heres an experience for you. When I was ten years old I woke up in the middle of the night. There was an apparation by my bed - dark. It moved closer and closer and closer to my bed.
Terrified I hid under the covers, shaking. I dreamt that night that Satan himself tried to marry me and make me have his kids. The experience was so horrible I couldn't talk about for another ten years. I was a christian at the time, and still am.
Truthfully I am still afraid of the dark, but..in healthy doses! Not in a paranoid sense. Dreams have taught me something very important!
For years I had nightmares about total darkness. In the nightmare, one by one the lights will go out in the house. I keep my nerves, believing its real. And just try to switch the lights back on. Nothing. Still, I keep my nerves and try to find a flashlight. Anything. But the lights continue to go out. The curtains are closed, theres no moonlight. Soon I can't see anything around me. I'm all alone in the room.
And once that happens I feel another being near me. And he ain't friendly. Some times those nightmares left me in tears - they were so real!
But I had a strange dream only a couple of months ago. The dream was pretty humurous, with dumb zombies tripping over their own feet - the dream was silly, not scary. But then suddenly, for no reason at all - I was transported to my room in the dream. All alone in the house. I go to my room and look at the window. There is a car parked outside. There is SOMETHING in the car. Its waiting for me to go to sleep......
I sit down on my bed. And a tape recorder starts to play, on its own. Now this dream felt real. How would you feel if a mechanical device just turned itself on? My heartbeat was racing. The lights in the living room went out. Then the hallway. It was happening! And I scream "No..not again. Not this time". The hell if I was gonna stay in my room and let the fear and darkness take me!!
Before the lights go out in my room - I jump out the window. I felt the demon in the car wanted to rape me - I felt as though he thought I was gonna hide under my covers vulnerable and cry. The hell I was! I flew towards that car, and I flew passed it. And I didn't look back.
In the dream it was night time. And the only thing that was nearby was a dark forest where the twigs and leaves were barely visible. It was just as dark as my room, but who the hell cares? Its not the dark im running from anymore. NO. Its being afraid and leaving myself vulnerable to fear. Waking up in tearns.I didnt fear the forest. I embraced it. I traveled further deeper and deeper into the forest where only bits of moonlight shone. I started to hear voices, and then music. It got louder and louder until I clearly made out a song. The song in my dream was being sung by forest spirits, or angels, take your pick. I couldnt see them, only hear them. The song was beautiful and very peaceful - it didn't matter how dark it was.
I woke up, and for the next five minutes I could still hear the song.
Lets just say, since then I havent been nearly as afraid of the dark or what comes in it. Demons and monsters aren't the only ones in the dark.
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Publius, you gotta conquer that fear! You can use dreams to conquer your fear. There isn't any "how to conquer your fear in dreams". No. Think about wanting to conquer your fear as you fall asleep.
PS. anyone else read sandman by neil gaiman?
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