Hi!

My experience with LD's started when I was about 5, at that time I had a dream where I was in a boat on a lake there was another person, I can't remember who it was but it was someone I knew, an older male. We where fishing with two gorillas (at this time in my life I had an obsession with monkeys, it seemed to me they could do anything, like climbing etc.) suddenly I knew I was dreaming, and sadly, my excitement to be with these gorillas faded at finding out I was dreaming. I was disappointed cause the experience wasn't real, from that point all I wanted to do was wake up c I knew I was dreaming, it was hard to wake up and this scared me (not being able to wake when I wanted to)

This just dawned on me a few days ago when I had a dream where there was a paper in front of me some words allot of swirls and swirling patterns I was looking at it as a piece of art bam I suddenly realize that my eyes are closed almost at the same instant I knew everything would go blank and I'd wake up, well I kind'a argued with myself and held the paper there just to delay the blank from coming on. I held this for maybe 7 seconds every thinbg went white and I woke up. I thought maybe from that experience I've conditioned myself to wake up when I start to become lucid. Is this a MILD?

BTW I have excellent DR, (dream recall?) didn't see an acronym for it.

I relay could use help on this, if anyone cares to. Thanks.