A while back (when i was working Graveyards) I had a handful of confusing things happen to me. From Lucid Dreaming to Sleep Walking. But there was a series of Dreams that I had that really, in short, FREAKED me out. In short i could not wake up, if i tried to wake up my body would fight it, and i would shake (sort of vibrate is how it felt to me) To the point where my girlfriend wanted to sleep with me all the time in case something were to happen to me. Let me walk you through one of them that still sticks in my head:
I was having a standard dream, then i started realizing the dream, and normally i would wake up instantly when i become aware, but i woke up in a tent in the middle of the forest... still DREAMING... and i was totally "awake" confused as to how i ended up in a forest.. my Girlfriend was next to me, i woke her up, asked her how i got here, she just laughed at me and went back to bed. (the air was sooo cold, i remember) so i struggled to wake up because i soon realized i was still in a dream.. and i woke up in another tent in the middle of some random driveway.. still dreaming next to my girlfriend. So to make this shorter, i woke up another time.. still in a tented dream... frustrated that my own mind strength wouldn't wake me up. I then began to struggle hard, to the point where i could open my eyes and see my dark bedroom but close them and be back in my dream... (now... i'm not totally scared here... it is kind of cool to be honest) But i don't feel in control, and i want out. I read up a little bit about sleep paralysis and how it works.. so this is why i can't move. and when i try to move i vibrate and shake like i'm in a blender. Ok, i got off track a little bit, When i did finally wake up, i was sweaty, confused, and completely turned around in my bed.
Do you guys know what kind of dream this is..?
Why i would be having it..?
Why can't i wake up!?
It's been almost a year since i had one of these dreams, One i remember, i was in a dark house in a bed. I then began to move around, So odd because when i was moving in my dream.. i was moving in my own bed.. hitting walls that didn't exist in my dream.. it must have been before sleep paralysis took over, but that made me aware of my dream. in my dream, i walked upstairs, and out a door, Dark purple/Red clouds filled the sky, Dark as midnight. And i saw lightning and the thunder spoke to me, said, "Go to your home, Dig up your bones" as if god was talking to me through a dream. Again i had a hard time waking up from this dream. The shaking began. But i finally woke up.
And Finally, i do my nightly routine before i go to sleep, go lay down in bed. I can't sleep, but i slowly feel my body start to slip away. i close my eyes and i can actually feel my sleep paralysis take over. I scare myself awake, and find it odd that i am awake up until the point i where i can feel sleep. so am i really asleep or am i awake?
I'm a little confused as to what this is all about, maybe you can help me in giving me some insight what happened to my body and mind back then.. I'm a little confused, but i really am interested and want to know whats going on. i'm 21 years old and shouldn't be going crazy yet! 
If you can help me, give me a book to read, a site to check out, please give it to me.
I appreciate your time Dreamers,
Hope to hear from you soon,
-Derek
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