(I'm not sure if this is the right place to put this, please move it if need be!)

The past several nights, I've been having some trouble. It all started the Monday before last, with a weird episode I had where it felt like I was drifting out of my body during the night, and had a weird dream-like experience.

Since then, I've had 2 lucid dreams, which I've never had before. This is very new to me, and for some reason, it's REALLY scary to me. It actually wasn't scary when I had them, but the thought of having another one DOES scare me. I'm hoping I can get some feedback/advice about these fears, and maybe someone can offer something to help ease them, because I'd really like to be excited about lucid dreaming again, instead of fearful.

So on Monday night, from when I went to bed at 10 pm, and until 2 am, I was literally waking up at least once per hour. As I had drifted off to sleep, I could not stop thinking about whether I was going to have an LD or not, and I was slightly scared. As I drifted off I experienced some weird vibrations and mini-dreams, but then would just wake up again not too long after.

When I woke up over and over, I kept doing reality checks, and when I did them, I was really scared that I would be dreaming. You see, I WANT to lucid dream, but I'm afraid it's going to feel so real, that I won't be able to tell reality from waking life anymore. I feel like I'm developing some sort of psychosis about this for some reason. I don't know why.

One thing I think is contributing to this-- I know that since that one episode on Monday night, I'm scared of being in my room in the dark. I am starting to sleep with the hall light on, and my door open halfway, to let light in. For some reason I'm just REALLY scared of a) having an LD that seems SO real that it messes with my mind and I can't tell reality from real life or b) the lucid dream is going to have me waking up in my dark room, alone, and it's going to be scary.

Does anyone have any advice about this? I'm just really scared, and I don't want to be.