as we age, losing somebody close becomes more expectant. by losing somebody, I am not only referring to their death. in my experience, it is not an obscure thought to make parallels with losing a loved one in the breakdown of a relationship. obviously, they continue to live, but they cease to exist in your own world. it is harrowing, but hopefully, eventually easier to over come (as sometimes the void that has been left can be replaced by another person).

it has been a recurring theme that I encounter people I have lost in my dreams, I am often lucid. my dreams have always reflected my pure emotions that I feel in my heart, emotions that are often suppressed in my waking life. I have always liked this aspect of dreaming. this is not to say that I deprave myself of these emotions in waking life; but there comes a time when you have to stop grieving and move on, for your own benefit.

so, I am actually stuck over how to deal with these common encounters. like I mentioned, I am generally lucid (eventually). it is gut-wrenching and the regularity has began to effect my mood when I wake to start the day.

hopefully, I haven't been too vague. can anybody offer up some advice?

thanks.