I need to know if this has happened to anyone else out there. I was reminded of this when I read Burns' fascinating thread about "Platonic shapes":
http://www.dreamviews.com/forum/inde...howtopic=40078
My experience was a little different than those described in the thread above, but equally strange.
Basically, there's no "me" in the dream, and no point of reference at all which might tell me the size and scale of anything. It seems to take place in complete darkness--it could be the vast darkness of space or the microscopic darkness of subatomic matter. I get the feeling that it's very small scale, like cells, germs, DNA, etc. It makes me feel very tiny, and everything is so soft and quiet.
It definitely involves that sense of extremely slow, sedated motion that so many of you have described about your "fever dreams".
It all centers around an "object" that I came to think of in childhood as a "furry bone." I think "fuzzy bone" would describe it better. As I mentioned, there's really no "me" in the dream. My consciousness is focused on "feeling" this object. In fact, maybe I AM the object. It's hard to tell.
It's all about how I experience the TEXTURE of this object. The best way I can describe it is to compare it to a number of different things in order to give you an overall idea of what it's about.
Imagine a white rod-shaped object, like a bone. Now imagine that this thing is magnetic and imagine a million tiny metal shavings around the outside of this rod.
Now imagine these metal shavings as being so tiny, soft and white that they feel like a fine fur or fuzz around the rod--as fine as chalk dust. I compare the rod to a magnet because these fine particles do not seem to be connected to the rod, they can gravitate to it or away from it, but about 99 percent of them are on it. Whenever on of these particles separates from the rod or attracts to it I can "feel" it happen, like the most faintly detectable noise. But there's really no noise, It's more like I feel the gravity or pull of it.
They don't even need to be moving for me to feel this--I feel the ones that are attached in the same way. In fact, I feel all of them simultaneously, hence the "fuzziness." And above all, the whole thing seems to constitute some slow, steady and ongoing motion like the trickling of water.
Again this is not any kind of fuzziness you could feel with your fingertip, you are disembodied and simply immersed in it. You experience the fuzziness, you ARE the fuzziness.
Anyway, that's my best attempt at describing it. This happened so often to me as a child, usually at the beginning or end of my sleep. That fact would lead me to believe that it was hypnogogic, but, like the Platonic shape experiences, it was so much more than that.
It did not happen during fevers and it was not that scary; just extremely bizzare and overpowering.
I have never had this recur in my adult life. Salvia took me to a similar place but definitely not the same thing. By the way, for you salvia users out there, I've never had a "breakthrough" but I have gotten stuck underneath that giant ferris wheel as it turns round and round and stretches you out like rubber.
If anyone out there does Yoga, I can just say that the closest I've ever come to this sensation is during padmasana, when I inhale with all of my bandha's tightened up.
So please let me know if any of you have experienced the chalky white rod with the tiny particles, or anything similar.
|
|
Bookmarks