I was taking a nap of like 20 - 30 mins or so. My first experience was when i held a black cleaver (???) and i understood that this was a dream. Resisting the urge to shoot fire dragons out of my hands (it was so hard!) and waking up from the excitement, i decided to tell myself this is a dream, and tried a simple thing like bending the cleaver with my willpower. It happened.

But i observed something that always happens when im on the verge of lucidity - every conscious action i take in order to change the world (telekensis, flying, fighting or just moving or using my sight) seems to blur the dream and reverse lucidity. Why is that?

And something that never happened to me before did happen. After i lost lucidity, i "Woke up" but i didnt open my eyes. I also didnt curse and swear at the first sign of wakefullness after the short and sweet taste of lucidity, but rather tried to "dream myself into a dream". I just relaxed, and sort of denied the fact that i woke up (even though i knew i was out of dream and could stand up right now).

Now - you know these things and fantasies that come up to you when you close your eyes, but not truly asleep? Daydreaming, and things you imagine while hoping you will dream them? Well - i just tried to "immerse myself" into these, like hoping to belive that they are real, and that my mind will just fall for it on a certain point.
And it did! I had more moments of lucidity (short, but still - lucidity!) where i KNEW this was a dream. And everytime i lost my grasp on ludicity and i was in that "purgatory" of between light sleep and awake with closed eyes, i did the same thing before.

The whole thing felt like some mega trance saga of dreaming and not dreaming and pseudo wakefullness and induced sleep. Though there were moments where i KNEW it was over, and i felt "real" and knew i could stand on the bed, the entire sleeping session was smooth and felt like one coherent sleep session rather than numeruous mini naps.


Hell - i dont even know if the wakefullness was actually wakefullness for 100% (dream?), but this thing never happened to me before.


What in the @#?@! did i do?