Havn't fallen in love but defenitly in lust and yes the realization that it was just a dream can really crush a kid

As for the drug thing.... that's crazy. I'm glad you made it through, in the past I've taken the more organic substances such as mushrooms and the dreams I have after I've come off the shrooms and have gone to sleep are very wild! I'm interested if other people have had dreams like that with the influence with drugs.