearing in front of me whit barely nothing but marsh-tundras.
I headed toward the right on the road going in the drection all soldiers had been facing and went across the clearing but I soon hit a steel fence on the other side and a small building there.

A metal gate
I got off from my bicycle to take a look at the gate and fences. Looked like was some security line. I figured a connection to the soldiers from before.

I saw three character on the roof of the small building next to the fence and jumped up there to take a look at them. Looked like three fluffy characters from some anime. I kind of greeted them to ask what they were doing here on the roof of this building.
I had not yet thought about going to the other side of the fence.

I never got a answer from them but just went ahead and headed for the other side or went to the right of the fence and gate. I entered a thicker and darker forest of pines and the like now once again. I was heading just straight inside there but soon I saw what looked like the interior off some building being there inside the woods and as I was heading closer I soon was inside a warehouse and turned back but the forest was gone and I was inside somewhere.

Entering the warehouse
Entering the warehouse was a bit strange experience as it came out from the shadows like a mist and then just like that was all around you replacing the previous scenes.

I was greeted by a person standing there. I asked where did the forest go and where is the exit to get out. I never heard a answer and when I had turned back I don't remember seeing the said person any more.

Oddly enough as I was walking around I was meet by another person and he was going to show me that which I was looking for. I had asked to find something but I can't remember what it was. He said it was inside this place. It had a thick steel reinforced air lock door behind it was a long corridor going to the right into darkness. I saw some crates there. I somehow doubted what I asked for would be found there and turned back and closed the door behind me locking the poor sucker inside I thought and split for elsewhere in the building.

The warehouse itself was cold and Gray off concrete. Kinda dimly lit and it had no windows anywhere. Somehow it felt real solid and unbreakable if coming from outside. getting out felt kinda hard unless you knew the entrance.

Finding many doors to different toilets... many symbols
As I was walking I had entered a more warehouse and lively place of the underground complex I now thought it had to be. There were shelf after shelf whit food and other stuff stored away and there where some people about here walking about.

Walking next to the left side wall I soon entered the corner but this wall going off to the right had signs for toilets. I first saw a sign for a male and female toilets. I peeked inside one, can't remember which. Either way the first room was a regular toilet but to the left was a room and shower. And further on the other side was a door leading to another room. It was a style of those ground Japanese toilets in the floor rather than one you sit on.

I backed out and then heading across this wall and saw door after door and sign after sign for diffrent people they were meant for... It no longer was just woman or man... the first was just a shared one... The next, well it includes something more intimate. And it continues whit one thing after the another. I got scared and avoided this one where I could hear voices of moans I thought. The door was slightly open. It was a double door. The sign next to this door isn't something I'm to fond off to ponder.

I shortly then turned away to look at the shelves and stuff about stored there. I thought I was in a supermarket somehow. I saw many cartongs and super size cereal boxes and other things. I saw images onto these... what? They are referring back to more of that stuff I saw those signs on the doors just now?

Just going around the warehouse, avoiding the meddling people
A guy approaches asking what kind I prefer and I feel uncomfortable and just start to avoid and going around and see even more different stuff about. Much is food but I see hints to some other wares. But the foods have like a article of something else in their boxes as those surprise, cheap collectables you might find whit some stuff.

Thing is though I don't want to address what they include into them at the moment though.

I have a short taught I could go and meditate but I push it off and to do something first for the moment but I then forget about the meditation until it's to late and I'm to close to wake up and have no time for it.

21st April 2010

Ghostly Nightmare (was watching lots of supernatural the day before just before sleep)

I remember being in my house and notice I've been moved downstairs again back into my old room. My stuff have all been taken there and as I walk into the room and to check upon all my belongings I notice it's basically all been thrown in there in a hurry by some guys that moved the stuff down. I think how it's a complete mess.
I go around and check upon all things and look through the shelves and similar and make note that most of the stuff seems to be there but as I check the drawers were I recently put all computer related items I see them all gone.
I complain to my mum that the movers have stolen them. I also notice they have disassembled and broken some of the drawers and bookshelves.

I feel a little distressed but calm down soon enough and ain't bothered by it. I thought it isn't really anything super important that was stored there. Just stuff good to have around and save if I ever need them.

As I turn up and around to walk out the room door the dream shifts.

As I enter the new dream theme I'm not my personal self but assuming the character of this young girl who has just been sent to be taken care off by distant relatives.
I see myself or the girl walking on a forest path walking up to the house were I'm supposed to be living from now on.
My character is unsure and not to happy about the circumstances but realizes there is nothing to do about it and accepts the situation. As I approach the house I see the relatives outside and around as they come to approach and greet and note that I've already arrived and that they have received the message that I'm to live whit them from now on.
But I soon see they are not all to happy and see and hear them one after the another make excuses on how their room or house is full as it is and they can't take me in.
Finally the "father" of the household and family says that it's regretful but they don't have room in the main house. The house looks somewhat a mixture of classical Asian and older western style.
He does though make a smirk and a gleeful smile on his face as he now starts to mention the old abandoned mansion. Everyone start to have a gleeful smile and agreement that I can live there.
They note about the ghosts in the house but assure it should be no problem.

I think why is it then abandoned if there is no issues?

We are already on our way to the abandoned mansion. It used to be the old main house ages ago.
I've been shortly shown the way and path and have to walk there on my own after half way as they stay behind up on the hill/cliffside were the new house is compared to down below in the small alley were the old mansion resides surrounded by swampy like crumbled old forest.
I walked down the old main road but it had been severely damaged so you barely could walk up it to the house as the road had eroded away down the hillside.
I almost slip down the hill on my last steps but make it. The "father" stays behind not walking down saying for me to be careful whit this road and saying we will have to fix the road soon.
I approach and walk up to the old mansion. It was quite the villa in the days but nowadays it's a shamble but liveable.
I see there is a another path on the cliff/hillside to the above ground where the new building is. It's a stone staircase. Seems to be a safer path but needs a little fixing.
I ask if the stairs go to the house. They answer that they do after remembering their existence.

I hear them say for me to watch out for the ghosts as I turn about to walk top the door and enter. Some "good luck" as well.
I hear them giggle and turn away to return home leaving me to handle things myself.

I walk inside and see it's fairly well kept but seems things were just left like they were since quite some time back, who ever lived there last. The house had been modernized to some extents but all furniture and things were really old. I walk through the first room which seems to be the entrance and kitchen. There is a cabin and fire heated stove.
I walk and open the door to the next room which I see is the living room. I look around the stuff and see a fireplace and the sofa etc. Seems to be quite exquisite stiff from old. There are bookshelves and lots of books along the back wall.
They really left everything behind and as is.

Somehow I notice something but can't figure out what it is but the girl needs to use the toilet and sees there is a door to one in the living room next to the fireplace. Modern convenience here... lucky...
I see myself and the girl split as she does her business. I decide to go outside back into the living room to check things out as I hear some noises and feeling scared.
I open the door and the girl turns up and joins back into me like she opened the door to walk out but I'm not greeted in the way I wanted.

There comes this ghostly visage off a girl from the right walking straight for us in a hurry. I also notice some old man about the sofa etc. The man tells something to the girl as she runs up and at me but disappears. She was saying something but I got afraid and missed what. I remember the man trying to warn the little girl.

As the ghost scared me I slightly woke up but I returned quickly enough to continue were I left off. Trying to calm myself to half success.

Back in the dream I forget about not to worry and my "fear" factor just gets more fuel and more things start to happen in the house and I her noises and things. Something manages to scare me two time in a row to wake me up again but I return soon enough.
I'm in a panic in the dream as I return and somehow figure that salt will keep the ghosts away and I arm myself whit a half full package in the kitchen and start pouring salt at the door entrance and windows to deny access to the ghosts. I'm making a barrier. I throw salt around here and there mostly at the door and windows as I hear or see something behind them thinking they will just pass through.

At the small window in the kitchen just as I poured the barrier a horrible view comes. Some kind of disgusting tentacles are outside hitting the window. It makes me throw salt at the window and get in much more panic mode.
We are now as a single person running around the house making sure all possible entrances get a salt line. We are scared they will harm us.

I woke up just as I calmed down and realized they can do nothing and I'm being silly by getting scared. Was just thinking about trying to start a talk but missed my chance.

4 May 2010

Lucid moment in a living room

I just now walked inside this room from somewhere else and looked around and saw that it was a livng room. There was a big flat screen on one side and then a couch and table.. The stuff was mostly dark and brownish in colours.

There was this girl over in the couch. She made short kind of greeting, can't remember the exact words but I responded shortly back.
I got lucid and decided and walked up to the couch and sat down there right next to her. She seemed surprised and caught off guard as I walked up to her and just sat down with her.
If I hadn't gotten lucid this would not have happened.
She took a look at me and then got back to her usual thing on the couch. Seems she was going to watch a movie or something. Can't be sure if the TV was on or not.
Her initial discomforted surprise went quickly away, she looked like "what the heck is he doing?"
I was allowed to sit there.
I had more interest in her than anything else. I was only really semi lucid. The lucid thing was to decide to interact with her.
I looked unto her and saw her get comfortable and look into the direction of the TV. She noticed and looked back at me and said something. Bad recall on what words where used but the topic was about sexual things.
My response was to divert/deny, it wasn't my intention to go there. But I took a moment to think and then I changed my mind and to agree with her. She had seen my intention before I saw it myself.
I responded in honesty to what she said to me. I concluded I had such intention. I felt better about it and somehow took it as she didn't mind as I was honest.
I took the initiative to get closer and to get started. She didn't say anything or try to stop.
I was getting a bit ahead of myself and even though I got no negative feedback and free cooperation, she seemed not to interested and indifferent.
I asked if I could go further but saw no improvement in her mood and she mentioned she didn't like at all what I had suggested. Seems it was not something she enjoyed, I had a reckon other stuff would be ok though.
I took the cue to stop and retreat my actions. All of a sudden she seems to sheer up as to me it looked like she got a idea about something.
I had dropped my ideas about the previous course and to see if there was something else.
She starts to mention about what I would need to do for her.

She starts to list a few things to get for her. It's a food & snack menu. She goes along to mention what the things she wants are. I'm thinking about what's she up to? Does she think she can use me as a errand boy. I think about she will probably just have me get this stuff and me getting nothing in return really. I decide, well what the heck. I'm not really expecting anything but she seems happy listing the items whit a mischievous tone. I've decided that I'll get what she wants just to be nice. I'll play along whit her plan.
I get my focus back to listening really what the items are. Seems it's hamburgers and such. It's really a order for 3-4 people. But there were only us two.
She finishes with "Now remember this, don't forget". She has a serious look. She really wants this stuff. I try to remember and look back at what she wanted. I only remember the 4 burgers and 3 drinks but not what type of drinks. I try and recall but can't remember. Why can't I remember, she just told me what to get. I'm worried to ask her say it again as she looks "evil" about it if I would forget, but I see she will get even more mad if I get the wrong stuff or don't bring some of the stuff. I have to ask her if I don't recall.

And so I try to recall again but I find myself not there any more. The dream is transitioning elsewhere as I was close to wake up but managed to stay asleep with a little lucid effort.

5 May 2010

I felt like I was in a place of my inner worlds. Peeking and looking into my own mind.

Stairs, basements and huge halls.

I arrived from somewhere walking up to this door, I had a girl accompany me I think. I was talking, interacting whit someone but I never saw her.(my dream/spirit guide?)

Words can be accurate or not, kind of memory guestimates...

"So this is the underground of my subconsious/mind"... Things I might suppress, ignore, I thought or said also.
I got some kind of agreement from the accompanied person.
There was this double sided door in the front up ahead. I had just walked down a concrete style staircase down to the basement level I feel. This was supposed to be the bottom level.

I was interested and said "lets look inside" and went ahead to push the doors open and enter the large hall that it was. In the middle of the room was a large table and a huge gathering of DC characters I thought. But closer to the door stood a old friend of mine I saw.
The people in there were busy disguising talking about something.
I was interested and wanted to take a peek and listen to see what they were here all about. The gathering had not noticed me coming in just now...
But my old friend, which I somehow knew was a DC representation noticed and turned around to me and loudly and happily blurts out "Let's get married!"
This shocked me and also gets everyone's attention, I quickly am lost for words and stutter to answer but walk backwards and then run out from the room closing the doors behind me. I hear a roar of murmur and upset talking start to storm up. They are not at all happy about me running away without a word in response.
The doors behind me are closed and I see the accompanied girl shortly and tell her lets go quickly elsewhere. She seems slow somehow. Seems she didn't notice what just happened.

I look back at the concrete gray staircase and notice there is now a path down another level. Did hidden undergrounds open up suddenly?

"Lets go down another level" I tell and quikly take her whit me down to the level down. There is a similiar door here aswell. "So there are more hidden levels underneath" I see there goes stairs down again.
I take her whit me and we walk to the third level down. "Lets go to the last level" I say to her and go down a new pair of stairs.
On the fourth level I see there are no new stairs going down.
"seems this is the bottom one"
I go to the door here and enter.
The room is identical, a huge hall whit a huge table in the middle whit large gathering of people around. There is a large scene on one end whit a screen and projector. Someone is giving a lecture or guidance of some kind of plan.
I walk around the table trying to listen and see what this all is about.

A person standing at the scene whit a pointer stick is showing some kind presentation and describing the points and lines. It seems like he is talking about how to build something. I feel like everyone here is there to get instructions on how to go about it. They are busy listening and going through their papers and ask questions.
I'm seemingly a bother somehow. I would around the table and they are ignoring me but as I try to take a peek at what this person has in his documents I get a reaction like I'm not supposed to see and they pull them away from my eyes and face me saying something to go away, or what the hell am I doing.
I look up around the room and see people are upset and interrupted. I look back over the table to the double door. I think I saw the girl over there enter but can't be sure as I woke up next.

9 May 2010

Encounter in the bathroom.

Whit some business at hand I had walked into the bathroom and was looking for something. I might have been looking for a change of clothes as the clothes washing machine was in there.

But as I walk next to the shower I hear someone is in it but I just look for the stuff I want to find. But the person inside is just done and turns it off and takes her towel and opens the drapes seeing me there a bit wondering. It's my sister, she looks at me and seems to ask what I'm doing here but I've just picked up some of my clothes. She doesn't really finish as she sees why I'm there.

"Just stay in there, close the drapes, I'll be going out soon" I tell her. I haven't yet picked up all the stuff I needed. She just fixes the towel a bit but stands there. She was about to say something but really didn't. It was a bit of a awkward moment. I turned around to take the rest and went to walk out.

The dream faded to black.

The oil spill in America

I'm standing up on higher ground looking down on a beach below where some people are bathing or doing things to gather oil that is coming ashore. They seem to be doing both at same time. More oil is coming ashore and they have some kind of sponge thing to take it up from the sandy beach.

I walk away from the beach but are then soon alarmed to something more serious. Larger waves are washing ashore on the beach now and drag the people out and into chaos. People need to rush and rescue the people for them not to drown in the huge waves crashing down. There is more oil coming in whit this also. More than they can handle.

I'm rushing down back to the beach whit others to try and get the people out from the waters. Many are getting dragged out whit the backwash of the waves. Some try to jump into the water themselves to rescue others but the waves are to strong and large and they risk of getting in jeopardy themselves. They have to retreat. The throw out ropes and I find a long aluminium ladder and I use it to push on end out in the waters for people to grab unto and then pull them back on land. I manage to point the ladder to one guy who grabs hold of it and then I pull him in and the others on the shore go to pick him up. I ready to push the ladder unto another person further out but now I see huge winds and large dark clouds coming in from the sea. HUGE waves come in now. 5-10 times larger than the first ones.

I'm forced to get back.

Another dream scene was out in the ocean where they had just managed to anchor and put in place the funnel to gather the oil. They had just started to pour down concrete to like this well going down unto the funnel down below. Not down to block but to construct the well/pipe. They were just about starting to celebrate the success as they soon are done but the funnel down below dislodges from the huge pressures being exerted upon it by the leaking oil. The funnel capsizes over and there is more chaos.

A short snip of view was the funnel on a shore or shallow water and a guy running next to it and avoiding the spinning anchor cables turning and turning like in a extremely difficult avoidance game. It felt like if the cables would hit him he would be split in two. But he miraculously dances around avoiding them until he manages to escape. There where like 3 lines of these in-between where he needed to jump between. One could not stay in one all the time as larger stuff came in these passages time to time.

The last scene was now kind of still on a beach but wasn't about the oil stuff any more.

Bathing in a lake

I had walked away from the bad stuff but then turned about a bit to walk back to the beach. I now had arrived at a beach on a smaller lake. The scenery much looks like that in a place I know in northern Finland.

I gad my regular clothes on myself and saw two girls bathing as I approached. They were inviting me to join them in the waters. I didn't have swimming trunks or so and just went naked in the water. It was shallow and I basically had to lie down in the water and hide. They seemed to have fun. I was swimming and stayed down but I went soon to approach the two girls who where just next to the water shore line to the land. They were standing up and only legs were below the water. They were smiling at me. They had full body bathing suits.
I stood beside them shortly but turned around to look out into the lake again. I wanted to swim.

For some reason hordes of people were showing up bathing in the waters all coming closer to the position on where I was. Everyone were coming in this direction. All had swimming suits or trunks etc, I was the only one going about naked. I looked back at the two girls and they still seemed like normal but I looked back unto the waters and there were more people. All closing in. I was getting uncomfortable. I didn't like this many people around. More so whit my situation. I was getting really worried. I didn't want them to find out.
I heard a bit of giggling from the girls beside me there. They were having fun at my situation.

10 May 2010

LUCIDITY! at a neighbours

For whatever reason I found myself realize that I'm in a dream and I was in my house or just outside it.
I remembered a intention I had about trying to make a visit to a neighbours house a few houses away. They moved to the area 1 year back now. I haven't had a chance yet to even speak to them sadly. So I knew I wanted to go there directly.

I made it in a hurry to walk over the street and over to their house but also to think of how do I manage to be able to go inside as I know from past experiences when I've been trying to visit other neighbours I've kind of been thrown to wake up. But then it was more of a forced entry try.

This time I slowed down and had walked up the drive way and then stop and go down on the street in a collapsed state realising I don't know how will I be able to enter their house. I'm not invited or anything.
I was down on my knees just next to the door, almost crying. I know I can't force anything.
I'm staying down kind of sad at my situation whit a want to want to get to know them.

Staying there for a while just barely starting to let go and yet to soon too see what else to do. I barely notice the door opening and the Man of the house seeming to be heading out.
He walks by but then turns around and as I look up the wife is there also. They seemed to say something and then invited me to go inside.
I cheer up from this sudden change and get up and walk inside the door. The two of them seemed to head out and away.
After a look back a little unsure about this a younger boy comes down from the second floor to greet me and wants me to help him out with his school homework.
My first reaction is to avoid... "bothersome". But I just as quickly conclude it's really not a issue and I was just invited inside and it would be rude not to help him out. I decide I better look and see if it's something I can help him with.
"ok, let me see if it's something I can help you with." He goes to turn over this paper brochure where the homework is in. I see paragraphs of words and 90% empty lines where you are supposed to fill in the correct words. He says he doesn't understand what he is supposed to do with it. I look over the paper and try to make sense of it. Somehow I get a thought about language and translation but there are no description or instruction on what you are supposed to do whit the few words and all empty lines. The words make no sense to me either. I say and conclude " I can't help you with this as I don't understand what your supposed to do with it".
He seems not to disappointed. Was like expecting it. There seems to be someone else he can turn to before it's supposed to be turned in in two days I figure it was. He in turn turns the brochure like paper around and on the backside I see the notion of some kind of game board and instructions for the game.
The paper was then opened up to view a double sized board for the whole game. The next moments I'm there looking over the thing to try to figure out how you play it. It takes some time and much looking around before I start to see how the game is supposed to work. As I'm almost getting the hang of it he seems not to interested in actually playing it and closes it up and says he is going to do something else which I missed what it was.

Next one of the girls in the house comes home. She asks her little brother who I am. He just shortly says "dad invited him in". She then goes to head for the living room. I make a cue to follow there as the boy ran of elsewhere and I was just standing by myself at the entrance hall.
In the living room there are more people than just the girl from before but I didn't make a notice of it more than that and to go and sit in the couch next to her.

She soon puts interest in me after seeing there is nothing else going on with the others. She said something directed toward me can't remember what it was. I made some kind of short reply. There might have been a few more words or gestures but it's blurry but soon after I made some kind of assessment mistake in interpreting what she said and made a move to get closer to her.

Well the result was she was shocked really, it was kind of a obvious move on what intention I had with it. She was almost stuttering in saying with disbelief what I did. She was rejecting my move and I went and apologized to her as I saw it was wrong of me. She was trying to mention it to the others there but somehow there was no reaction.
After she was done talking and seemingly calmed down a bit and me a bit ashamed how I got it wrong thinking about my action. I had decided to sit further away from her as I could on the couch. Thinking she would not want anything to do with me any more she goes to turn her attention back at me I saw from the corner of my view and makes a approach. I see her expression and mood has completely changed. I was thinking of something bad in mind but she says a word... I think it was "wait" and then went ahead to make her comfortable in my lap.
I don't know what to make of it.
I have a mixed bad/good reaction. Let her be or try to get away? I move around a little to shake her of but she just moves herself more in place. I let her sit there. I heard her say "don't move".
I was now there with her in my lap and having to accept it.

She seems content with it and me I'm really unsure about this. But I decide to put my arms up ahead of her. I try to tease her a bit. But I only get a short "no, put your hands down"
I end up just having my hands lower over her thighs and legs. I play around there a bit. She says nothing and lets me move my hands across her thighs. I do this for a little while.
Though it doesn't go long before she gets up and has turned to face me.
Can't remember what happened next.

I was exploring the house for a bit though I recall later.
But there was this design hole/window through the roof and the floor of second floor to the living room below where plants etc was. It was quite a nice place but as I passed through this hole thinking I wanted to get back to the living room I ended up in a wholly different place next. I was still semi-lucid.

Futuristic city and aliens.

After entering the downstairs again thinking I'm back in the living room I'm surprised to see I'm not there and completely elsewhere. I look up and see no longer the place from where I entered. I'm like in this walkway off a shopping mall. There is a glass roof up above. I go ahead to walk forward and a bit unsure on these new sceneries I try to figure out where I am.

It soon dawns on me that I'm somewhere I haven't been to before as all the stuff I see is quite advanced and technological. There is a huge mix of different designs on different technology like meaning they come from all kinds off origins.
Soon I see like a dock and space ships there and they are awesome and cool. Seems a ship close by is loading in goods and preparing for take-off. I look up in the sky above and around and see all kinds of flying things and stuff floating about.
I'm doing my float walking soon enough and float in a crowd going ahead whit legs crossed just looking about at all these things. Seems I'm in some kind of market area now.

I get the attention of some people or individuals. They tell me to wait and start to ask questions. They seem to be some kind of officers. They ask who I am and what business I have here. But I just continue to float ahead and look around not answering them. I see that there really wasn't a single human around. There were maybe some human looking individuals but I got the feeling I was the only real human there.
The two officers are discussing about me. As I didn't answer they got some kind of scanner out to try and identify me. One soon says that he could not find a registry. The other one comes about to say "maybe he is a B*****ian" can't remember the word but it felt like he meant people that have decided to live outside the society and as such they don't register etc.
The other answers in return "no, no. they could not even find a **** match". Meaning the scan could not find absolutely nothing. It didn't return anything. I was a complete unknown.
I got to thinking maybe they don't have any data on humans.
I floated ahead a little. They were left behind a little not noticing. But soon I heard. "Hey, wait".
Memory blurs on what went on next.

Some school/library mix dream

I was going around this library school mix. There were tons of books in large shelves. And then many students. There was this student who had disappeared from this hidden secret hideout room. Though it just was this secluded room this "hikikomori" person had seized and started to live inside in the library. reading books all the time. It was a little secret only few people knew but this person had vanished from the room. I was somehow taxed whit trying to figure it out somehow.
It was a kind of disaster for this person to vanish. He was of some super importance for the well being of the school.
I was just walking around looking around.

I just now remembered one more dream.. make that two.

I remember it as I read the title of this news thing article:
http://www.popsci.com/technology/art...ps-rain-demand

The dream was about some person using a blue or green laser pointer to point into clouds and into the sky and you could move small patches of clouds around or create new ones in clear skies... WOW! and just now I find a article to something about it.

The other dream was a longer one. Including desserts, waterways, Egyptian pyramids. Mayan pyramids. Pine trees. Finding a hidden location. There were hills and valleys. A frog and salamander.

11 May 2010

In a hot dried place.

I was sitting in a car as a passenger in the left front seat. Can't remember who the people in the car where but we where travelling somewhere. All 5 seats where taken. It kinda looked like a older SUV. We were driving on this asphalt road in the middle of nowhere really whit dessert and some small dried vegetation here and there.
There were words exchanged but have no recall on what they were.

Soon enough we drive past these two girls that were standing on the road hitch-hiking. I tell the driver to stop and ask stuff. This car is full but we are heading for a place just up front where we have two other cars waiting. We can use them to pick up the girls.
The driver says he will stop and we will pick them up but he ends just avoiding and driving past them and I am irritated why he drove just past them. I look back and argue why did he not stop. The girls are waving there hands as to greet me. But the car is driving away from them. I try to get him to stop but he doesn't.

We arrive at some kind of roadside parking but there is a wall on one side and a entrance. The other cars are supposed to be here.
I say and talk to the others as we get out that to take on of the cars and go back to pick up the girls. Seems we get a agreement but in the end we never went somehow...

The dream changes character and I'm taking and delivering these materials by a small propeller air plane. We are trading whit these bars of rare metals. They need a supply of this stuff to somewhere in this same dried dessert place I see. The sun is bright and strong.
I ask what do they need this stuff for. I never really get a good answer. Just that they need it for some manufacturing out here.
Shortly I see a other supply exchange of other metals another dealer is taking elsewhere. We had a exchange of words unknown. But I remember it was like a recommendation as it was a better deal. Much better price for that stuff.
Soon I was back in the air heading somewhere whit no supply as we had delivered it I guess. Heading back I think but the air plane crashes in the dessert.
We are all right. No one is really hurt. But the plane is a total wreck.
By some luck of fate there were people nearby and they come to check up on us. They are prepared to take us away from there. Out from the dessert.

There was another dream of other theme next but recall fails.

Later I tried a WILD
Was a partial success. My task and motive for it was a bad choice though. >_>;
I was half asleep deciding it.

Trying to find someone to have sex with

Yeah.. it was a huge failure. I ended up just walking about trying to find a girl suitable. There really wasn't any good circumstance and all kinds of people about everywhere so I could not really find anyone to spend a little private time with.
At one point I was floating ahead of this wall of apartment windows whit these thumbnail images blurred and I tried to get a "sense" of what room would be a good choice to inspect for my motivation. I got a fix on this group of three windows but fixated upon this one then lastly. I then did my wall through walking, though I was technically a window you could not see through it. On the other side I peeked if there was anything of interest. I saw a typical apartment. A mixed living room and bedroom.

On the far side was a double size king size bed. I saw two people sleeping there at first. A man and woman older pair. Damn... This is no good I decide and get to head back out. But somehow I get back to I did put effort in that trying to sense the right room. I decide to peek back inside and do the halfway through peek the window/wall. It has a peculiar feeling to it when you pass through solid objects.
I try to look more detailed. I see the same scene of the sleeping pair. But I see something on the foot of the bed. A younger girl is sleeping there. I sense like it's their older daughter. hmm. I get a bit re motivated to make a visit.
I then remember that the two others are there... I can't with them here. I go to head back out but stop hallways and look back in thinking maybe I can get her to go with me elsewhere.
I now see that they are really sleeping naked... though not the daughter.
And soon the woman starts to move and says something to the man who sleepily responds. I think the woman asked what that noise was... I thought about my wall/window through walking. It did make this subtle noise I have noticed. Damn... I head back out quickly. They were just about to look my way...
I decide this was a bad idea and head away.

Going about randomly lastly I found myself on a small beach. I tried to approach a girl there but got this man coming from behind asking what I was doing... not again... I head away. dammit.
Last views where just cruising about in my float mode. I was looking about but was just in people empty places among various buildings. Every time I turned around the scenery changed so it made it hard for me to head back the same way I had come. I wanted to try the beach again but I could not make my way there and just then decided to head the way the most obvious which seemed to be a car dealer. There in the far end was a large window. As I didn't want to stick to a boring car dealer place I just went for it and walked through it outside again. I looked back and saw a clerk wonder where I went looking out the window I just walked through. He really had a wondering look to him.
There was a dirt path heading somewhere I floated in that direction a little but I woke up as I was going.

12 May 2010

Playing A RISK/Hearths of Iron game with family

I'm watching a battle ensue as soldiers, tanks, air planes and whatnot attack and destroy their enemies. I'm like watching a scene from a WWII movie of some large scale assault. Soon I go to look from above and see like the battlefield in some computer game. The units are automated for in the battle scenes. I see the "allies" win over troops of Germany. I soon see a map of the world on a table and figures of troops on various landmasses and areas. Germany had taken about 50% of the world but were now being beaten back by everyone else. Battle after battle is lost for the German Axis. I had a view over Europe. At start mainly the whole was German but soon I see areas being quickly lost. The game is at the endgame. It goes quickly. I see scenes of various battles of the areas I go over. I turn around to look over the whole map and see the various troops spread out. I soon go over to south America where some intense decisive battles are being won. I see a fort being assaulted. German troops are fleeing.
I look around the table and see family members and relatives. It looks like we are in the cottage in Finland.
I see my oldest sister. I try to engage with her a little but she seemingly completely ignores me and goes away elsewhere. She seemed in a bad mood. I look back at the game on the table. The game is just about over. My Sisters first husband is playing there whit various persons in the family. Mainly their kids.
I see my sisters daughter walking out away from the game. She is going for the door out. She is basically one year younger than me. I follow her as I have something I wanted with her.

She walks out and I hurry to catch up. I yell for her to wait as I open the door. She was just about to exit the dream I felt. She stops and turns around. "Can you come up back here" I wanted her to come back and stand on the porch. She goes and stands there where I wanted her, she was wondering what I want with her. Curious.
"Can I have a kiss?" I tell her with a smile.
She looks a moment and then says "You mean that kind of kiss?" With a slightly worried expression.
"You can give me a kiss on the cheek here, if nothing else" I pointed my right hand finger quickly at my right cheek smiling at her.
Took a short moment but she goes to give a quick short kiss on my cheek. I make a bigger smile to her and bid farewell by stepping back and to turn away and close door and seeing her expression of wonder and 'what was that?' in the small creek. She was just standing there in the porch looking at me. I closed the door. I wanted a short farewell greeting/gift as she was here.
I felt great thanks to that. I needed a bit cheering up.

I went back to the game and took a look at it. They were about to start a new game just now. I got my focus back to South America. Seems we start as a individual who has no country yet. But the story seems to be you move to this adjacent land which has the capitol and temple. You are supposed to do something and sooner rather than later you become the leader of this country.
I see the move happen. The character enters the capitol.

My view gets sucked closer and closer and we enter the game. We are at the palace. We are in a introduction with the ruler. I'm one of they guys in a party who made our greetings to the emperor I guess. It's his birthday today. I don't see the particular character from before around. I made a look around but could not spot him. Somehow I got a feeling he had yet to enter the palace and had just arrived in the city. Seems the story does not yet go there. Somehow I figure his entrance to the city will cause massive chaos wherever the goes.
We take care of formalities with the meet but it's mainly the others that do it I just look around, but they seem not to mind or pay attention to my behaviour. I do make have one eye on the formalities as to not completely offend anyone.

Soon the guy tells us lets go watch the games. There are some kind of games being held in celebration. We walk a short path to come to this large pavilion over this huge court. There are some kind of war games. I see different kinds of units duke it out. These are the military units of this country and others.
I see this countries speciality is elephant cavalry. The elephants are huge and crush the horsemen. There are large cheers and the emperor laughs at their power. "Look at what we have". I know no other country have these units. These are special units only reserved for this country. I feel like this is the reason why we are here.
Though the units are all before gunpowder stuff. Seems it's kind of a civilization mix in here also.
I look at the battles with the elephants shortly and then take to walk the pavilion. There are other onlookers here. The building and such look like Indian/Chinese.

Soon this one onlooker almost falls of the pavilion unto the court below were the games are. I manage to grab him and with the help of another we pull him back up. But they guy has no intention of staying up there as he was really jumping off at first. He did not try to help in getting back up either. But when we had placed him safe he just did it again and I let him jump down. He made a yell and somehow I guess he died. I didn't note or think more about that after.
But the scenery and the games being played on the court had now changed. It looked like 4 tables of Ping-Pong tough the tables were really large as tennis courts.
I made myself get down somehow and walked down there to take a closer look but now the tables were normal sized and I was standing inside a gym building like those in schools.
I looked around. This for sure was a gym... I saw soon the ping-pong tables gone. Now there were just school people doing whatever they usually do at gym class.
Dream faded away.
But there was some more stuff that I vaguely recall about a school setting.

Tried to go to sleep again after a short wake spell. Only managed to have dreams for a few moments.

In the back-seat of a car
I was on the left side back seat of this car going somewhere. My brother sat on the right side and my old friend in the front right seat. Her sister was somehow also present in the car but she was all over everywhere.
I was in a argument with my old friend. We were in a bad mood which each other as usual as normally in all latest dreams of us both in them.
I was trying to get the attention of his sister though. It wasn't going to well and something strange was about it all I noticed later when awake.
I managed to get her attention at last but it soon went to worse.

There might have been a hidden character. Someone was interfering with me. Or if In really would like to call it correctly. Messing with me in a bad psychological way. This "messing person" has been present quite often but the thing is I don't often realize it. This character is present often in the shadows and usually messing with me in various ways I have to say. Is it a joke? having fun? Or something more sinister?
What I can tell it's a guy... But "IT" can be whatever... often disguised as women at times.
Thanks to this in the last dream the girl yelled out "Pervert" and I soon realized something was not right with this. Some stuff had been happening from behind to confuse me... I only could find these "tentacles or legs.. don't know which" which I had to throw out from around me and get away from. They had been doings things in the hidden...
This has been a issue for far to long now... I've grown a huge disdain for this "entity". I haven't managed to confront it yet which I should have done.

It made a larger entrance about the time I took time off from this site. Seems it's still around. The dreams just become to much to want to write down or keep thinking about.

13 May 2010

A manga like story.

I'm on my way to my new school I was accepted to. Or rather the dormitory where I'm supposed to live while I study at this school. I think it is required for all those going to this place. I had been lucky to acquire the last free spot they had. Someone had just recently left the place opening up a spot for my acceptance.

I vaguely remember a long train trip and then to enter the school premises. I'm glad I was accepted and have a train of thought talk about this all. I'm wondering about the letter of acceptance I got from the dormitory. It's a short congratulations and greetings and address. It said something to the like how happy they are to have a new girl to take the freed spot at their school. Wishing me luck and hopeful enjoyment to be part of their school and community.
I was thinking it was a typo. I think back at my registration and it was completely clear in it who I was. I walk through some nice park scenery on the campus and am heading toward the dormitory building as per the address but where it's taking me is away from the more general public areas where I saw mostly guys to areas where only girls where around. I had the letter in my hand with the address. There is something wrong with this I think. I look at the letter again. Getting more worried about the letter and the supposed typo. I saw a sign or asked a girl for where this address was on the grounds and was pointed toward this more exclusive court yard. There was a brick wall and gate as entrance. I walk inside. I hear the girls behind asking each other what am I doing there. This place is well kept and looks beautiful. There is cobblestones on the ground and a cherry tree in bloom next to the gate. I see the dormitory to the left of the gate whit a small cobblestone court in front.
I walk up close to the entrance door and see the address sign on the left side above the door. It's the right address I see. This is the place where I'm supposed to live.

I stand there for a short moment and see girls exit and walk inside all looking weirdly at me wondering what I am doing there.
Soon a bunch of guys run up to me from behind. They looked like they had stalked me since I entered the girl areas.
"What's your business here?" "What are you doing here?" "Why did you come here?" They ask. I turn to face them but before I have time to answer a girl comes out from the building. Seems some of the girls walking inside had alerted about my presence. "State your business!" She tells with seriousness. "What are you doing here!". She seem angry. The other guys back off.

"I'm supposed to be living here", "I'm the new student". "That can't be possible, this is a girls dorm" "The new student is a girl!". She seems offended. I see other girl around have gathered to see what's going on.
"But the address in the letter said this was the place".
"That can't be true!" she snaps back at me.
"But look" I show her and others the letter. The address is correct.
She reacts a bit confused about this now instead. No longer so confident.
"There must be some kind of mistake". The girls around seem worried. Looking up to her. She is the dorm leader it seems.
"But I even got a confirmation letter" I take out the other letter to make sure I was accepted and things were proper. It all was confirmed.
It's the dorm leader who sent and received and handles these things.
She reacts with defeat in a way and everyone around starts to agree that the letters are correct. I'm the new student supposed to live here.
"But your a boy" She tells timidly.
"It's your fault if you thought I was a girl!" "You even treated me as a girl when we were little". I'm remembering and recognizing this person as a childhood friend who always treated me as if I was a girl(in the story of this dream) "it's your fault if you made a mistake"
It seems like it dawns on her that she had mistaken my gender and was remembering the past and how she thought I was a girl and had kept thinking that as we somehow had not seen each other or had contact in ages.
I saw a reaction of wonder about the crowds. They could hardly believe it. They somehow looked to her as a person who made no mistakes.

The dream changed scenes.
Things had somehow been settled and I had already started my classes. No idea if I was to live in that dorm. But I for sure knew there were no other options.
It was a swimming class. The instructor was standing beside the pool and all students were on the benches listening and looking. The instructor picked a student and he/she was supposed to show his/her swimming skills. Seems many here were skilled swimmers. I had a talk behind in the crowd with the dorm leader and another girl, a friend of hers. We were in a slight argument about things. She seemed still angry about having been wrong about me. She had been humiliated really. Her friend was trying to calm us down and joke about it. There was really no real harm about it.

The swim instructor notices us and orders for me and the two to get into the pool. Somehow I'm tasked with a challenge to see how long I can hold my breath under water. To see how much I'm made off. I go and sit in a corner of the pool and the instructor takes out a stopwatch to take time. The others have done this before as I was a late arriver(midterm) I had to start from the beginning.
Sitting there holding my breath(somehow I kept my real body from breathing as well... but I did take a few breaths as I did not want to wake up from lack of oxygen). I see soon the girl take a peek down to make sure I'm ok. I wave at her and look up to reassure her I'm ok. She seems worried about me.
I feel a bit discomforted as I held my breath for real and went up after 1:36minutes. The instructor said the time.
Somehow he seemed more content but wanted to see my swimming skills instead. He was suggesting different swimming styles. I could pick any I wanted and then show my real skills as he said sarcastically. People seemed intent and interested. But I was worried. I'm no skilled swimmer at all... ( I recall my real life swimming skills). I say I'll do backstroke swimming. He seems somehow impressed... But it's the only swimming I'm any good at, at all! I wanted to say but kept quiet. I was preparing to take a dive from the edge of the pool but woke up instead. The holding breath had waken me up quite a lot.

14 May 2010

Wood-shop class

With a vague memory of a military style precursor dream I was now at a wood workshop or similar class. We were working and crafting things with wood.

I had this huge block of solid wood in front of me that I was working on. I was using saws to cut into it. Soon I was picking up circle blade saws with my telekinesis powers and getting them to spin and use as tools and swinging about to sculpture with. Some how this gets me to think about other stuff and my mind wanders off to ideas about these free spinning blades. I think off them as projectiles or swords to swing about to use and attack and defend. I soon see using them to destroy various objects here and there. They are real handy and easy to use. I get them closer to myself and touch them in the centre as they spin. It hurts touching them even though it's not the blade sides. I try to have them spin where my hands are as blades in close combat and make them fly away for attacks. They cut into things like a hot knife into butter.
I am soon destroying these attacking "pods". Some kind of military surveillance things. Soon I need to defend myself from attack military vehicles and I keep using these saw blades to destroy everything.

But jet fighters are to much for these small blades so I imagine something more useful for air combat. The blades transform themselves to these spinning wheels of death in the shape of boomerangs. The metallic ultra thin flying boomerangs spin at incredible speeds and then for attacking they crash and cut through the enemy planes. They have no chance against these things of death. They are agile and hard to detect. There made from ultra durable stuff.
After destroying a jet or two I slowed one down in it's spin to have a closer look. When stopped it looked like a ultra thin glider. I saw they were remote controlled ad they even had some kind of engines. They were dark grey. The wings were like blades.
I spun of it shortly after to destroy more jets attacking.

I then turned back to be in the wood shop again. I was presumably done with my construct and had been looking at what the others had done.
It pretty much looked like random stuff with nu real use.
Soon someone comes over to praise what I have created. They seem impressed and happy about it. I try to remember what I had done but can't. I ask what did I create? They show me back to where I had that block of wood but it was not there any more in stead there was this strange construct that looked like a mix between a cabin and a stand for painting. It was poorly made and ugly. I didn't like it at all. I said I had no memory of making this thing. They insisted but I had to repeat I had no recollection of making this. The thing now looked like one of the storage cabins in the room, but unfinished.

I woke up shortly. Tried to sleep again but only had short visions of dream scenes in continuation.

Inappropriate short view
Yeah better not to say,

Cuddling in the washing room
I found myself to be cuddling and being intimate with a girl and I took her inside the washing room in the house to keep out from view of the people in the house. We wanted to go further. But a person wanders across the room before I had closed the door and asks.
"What are you doing?" We were a little lost in out intimacy for a moment and I went to hush him away and closed the door behind him. He was a friend I suppose of the girl I was with. The girl didn't really react to him in any bad way for him to have seen us. He left us alone. I for sure didn't know him.
I wanted to go further now as we have our little corner for ourselves now. We have a few moments of continuation from before but doesn't go on long before I wake up.

15 May 2010

Short lucidity early in the night

I meet a group of people and they said some things to me and wanted me to go with them, I had just "entered" the dream and was non-lucid and non reactive really and I don't remember fully it all but they decided it was a no go. They went to leave and go along forward. I'm there thinking and getting slowly more active in thought and as they are like 10-20meters away I realize I'm in a dream! I want to join them. I yell for them to wait and rush up to catch up. They greet me and seem pleased that I managed to get lucid. I remember there being this woman who was more intent on having me with them than the rest.
Though it had gone to fast... I quickly started to loose lucidity as the group started to head up again. I was also seeing things fade. I shortly almost woke up or actually did. I lost track of the group that I had just meet.

The imaginary country that is set-up like a game but is a corporation

When I got back to a new dream it somehow was a blank slate. I and a group of people... I think not the same as I meet before. Have been set here in this country that is completely empty. It's a corporation we know. They are about to start a game in creating a country. We are the players. First a city and all that appears from nowhere. I'm kind of in a place that looks like my neighbourhood.
I talk and discuss, kind of argue about the set-up of the whole 'game'. Some seem not want to agree it's a game and soon believe it's a real country as people in the hundreds are in this area. I think about how the whole land of the country has now been turned on and started with people living like it's a normal country but they are all fooled and it's actually a corporation game and that by 'living' and using and agreeing with the establishment society they are owned and their employees. But I see it as they are slaves as I know that's how the corporation thinks.
We are set to begin some game but I never really figured out what it was really. A game within the game. (I can vaguely think that the game is to convince and show the truth about this country to all those living there)
We have just begun and haven't really yet figured out how we will play the game. We just kind of take it easy and walk around in this shopping mall kind of place. The argument from before makes a split in the group with about half deciding and believing this is a real country forgetting about the game. I and a few others are only left that really think we have to continue onward. We can't let the corporation win.
But I forgot about the whole thing and just went and did random stuff in continuation.

Short recall lapse and then I found myself in some kind of school/university setting.
Sexing it up with this girl and conjured twin

I only remember this part about the school setting where I found this girl I took a liking to. We were at first in a classroom alone and got close and such. Soon she was half naked and... people start to appear... A class was about to start... I manage to get her away and into a small toilet in the corner of the room. A guy was following, a kind of a non likeable person. I was kind of taking her so that they would not mess with her. The people who came in and approached were not the nice guys of school. I had to get her away from them.
Well inside the toilet closing the door behind and pushing the ass hole away I asked if she was all right which she seemed to be. The room was quite cramped. we two could barely fit inside. There was just enough room left if we would like to continue. Somehow she wants that as well. I saw a nice smile come as a thanks for what I did.
Last of the clothes off and starting up not long into it and I hear some tumult outside. From some great imagination of my mind I recognize I don't want any bad happening and use my imagination for so that the person causing a rucuss outside is her twin sister.

Well I hear soon her voice and the girl with me reacts and we end up opening the door. There outside stands her twin sister kind of mad and scary. She had somehow taken care of the boys. I think they told her what was going on inside but could no believe it. She had such a face of surprise when she saw her twin sister there inside naked.
"What are you..." she said and I took the cue to drag her inside and close the door behind as there were still some people outside. I didn't want to expose her to everyone to see. They could talk here inside. They were looking at each other and both showing embarrassment in different ways.

It was way to cramped up now. We could barely move. It was a tight fit. I got a signal that we could continue but they both needed to be there. It was to cramped to continue here so I suggested we find another location where we could be. They reluctantly agree.
As I went out both had same clothes on and I could not easily differentiate between them. There was a slight different hairstyle I think.
I tried to find a larger room next but when I found a room and was sure this was OK and closed and locked the door. Either people turned up from nowhere or open doors came to being on other walls. It was impossible to be alone with them. They were getting sad and soon not interested. I have failed yet again...
They both left after a few failures and seeing their mood go down the drain. I really got sad when they left and I had to let them leave.

This didn't sit well with me as things just continue to go downward afterwards. I wanted to find a place to be alone for a moment and have a rest but was never allowed and was just bothered and angered by one person after the other.

A library, mall... food store?

After having seen the girls go and leave I was really bothered about it. I walked out from the room in frustration and walked a short distance to enter a rolling staircase into a library. I wanted to go and sit down and rest or meditate. I had gained a little lucidity I saw and wanted to find a spot to relax in to calm down my feelings. I was walking along the library looking around and seeing many sofa and comfortable spots where you could read a book or something but they were often quite open to view from everywhere and I wanted a little more secluded spot so I did not take any one of the first places. I soon saw a video and cd section in the library. It was set-up like for sale items or such but there were some older tv's and such if you wanted to watch something. I saw soon a good candidate for a comfy sofa higher up. Looked almost like a cuddling nest were a couple could seclude themselves in at the library.
I was decided not to take it as I saw people down below it and went and walked ahead again for another spot. I saw in the corner of the building there in the roof above all bookshelves and things a bed and windows looking out. I thought that would be nice and headed in the direction but as I was just getting close I saw people coming down the stairs that went up to the bed in heaven.
I got disappointed and just turned away. I was more stingy now than before and lost my little lucid gathering.

I was now walking in something that looked like a normal mall or store with mixed items. I was just going though the toy area and walking into the clothes area. Walking around I saw lots and lots of children. Seemed like they were playing around. I saw no supervisors or parents at these sections. The kids were running around. But with my anger and irritation I didn't want to take it out on them so I just walked through and soon found the cashier lines. There were like 12 or something but only 2 lines were active. I didn't want to though there as there was a clear opening at the entrance where I could walk out. I went there but as I was just to walk out the cashier guy yells I can't go out there and need to go out though the cashiers and their item detection systems if someone steals something. I'm angry and pissed. What the hell I think. This old lady just walked out whit a bag full of stuff... I say "F*** ***" to the cashier and then walk over there and press myself through the line more pissed than ever for now.

I then walk out from the building... It looks like a little park walk area outside. I to head for left as this is where to road only goes. Soon I pass two guys and hit one with my shoulder out of damn bad luck and get frustrated why the f*** this needed to happen also. I just ignore it and continue walking.
But the guys can't let it be... They look at each other like "what the **** was that" and then head to follow me wanting something... well not nice... I can see they are not nice guys. Thugs to be more precise.
"Don't follow me, leave me alone" I turn to tell them as I walk. But they continue to follow. They get close and say "Why should we not follow you. The demon s*** you are". They look at me like I'm some kind of evil ****.
I'm so damn .... don't know what to say any more. They sure have no good intent at me.
"Just leave me alone all right" I tell again. They don't listen. They make a close in. I take out the keyboard in my backpack I had with me all along. I use it as a weapon to swing around and fend them away from me. It's spinning and flailing to keep them at bay. I warn them to get away from me. I spin the keyboard from the cord quite nicely if I say so myself.
It keeps them away but as I stop it they try to get close again. This goes on for a little while until they grab me a little and seemingly has taken something from me... I'm in a rage now.
I see someone engaging with the guys further back and he is holding what looks like my laptop charger. I'm certain he just stole it from me. I don't see that he is actually engaging my followers.
I yell to him to give back it. He stops engaging them and sees I'm going for him. The others back away. I attack with a rage and try to take the cord and as he doesn't want to give it back. Strangle him with it. I spin and spin and try to pull it and make a noose but it's only half successful. He manages to get the cord unto his face rather than his throat. I pull and try to correct it but fail. I then try to strangle him with my hands. I see it's not to effective as he seems to not care or is faced at all. I soon realize that it's not my cord. he asks that I must be mistaken about him.
I'm really feeling shitty and manage to break away to wake up soon but Not before this one guy gets close and looks me closely with his eyes that get bigger and bigger and I can see them clearly. Grey eyes and with a small dark slit on the lower part on both. They are looking unto me closely. I wake up.

Damn I feel like crap about the whole thing and am relieved I can find a moment alone in wake life to calm down from this spin of destruction of mind. It takes about 30minutes to get away from the mood that it got me in.

16 May 2010

Changing room with school mates

We had just gotten done with gym class I thought and were heading back to the changing room and showers. It's many of the old school mates from earlier years. There are some I don't quickly recognize as I only really payee attention to those I had seen before.

We as a group were chatting with the girls and then split up in the two changing rooms. I went with the guy group at first but as I had gone inside I didn't want to be there and sneaked out again and tried to walk over to the girl side. I was sneakily nonchalantly just walking into the girl side with a group of girls just in front. Just as I'm about to enter the changing room from the wall bend a guy from behind catches me and takes me out. The girl in front look and I'm somewhat dragged out. The guy was giving a smirk at me for like 'nice try'. He said something but can't recall. The girls did also mention something. It was something with going to the guys changing room.

I ended up going back to the correct side for me a bit ticked that he would take me back. I remembered I've always been kind of allowed to enter the girl side in the dreams before. Or they were coed. I didn't get to think long as I saw that girls actually followed suit to go change in the same room I was now in. They had come over to change with the guys. They were the hot girls from those school years in our class. Or the girls I thought I liked in those days in any slight way it might have been. They entered in group as they seemed a little shy about it. But the group gave each other courage to do it.
The guys really didn't react way to much but were giving a approving response.

We all went to get undressed for the showers. I sneaked a few peeks at the girls but they were cowering themselves with their towels and helping each other so the guys could not see too much. We all then went ahead to go for the shower room. It was a larger one.

But I soon realize that there were already girls from the other changing room taking showers there. It was a mixed room I saw. The room was also bent like a V and a entrance on both ends. Looking around the corner I saw most of the other girls coming in and realizing it's not two separate shower rooms but a larger mixed one. Some were complaining.
I heard some say for the guys to stay on the other side. Seems we all agree on that. But all are not that shy and just go where they want.
I now see the girls from our side walk in we tell them that the showers really were connected. They seem a bit surprised as it seems it wasn't really necessary for them to come over.
I look around and walk around the shower room. I just wander a bit and then walk back to be close to the girls I've liked but dream fades soon away.

Walking in the forest

Me and a group of friends, I guess old schoolmate friends from earlier dream are jogging or running and walking on this dirt road and then we go of into the forest grounds and just go in a particular direction. Seems it's not to far from the road which I see later to the left in direction going same way. We just preferred to walk on the forest laid moss.
I spot a old WWII runway and foxholes etc. They are mostly crumbled down but you see the path that was dug still going across the forest and the small hills. Seems this was a location for a major defence zone. There are larger dug out pits for command tents and other things. But it's all overgrown now. We just walk along these going somewhere. Seems I'm leading the way.

Soon we hit a swamp lake and we are forced to go left to go back to the road that crosses the waters. I look to the swamp waters that look Gray greenish, there are two people doing something in the waters. They are next to these kind of tree's there. I think of some kind of agriculture. I think they are checking for seeds on the older ones and then to plant new ones. The waters are waist deep.

I decide we need to head across the waters and go into them and head at a 90degree of angle away from the road. They group go to follow and we are heading for a exploration into the unknown. We are searching for something. I find a mound of dirt and rubble. I think of ruins and mention I've found old wall remains. There is a little pile of stones laid on this dirt mound. I think of some kind of shrine the locals has put there. The dirt is soft and feet gets dragged inside in the mud. I soon head for other objects I see. There is more old stone structure like things close by. I yell that I've found more ruins.
But I see the others are not all as interested and are heading for this larger land mass in the distance. A guy told me we should go there. I agree and soon think about a main temple is laying there. My view goes off to show a ma of the area. I's a fog of war map where you only see the areas you've explored. Everything else is black. I see the land mass and others close by. I want to head for that potential temple this isle can have.
Sadly dream fades away.

Finding a house of hay

In coming back to the dream I was in similar areas now as in the forest and swamp but I spotted this mound of hay laying on the ground and I recognize it. It's just next to shallow grounds with the waters close by.

Upon walking across the hay I start to remember what it is and I'm soon inside this house. The hay was the floor. It's a small make shift cottage. I remember being here before.
I go to the fireplace and try to lit a fire inside but it's full of ash. I finally get a fire going but see that al smoke really goes inside the house rather out the correct chimney. I take a look above and see the airlocks are all closed. I have to go and open them. The fire picks up and there now is a real fire going inside the fireplace. It's out of control. Wood is almost falling outside and I have to get back and push the firewood inside. But I see that the fireplace is actually made out of hay as is the walls but has been cowered by thin sheets of plywood or other stuff. Some sheets fall off the walls revealing the hay.
I soon see into the kitchen and spot a fire inside the walls. It's just under the stove and dishwasher. I remove some panels to get to the hay and my brother comes who was there with me gives me something to put out the fire. I then go back to look around. the house is but a pile of hay again.

Walking off to explore the swamp again

Looking at the hay I decide to go off and see something in the distance. I head away half jumping floating. I'm jumping on trees and branches that grow from the shallow swamp waters. They are all small an thin trees. They bend over to a large degree when I stand. I walk and jump across many and larger distances between them. I end up in a more sparse area with some larger trees instead. they don't bend as they small ones. They are more safe to stand on.

I stopped a moment and then jumped off flying a larger distance of a large body of water and hear like a documentary speaker start talk about these creatures that live in the swamp. They are a kind of swamp monsters. They went extinct a long time ago but for some reason they are here. I see some small round green ugly things jump and swim in the water. I want to avoid them. But the narrator tells the males are calm and harmless unless provoked. All I see are males. Then it goes to mention the females which are larger and aggressive. He says to stay away from them at all costs.
My luck is that a female just comes out and tries to take a bite out of me. It's much larger than the males I see. It jumps high up in the air trying to catch me I fly about avoiding it's attacks.
Soon I enter some kind of rock formations and mounds around in the swamp lands of waters. The rocks are really the only thing sticking out from the waters any more. he documentary goes to mention these which were constructed and used by the natives who lived here when it was yet above ground to most part. They used the rocks to kill and hint for these swamp monsters.

I lure the monster to a place where there are more of these rock things. They are pointy and sharp striking up into the skies. They hunted these things by luring them to jump up to catch them but land on the pointed rocks instead. I try to do the same and have the monster jump after me as I fly about the rocks until it jumps up and is landing on top one of the hunting mounds. I think I'm finally getting rid of it but dream fades just as it was about to hit the rocks.

Some kind of agent, and a shoot-out

Last dream compromised of some kind of agent sneaking about wreaking havoc in a area. Police and swat or similar were just under the tail of him. I and school friends of old were caught in the middle in the area where this was going on.

The earlier scene I remember is at a train station. One of the rails that are elevated above the grounds. We see this train approach on the rails above and this small cart explodes. Soon a fast train from behind comes to hit it and the many cars start to derail out of path but they still stay locked together and don't fall away. I just watch as the many compartments of the train pile up in a bunch. I tell my friends not to go under the area where they are piling up. It's not safe I think. But soon the locomotive pulls forward again and the cars get back on track. but it's not all though. Seems it soon disconnects 3/4ths of the compartments. Largely the bunched up part...
Soon something crazy happens... The whole train station building starts to move about sliding and working like a lifter. A large hook moves across above the building and lowers to pick up the floating compartments and then a new rail comes and slides in place. I see these rails on the ground where different parts of the building can move around to different configurations.
They lift is lifting the bunched of parts to a new line. Seems it's all gonna work out.
I got my attention to the agent as we hear them chasing him close by. I decide to follow and take a interest. He just ran past us and the police were yet to arrive. They were to far away still.

I walk among the ground lines and walls. It looks part of a construction site. But it's just the way it's built. The above parts need to be able to slide around so the ground level looks messy and poorly thought out.
I walk into this room area. I think the agent will be needing to cross this section. He does.
He ends up starting to shoot at me and I fight him a bit by taking a gun and similar and using them to block the bullets. Though many hit me they don't really do anything. I still though use objects to block the gun mouths spraying bullets. The items I pick get mangles up by the amount of them. So I change item a few times. Taking things from him to defend with. I vaguely remember making a few shit at him but can't remember much more. I delayed him so the police and similar could catch up for now. They got to continue their chase again.

17 May 2010

A first forgotten dream early in the night.

2nd I remembered after a while.
Need to fight... and evolve.

We arrived in front of this corner store on some street. Some guy had wanted me there and was kind of threatening. It was about some issue. I was supposed to handle some other guys debt as he had not paid it up. For sure I had refused. It's not mine. I exited the car and walked the side walk and I heard some threats. And a guy follow.
I got the impression they were going to frame me for something. There were many by standers. But they didn't get involved much but look on worried.

Skipping ahead a little I was inside the store now. The guy had now given me a miniature gun. I was supposed to take it. I didn't want it. I thought about something bad with it. When it was in my hand I pulled back the top part until it snapped off and parts flew about. I was going to destroy, disassemble it. The guy who gave me it didn't look upon this scene lightly. I even asked a bystander to go and get a metal saw in the store.
I was in the mean while picking up the parts. He soon came back and said they didn't have any. I had to settle to discard of the gun in some other way. I tried to bend and break the parts I could and then threw various parts here and there where people could not get to them. Were a few different sewage holes I dropped parts inside. I think the guy followed me looking as I made the gun useless and non retrievable. This wasn't the plan I could tell.

I came to be upon someone's house. We were gathering there to discuss further on how to go forward with the issue at hand. It was a rich guys house. I knew the kid who's house this is. Rather it was his parents house. I was invited inside through the garden into the living room. I saw a few multi-channel sound systems and stereo etc. Seemed someone was a music enthusiast here. Was not really cheap stuff either. In another corner of the room I saw old Victorian furniture or the like. Not in the best shape but was apparently just now been had in for refurbishment and then usage.

We talked about something I can't recall but we decided we were to head for them this time. We were going to hit back.

The continuation was we entered this base or lair of the criminals. It was some kind of super criminal syndicate with special technology and whatnot.
We had one battle after the another and I got 'evolved' in the progress, after each battle or in the middle of one I got levelled up in a sense to get a new skill to use and fight back. But it was more like activation the more battles I did.
I remember some thing that made the enemy stop by getting this sparkly mist in their face. Another was telekinesis to throw someone back. Then I got super slash... I mean a real super slash that cuts through anything generally. I could call it vacuum air cut. The room and enemies here where destroyed in two slashes. But I did also cut a few toes of and a little bit of the nose of one our allies who had been taken hostage for a moment. He was laying on the floor luckily. The others just looked at me in shock on what I had managed.
But we went onward to the next room or hindrance where bullets and guns were spraying everywhere. Here I gained a skill to create a area or sheild/walls from which everything is reflected back in the same direction in same velocity as it hit it... This was a huge mess as allies and foes where spraying bullets left and right and me creating these fields made it fatal to be anywhere in the room. Everyone was soon running for cower.
I managed to coordinate our forces and my powers next to corner the last of the enemy. They had absolutely no chance against us now.
Actually each battle just became easier as I got more and stronger evolution of the powers I activated.
We had won.

Stargate Universe, the tick episode but with a slight twist
I was dreaming about Stargate Universe episode 17. I just watched it before sleep. Though it had a bit different story.

It was already inside the chaos by people hallucinating and started doing crazy things on the ship. I and a couple of others were trying to figure out what was going on and make sure things don't get to disastrous. But the people soon lose control and are seemingly controlled by now. Something is taking control of the people on the ship and making them do various things.
We realize about the tick thing as someone comes to inform us but they have largely taken control already.
They go to start to communicate with is soon enough taking us by surprise. They are revealing what they are doing and not to worry. It's some kind of emergency. Things need to be set correct and repaired on the ship fast or something real bad is going to happen. We are in hyper drive I gather from the context and it's something to do with that.
I saw a kind of movie that explained things. But don't really recall.

The end scene was that they had released everyone as they were done and we were talking to each others. The ticks looked like small hairy spiders. Or a ball with spiky legs going out. They had averted a disaster and also fixed up some various things we might find useful in the mean while. They know lots about the ship and other things. They are some kind of hyper dimensional entities.

Crying at the hands of a young girl
She was talking and comforting me. It ended with she telling me to rest and beginning a count to 45. I woke up before it hit 10. I don't feel like going into the details for this.

Trying for a WILD, partial success

After waking up I still wanted to sleep some more, I did not want to go up yet so I stayed in bed trying to sleep but had trouble. I moved around and at times it seemed like I was entering a dream with visions and moving about somewhere but I just woke up from it to loose the view. But after trying again and again I finally started to drift of more easily. I entered a few different scenes between waking up but soon I found myself to get to outside my house several times in a row and had control to move about. But the lucidity was wavy and unstable.

I went to just walk about the street and around the garden. I was trying to make my lucidity more solid but it only kept going in this unstable fashion. When I tried to do stuff like RC or rub my hands I could not move my hands. I felt I was moving my real hands rather than my dream hands. But luckily I could look and walk around freely which I decided I would do. I was sleeping on my side so I had my arms underneath locked in place. I didn't want to loose my dream state so I didn't want to get up to have a better position as I would have to start all over again.

As the dream was unstable I felt like I could not do something super advances and thought of going to visit the neighbour again. They are just a couple houses away. So I walked over the street and to their house. Upon coming to the last house on the row I saw the houses were not the ones in real life. I looked away and looked back several times and the house kept changing. I walked back and forth to make sure and see if I could a better representative house emerge. Finally it did and felt like it was the right house. I went to walk for the door and ring the bell but as I was walking up to the door the house and garden had changed again. I walked back out... This was not the right house I thought. This was surely not working right, my lucidity took a short back step and I walked away to head in my house direction again but I arrived elsewhere.

I found this girl here somewhere, half lucid I just went for the sex thing again. I just really only went to sit with her and hug her but as it seemed this was going all right things went haywire. Something was changing. The girl morphed into something else and the dream scene changed. I managed to get a bit more lucid with this. I felt trapped, held in place. I could not escape or move. The girl had said some things but can't recall. But there was no girl present any more. I was trying to figure out what was going on now. Something had gone up my ass and something was going down my throat. They were just there doing nothing holding my in a lock-down position trapped not able to do much. At first I could not see anything. I could only feel what was around me. But thanks to my lucidity I was not really panicked or distressed to much as I've become when this thing has happened in the past. I was sure I wanted to figure out what this thing is. It's happened a few times, it's not something I like at all.
"What is going on?"
"What is this?"
"Let me go!"
I yell out but get no answer. I try move and get the things away but it seems futile. They are not moving away at all.
I said some things again like to start a conversation. Bad recall but one was "show yourself" another "let me see you"
I was discomforted to max as I was getting no response but soon this deep male voice was heard. It was a response to "What is your name!".

I heard a name spoken loudly and clearly seriously. "H____m___as" Heramaias, hermius, Haremiuas. Something to the sort. It was a proud confident voice. But not really a nice warm voice. A cold one.
I finally got a response. I tried to talk and convince it to let me go but only got a indication that he would not. I felt like he would not let me see him and as such would not let me be free. I tried to struggle again to get the things away and get free but only felt as much as I moved things away they still were there not going anywhere.
After struggling a little bit and saying things to him, I felt the thing in my throat to move away. It was moving out and it was long and slithery. Like some tentacle thing. It was thinner a the point. As it was just getting out my throat and mouth I could see again. It was this slithery thing going back into something that looked like a hand. It was a thumb. The thumb of left hand but faced so it was on the right side of the hand but the hand looked like it was facing me. It went inside and it looked like a crude hand with a big thumb... I had been moving around and feeling about to try and figure out what was holding me. I had been feeling the contours of this hand. It was hard and crude with pointy bumps. As I now could see again it was really big and green in colour. My hand could just about hold around this hands thumb. But not completely.

He soon said something to me. It was to the like of the following:
"What do you think about my brother who is a ____ and a dragon."
It was a question to like assess me but I had no idea what he meant by that and could not really answer. I said something in response. It was no correct as nothing happened. I then tried to struggle again and trying to let me free or let me see him. I started to yell some stuff but my words coming out were at times different from what I intended. I had to like enforce my own words to come out the way I myself thought or else words of someone else seemed to exit. But the other words seemed to make more sense and knew what this was. But I did not notice this in there and just yelled that I would not be taken and soon with more struggling and enforcing my minds will was waking me up.

18 May 2010

A strange gathering and refusing a battle.
Despicable consequences

My recall is not to good for this one.
I remember I had been called to meet a person. He had called upon me for some reason. I had been escorted by someone to go and get me and to bring me to him. We all knew each other. Kind of like friendly enemies.
We were like in some castle built in sewage tunnels. I remember sewage water ways and being underground things being musty and dirty.

I and them were talking and I only remember responding to say when I went to leave as "Why should I fight you as I know I can't win?". I was walking away to leave but stopped as he still had some more to say and I can't recall what was said more. The guy was sitting on a throne of sorts. There were 3 others present also. 2 other males and 1 female. We all had strange gear on us. Armours and the like.

There was this strange scene where some outside person went to interfere as I was leaving again. My view switched over to this person sneaking up from a corner in a hooded cloth and then start reciting a ancient spell in some language I can't make any sense of. It was a spell to bind or dispel in like throwing the devil back to wench he came. It was to get rid of the guy in the throne. He quickly notices it and then turns to pay attention back at me. He seemed surprised and got another expression as like he didn't think I would try such underhanded tactics. I have no idea what happened next for a few moments as recall is completely lost. But I knew it was not me behind this but he was suspecting me. He was sure of it. And the spell seemed to have failed. He had a counter as I never saw the hooded guy or what happened next.

What I recall is when I for last went to go away the girl yelled for me to wait. She wanted me to be there. I quickly dismissed it and walked away. I had no wish to associate with the guys there.

Seemed there had been something going on behind the scenes which I knew nothing about. There seemed to have been some deal between them if I would join them. The girl had lost. I was no longer there but I had a view of the area and scene to see what happened next.
What went on is not something I really would like to say... The two other guys there went ahead to approach the girl who seemed to be desperate and begging and reaching after where I had left. She yelled "NO!" and the guys said "lets get this on with" and went to rape her...
I only saw one simple act and that was sure to tell what was going to go. I didn't like this at all. I had a stomach ache for a while after making me unable to sleep for a couple hours.

WILD with false awakenings

I fell asleep and then kept thinking I was awake or waking up again and again and just tried to sleep again. But I was already dreaming as I soon came to listen to music. I was sleeping with my earphones and music playing. This was not a clue for me to note I don't sleep with music on! I just moved about and tried to sleep. Thinking why did I sleep with the music playing. After a little while I start to listen to the song as I can't sleep
It's some metal or rock tune going. I recognize it but can't figure out the name. Been a while since I heard this song. I dig it and listen through.
Then the next one begins but I start to notice things now. Why do I have earphones? The next song is strange and I listen to the lyrics. This song wasn't like this... It was changing and the lyrics were reflecting what I wanted to think about or have answers to.
I soon took the cue to go up and look around the room. I didn't notice the layout of the room and furniture were of that which I had when I was like 8 and such but the new stereo was though present so the new bookshelf.
I had a lucid moment.. I'm dreaming! But then I tried to look at my hands and rub them to get more stable lucidity. My mind was not cooperating to it's full potential. Soon I lost all lucidity for a moment and went vegetative for some reason... It faded I was back in the bed waking up from sleep.
I went up again but now I tried to experiment with the room. I stood beside the table in the room(it's not there any more! Not since I was a kid!). I tried to orient it around so I ended up standing on the roof and then changed gravity or whatever it flew up or fell down. Things were hinting and I was assuming to get back my lucidity.
I saw I had loose control. Like waking up from deep sleep and being weary and sloppy. I tried to assert more solidness but my hand rubbing was not working as no hands appeared in front of me. I then remembered someone asserting their lucidity with words of command.
"Solidify!"... nothing. "Assert!" ... nothing "Stability!" nothing.. "Lucid stability... NOW!" and with the word 'NOW' I saw things solidify and get more asserted. Wow it worked I thought and then got worried not to get to exited. I looked at the scene... hmm seems there was no change. Looks stable.

I remembered that my mom and sister had been talking downstairs. I went to walk down and as I hit the stairs I see that they are still there and talking. I go down and meet with her and mom in front the entrance and downstairs toilet.
I had business with my sister. But when she saw me as I came down she looked terrified and panicked. She tried to escape for some reason from my presence. I didn't want her to leave as I wanted to speak to her. So I stood in front her. She slipped by to escape inside the toilet but I followed I really wanted to get to talk as soon as possible. I worried she would disappear if I let her out of sight. I don't have many full lucids. I wanted to use this opportunity.
I had to step my foot in the door for her not to close.
"I want to talk to you" she then stopped trying to close it and I could walk inside. But as I went inside and closed to the door as I wanted it to be a private talk and sat down on the toilet. She went to stand in the shower area. I lost a little lucidity and my vision became black. I could not see but I was still there and heard her.
"Wait a little, my vision disappeared" I asked to hold her hand to try to create link. I got it and soon I could see again.
But this is something I did not take note of right away... The girl who stood in front of me was no longer my sister! But I just assumed it. It still affected me. I no longer really knew what I wanted to say as I saw her change. At first she had become a much younger girl in my age maybe a little younger. Kind of sitting on the sink with one leg wearing jeans. Soon she stood up to stand in the shower becoming a little more younger again. She was afraid. I didn't know other than to say "I won't hurt you" as she was reacting as I was some evil dude after her. It got her to calm down from panicky to a more restless worried mood. My sister is double my age really in her 40's. But this kid in front was like 12.
The whole situation was really strange but I still had not thought this was really not my sister. But I was unsure about her transfer of looks which I for sure had noticed.
"I really want to talk to you" I went to reach out my hands to hold hers as a gesture to calm down and be safe. She seemed reluctant to get close. Still afraid of something I had no idea about.
She walked a few steps and just vaguely reached for my hands but stepped back again as I thought about maybe a hug will calm her down.
I then went to try and talk what I wanted to say... but I was clueless and just stuttered two words to her...
Her reaction was now completely different as I realized it wasn't coming out right and could not say anything more. The words were not there.
I looked at her and she looked at me at this failure of what I had wanted to talk about. She still looked her afraid self but as she realized from what I could tell I had nothing more to say...
Well LOL I have to say.
The reaction is not anything like my sister but I was still not making the link.
I heard this complete strangers voice say "Bad" (bas as in really bad talk & words, like fail). It was somewhat condensing and looking down on me. There was another word as well and the "bad" repeated in Finnish but I can't recall the other word.
The girl seemed more calm and firm now. getting over her fear but still timid. I never saw her mouth move as I heard the voice.
I was just sitting and looking... I had nothing to respond with and was dumbfounded by the comments I had received in return.
I looked in her eyes and for a few moments they were locked but I then just found myself wake up with no warning.

Quickly I came to see she was not my sister and I had completely failed at saying what I had wanted to talk about. It was missed in it's entirety. I just had to laugh at it. I do wonder who she might have been and why she was so afraid.

Taking part in some child story
I remember the story of the dream like it was a story I'd heard long ago. I was now dreaming it through but it was although mixed with other things, I've even recalled seen the dream before once before inside the dream. I was half lucid in this one at times.

I was attending some kind of game and competition. I did something random and it was the correct thing and I won. People came to congratulate and were envious. I thought what the heck? How did I win? The price was this little gold item. the size of a keyboard key. I have no idea what it is but it's something sought after. The champion of the games gets to have it. I see there are mainly kids and youngsters about. I was sitting on a seat of a auditorium it seemed. There was a front scene where things were going on and the participants were sitting in their seats with small benches or tables.

I went to get up and to go find something which was my room and bed. I did not find one of my shoes as I went to leave. Someone gave me the other one. It was not the shoes I was thinking about.
Some kids followed me to my room. It was a shared bedroom for like 10kids. I thought my bed was this one in the corner but it was the one to the left of it instead after I asked about why I did not find my stuff there. I got a feeling of peter pan setting or something. Kind of was how the buildings where. Simple and made of wood.
Again I was looking for my shoes but did not find them. I asked the others and they came to give me them but they were again not the shoes I was thinking about. But I just went and put them on as if they were.
I and the others walked outside soon we were at a class. I was sitting next to the main character of the story I thought. I had been walking and being close to him since the competition. I thought the original story was he won the game.
Well anyway I was sitting to the right of the main character. He was like only 12-14 year old kid. Somehow I didn't want to interfere but it was happening non the less.
The professor was asking questions and wanted a answer. We were to figure out what ingredients or materials were needed to create or have this effect. I thought about spells or the like. It was somehow vaguely linked to Harry Potter.
I was getting distracted by my legs. The seats were small and I was to large for them and I had my feet to my right a couple seats and having them underneath this 6 or such year old girls seat in a white frilly dress. She had her feet underneath and kept hitting my legs and looking back at me to see if she got a reaction. She was playing around. I let her play with that but had to keep looking back to play along or she would start hitting hard hurting my legs to get attention.
Soon I was paying to much attention. The professor looked and saw me keeping to look away and not follow class. The little girl was noticing this and used it to her advantage by soon yelling out and complaining I was hurting her legs now.. That sneaky girl I thought. But then the professor yells to me to answer his question. I's some advanced question. No one else in the class had answered yet.

I looked down on my paper and charts and see a list of materials and 3 dots sliding about trying to figure out which materials and in which quantities were needed. But someone was not again playing about with my feet again. It was the little girl and a older one going at it together. They were checking for reactions by doing something. My charts were moving around in the response to this. They were experimenting with me to see what I would give for answer back to the question.
The older girl soon says out loud to the professor that it's really strange.
"When I put X... he reacts 'that' way and if I try 'this' he rects like that and going with B shows these results." Somehow it's really un-suspected off. It's reacting entirely different. The charts arn't stable and it's unconfirmed and I can't really answer with this I realize. But then the girls stop trying different things and remove the link to check for whatever they were checking and the chart in my hands moves a little more and then goes to final positions. It's a correct solution but it's entirely different from what they are teaching it should be. People are wondering and looking about trying to see a answer from each other but can't.
I continue to then say out the answer and materials. The professor just has to accept as it's correct in a way but the non thought of parts there of were far from non standard. It was a new solution to give the same end result as the other standard answer they were after.
The professor just grunts at it and goes to continue class. He did somehow not want to admit that I got it correct but with a new way.

With class continuing I looked down at my table to look at my calculator or keyboard. There was the prize I had won just before. The price had become a key on my keyboard. A golden key. Some of the kids around my seat notice it and then start to be amazed and get to know that it was I that had just won the games before. They made it sound like it was obvious I got it correct if I had won the game.
I turned my attention back to the proposed main character to my left. I remember it was supposed to be him giving a answer and getting it correct. The kids now look at him and give some comment about how he could no possibly be able to answer correctly as he had 'that' thing, or did something. Can't recall. I think he had written something and the others made fun off it. It was the answer he would give. The kids thought it was wrong but I knew it was the original correct answer.
Either way he wents steam of anger and embarrassment. I really saw steam puff out from his ears and then he went to stand up and fly up in the classroom and flies of toward the front board and then goes up through the ceiling making a hole in the roof.

I go to try and follow. I go up to the front look up the hole and then follow to chase outside and up above the ceiling or inside the classroom ceiling and the outdoor metal one to the weather. There was a small passage between here where you had room to walk about. Others followed as they were also worried about him. As I flew to go up the hole a long string of characters grabbed my leg to hang along. They could not fly so I had to pull them all upp. I had to half climb and fly the wall to get up. There were like 7 people in a chain to each other. Two were the girls from before which were the first to grab on followed by other friends.
Under the ceiling I was walking to get to the door that leads to the roof. It was just there a few meters away. The others were following trying to help.
They spot and say he went outside. I go to the door and see out through a window there he has landed on the half finished construction of the ceiling. They were just renovating the building and the roof and this area were under heavy remodelling. It was perilous to be there.
I go to walk outside the open window socket as no window was in place. and go to walk about the roof. It's unstable and dangerous. I make a fly jump to the platform where he is lying on. Seems he knocked himself soon out going through the roof. He is dangerously close to fall of the roof edge. I go to the ledge where he is. It bends and I see it's far from finished and isn't done to handle people standing on it.
The girls tell for me to help them over which I first try to do. The little girl goes ahead first as I reach out my leg for them to grab on and the use to lift them over. It's not working and she almost falls off.
"It's too dangerous, stay over there I will try and get him myself" I go to tell them two. They accept the situation and leaves it to me.
I walk over to get him. I see the roof ledge about to collapse any moment. I go and get him and bring him back over to safety. The roof just barely held together but got damaged. They will have to redo the job from the beginning I thought.

A little lapse of recall on what went next but I got a moment of lucidity and took off elsewhere to look around. I came to be upon some park area and a line of people next to this bush line or fence. I lost lucidity there again and just went to approach a girl that seemed nice. We were about to engage in sex all of a sudden. I only saw the beginning of this but woke up.

19 May 2010

First dream I forgot. It was uneventful really but it felt like a dream nice to write down but I just can't recall it any more. I had trouble sleeping well so had many wake ups and this eventually made my recall really bad.

2nd dream was the following
Mathematics equations to solve with a fighting race =_=;

What I recall is I'm in a maths class and we are to learn to do a new equation/function solution. The class is gonna be long and only go through this one object and we need to have this weird competition with racing and fighting to be able to solve it.
The maths teacher is the one I had in High school. She writes up the 4part equation on the board. It's 4 equations that tie into each other to give a unifying result combined. She does a cross on the board and in each corner you see the symbol for the four different equations. We get a value for the top two and through the battle stuff we will solve them and in the meanwhile figure out the two other ones down below by acquiring the values that we get by completing the game correctly.
And the result of these is the solution we have to solve. I see no one understands what we are really supposed to do but we are soon enough thrown off into the battle fighting race game.
She tells for us to start and we all in class head out down the spiral stairs to the floor below to exit the building where after the race will begin. The stairs became not stairs any more but a slide you glided down.

Upon exiting we head to race toward the goal area where we have to arrive acquired our points battling the other classmates and the chasing monster.
We were in teams of several individuals. And each team had 30points. To be able to compete and win you had to trim your team down to a maximum of 3 persons and 10 points. You could appoint X number of points to each member of the team and if that guy lost to another team he would be eliminated from the team and the points from the challenger would be added to ours. making it harder for you if you kept loosing. And also the monster could come and take any individual and his points. So you could use the monster to sacrifice members to make it more easy for yourself. But the sacrificed member would fail the class. Or any individual being taken by the chasing monster.
My team doesn't want to sacrifice anyone so we decide not to use the monster to our advantage but many other teams use it. I hear some screams from those sacrificed. Our team is undecided and going forward slowly. We haven't even had a single battle almost reaching the goal and all 30points still unchanged. Many others were already down to 10 or close to it.

We see we will not be able to win and just reach the goal with all points and all members.

Back in the classroom the teacher goes to show how you use the values and equations. I had forgotten about the two equations at the bottom during the battles and she goes to say you should have come up with imaginary numbers for these two by now.
I just can't understand it. She goes ho-hu-hum and solves it and expects us all to have learned it by now. Class is over. >_>;

Watching a game replay at my old friends house

I'm at my friends house. He is showing this new game he found and started to play with other friends. He shows it a little and describes it. It's a mixture of Civilization and Ages of Empires. You build cities and then troops to go attack other cities if you want.
He goes to show a replay of a LAN game he had played with several people. The battle was supposed to be epic. They were 5 players. I could see the names on the screen as the game loaded the replay. The game lagged badly at start and you had to wait for it to load completely before it was smooth.
I saw it first focus and show the constructed cities. Looked much like Ages of Empires but more structured to be a real city with all thought out buildings possible. it's a real infrastructure and city. Soon I saw him move the troops he had built to attack a city to the North. It's a huge score of troops moving out.
There are defensive walls and towers strategically places so you have to move around full swing while being bombarded by cannon towers. You can't destroy walls I somehow get out from it. But it's no trouble. My friend has amassed a humongous army and they are barely tickled by the defensive towers. The city troops had just been annihilated before attacking another city so it was a open walk in as you got to the entrance opening. But there were better towers etc there to defend but they really never had a chance to the onslaught of troops coming in. I see the window go inside and follow this moving tower. It's some kind of spray gunpowder bullet tower. It rolls in and starts shooting a wide spray and destroys houses. The troops are flooding in. The city is destroyed in a couple minutes.
I see now on the map that the other cities have also been destroyed. He had a distraction force to attack another city so they would not bother the main army. It was on the right corner of the map attacking a smaller city. It had drawn the allies of the city to defend over there. It was a huge success. The game was over. He had won in 5 minutes after starting to move out the troops to attack. 7 cities were destroyed in that time period. By him and others attacking each other.

I was back inside the room looking upon a computer screen. Or it was 2 Dell monitors and a older crt screen. They were linked and you could see the game on all three. I turned around to see my friend stand there. He asked what I thought about it. I just said it's a quite nice game.
Soon his sister came up she was looking for something. It was her blanket and pillow. I looked to see them laid over the computer chairs. They were used for comfort. Seems they were playing through all night.
I pointed my hand at the blanket asking if it was hers. It was and she came to get it and then walked with it into her room. I soon heard their father ask in louder voice her if she had taken something. I think it was money. She answered back that it was needed for something like a trip. It went into a argument. She was not supposed to use the money for that. She just said it was necessary as they didn't have enough. She went downstairs to go out or argue. I went to look inside her room shortly. Just curious what was in there.
Woke up soon after instead upon entering.

21 May 2010

Managed better sleep today than for yesterday when I forgot all three long dreams that I had.

Today I was a bit careless and forgot my first dream by doing other stuff rather than keep it in mind, Though I remembered the last dream which was a real nice dream in by itself though.

Playing with the Children at the Open House

I'm at the woods and the water ponds that are next to the road there where I go to walk about daily. I'm looking too see if the frog babies have hatched yet. There is a large pool of eggs in this water pond. I look and peer into the dark waters. It's clear but it's still quite dark to see anything in it. I see small critters and such move about. My brother is there with me asking what I'm doing. I say I'm looking for the frog babies as they have just hatched. I go to point to the pool where all the eggs where but aren't any more. We see them all over the waters going about. The waters are basically filled with them and other critters.
Soon we spot and follow this fat small coy/koi fish I think it is that swims about eating the critters in there. It's mouth is filled to the brim and it opens it's large mouth like to eating but there is so damn many things that it has trouble swallowing and it doesn't matter if some escape as new swim about to take it's place. I look at the mouth open and close. My brother says something about the fish. I react negatively and tell him no. I think it was about catching and killing it.
I look at how fat the fish has become engorging in this feast. "Haha, look how fat it has become" I tell my brother.

I see that a horde of frogs are exiting the waters and heading to go over the car road to the other side where there is another water pool. Some of the frog infants are also trying to cross. It looks a bit weird for them to be jumping on the ground but there are only 4 of them. I wondered why they were heading out of the pond but my brother came to tell me that they go to eat in the other pond by this time of day.
I go to follow the crowds and worry no cars are coming and going to squish them. Luckily no one comes and they pass over the road.

But I see a girl on a bike. Long black hair comes and cross us heading back into the neighbourhoods. I'm taken by this and take my own bike to go and follow her. I want to introduce myself. Though I don't bike up to her but only follow her to where she is going. I just wish and think she will notice me but she newer does and she soon comes to arrive at a house close by. I follow to get off my bike at the same house. She goes to walk inside the open door to this house.
I look about and see no one is here so I decide to silently walk to follow. She came here to meet a friend I see. She was waiting for her in her room I think. There was a bed and girl stuff about. I stand in the hallway waiting for them to spot me but she and the other one are real friendly and occupied, they were really happy to meet each other again and were catching up with things.
They don't notice me at all in their discussion. I see they will probably never notice me so I walk back and worry that no one will notice me having gone inside the house following her. I'm just about the entrance walking outside as I see a young girl come out from the house across the street to approach. She has noticed me and I worry a little she will tell but she just looks at me warmly and tells "You can go inside, it's a open house"
My worry is blown away, but I'm a little unsettled as I go to go inside again. The kitchen is just next to the entrance and I see many people chatting and drinking I think. They just half greet me and I look to see the young girl wants my attention. I think she was right, seems there is a mixed crowds of people in here.

I go to say hi to her and ask for her name as I crouch down to be at same level eye wise. She is standing on a small stair perch at the entrance and me below. I'm so much taller than her I laugh in my mind. She went to tell her name but I thought it was nice and fitting but I forgot what it was though. I returned to tell her my own name. I see she wants to play with me. I decide I will.
"What do your want to do?" I ask her. She didn't answer or really notice my question but had already went forward to show me these two small soft animals you have on your key-chains. They were cute. I think one was a brown bear and the other something grey coloured. I didn't really see what it was but it wasn't too different from the other one. She showed them as going to hug each other and playing.
"They do dirty things" she tells. I don't know what she means by that. But she goes to put them away. She was looking me in the eyes patiently and I had to give her a hug and she cheered up and took my hand to take me further inside the house leaving the entrance.

We walked the hallway around to the other side to the living room I think heading then up some stairs going to a room upstairs. The stairs were small and the house just in general was really small. The stairs were only so high as a child could walk straight. I had to like lay down to get through.
In the room that I was in now was the playroom I thought. There were many children toys here and small furniture. There was a large column in the middle of the room and you walked around it in a circle of sorts and the stairs were just a hole going down. There were no railings or the sort set up there. I thought why there was none. The kids could fall down. But I then thought that they are use to the place and know how to play here and the stairs aren't high. There was a table and chairs above the stair entrance. Two other children were there playing some game of cards. The chairs and table where a little haphazardly placed I thought and I really knew I didn't want to sit on the stair side. It was right next to the edge two chairs. But the table and chairs were to small for me anyway.
There was instead this sofa that can be drawn out to create a bed. It's a old style one. You can't really find these nowadays at all. Made of wood and a real thin cotton stuffing on top with a nice childish flower design.

I thought this was a fun playroom they have much fun in. The other children get interested in me as I came up invited by the first girl. I was at first more interested to look at what stuff was there inspecting it here and there. But soon I was next to the sofa thing and picked up this yellow game thing. It had a screen and many levels and buttons. I tried turning it on but it wasn't working at first but as I moved it a little it started to play some tune. They told me it's not working correctly. Soon the song changed as I just pressed the plastic of the shell and then turned off again. Seems it had bad connections. It looked of poor quality also. But the second tune was a real surprise. Sounded like doom/death metal >_>;
I saw then that the girl was displeased by me not paying attention and getting distracted. I went to sit down in the sofa to turn my attention back to the children.
I was a bit unsure what went next but I saw that we were to play some game at same time as we were doing some other stuff which was taking to much time and I noticed this old grampa style old man pop out from nowhere all of a sudden inspecting and making sure we behaved. I think we had been making a little to much noise. He had gray hair and beard. He seemed a little worried about something but we continued and soon were about to start a board game. We were almost setting it up.
But I got caught a little by surprise as a 4th child came to play with us. She ended up clinging on my back while another had taken a hold of my leg making me really unable to move anywhere. I was there then for a while being restrained unable to move much at all. I saw the man still there looking worried still. The children were really having fun and laughing all the while jumping about holding me down. I could escape but I would then really have had to burst out and potentially might have hurt them which I did not want to do so I was locked down a little while more until I found a chance to get up to face and really see who had been on my back. She was a older child than the others. But as I stood up to face her I woke up instead.