Since I was small, I've had the ability to think up the most terrifying things possible - at any given momment. I attribute this to "creativity". However, it's always been a terrible detrement for LDing type experiences.

I almost ALWAYS fall asleep with the TV on (sleep mode in 30 minutes) because somehow, in someway, it keeps me from danger. I usually sleep turned to the wall with a blanket or pillow blocking my peripheral vision on the "cealing up" side.

I seem to fear fear-itself. I'm never afraid of monsters HURTING me. I'm afraid of SEEING or whitnessing things. The horror does not come from what they do - but from even experiencing them.

Unless it's in a really sunny or populated room - I find it exceedingly difficult to lay face-up, and have my eyes closed without either looking for ghosts from time to time or turning to the wall to evade whitnessing them.

Does anybody have a solution for me? Maybe a place where I could learn one?
I'd like to eventually get over this.

-Publius