I need an expert level advice - weird dreams of mine. (adult content)

[weasley55]

Hello... This is a long one, so brace yourselves... the wint...story is coming Where do I start. I seem to have an unusual talent for spontaneous astral plane travels. I have never trained this. I seem to have developed my own technique and I feel that none of the training guides will work for me, it's just... my own special "super power". I didn't even know that it may be astral out of body experiences until I started to discuss this stuff with a friend of mine. So, in reality I have cerebral palsy. I am 27 years old, I'm an English interpreter from Poland (forgive me any errors, It is not my native language, but in a way it is also my line of work, so.... I guess I will be able to describe all this) You see... I kinda feel that by training it via mainstream ways, I will ruin it. My own "magic". I also cannot use many of these methods because I simply use an electric wheelchair, so many of the stuff I "need" to do to train the astral voyages, would involve waking my parents up in the middle of the night, writing stuff down, etc. The point is, I Have never needed it at all. I've had my share of lucid dreams, fantasies, creating stuff, summoning my exes for, and so on, but the stuff I want to talk about seems to be the next level of this. You see, there are two things First. I am often being dragged by something to somewhere in my dreams. I know this is OBE, but you seem to describe this period as sleep paralysis... The point is, in my dreams, this is often only the beginning... When I'm being dragged to somewhere this is my sign that "shit just got serious" These dreams are very different from lucid dreams, or normal dreams... I am 100% aware that this is only a dream, nothing will really hurt me, and there are two things that may happen at this point: 1. It may end as a very, VERY good dream, yet also a little bit too real. Only yesterday I had a dream about having sex in my room with someone. It was good. I felt that this woman was friendly, she didn't mean no harm, it was wonderful, yet I also felt that I should not, even could not get a good look on her, because that will somehow ruin it. It was. We have Polish mythology and I imagined it to be a friendly succubus, or something like that. She definitely didn't want me to get a good look at her, but she was really friendly, 2. It may end in a very crazy or even bad adventure, sort of nightmarish one, often involving few nasty waking-ups, several layers of dreams (Inception anyone? I've had this before it was cool ). Nothing in there can really hurt me, it is kinda like an unpleasant horror movie at cinema, you know you dislike it, but you cannot really leave until it's over. I am a gamer, so this stuff seems often like a game to me. One I must try to finish, one I may loose, one I sometimes win, but even if I do loose, it will be a little unpleasant, but it cannot really harm me. I can even switch perspectives at will (TPP, FPP, gamers will understand). It is kind of cool, but also can be very tiresome and unpleasant. In these dreams I may be killed, raped, tortured, set on fire, fell from very high places, getting strangled, so on... It doesn't really hurt, All i feel is the feeling similar to the feeling, when your body is getting numb, not real pain... But... I am 27, male virgin, and think I experienced some real sex through this. But it is also worth to mention that in real life I am bound to a wheelchair, but here I am not. I can protect myself if I "train" before my sleep by imagining the stuff I do in video games. I successfully became Dante from "devil may cry" to fight these... demons? there, I have unleashed Venom symbiote on something that tried to attack me, Used Little Sisters from Bioshock and Alice from Madness Returns to protect me... All kind of cool stuff... I don't really know how to access astral plane, it just seems to happen at random and I have to be always prepared for some crazy shit in my dreams One other thing. When I am really, really tired and can't sleep, I have hallucinations. I knew the Polish word for these, it seems like the dream starts before I manage to sleep, and for a few seconds I can see some weird but harmless stuff, once it was a cat on my pillow, another time it was my own hand (third one?) lying on the floor of my own room (out of body experience false start?), sometimes it will spook me a little Can any of you offer me some advice how to control it better? Remember that I have cerebral palsy, and I really can't do much in the middle of the night. I would really like to read some "visitor's guide to astral plane" if such a thing even exist, because it's kinda amazing and scary at the same time. And please, one more thing. If you offer me some advice, please skip the usual warnings about how dangerous it is, what bad may happen... The point is. I KNOW. I'm kinda afraid of reading too much about this, because I often read about sleep paralysis, many dangers, demons, death, so on, so on and my brain feeds on this... I really know the dangers and the source of my "power" lies in the fact, that I am reassuring myself that they cannot harm me, nothing bad will happen, and so on. But if I read too much about the bad stuff, I will start to experience this stuff just because I have read about this, so please, don't scare me, help me control this, teach me... This stuff simply happens in my case, I cannot really stop it, because I have never trained it and never asked for this. I desire knowledge, but only the knowledge that can help me. So please, share some knowledge with me, if you can, but spare the evil stuff, because trust me, I know, but I still cannot block these dreams. I may only learn how to "beat the game" if something bad wants to challenge me there, nothing wrong ever really happened there and I need to be sure of that.