I don't know if my experience counts as a SP and "old hag" experience but I will talk about it. During this time my method of achieving this was trying to stay awake at work. I was a security guard at this time in an empty trucking/frieght company lot. There was nothing to do really so I just sat in my car and tried not to fall asleep.
My speculation is that this experience is not ..............natural REM. Every time I was about to fall asleep into the first stages of sleep I intentionally woke myself up because I was afraid of being caught sleeping on the job. It is known that REM occurs after the 4th stage where the deep sleep brain wave patterns rapidly drops back down to REM patterns which resembles waking state patterns. In continously dropping back from the first stage into waking state, compare that to dropping back down from stage four sleep into REM which is similar in pattern to waking state. After a while a REM style state occurs from the constant triggering of droping out of 1st stage sleep into waking state (not natural REM). Again similar to the cycle of dropping from 4th stage into REM but without the other stages in between. I speculate again that this is not natural REM but some sort of REM hack.
This is my experience:
Dec. 7, 2003:
It was around 10 am and I was at work (RDFS). It had been raining that day. I had consume a bit of wine last night and hadn’t completely recovered from the toxic effects. Besides that I had recontinued smoking last night after stopping for some weeks or months. I had been having an irregular sleep pattern the day before and came to work sleepy. I fell asleep in my car in a more or less symmetrical body position. My feet were point east, my head pointed west and the seat was partialy reclined (45 degrees). I was falling in and out of sleep, afraid to get caught sleeping but so tired. Soon I didn’t know what was awake and what was sleeping. I was aware of myself, then I thought about something which lead me to see a grandmother figure, (grandma Fav-Pob Thoj). She said in Hmong that I could ask her any question but I had to "stand up" (or "wake up" when translated from Hmong into English) while asking her. I was sitting down in my dream so I guess I may have stood up or remained sitting, and asked her “ Why are there 6 pipes in the qeej (what do they stand for or mean)?” I became more lucid as if to stand up/wake up, and became aware of my heart beat that got faster and faster (adrenaline obviously) until my mind flipped a switch, I heard a high pitched frequency as if my mind was an electronic device turned on like a t.v. In fact my eyes felt like they were locked into a television or monitor. Everything went dark like a monitor still warming up then "click". I saw a series of “super lucid (and vivid?),” images which I cannot recall in great detail because some images had a kind of distortion to them. Sometimes refocusing and becoming clearer. These were computer graphics looking symbols and images in 256 color palettes and super VGA technology resolutions. The first thing I saw was a devlish face reminding me of the “no fear” logo. It was animated like an old pacman game but it was facing me. It had a Halloween jacko-lantern like face that was yellow in a black background.
I don’t recall the order of each symbol as they came after that. There was a dark tower. There was a white castle on green pastures. There was a symbol that looked like the “Decepticon” Transformer robot cartoon logo. I recall that this logo had the characters ‘M’ and ‘2’ some where along the bottom edge of the image.
At the end of the sequences I recall seeing the jacko-lantern face again followed by a pause of blackness. I felt this was the end of the sequence so I tried to wake up but awoke into another vision where I could see my car and body through my eyes but could not control my body. I felt so heavy as I tried to reach for my steering wheel. I couldn’t make any sound with my voice either. I was worried and hoped that someone that walked by the car would see my eyes opened and unable to move. I could see a black shadowy outline around my hands and arms in front of me. When I did wake up, I noticed the sensation of breathing again and knew I was awake this time for sure.
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In retrospect I feel I have to really describe the experience more in order to express how different it was from dreaming. If you were reading this right now and your computer monitor suddenly went crazy on you... meaning that it started to show you random computer images... Yes it is that lucid and vivid and bizzare except that the monitor is glued to your vision so where ever you turn your head, the images remain 2-d and fixed in place. Yes I have had vivid and lucid dreams before justly like anybody else in here but this had a far more, " awake " quality because you knew not just that it was a dream/vision but it had the quality that I can only express as, "what the fuck, I'm still awake so how can I see these things?" However it is NNNot like, "what the fuck I must be dreaming,."
I say again it is , "what the fuck I'm still awake, it's not possible to see this." Again I know what a lucid vivid, wild what ever it is ... is like. This is not in the same category. You gotta experience it to know the difference.
Dropping from 4th stage into REM is one thing... dropping from 1st /2nd stage into actual waking state (NNNot REM!!!) is another experience. Unfortunately for myself, I have never been able to recreate this exprience because I'm to lazy to sit around for 30mins to an hour falling in and out of sleep. Plus I dont' remember the series of thougts that trigger the event. Yes I know... It is considered lazy to just sit around and keep yourself from falling asleep but I'm too lazy to even be doing that.
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