I had a roomate who once came home from a 5meo-DMT trip. He said it was the most horrifying experience of his entire life. He experienced "death" (his soul leaving his body) twice in 30 minutes, and then was unable to sleep for 3 days straight and it took another week or so for him to feel somewhat "normal" again.

I've been around a bit and used more than my share of drugs, especially psychedelics. That's all in my past now, but I'm not against safe, mature, and educated use by responsible adults in a proper setting. Everyone has their own path to follow, who are we to judge?

But Dude, you sound like you're already setting yourself up for a bad trip! And for what? How certain are you it will be worth it? It almost seems like you're hoping for a terrifying experience to help you permanently put drugs behind you.

Why don't you just do what I did - find other things to replace drugs that are just as rewarding like Spirituality, LD'ing, Tantra, Brainwave Entrainment, Hypnosis, Amygdala Clicking, etc, etc, etc...

There's no end to the safe highs available that don't require you to roll the dice on your body and brain. My personal favorite was a specific mix of drugs (I'm not gonna give anyone here ideas). I always thought it was "the ultimate high" for me.

Since I've been clean, I've gone way past that "ultimate high" many times with nothing more than 45 minutes of self-hypnosis, a positive attitude and a healthy imagination.

I support your search for new horizons, just don't sink your ship in the process, ok?