I've been working on milds and spend half my day at least with the ld idea in my head. It's obviously a little frustrating, after the efforts (including the 'trying less' method) and telling people about it (who think I'm crazy), and not coming up with any results after a month.

I know at this point it's up to me. Im not asking everyone what to do anymore. Alot of people here have been really patient and respectful. I appreciate that.

I'm going to walk away from it now and if it happens, then great, I'll let you all know. But I'm going to let my past efforts take over, maybe do some checks and mantra. If nothing happens after that then it wasn't for me.