For the past week I have been trying to become lucid and have read countless discussions, forums, introductions, and instructions to help. Last night was by far my best attempt but I became stuck. This is what happens in step by step detail. I relax for about 10 minutes by my bed. I play a relaxing game on my ipod for about 1 minute. Then I turn off the lights and tv. I put my headphones in and pick a relaxing song to listen to as I fall asleep. I perform a reality check or 2. Then I finally get into bed, into a comfortable position and put my music on a comfortable volume. I find it easier to sleep on my side but usually as I relax I go with my head in between the pillows, still able to breathe and find it easier to relax. As I relax and listen to the music I try and clear my mind chatter. I count my breaths as instructed by another introduction to Lucid Dreams (By the way I'm trying to do the WILD method of lucid dreaming) They say usually around 300 they drift off. At about 100 I see green and purple circles floating around. At around 200 breaths I see them a little more vividly and in detail, and I sort of see different light patterns and shadows behind them when I observer them closely enough. At around 300 breaths these spots start to collide with each other like waves on the ocean, and this relaxes me a lot. I find myself losing count a lot. Then at 400 I begin to relax my body more and more with every breath I breathe out. Now, I have a number of music songs that relax me on my ipod. The one I played last night I know is significantly different from another one I sometimes play off of youtube. The song I played last night constantly repeats itself. When I get to 450 after losing count a lot, I start hearing thuds, cars engines roaring, gunshots, and music converging with the one I'm playing currently. As I said my song repeats itself so I know these sounds arent from my ipod. Also the song I play off of youtube I remember saying "Dream" toward the end. As I listened to my repeating song, I heard the music from the youtube in my mind start playing and say "Dream" whcih I know is not from the music I am playing. Now I am pretty sure I am in hypnagogia. But the problem is I can't get past that. I start seeing along with the spots vivid images such as dominoes falling, my front door to my house, memories, and sometimes faces. I am still counting my breaths or at least trying to and while I do so I am relaxed, and my heart is beating hard as others have said happens in SP. I also feel weird sensations in my hands and arms and mabye a little in my right foot. I still have discovered that I have complete control over my body in real life during these sensations so I'm not sure if I am really in SP. After about 3 hours of doing this I start sweating badly and I get up and take out my ipod, and give up on it for the night and go to bed. I can never get past the vivid imagery and sounds. Someone please give me some pointers on how to get past them. Thank you. If you have any further questions just ask me. |
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