Hello dreamviews and the Lucid Dreaming community. I have been dreaming all of my life, I've even been written up for daydreaming in third grade by my teacher lol! I had no idea what lucid dreaming was until a couple of years ago when a college mate told me about his flying dreams and his love of all things Harry Potter. My dreams have been so real that I have tried to wake myself up, realizing that I am dreaming and my body is still asleep and literally lying awake ( it may not sound scary but I have experienced this since I was very young and I am in my 30's).

Anyway, I have seen the late legendary screen actress Elizabeth Taylor in my dreams, including daydreams and while sleeping (lucid dreams). They mostly include me looking into a mirror and seeing her instead of my own reflection. On several occasions she was wearing a white dress, then a black gown; then on one special occasion she wore the costumed garb from one her most well known (notorious film due to the controversy with her and Richard Burton on the set) films: Cleopatra.

Well, around this time last year I became very ill. I started having tremors on the left side of my body, black outs, light sensitivity, seizures, nausea. Doctors said it was side effects from being off anti-depressants but everything in me was saying that was bullshit. Meanwhile, the dreams with Dame Taylor were becoming more and more real- so I became obsessed with her life. I read biographies about her and I do see some similarities between her and myself; well, I am not a glamorous movie star, but I have had several illnesses as a child like she has, we were born in the same month ( boy would I love at least 1/10th of that jewelry collection) there's more than that but I don't want to get too personal about family details. However, about her long stretches in various hospitals is what stood out- one time in particular, she had a brain tumor, pneumonia and meningitis at the height of her career. I don't know why this was so significant to me but it just makes sense to me. The truth of the matter is I have known for a while that I have at least two benign brain tumors ( brain stem and one at the top of my head) and possible a couple of polyps but I am broke, no insurance, unemployed and living with my mom at this time.

I know this is a novel I am writing right now but what I really want to know is ... how can I purposely talk to Elizabeth Taylor in my dream to get answers about my current issue/ problem(s). ( I am also going to a neurologist, so I am not just relying on dreams to solve health problems but honestly, my intuition is more helpful than the doctors at this point). Any thoughts or tips will be appreciated.