When I was young i didn't even know about "lucid dreaming". i thought it was just normal and that everyone could. just like how i thought everyone dreamed in colour, but then one day in school i found out that only 2 other people in my class dreamed in colour. i guess i thought everyone dreamed the same. i used to be able to "switch" dreams when i didnt like the dream or i was scared. id just blink a little. but when i REALLY was scared id blink hard and id just wake up. everyday, i was aware of my dreams and i was able to control it. i just couldnt choose what to dream of all the time. i never "practiced", i ddint even know you could. I think 1/8 times id dream about what i was thinking about, but it wasnt always so clear, it was almost kinda dark and blurry. But ever since i found out about lucid dreaming, and realized that not everyone could, i stopped lucid dreaming. i was about 10 or 11 when i found out about lucid dreaming from some post on facebook. now im 15 and i dont know when im dreaming at all, sometimes i even wake up and i think i have the dog that i dreamt about in my dream. my dreams are completely different now. i cant control anything or realize im dreaming. i still dream in colour though, i dont think that will change. I just dont understand WHY i cant lucid dream now?!?! Is it because as soon as i realized about it, i started thinking about it and it just somehow vanished? Or do i just loose the ability as i get older. im not much older, and it seems too much of a coincidence to stop lucid dreaming alittle bit after finding out about it. I don't know, i just really miss controlling my dreams. |
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