Hmm... looks like I'm really bad at updating my workbook. Oh well. These past few months have been kind of dry. My sleep schedule's been really bad and hectic lately because of school (3-5 hours every weeknight, usually, and then 10-12 on the weekends). I really, really need to learn to manage my time.
On a positive note, I'm pumped to start practicing seriously again. Kudos to /r/LucidDreaming for some great posts, heh. (This post and related ones, for example.) I've also bought Robert Waggoner's Lucid Dreaming: Gateway to the Inner Self and am slowly getting through the whole thing. And one of my friends is apparently a natural lucid dreamer. So lucky. Going to use that as motivation (if she can do that, then so can I!)
(Which reminds me, I really need to finish ETWOLD sometime. I'd blame school, but my poor time management skills are at fault :/ )
Anyway, my current LDing progress isn't very good. My dream recall has been really spotty, partially due to lack of sleep. My recall on the weekends is getting worse, though. Usually I can write about a paragraph or so per dream, but lately it's been 0-1 sentence each. Today was slightly better, but I remember going through my dream and "typing" it up (as in imagining myself taking out my iPod touch and writing it down as opposed to actually moving). I was afraid that moving would make me forget everything (which it did). And after going through one of my dreams, I thought, "eh, I wrote it down already, no need to put it into my dream journal" and went back to sleep (even though it was all visualization and not actual writing).
I've been jumping around methods, lately, too. I really need to pick one or two and stick with it. Right now I'm thinking of meditation before bed, and MILD/mantras and visualization. Nothing like WILD, because that never works for me. Only results in wasted time. No alarms either (or maybe just one), because they jolt me out of sleep, which isn't very good. I'd like to be able to wake up after every dream naturally, so I guess I'll work on that first.
I also need to work on my sleep schedule. Some days I get home from school at like 9 or 10, so not much I can do about that. But the days when I have a medium amount of homework and get home earlier... I have no excuse for sleeping past 11 those days. Now if only I can get that into my head.
Finally, my waking life routine:
I've been slacking on RCs these past few months. In the past few days, though, I'm doing them more frequently, and questioning my surroundings more as well. (At least, I think I am. I usually do an RC, and think, "Am I dreaming?" And then think "Oh shit what if I am dreaming? It's possible," and look around as if I were in a dream, admiring my brain's ability to render things in detail. I should probably switch those two around, because after I do an RC I pretty much know whether I'm dreaming or not.
I'm also working on awareness. It's sort of a mesh between sensory awareness and self-awareness. I'm still unclear as to what self-awareness is (is it just being aware of what you are doing at the moment? Like being aware of yourself walking down a street instead of just mindlessly walking back home?), but I'm trying. I tend to get really focused on what I'm doing and lose track of time (when I'm reading, browsing on the internet, writing something, daydreaming, or just plain thinking), so I think I need to snap out of that trance more.
Okay. This is really long. I have some thoughts on lucid dreaming as a whole that I'd like to write down, but I'll leave them for later. Maybe in another post. ...I hope this is the right way to use a workbook.
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