Thread: Blacklight's SD Workbook

11/12 - Two lucids where I do nasty things despite knowing that these kind of things tend to end dreams rather fast.

12/13 - Some non lucids, one lucid

I was standing on a field when someone said "OK, since traveling through time and space on your own can be done but requires energy and focus, today we're going to use these as portals"
I don't remember the name of the things but they looked like purple balls of energy or something. The guy then set up one and I walked in. I found myself in a white room with the head of a woman on the table facing an ice cream machine. There was no other furniture. The machine started to make black ice cream and then she said "Bad dog!" several times. I walked into the portal again (it looked like the door of a submarine but whiter, more shiny and had only two hammers crossed on it) and was on a street. I opened one of those transformer thingies near the road and took out some french fries. They were the best thing ever (though a little bit salty). I then talked to someone about what I had found and some other things (don't remember it all). Then I walked into a portal for the last time and found myself in the apartment with several people.
Given that the portals worked with traveling through time I asked them all what month it was. One guy said "it's 9/19", I asked him what the name of that month was and he said "eighth, I guess."
I then asked them do they even know how many months there are and no one answered.

I also had more related dreams (with the characters from the last one) but can't remember anything.

12/14 - Two lucids

First one - I got lucid somehow. A single thought went through my head - Pyramids.
I went to my basement, and then through another door which wasn't there before. After many obstacles, a huge thug attacked me. I saw a knife and a machete on a wall before so I went for the knife and stabbed him, then took the machete and cut his leg off. I then went through another door and was attacked by a woman. She then ran away up to another door and yelled "let me in, officer in danger" while I was throwing a hammer at her. A huge black guy opened the door and punched her in the jaw. Since she didn't look so bad I decided to save the trip to Egypt for another time and had a go at her (wink).

Second - Lucid again, in my yard. I decided to take an alternative route and fly to the pyramids. I relaxed, spread my arms and floated up. After several small problems I got to a huge modern hotel. I saw a woman there - actually I think she was Donna from that 70's show (Laura Prepon?). I asked her "You know that guy you worked with on the show?" she nodded "Could you deliver him a message?" She said OK. I then asked her if she wanted to go out sometime with me and she said "No, you know I want to make this work, don't do this to me." I then continued to fly to the hotel. I was afraid I'd just hit it and land and break something but I went through it like a ghost. Whole building was behind me in some 15 seconds. I then had a bad feeling (like the apocalypse just happened) and had a false awakening.

Now this is where it gets weird. I didn't wake up as myself. I woke up as a fat black woman saying "Valerie! (or valentine?) Where's you at?" and then a small dog came to me and I petted him a bit. Then I saw a black man and thought What the hell is going on with me. The dream ended quickly and a narrative voice said "Now you shall be a street brawler, destined to roam the streets forever". The dream was now in a bar, where I was with one other guy. I wanted to end the dream and I asked him if he had a rope so that I could hang myself. He didn't and told me to live my life. Then a girl came in and he said "go get her cowboy" or something like that. I took a look outside and it was raining fire with strong wind opening the windows everywhere. Another false awakening.
It was christmas and I was with my grandfather, who was so happy I showed up that he was in tears. I thought it's weird that it's Christmas already and then I heard a voice ask "Do you want to be a brawler again?"
I didn't say anything and the dream ended soon.

12/15,16,17 - Plenty of lucids

First one - I was in my room. I got lucid and looked for people from a town I used to live in when I was 6. I found some random people and started acting nostalgic etc. and then I got myself in order and asked "You're not them, are you?" and they nodded that they're not. I was then in a classroom and one guy was reading to me something about Beethoven having a show with 8 million viewers. I tried to read it but couldn't. He asked me how can't I read that and I said "Beethoven was deaf and I'm blind. Now turn the light on."
He tried to turn on the light but couldn't. I told him not to worry since that tends to happen in dreams and tried to turn it on manually. First I imagined the light shining, but the lamp only glowed faintly for two seconds. I then sent a purple wave of energy toward it and it worked. He asked me "What else can you do?" and then he started to use telekinesis to lift up a small piece of eraser. I then started to feel ill and told him "Don't worry, I'm just feeling a bit ill and sweating like a madman."
I then started to lift the chair up with telekinesis and got it all the way across the room. Since I usually don't do that well I lifted my hands up in triumph and yelled "NO LIMITS" (to my power). The teacher suddenly got mad and I told her I'm going home. She then tried to twist my arm but failed.

Second - I was on a farm on a hill and I was tasked with getting something for the denizens before a storm kicks in. I ran downhill and found a pond filled with giant frogs. Someone said that they cause a disease and we're all in danger so I got back up. On the way up the wind started to blow incredibly fast and I barely made it up (with the same person that said that the frogs cause the disease). One guy told me to get in with the rest but I told him I was probably infected and got in a small shack next to the house. I was in there with two actresses (don't know the names of both). I then got lucid and took full advantage of the situation.

Third - I was in the apartment. Got lucid again and went out. There were two women right outside which looked like prostitutes. I didn't mind and got to work.

Fourth - I was in my house. My parents were there for a coffee and/or tea. The dream was so vivid I did two several reality checks just to be sure. I asked them to read the license plates on a car outside. They did so and I asked them to do it again. They just repeated the same number and I told them to actually read them instead. They read another number and I asked them if they knew why they were different. They didn't know so I told them that we are, in fact, dreaming. They said "Yeah, it's possible" and "Could be". I then went out and noticed several other members of my family going wild because it's just a dream after all. I remember telling them you can fly in the dream and one ran real fast and tried to do it by jumping but failed. I tried too but failed since I was pretty nervous about the chance that we might actually be sharing the dream.
I also noticed that a tree was growing basket balls instead of fruit.

Yay no limits!

12/18 - Though I remember I had at least 7 (of which I remember 5) dreams, only these two lucids are relevant

First - I was in the apartment. My father was trying to kill my family. I went to the kitchen and got two knives, but luckily before giving into murderous rage I thought "This is ridiculous.", dropped the knives and got right in front of my father, who had up to that moment been walking up to me. "This makes no sense. It must mean something. What are you? What do you mean? What do you represent?"
He said "I am the truth and the lie, I am your best friend and your worst enemy."
I then woke up.
Went into the second lucid

Second - I was walking on a dark street. Again, a single thought bolted through my head. Pyramids.
I walked in the first glass surface I saw (since they all looked like mirrors) and found myself floating in darkness. I thought "get me to the pyramids, get me to the pyramids" but found myself at my old home.
My mom was talking to me about something urgent but I said "Be right back" and tried going through a mirror backwards. It didn't help. I then decided to just take a walk.
It was still dark but the first hill I went over I saw a beautiful valley - green land, sunny and blue sky, and most important - the Pyramids were there.
But as soon as I took the first step it started to change. Many buildings just popped up from the ground, and I didn't see the Pyramids agian.
There were giant cathedrals, skyscrapers, houses, even some japanese-looking buildings. All of them were beautiful (especially the cathedrals with the reflections of the sun from the giant surface they had) but they were a distraction. I thought I'd just go for a walk and I'd probably get to the pyramids before I wake up. Boy was I wrong.
I got through the giant city and in front of me was a graveyard filled with zombies. But not any kind of zombies. These were fictional zombies. Dwarves from Lords of the Rings, elves from World of Warcraft and so on. In the background, again, were Pyramids. I decided to walk through the graveyard. Most of the zombies ignored me but one elf zombie looked at me and looked as if she was about to attack. I nodded, said hello and she got back to whatever she was doing. I reached the hilltop and again, there were no pyramids.
Instead the Pyramids were scattered on islands and I was on the coast. I turned around once and looked back and the Pyramids were all collapsed and gone.
Also this may or may not be true but my brother was with me most of the time (I think I remember him not wanting to go through the graveyard but following me after I saw the zombies were fairly passive/friendly).

That was a very cool dream. I think it would be facinating to see all those different styles of architecture piled up into one city. To bad you didn't actualy make it to the pyramids. I wonder why, it seems like you were somehow subcociously blocking yourself from geting to them.

My best guess is that I believe I would do something embarrassing and/or stupid. While this is mostly true, I believe I'd manage just fine given that I don't either go on a rampage or see a woman around.

Originally Posted by Blacklight

12/18 - Though I remember I had at least 7 (of which I remember 5) dreams, only these two lucids are relevant

First - I was in the apartment. My father was trying to kill my family. I went to the kitchen and got two knives, but luckily before giving into murderous rage I thought "This is ridiculous.", dropped the knives and got right in front of my father, who had up to that moment been walking up to me. "This makes no sense. It must mean something. What are you? What do you mean? What do you represent?"
He said "I am the truth and the lie, I am your best friend and your worst enemy."
I then woke up.
Went into the second lucid

Second - I was walking on a dark street. Again, a single thought bolted through my head. Pyramids.
I walked in the first glass surface I saw (since they all looked like mirrors) and found myself floating in darkness. I thought "get me to the pyramids, get me to the pyramids" but found myself at my old home.
My mom was talking to me about something urgent but I said "Be right back" and tried going through a mirror backwards. It didn't help. I then decided to just take a walk.
It was still dark but the first hill I went over I saw a beautiful valley - green land, sunny and blue sky, and most important - the Pyramids were there.
But as soon as I took the first step it started to change. Many buildings just popped up from the ground, and I didn't see the Pyramids agian.
There were giant cathedrals, skyscrapers, houses, even some japanese-looking buildings. All of them were beautiful (especially the cathedrals with the reflections of the sun from the giant surface they had) but they were a distraction. I thought I'd just go for a walk and I'd probably get to the pyramids before I wake up. Boy was I wrong.
I got through the giant city and in front of me was a graveyard filled with zombies. But not any kind of zombies. These were fictional zombies. Dwarves from Lords of the Rings, elves from World of Warcraft and so on. In the background, again, were Pyramids. I decided to walk through the graveyard. Most of the zombies ignored me but one elf zombie looked at me and looked as if she was about to attack. I nodded, said hello and she got back to whatever she was doing. I reached the hilltop and again, there were no pyramids.
Instead the Pyramids were scattered on islands and I was on the coast. I turned around once and looked back and the Pyramids were all collapsed and gone.
Also this may or may not be true but my brother was with me most of the time (I think I remember him not wanting to go through the graveyard but following me after I saw the zombies were fairly passive/friendly).

Please put this dream in the Pyramids thread! Good job, brother.

Did that.

12/19,20 - Two non lucids

First - I was on a stadium. Me and several other people were attacked by predators. One guy managed to knock a predator down and tried to kill him with a sword but was too slow and got killed before he managed to. "Just like the movies" I thought, but didn't get lucid. I took his sword and finished the predator and fought off several others.

Second - After a long dream about the history of a small tribe in Africa, which ends with the Police chasing one of their members across the UN headquarters (my basement...?) I end up in my backyard. My father is there, eating vegetables and my mother is beside him. I look at the sky.
There is a beautiful lunar eclipse. The moon is red, and red clouds start going around it. One of the clouds opens and the Reaper flies out of it. I yell "I'm going to die" and look at my parents. They aren't concerned. The reaper flies over me and through my father and then disappears. I tell him that he's going to die but he laughs it off and continues to eat a pickle. He suddenly gets up and says "Holy mother of..." and starts to act like he's either having a heart attack or has started to choke on the food. I can't tell.

12/21 - Three non lucids

First - I was standing on a cliff and some guys wanted to throw rocks at me. One was with his brother, so I took his brother as a hostage and said "Hit me now, fools!" and jumped off into a river. It quickly brought me to an abandoned house where I found some of my books. They were filled with money but some was missing. I told the kid to return my money and he did. I then collected my money and admired my ability to plan ahead since I somehow knew I'd need it. I then started to bomb a relative's house from a boat with missiles and all kinds of ridiculous stuff.

Second - I was on the street. There was a toilet and I sat on it. Before I could use it people started to gather around and I left.

Third - I was playing a first person shooter. I thought that something was unrealistic and even asked myself "Maybe I should do an RC?" but didn't want to do anything while I was doing so well. At the end of the round all of the other players from my team left and I was left alone to fight 8 people. The game then became a third person game with me playing as a giant demon with six butterfly wings (?) killing those 8 every chance I got.

12/22,23 - Two lucids

First - It was a lengthy dream about the olympic games. One guy managed to jump over 20 meters and another was climbing up a building with nothing but his bare hands. He let go of the building and while he was falling he took a towel, wiped his face and then kept climbing. Then I was near the base of the building. My leg was stuck in a ladder and one guy just wouldn't let me get my leg out. He thought it was fun to spin it around so my leg got broken so bad it almost fell off. I swore to him I'd kill him first chance I got and started limping to the hospital. They put one of those things you get for neck injuries on my leg and I got out. I thought "this must be a dream. Since it already lasted for so long I might as well get something to eat while it still lasts."

Second - I don't remember much aside from being in someone's house trying to reach a room on the upper floor like my life depended on it and then being disappointed with what I saw when I got to see what was inside.

12/24 - One non lucid, one lucid

Non lucid - I was sitting on my sofa when a really (really) small UFO flew in the room. It was small enough to land on my hand (smaller then a CD). I was, of course surprised.
A small alien came out and stood on my finger. He was the typical movie alien (slender, big head black eyes etc.) but he didn't have arms. He looked scared and when I got closer to get a better look he went back in his UFO thingy. I thought that he couldn't talk so I tried to hear his thoughts. My head started to hurt and I stopped. He then flew away. I woke up and went back to the second dream.
EDIT: Just remembered. I wasn't alone, my family was there too and they scared the alien so he got inside. There was also some other guy completely uninterested in the whole UFO thing. When the alien got back inside his UFO the guy just asked "Can I go get something to eat now?" I told him he could and pointed him to the kitchen.

Lucid - I was outside the house with a paper airplane in my hand. I was lucid. I made the plane gray and made it look like a real airplane. I saw an old woman (like 80+) trying to start a small ancient white car. She was cursing all along. I walked on and got to a small park. People were dining and I saw a good looking woman (I think she was on TV once or twice but I don't know her name). I thought I'd have fun so I made another reality check (just in case lol). I decided not to do anything to her since the dream would end and I didn't want that so I just approached her. She asked "Are you the one they sent to replace the key and break the glass on the door?" and I said yes though I had no idea wtf she was talking about.
We walked to a small open bar and she said that I'd have to get past the staff (which was one woman). I told her it wasn't going to be a problem, took a knife and slit her throat. She started to talk so I asked her "Didn't I just kill you? Be quiet woman." and cut her head off. The other woman told me I wasn't supposed to make a mess and I told her to think fast and tossed the head in her direction.
I entered the back room, found a key (which I took) and found a door with a small square glass panel near the top. I broke it and saw a guy inside a small square shaped room. He asked me if I was the one that was going to set him free, I said yes and gave him the key.
And then I woke up.

12/25 - One lucid

I was on a street. Don't know how I got there. I barely walked through a metal fence and got in front of a store. The reflection of me was a reindeer (which reminds me: merry Christmas). I thought that I should open a portal. But to where? Oh yeah, the Pyramids. I tried and failed but felt energy flowing through me and almost flew without even wanting it. So then I flew like Superman himself. I wanted to get above the clouds but then I saw my town from air. There was a huge new cathedral (can't quite describe it but it reminded me slightly of the churches from Oblivion) near the center. I landed there and asked one guy when was it finished.
He said 2020. I then saw my parents which were angry at me for not arriving in time for the opening mass. They told me to get on the train (which was nearby). I was standing outside, holding on to something (don't know what) and for some 5 minutes I traveled. I was surprised that my brain could generate new scenery that fast. Then the train took a turn to the right but my part was separated and continued to go forward for some 50 meters (150 feet?) before stopping at the end of the road.
To my left was a huge obelisk. I got there and there were some graves and flowers near it. There was a statue dedicated to 3 warriors (some german names), some flowers dedicated to Deadpool, brazilian graves and a black stone with the golden words "n00n m00s" on it.
The letters didn't change when I looked back.
When I was inspecting one of the graves I saw a reflection of someone about to attack me. I grabbed his sword and pushed him away. He was an ancient japanese guy with a WWI pilot helmet and a sword, all in black. I asked him who he was and why the letters didn't change. He said "I am the guardian. This is not like other places. It is protected. But it is cursed!"
He ran away before I could ask him anything else. I then felt weak and fell down. The Emperor Palpatine from Star Wars appeared out of nowhere and said "There you are" and something else which I don't remember (but which was creepy). He placed a hand on my right shoulder and started to laugh. Then I woke up.

Good, good. The Force is strong with you. A powerful Sith you will become. Henceforth, you shall be known as Darth Blacklight.

Originally Posted by MadMonkey

Good, good. The Force is strong with you. A powerful Sith you will become. Henceforth, you shall be known as Darth Blacklight.

This pleases my ego.

Forgot to update.

12/26 - Several lucids and non lucids

First - I was at school (don't even know which one). I was doing biology and one teacher started listing components of something, another came in and started to explain how a cell works and the third barged in and accused us of some misbehavior. I had two very similar dreams with this theme so for simplicity's sake I'll count them as one. In both of them there was this girl, I think she's the one I tried to share dreams with before (without her knowing it). I kept seeing her the last few days in some non lucids. First few times I felt sheer joy being around her, talking and whatnot, but now I felt this immense jealousy every time someone even looked at her. Got lucid at the end then woke up.

Second - Lucid. Decided not to waste my time on sex. I decided instead to compare two girls in a few tests which involved me, them and my hands. And some girl on girl action.

Third - See number two

12/27 - About half a dozen short lucids and one long one

Long one - I was walking back home with my family. Cars were crashing all over the place (think GTA style). My cellphone started to go wild and play music I don't have on it (Linkin Park and then the christian Mass...?). My brother asked me if I had some song on it (something by Mozart?). I took out my cellphone and the screen went wild. Like a TV. You know, static and stuff. Then some really brief videos of aliens were shown and then some woman with massive... you know. I then got lucid. I don't really remember much from there on.

Been busy the last couple of days with holidays and all.

Anyways I've got a bunch of dreams and little time so I'll post them tomorrow I hope.

Now that I have some time I'll post some of the more interesting dreams I've had (it's been over a week?!).
I've dreamed a lot, and a lot of these dreams were lucid, though most were uninteresting. Except these three:

First: I was standing on a playground. I got lucid and ran to the sidewalk near the road and saw my father trying to beat people up. I punched him so bad he flew across the street (also all of this was in front of the building with the apartment I constantly find myself in). I was cheered as a hero (or at least a good guy). I then ran over the road, entered a small store and asked a DC for directions to another DC. The DC said "I don't remember exactly where that house is, it's been a really long time". I told him to just point me in that direction if he can and he did. Suddenly a minimap was displayed in the upper-right corner of the dream and a dot appeared in one place. While I was on my way there the dream started to go dark and I thought I'd wake up. I shouted "Stabilize" and it did. I tried some more verbal commands and said "Spell: Wind", raised my arms and wind removed everything out of the way. After that I reached the dot on the minimap and there was an exposed gas pipe. I concluded somehow that if I destroy it I would attract the attention of someone important. I cut the pipe and everything went up in flames, which caught 2 DCs. I put them out (water and so on) and proceeded to the house of the DC I was looking for. I found a girl captured by an Egyptian pharaoh (some sort of a subconscious reference to the Pyramids?). I told her I'd save her and she said "You don't need to." in a really depressed kind of way. The pharaoh started to chase me and I leaped out of the house on to a car, and then from a car to the top of a skyscraper, superhero style. On the top of it there were a bunch of government agents which tried to kill me and I lost lucidity during all of that before waking up.

Second: Don't remember where I was but I got lucid. I ran over to someone and told them that they are a failure at life, waste oxygen and shouldn't be allowed to live. As I was saying this the world started to shake and people's skin started to decay horribly, revealing green flesh that glowed dimly. By now I had stopped with what I was doing and the zombies started to go wild and attack the few that didn't get transformed.
I went to a stairway and started to go down, where more of these things were. A voice asked me "Why do you think things go the way they do?" and then I was back at the top of the stairway again. "Why couldn't things have gone like this?" and then there were no more of these zombies. "Why do we chose what we chose?" and then I was back at the top of the stairway, but it didn't lead anywhere. "And why don't we think about what we do?" Now the stairway turned into a pyramid of sorts with all sorts of outcomes flashing down at the base. I then had a false awakening and found myself near a trash can on the street. I wasn't aware that I was dreaming anymore but I still had the powers I have while lucid.

Third: I was in a house with several people. I was trying to summon a woman DC but failed. I tried an alternative approach. I asked some of the people there "Who's on the second floor?" they said "She is." I asked "And what's she doing there?" they said "Waiting for you."
I then went upstairs but everything was dark. I saw a figure in the room and started to walk toward it. Turns out it was my brother, looking angry as a demon from hell itself. He rushed toward me with blinding speed and was behind me before I could even blink. I lost my sight and felt weak like I was dying. I told him I'd leave him alone and tried to walk back but I woke up.

1/14 - Two lucids

First: I was sitting in a classroom. A teacher walked in, made a line on the blackboard and asked "What are the Five sources of Knowledge?"
I came to the board and tried to write "Divine Inspiration" but barely did it. In my own words, "I feel like I have Downs syndrome". I walked back and noticed that letters in my notes are changing. London turned into Lundun, Lunden, Lynda and so on. I tried to go have sex with the first woman I encountered.

Second: Sitting in a dimly lit room. I notice someone who I haven't seen in a while. I ask "Didn't you go away?"
She said "I am here from Monday." or something. I go lucid and wake up within seconds.

Also there was a non lucid where my teeth fall out and hang by threads of nerves while my mouth bleeds. My watch didn't work and the nosepinch didn't work well either. I kept trying to find a way to find out if I'm dreaming. I tried to turn on the light and the switch worked. My reflection in a mirror wasn't changed enough for me to recognize it is a dream. Woke up soon anyways.

1/15 - Another one of these strange lucids

I was at home, got lucid. I was already accompanied by a fairly good looking lady so I decided to throw out the remaining people (for modesty's sake). I did that carefully, just in case something about the dream was real, however when I turned around the lady turned into an old woman. I decided I won't let that stop me so I tried to summon another one, without success. I then lied down on the floor and sank in it, hoping to land somewhere else but only found myself back. I tested my powers a bit. Telekinesis worked pretty well, but summoning didn't at all. What a waste of a vivid, long dream I thought. I went outside and four small aliens (not even up to my knees) attacked me. I let them do whatever they were planning to do as fear gives them strength. I even tried to make them lead me to someone but they just wouldn't. I then knocked on the door of a random DC and asked him for directions. He said he didn't know where the person was but asked me about my family and what I was doing. I told him everything was fine and I was taking a walk.
I then saw an old woman and asked her for direction. She told me she didn't know anything. I've had it by then.
I grabbed her by the throat, started to strangle her and shouted as loud as I could "YOU KNOW! I KNOW YOU KNOW! YOU ALL KNOW! TELL ME!
She was crying and people around me were telling me I was insane. I started to wonder for a while if this was real and i was strangling a random old woman for no reason so I threw her on the ground, did a reality check and then grabbed her again.
She said "I know, let me go and I'll tell you". Feeling victorious I let her go and expected directions but instead she leaped at me and started to strangle me. I then woke up.

Also a non lucid where the shadowy figure of an abbot runs across the road while I'm in a car, and when I get home two abbots are already in my yard. I called one "Father Revenge" for some reason.

1/15,16,17 - Two non lucids over two days plus a lucid today

First non lucid: I was watching (or better to say hovering over) a new game or comedy show which featured some comedian trying to be funny by trying to talk to a mexican without knowing any spanish.

Second non lucid: I was watching (or again sort of hovering around) an episode of House M.D. where after a really stupid plot I actually talked to him. Most of what he said I couldn't understand (though the tone of his voice tells me his comment was intended to belittle my intellectual and physical abilities) so I told him he needs subtitles. He walked (limped?) away mumbling some more.

Lucid: I don't know if a whole lot of non lucid scenes were actually a part of the dream or dreams by themselves but I was in the apartment where some guy was reading my Dream Journal (even though I don't have much written in it I still have one), then me with three women which looked like supermodels, a scene from some cartoon and finally the lucid.
In it I was again trying to summon a DC, first by expecting her to be somewhere and when that didn't work out I remembered how nothing worked (even strangling people!) a few days earlier and said "I'm not moving until she is here". Another DC laughed at me, but unlike other attempts, this one worked. Aside from everything getting pretty vivid (I wondered if everything was real again though some details, like a train track in my backyard, told me it wasn't), my goal was accomplished. Feeling triumphant I decided to go for a walk (my DC disappeared as soon as I started to go), but the dream turned into some narration about a Grand Duchy of Warsaw while I was browsing a forum.

1/18,19,20,21 - Lots of dreams

Lengthy non lucids as well as some lucids. My goal of summoning certain dream characters is definitely starting to border on obsession and I'm putting an end to it. I think I'll try to design a dream city of mine or work on some other powers to clear my head.
The few lucids I did have were about me trying to unsuccessfully summon DCs over and over again. I only managed to try and tear my head off in a moment of clarity (a statement which would make way less sense in any other context). I didn't fully manage to do it because I felt my spine still attached to my head, though I managed to take a look at myself from a third person point of view.