My last few dream journal entries have inspired me to make this post.

In short...I'm finding that sometimes at night my lucids are so long...have so many storylines, turns of events, and different dreamscapes that by the time I wake up I've forgotten most of what I saw and did and said.

I've perfected a way for me to remain lucid...so that when I am lucid and it begins to fade, I need only stop and look closely at my hands and examine them in detail. I look at the tiny wrinkles and little hairs...and suddenly when I look up again the lucid has come back with more vividness and realness than even before.

Now, the problem with this...is that I can do it over and over again...many times...extending my lucids for very long periods of time. Whenever I feel it's fading I can bring it back very easily.

The downside is that even while I'm lucid I realize that I am doing so many things and spending so much time being lucid that it will be very hard to remember it. By the time it comes that I actually do wake up...I usually only remember the last several minutes of my lucid and only snipits and vague recollections of the rest of the past few hours that I was lucid.

I guess I'm being greedy. I want to spend as much time as I can at night being lucid. But by morning most of it is forgotten. I could easily wake up after my lucid and remember it clearly...but I choose to force it to continue on.

So then, I ask. What is the point in having accomplished something if you cannot remember it? What proof do we have that we have actually done something other than our own memories?

Should I force myself to wake up after a really amazing lucid so that I can remember it even though that would mean the possibility of sacrificing much more time being lucid.